surrogate wife

Chapter 150

The entire process of the competition did not arouse my emotions anymore, I dealt with each link very calmly, maybe after Lu Qian told me this, I had no expectations, but somehow I still reached the end.

But it's really like what Mina said, after the last game, my score was low.

Among the 15 people, I ranked No.9, and the champion was the girl Lu Qian said had a good relationship with the program planner, and Lu Lu was the runner-up.

The moment the truth was revealed, I felt like I was being punched hard. All the beautiful fantasies about the future in the past suddenly felt ridiculous to death.

After the competition, it was time to present the awards. Those of us who didn't get the rankings naturally left the stage, took off our makeup in the dressing room, and looked at ourselves in the mirror without makeup, feeling a little dazed for a while.

Lu Qian changed her clothes and patted my shoulder. She knew the result a long time ago, so she wouldn't be as sad as I was. She changed her clothes, and then hurried out with her bag. She said, "Don't be sad, those people outside The people in the company are still there, what are you doing to remove your makeup, go and have a look, maybe there is still some chance!"

I shook my head and glanced at her gratefully. In this kind of materialistic society, someone will kindly remind you that you will really feel warm with your heart.I said, "I won't go after I've removed all my makeup, so go quickly, don't let others take advantage of you!"

"Hey!" She sighed and called me: "If you want to be more open, those who walk this road will definitely experience these things!"

I nodded and watched her leave. Not long after, I was the only one left in the dressing room.

Chen Haotian never left. As soon as I went out, I bumped into him. Men are not allowed to come in here. I was surprised and looked around in private, and hurriedly asked: "How did you get in?"

He smiled and wanted to pull me, but I dodged him, and then he could only retract his hand embarrassingly, and then said to me: "The game is over, it's almost gone, I'll sneak in!"

I sighed deeply, ignored his burning gaze, and walked straight past him, and he immediately came after me: "Xinxin, let's have a meal together!"

"I'm not hungry!"

"I'm hungry!"

"You are hungry and eat by yourself, why do you want me!"

"I want you to eat with me!
"Unhappy!" I stopped and turned around, "I said you..." I wanted to yell at him when I was getting annoyed, but when I saw his disappointed expression, I turned around. Don't worry about it.His voice suddenly became hoarse, and he said, "After you left, I haven't had a good meal. I've been suffering from stomach problems recently!"

I still feel sorry for him, really!Hearing what he said, I feel inexplicably distressed. I thought that if we were together, I would immediately go to the supermarket to buy some vegetables, cook him porridge, make some side dishes, and then watch him eat, but now there is nothing. Without this kind of courage, I no longer dare to treat him well.

I am still young, and my life is very long. If I have to wait for love in this long life, then sooner or later, I will not be able to bear it.

Very early on, I heard people say that it is not necessary to live together if you say that you love someone. I really believe that there is a relationship between Chen Haotian and me, but this kind of relationship has been controversial in this era, and it is natural Makes it hard for us all.

I suddenly wanted to cry, my heart and lungs were full of sour taste, I said: "Chen Haotian, before, I took my love for you as a responsibility, not because I couldn't meet the best one, but because of that Sometimes I feel that if I have you, I don’t want to meet someone better; it’s not that I won’t be moved by others, but I feel that with you, there is no need to be tempted by others; it’s not that I won’t fall in love with others, but I I want to cherish you, cherish your kindness to me, and cherish your promise to me. I have always felt that it is not easy to be together, even if my family objects, and even if our affairs may not be recognized by others, or even criticized. , I also know that you are not the most suitable for me, but you have always been the one I want to cherish the most!"

"Xinxin...I know, I..."

"Don't talk, listen to me!" I interrupted him, standing in front of him felt like a tree whose branches were blown away by the wind, leaving only the trunk standing there persistently.

I said to him: "I am really serious about building a relationship with you. In the end, it is very difficult for me to like others anymore. I don't want to spend a lot of time to understand you. , this feeling is like writing an article is almost finished, but the teacher told me that the handwriting is too sloppy, and then told me to rewrite the homework, although I still remember the beginning and the end, but this article has spent all my energy , we are only one ending away, but we have to start all over again, this is impossible!"

"Why is it impossible? We never said we broke up, so we don't need to start over again, we just need to continue living like this!" He plausibly said, wishing to put all his thoughts in front of me at once.

