surrogate wife

Chapter 87 You Come Here!
"It snowed very hard that year!" Aunt Zhang said with an expression that seemed to have drifted far away.

She said: "His father and I didn't believe it, and ran out without wrapping our coats. The girl committed suicide. She cut her own wrists and lay there motionless. The lake blue sheets were also stained dark. "

It must be too sad, so Mrs. Zhang couldn't bear it any longer. She turned her body to cover half of her face. I knew she was crying.

I felt a little uncomfortable, and inexplicably began to feel sour in my heart, and finally stretched out my arms to hug her, and could only comfort her weakly: "Sister Zhang, don't think about it, if your daughter is in the spirit of heaven, she probably doesn't want you to feel sorry for her." !"

She smiled dryly, the years have left too many traces on her face, it was the first time I took a closer look, but suddenly found that there were a lot of silver strands emerging from the hair that looked like Kurosawa .

Mrs. Zhang told me that after her daughter left, her husband had a heart attack and died the next day. The two funerals were held together. Reassured, Mrs. Zhang said: "If I leave, Huzi will really be alone. I can't, I'm afraid that he will learn from others, and that he won't be able to survive!"

I can't imagine how much pain this woman has experienced, let alone how much endurance it takes to endure the pain of losing her husband and daughter at the same time, but at this moment, I silently admire the woman in front of me.

I know it's not easy, and I know that she must have shed a lot of tears.

Mrs. Zhang took my hand, smiled unnaturally, and suddenly reached out her hand roughly to wipe away tears with the corner of her clothes, and then asked me, "Do you know why my daughter committed suicide?"

I shook my head, and she said: "After my daughter got married, she followed the man to guard the canteen. My daughter is kind, generous, and beautiful. The customers always look at her more. The man gets angry and says my daughter is seductive. One time I got drunk, beat my daughter, stripped her clothes and called him a prostitute, even my grandson was beaten by him, my daughter probably got angry for a while, and asked someone to find an excuse to send her back. He cut his wrists and died the next day!"

I listened quietly, but fragmentary pictures unconsciously appeared in front of my eyes, as if matching pictures with Mrs. Zhang's words, but each picture was bloody and violent, extremely miserable.

Mrs. Zhang said: "It is never possible for people to live for themselves. This society has morality, laws, and people say that the reason why my daughter embarked on this path is that she missed the best self when she was young and ignorant. Some reputations, once stained, can never be erased!"

Mrs. Zhang took my hand, caressed it over and over again, and looked at me with anticipation and bitterness in her eyes. I knew that she saw the shadow of her daughter in me. She had a shadow, and she was afraid that I would do the same thing. mistake.

"Your parents should be here!" I nodded and added, "I have a younger brother!"

Mrs. Zhang nodded and sighed, "Then you have to fight even more. Your parents are not easy. Sister Zhang said that these are not meddling in your business, but that Sister Zhang loves you. I have known Mr. Chen for many years. She has taken care of several girls, he is not a long-term person, even if he is attracted to you, he has a family after all!"

I sniffed, and my eyes suddenly blurred. For this sake, I don't think there is any need to hide it from Aunt Zhang anymore, so I forced all my thoughts out.

I told all about Chen Haotian's realization of the surrogate pregnancy, but Mrs. Zhang just kept sighing, and then shouted: "My child, you have hurt yourself!"

I cried so hard that my whole body was exhausted, watching her body and feet float up again.

Mrs. Zhang hurriedly helped me to sit down, anxious and angry, she said: "Look at yourself, what you have become, if you go on like this, your own life will be on the line!" Said: "You child, why are you so moved by the truth!"

I hugged Mrs. Zhang and cried, crying heartbreakingly. After so long, I can only hide all the worries in my heart quietly.It felt like I had a pustule in my stomach, I couldn't take it out, I couldn't see it, I could only let it stink and rot in my stomach.

Mrs. Zhang must have thought of her daughter, and finally started to cry with me, and then pulled me to laugh after crying, she said: "My child, you have to be kind to yourself!"

I thought over what Mrs. Zhang said to me. Her daughter’s experience, encounters, and tragic ending all deeply shocked me. Maybe she really loved vigorously when she was young, but she didn’t care about it. The consequences of the decision just covered one's chastity with a layer of dirt, which could not be wiped off.

I think luckily it is modern times, if women who escaped privately in ancient times and came back after giving birth to a child would definitely be put into a pig cage, but thinking about it, I feel that this society is really fucking unfair.

Men have had three wives and four concubines since ancient times. In modern times, after the reform and opening up, men and women are under the banner of equality, but what is the truth?It's not like men gamble, prostitute, keep lovers, and have mistresses, but women are whores, sluts, and prostitutes as long as the relationship is messed up.

