surrogate wife

Chapter 86

I beat myself like crazy, and all the grievances, unwillingness, anger, and sadness at that moment came to me like a tide.

That was the first time I felt hopeless about the relationship between me and Chen Haotian, and it was also the first time I had the idea of ​​killing this child. I don't have such a strong heart, and I can turn a blind eye to Liu Shuxian and his daughter. It was even more impossible to force myself to act as if nothing had happened. Liu Shuxian's appearance was like a thunderstorm in spring, and when it suddenly broke out, it was like a storm.

Auntie Zhang was obviously frightened by me, she was afraid, and she was also afraid that something might go wrong, she would not be able to bear it, so she ran out secretly and called Chen Haotian.

It was dark when he came back, and I just lay on the bed obsessively, my tears seemed to have dried up, leaving only a pair of empty eyes staring at the ceiling feebly.

He was stunned for a moment, and hurriedly ran to my side to help me up, his eyes were worried and anxious, and he asked me: "What's wrong?"

I didn't reply a word.

My body started to feel cold, and it spread to my limbs little by little. I stretched out my arms to hug myself, but he pushed me away, and then he grabbed me and pressed me against his chest.

I stubbornly pushed him away, ignored his doubts and sad eyes, lay down straight and then turned around with his back on his back. He obviously saw that I was wrong, and strode out suddenly. Go back to my bed and sit down, slowly said: "Who did you go to see this afternoon?"

I think he must have gone out and asked Mrs. Zhang before he knew that I had gone out.

I closed my eyes to relieve the soreness of keeping my eyes open for a long time. I just smiled coldly when I heard his question, and I didn't think it was necessary to explain to him at all.

He didn't care about my silence, he guessed on his own, and said, "Is it Shuxian?"

I felt sour in my heart, gritted my teeth and murmured after him: "Shuxian!" Suddenly I felt like a clown, self-righteously immersed in my own world, but I didn't know that in the eyes of others, I was just a clown. A self-directed fool.

I thought I couldn't cry, but when I heard Chen Haotian call her name, I still shed tears. I hurriedly reached out to wipe it away, just not wanting him to see it.

When he saw that I didn't answer, he took it as my acquiescence, and he didn't know what he was thinking. He suddenly sighed, with a regretful tone, and said, "I thought you were different from others, but you still let me down." .!" After finishing speaking, there was a long silence, and he added, "Xinxin, why are you so impatient?"

I am in a hurry?I couldn't understand what he said, but I felt very uncomfortable.He struggled to get up from the bed with his hands on his hands, and there was an unconcealable loneliness in his eyes. Of course, how can this kind of loneliness compare to my desolation now?

Originally, I was living in my own world, with friends and family members. Even though I didn't have a rich life, I lived a happy and comfortable life.I also have ideals, and I have been working hard for them, but one day he suddenly appeared and pulled me into his life, forcing me and him to become people who are closely related. All of this is like a drama, but I I lost my sense of proportion in this drama a little bit, and my mind was confused.

A long time ago, I heard such a saying, "Actors enter the painting, and the world ends for a lifetime!" But what did I gain by overturning the sea of ​​people?
The cold in my body seemed to be intensifying, and he sneezed heavily suddenly. He frowned and didn't pull the quilt to help me tuck the corners of the quilt, and then reached out and touched my forehead.

His fingers were long, with well-defined joints, but they were terribly cold. When they touched my forehead, they made me shiver suddenly.He frowned a little uncertainly, then reached out to cover my head with his hand, bent down and touched my forehead with his forehead.

He let go of his hand, his expression was a little ugly, I looked up at him, and I felt that it was a bit difficult to keep my eyes open.

He said, "You have a fever, you have to go to the hospital!" I listened in a daze, and didn't speak, but suddenly realized that it wasn't his hands that were cold, but my forehead was too hot.

In the end, I went to the hospital and went directly to the emergency department, but because of pregnancy, the doctor did not dare to use drugs indiscriminately, so he could only suggest conservative treatment first.

Chen Haotian immediately went through the hospitalization procedures for me, and then physically cooled me according to the method the doctor said.He asked Mrs. Zhang to get a towel and alcohol, and wiped my forehead, neck, and under the armpits, but the effect was not satisfactory. After more than an hour, I took my temperature again, and it was 38°7, still a high fever.

Chen Haotian was in a hurry and asked the doctor what to do. The doctor said that in such a situation, he could only use medicine.

Chen Haotian was a little worried, and asked the doctor if the medicine would affect the child.

The doctor pushed his glasses and spoke very smoothly: "If you keep burning without medicine, it will have two effects on the fetus: one is that the virus directly enters the fetus through the placenta, which may cause congenital heart disease, cleft lip, Hydrocephalus, anencephaly, and microcephaly; the second is the indirect effects of high fever caused by colds and toxins produced by metabolic disorders, high fever and toxins can stimulate uterine contractions, causing miscarriage and premature delivery.”

