surrogate wife

Chapter 69 A Woman

The difference between men and women is that women can take their feelings as everything, but men can't, because in a man's world there are careers, money, fame and fortune, and women are just one of many things.

At that time, I didn't understand this truth. I always naively thought that the relationship was just a matter between two people. In fact, there is no love or not in this world. The existence of reluctance is habit.

Love is just a word constructed by human beings out of thin air, but habit is real. To love because of sex is better to say to get used to it because of sex.

That night, Chen Haotian repeated such a topic over and over again, asking me to tell him, I knew he was not joking, because his eyes were full of calm eyes.

I didn't speak in a muffled voice, and slowly put my hands together and hugged myself tightly.

Chen Haotian's hand is still on my waist, and when he hugs me hard, he is still so natural and smooth. I have to admit that he has a special charm that is tempting. I don't know if it is my preconceived notion or what, I just feel The body is his, and the person is also his.

Women, most of them are naive, most of them are stupid, and if they make a mistake, they will always be hated forever.

I leaned in Chen Haotian's arms, looked at him so seriously for the first time, and asked him: "Do you love me?"

Chen Haotian was stunned, his dark eyes were stained with a thick layer of color, he was a little unhappy, but it was not very obvious, he squeezed my hand, and said calmly: "You are such a big person, why do you love me?" Those who don't love, just be happy together!"

In the end, I still pretended to be passionate, even though I was mentally prepared, but when I really heard it, my heart still twitched violently!He avoided this topic, avoided it so bluntly, and kept silent, presumably because he was afraid that he would lose his tongue if he said it.

Now that I think about it, I am a 40-year-old person. At that age, life is not in vain. What he has experienced is far beyond what I can imagine. It is impossible for me to fully know his thoughts and how deep his scheming is.

Yes, I can't beat him, no matter if he is sincere or false, or on a whim, in this emotional contest between me and him, I am doomed to be a tragedy.

Seeing that I didn't speak, he stretched out his hand to rub my face, and said dotingly, "Are you thinking about something again?"

I laughed dryly and said "No!" But thinking of what he said before, I still couldn't help asking: "Then what kind of being together is happiness!"

Chen Haotian let go, changed his posture, but still tightly circled me, he winked at me, and said with a smile on his lips: "Just like now, sit quietly, you Lying in my arms! No need to think about anything! I just like it, it's easy!"

Half of my heart was cold, but half was warmed by his words. I gritted my teeth and buried my head, telling myself silently: Don't think too much, this is pretty good!
Time passed quickly, and it was almost three o'clock when I looked at my watch again. Chen Haotian reached out and picked me up from the sofa, and then said to me: "I order you to go to sleep, and if you don't sleep, I will strip you off!"

What does sweetness feel like?Just like it is now, there is only me and his world, he dotes on me so much, it should make me feel happy.

But you can't calm down, you will be afraid when you are quiet, thinking about all kinds of possibilities, and then suddenly feel that you are nothing?

Little three?Mistress?These words despised by the world have truly become my portrayal, but I can't resist anything at all.Intoxicated in tenderness, sinking in intoxication.

I still slept well that day. When I woke up, Chen Haotian was no longer by my side. Mrs. Zhang told me that he had gone out early in the morning and received a text message from him at ten o'clock in the morning, asking me if I got up.

Excitedly hugging the phone, the little excitement could be seen at a glance, quickly pressed the button, and typed "Wake up, where are you now? Why did you leave so early in the morning?" But he still stayed on the send button and dared not send go out.

For a long time, he smiled bitterly, deleted all of them, and imitated his tone and simply replied "En, get up!" The timidity was only because he was afraid of being seen by him.

He also replied quickly, "Remember to eat and take care of yourself!"

A few words, his simple style, made my heart surge.I typed "Okay!" He didn't return.

A person as proud as Chen Haotian also cares about me. I think he should care about me, but he avoided my topic yesterday, which really chilled me a lot.

He said being happy with me, how much meaning does this happiness have?Is it pure liking, or is it just because my presence embellishes his boring life?
After breakfast, I went for a walk in the park of the community, and saw many old people chatting and playing with their children there. The warm feeling is really good.

The sun was very good, and I was lazy in the sun. Mrs. Zhang helped me to sit in the pavilion for a while and then went home. On the way, I asked Mrs. Zhang on a whim. Are you taking the kids to the park?"

Mrs. Zhang looked up at me and asked in doubt, "You mean Mr. Chen?"

I nodded.

She smiled, and helped me walk back step by step, "Why not, which father would not love his child?"

I listened with satisfaction, but I silently read the word "Dad!" several times in my heart, yes, he is the father, the father of the baby in my belly.

But he is not my husband.

The ancients said that the hired one is a wife, and the one who runs away is a concubine. This is probably the case with me.

During dinner, I cooked a few more dishes myself, and brought them to the table with great joy, waiting for him to come back, but I waited until 10 o'clock and saw no one else.

In the end, I couldn’t help calling him, but he was cut off. After half an hour, I called him again, and the call was still cut off. With tears in my eyes and trembling fingers, I sent him a text message, enduring the inexplicable heartache. Ask him: "Are you coming back today?"

Ten minutes later, I received his reply, "No reply, rest early, take care of yourself!"

I think what he originally wanted to send should be to take care of himself, but maybe the last word was missing because he sent too quickly. I put the phone back, and tears fell down instantly.

I silently put away the bowls and chopsticks, and then dumped all the dishes in the trash can. Auntie Zhang stood behind me with her mouth pursed and said nothing. After seeing me cry for a long time, she slowly said: "You What's the trouble!"

Yes, why bother!Why stay here and be a bitter woman who waits for the king to come every day.

I pulled the corners of my mouth and tried hard to smile at Mrs. Zhang, and said, "It's okay!"

Back in the room, my stomach started to regurgitate again, and I still couldn't fall asleep while lying on the bed. After playing with my phone for a long time, I still called Liu Han after deliberation.

Liu Han was very happy when he received the call, and asked me what I was doing, I said: "I'm going to bed, I think of you, so I'll call and ask how you are doing!"

Liu Han smiled heartily on the other end of the phone, and she said, "I'm fine, I've passed the audition, and now I'm going to start preparing for the preliminary round, Xinxin, you must come to the competition then!"

"How many months?"

"If we can make it to the semi-finals, then the official competition will be after the Chinese New Year, it's still early!"

As soon as I heard it, I thought in my heart, this day is about the same time as my childbirth.But I can't refuse now, I can only bite the bullet and say: "Okay, I will definitely go when the time comes!"

Liu Han was very happy when he heard it, and then he told me a lot about her audition.

Finally Liu Han asked me, "What are you doing now?"

A few days ago, I saw a crew in Hengdian waving to actors in the Koukou group, so I told Liu Han about it, and I said, "Go and see!"

Liu Han said, "Very good, don't forget me when you become famous!"

Her voice was lively and full of innocence, and I couldn't help but secretly moved, but when I thought of myself, I couldn't help feeling sad.Originally, I was supposed to work hard for my dreams like her, but now, I am trapped in this house and become someone else's lover. This gap is not born, but the result of my own self-improvement.

When I finally hung up the phone, Liu Han suddenly asked me if I had a boyfriend.

I pouted my mouth, feeling a little guilty, but still gritted my teeth and said, "No!"

Liu Han said meaningfully "Oh?" and didn't ask any more questions.

In the middle of the night, near 12 o'clock, I called Chen Haotian again, but this time it was a woman who answered.

I was shocked, wishing to hang up immediately, but I heard someone from the opposite side asking, "Who are you?"

(End of this chapter)