Just like me, I love Chen Haotian wholeheartedly, and there is no one else but him, but I still can’t see the light, let alone be recognized. In society, there are a lot of saints with holy hearts who will point at me and scold me, so I can only sneak around.

My love, absurd at the beginning, came violently and recklessly, but this kind of love seemed too fragile under the constraints of social morality.

I sat silently for a long time, thought and thought, and finally wrapped myself in again.

I didn't want to make myself tired anymore, so I changed the subject, and I asked Aunt Zhang: "Then what about your daughter's child now?"

She said: "Leave my younger sister's home, that is his aunt and mother-in-law. I send money to him regularly every month and take care of him. Otherwise, I will follow him, and the expenses will not be enough!"

I admire her a little, but I don't know how to speak, I can only express my feelings over and over again with my eyes.

Later, I suddenly remembered that Mrs. Zhang said that she took care of other girls for Chen Haotian, so I asked her again. I asked her if she knew Gu Xue, and she said without thinking, "Of course I do!"

I asked Mrs. Zhang to tell me something about Gu Xue. Mrs. Zhang looked at me with some hesitation, and said, "Why do you need to know these things, knowing more will only hurt more!"

I smiled a little pale, and I said, "If you want to be disappointed, be completely disappointed, so that I can force myself to make a decision!"

She looked at me silently, nodded, and then spoke!
"Gu Xue is the one I have taken care of the longest. She is very pretty, but she has a bit of a temper. When I first came here, I thought my cooking was too bland. I increased the taste and said it was too strong. I went back and forth several times before I was satisfied. "

"Is the relationship between him and Chen Haotian... good?" I finally couldn't help asking the point.

"A person like Mr. Chen can't let others see his thoughts, but when Gu Xue was around, Mr. Chen really spent a lot of time with him. Gu Xue never refused when he asked him what he wanted. I remember one time when Gu Xue saw He won a car, but he just boasted that it looked good in front of him. On his birthday that year, Mr. Chen bought this car back as a birthday present for Gu Xue. It's really worth it!"

When I asked, I said to myself, no matter what I heard, don’t care about it, but I don’t know why, but the more I listened, the more distressed I became.Suddenly thinking of what Mina said before, she asked again: "Where did Chen Haotian arrange for Gu Xue to live? Is it the same as me?

Mrs. Zhang's eyes fluttered slightly, as if she couldn't bear it. I shook her hand to indicate that I was fine, and she opened her mouth slowly.

"Mr. Chen bought a villa for Gu Xue. On the other side of the Drum Tower, Mr. Chen is willing to give up everything she eats and uses. On weekdays, a bag costs tens of thousands!"

I kept silent, my heart ached, and I held my chest as if I couldn't breathe. Mrs. Zhang hurriedly poured me a glass of water, and I drank it in one gulp, but the warm water flowed into my throat but came out again in an instant.

Mrs. Zhang didn't talk to me any more. She knew that the more I talked, the more uncomfortable I would be, so she cleverly changed the subject. She told me to be smart and not to make unnecessary sacrifices. She also told me not to waste my whole life on him.

I nodded as if I was dealing with it, and then said that I wanted to take a rest. She understood, nodded and walked out.

Lying on the bed, still full of heart and lung pain, until now, all the tenderness Chen Haotian treats me seems so ridiculous, I thought he treats me differently, but not one-tenth of others, although money is not a measure of a person The way I love you, but I can also see how important you are in a person's heart.

I stretched out my hands to touch my stomach over and over again, my thoughts were flying, and I thought of my school days in a trance, and suddenly felt so beautiful.

like?I love fuck?Maybe, but even if my love is heartbreaking, so what, he is not mine after all.I don't have that kind of courage, let alone the courage to openly confront his wife and children. I can't do it, let alone do it. I have a bottom line and a minimum moral standard.

But even if I know everything, why am I still reluctant?

I smiled wryly, not understanding that love can torture people like this.

I got up silently, took out the paper and pen from the drawer, and tremblingly wrote down an IOU. I thought, it would be good to let everything boil down to this.

I put the IOU under the pillow, thinking about finding a time to make it clear to Chen Haotian that I really couldn't bear the relationship involving surrogacy.

I called Chen Haotian and didn't say anything. I just asked him when he would be back, and he said, "Tonight."

I nodded and said good.

At five o'clock in the afternoon, I received a call from my mother, with a trembling and crying voice, I couldn't help being startled, and hurriedly asked what's wrong?
My mother held the phone and cried for a long time. After crying, she said to me coldly: "Xinxin, Mom has something to tell you, come here immediately!" After speaking, she added, "Just you People!"

(End of this chapter)