I shook my head, with some difficulty, I said: "We didn't talk about breaking up, because we were not officially together. I was like a shadow in the dark. I could never see myself in the dark. There was light. I can’t appear from time to time, I silently breathe and survive in my own world, you know, in the end even my last oxygen was taken away by you, I really can’t go on!”

I have never used such a metaphor in front of him. Seeing the light in his eyes dissipate little by little, my heart also feels a little bit numb.

I said: "Let's live like this, as if we have never experienced it before, as if we will always have the dreams and vitality of the past, as if all the truth has been forgotten, and as if nothing has ever changed our life, we just Let’s go back to the past!”

"Hehe, let's go back to the past, Li Xin, I won't allow it!"

"It's still true that you don't allow it!"

"You don't love me anymore? No more feelings?"

I closed my eyes, and two lines of tears fell instantly, "So what about love, how many people in this world who love each other can make it to the end? Love is just a benchmark to measure one's emotions. Because I have loved, I understand it. As for now, I know better what I want!"

"What do you want?" he asked me, his voice dull.

I said: "I want a home, a stable home, a future without accidents, I want to feel loved by others, and this kind of love can only be for me alone, I want to face everyone's happiness openly! I forbid my husband to be nice to other girls!"

After I finished speaking, I looked at him quietly, and saw the last ray of light slowly dissipating in his eyes. He suddenly straightened his back, his face was ashen, silent, dead silent, and finally he turned around and faced me. Said: "I listen to you, one day you figure it out and come to me again, I am always here!"

There is hesitation in Chen Haotian's back. I don't know if I have watched too many Korean dramas. I always feel that kind of feeling like begging to be retained. Suddenly I remembered the song by SHE, "He still doesn't understand, he still doesn't understand, leave I want to be retained, if I open my mouth, it's just, I want to be gentle; he still doesn't understand, still doesn't understand, a hug can replace everything, love can definitely shake me! Save me at the first moment!"

I stood alone in the corridor for more than half an hour. I pulled myself back from the unknown blank when I felt numbness from the soles of my feet. The phone rang in my pocket for a long time. Shipeng's, he asked where I was.

I went out in a hurry, he saw me handing me a cup of milk tea thoughtfully, he said: "You are tired, I will send you back to rest!"

I took the milk tea, nodded, and sat in the car obediently. He didn't ask me about the result of the game. He was always considerate and just right. At that moment, I suddenly felt that if I really live with him in the future It's not a particularly bad feeling either.

The darkness of the game made me go back and complain to my brother for a long time. My brother didn't understand the seriousness of this. energy thing.

After the competition, I signed up for a dance class and started to learn dance. I would also attend some important classes at school, and Chen Haotian’s text messages would still come every now and then. I had thought about changing my number countless times, Hua Shi Peng also mentioned it to me once, and I always find various reasons to refuse, but I know that I never let him go in my heart.

A week later, I received a call from an unknown number, it was a film and television company, saying: "Xinrui!"

I googled it, and after confirming that this company really existed, I called back and asked them what they wanted me for.

They told me very politely that there was a TV series starting to be filmed, and they invited me to be the third female lead.I was stunned when I heard this, and I didn't know how to respond, thinking how such a good thing would happen to me.

I hurriedly asked: "How did you find me!"

The other party said: "I saw you at the New Silk Road Model Contest. I have been planning recently. I came to you when the plan was finalized!"

The time coincided, and the incident was real. Naturally, I was half-dead with joy, and immediately agreed to go and have a look.

I told my brother and Hua Shipeng the news, and they were very happy. Hua Shipeng took me to Xinjiekou at night and said he would take me to buy some clothes. I quickly said no, but he stubbornly dragged me there. , he said: "You have to go to filming, you must dress up beautifully, at worst, you will pay me back after you make money!"

I listened and thought about it, yes, the entertainment industry is different from other circles after all, in such an environment, one must pay attention to dressing.

I made an agreement with Hua Shipeng again and again that he must accept when I repay him the money in the future. He looked at me helplessly and said repeatedly: "Okay, okay, I promise you!"

When I went to the interview, it was just a formality. Later, I heard from the director that the producer had already appointed me.

On the one hand, I was overjoyed, and on the other hand, I also found it incredible that there were so many people in the competition, even if I was really spotted, I had to be in the modeling circle first, and I actually accepted the TV series all of a sudden, and directly entered the film and television industry!This is too lucky!
(End of this chapter)