Hearing this, Chen Haotian became anxious, and quickly asked: "Then what should we do?"

The doctor said, "For her condition, I can only use some Bupleurum injection first, and then you can give her more boiled water. If she is in good health, she should be able to reduce the fever. If it doesn't work, we will look at other methods at that time!"

Chen Haotian pursed his lips and did not speak, it could be seen that he was very unhappy.

I didn't have the strength to ask him anything, my whole head hurt badly, and my breathing began to become heavy while lying on the bed. In the middle of the night, my nose was completely blocked, and finally I could only breathe through my mouth.

Chen Haotian asked Mrs. Zhang to boil me a bowl of brown sugar water with ginger slices, and then forced me to drink it. After drinking, she wrapped the quilt around me, and said slowly: "The fever can be reduced by sweating, you boil it!"

I kept silent, and still let him hold me, but before holding me for a long time, his cell phone rang.

He took a look at the phone, looked a little embarrassed, then turned his head to see that I still pressed the phone, but the phone didn't show any sign of dissatisfaction. If one didn't answer, he called the second one, and the second one didn't answer. A third call came, and finally Chen Haotian answered it.

When he went out to answer the phone, I took out my mobile phone and dialed Liu Shuxian's number, but it showed that I was on the phone.

Chen Haotian stood outside talking for a long time, and when he came back, his whole face collapsed.

He held my hand, feeling a little guilty, but he still said it out. He said, "Xinxin, I have something to do and I have to go out. You stay here and ask Mrs. Zhang to take care of you, okay?"

I shook my eyes slightly, and asked him with difficulty, I said, "Where are you going?"

There was a hint of dodge in his eyes, but it was gone in a blink of an eye. He shook my hand, leaned down and kissed my forehead and said softly: "I'm in a hurry about the company. I'll come to see you tomorrow morning. You Obedient!"

Without asking me any more questions, he opened the door and walked out.I couldn't bear it anymore when I lay on the bed, tears fell down in big drops.

Now, I finally have a feeling of giving up. I gave birth to him, but what about him?What do you do for me?I thought he cared about me, but his lies made me completely overthrow this caring.

He cared for me so much, and his gentle words finally made me devote myself to this long-distance race of love without hesitation. Although I knew early on that such a long-distance race might not reach the end of my life, I was determined I think that as long as he treats me well, I am willing to follow him like this for the rest of my life.

But now I have no such courage, I don't want to let myself look down on myself, since he can leave me here without asking, then why should I stick to him to humiliate myself.

I want to separate from him, really, I suddenly feel very tired.

Aunt Zhang stayed with me that night, and the fever subsided when I woke up the next day. I asked Aunt Zhang to pack up and accompany me home.

I was already angry in my heart. Seeing her bewildered expression, I simply got up from the bed. Mrs. Zhang immediately came over to help me, frowning and persuading me: "Girl, why bother, my body is not even yours. If you care, who else will care?"

Mrs. Zhang is a discerning person. From the first day she saw me, she knew the relationship between me and Chen Haotian. As the days went by, she also understood me a little bit, so sometimes when I lost my temper, she How much can you see what I'm thinking.

I was a little astonished when I heard her words, and I took a deep look at her with a bitter smile on the corner of my mouth, and said, "Tell me what I can do!"

Mrs. Zhang had a distressed face, and she choked up while holding my hand.She said: "I also have a daughter who eloped with someone when I was 18 years old. When I saw you, I liked you very much. You are smart and beautiful, and so is my girl. There were many boys chasing you in junior high and high school. That year, she had a boyfriend who was 13 years older than her, and I was so angry that I beat her up and locked her in the room!"

Mrs. Zhang's eyes were red, and her body began to tremble slightly. When I heard this suddenly, I couldn't speak, so I could only continue listening, and then held her hand tightly.

She said: "It was the seventh day of December, and it was very cold. When I came home from the farm work, I saw the door opened. I ran over immediately, but she was gone. I went out and searched the whole village, but there was no one. The next morning, I ran to the police with her father, but there was no news at all!"

"What then?"

"Later?" Aunt Zhang raised her eyes, her expression a little deserted, she sighed for a long time and said in a low voice: "Five years later, she came back with a son, and when she came back, she knelt in front of me and asked me to forgive him, his father was so angry I beat her up again, but after all, she was born by myself, so it won't be true that the six relatives will not recognize her."

"I wanted to find another family for her, but in our small village, everyone knew about the gossip as soon as it came out. The matchmaker searched for several, but every time they returned without success. The last time, they told me in private , the man basically said one sentence: Don't be a dirty girl."

"Did you get married later?" I couldn't help asking again, but Mrs. Zhang's tears fell down in big drops.

"Later, the matchmaker told a family that the man's wife died. He was 40 years old. He was said to be a good man, but he had a daughter. I thought about this situation so I didn't want to be picky. As long as I treat my daughter well, It’s still possible to live on, so I agreed. The police found me and said that my daughter committed suicide before a month of marriage!”

(End of this chapter)