Human disqualification

Chapter 10 Snow Night
The snow that day has been falling non-stop since the morning.I made a pair of culottes for my niece before, and I was going to send them there today. After leaving school, I stopped by Nakano's aunt's house.Before leaving, my aunt brought me two pieces of dried squid.When we arrived at Kichijoji Station, the sky had already darkened, and more than a foot of snow had accumulated on the ground.It was still snowing in the fields.Because I was wearing boots at the time, I deliberately picked places where the snow was deep.I put the dried squid wrapped in newspaper under my ribs, and when I got to the post box in front of my house, I found that the dried squid had long since disappeared.I'm usually a little confused, but I rarely lose things.I was too excited that night, and the snow on the ground was very thick, so I didn't find anything when I dropped it.I feel sad, not only because I lost the dried squid, but also because I want to give the dried squid to my sister-in-law who is about to give birth.This summer, my sister-in-law will give birth.

It is said that women are easily hungry when they are pregnant.Maybe it's because they need to eat the nutrition that the fetus needs.My sister-in-law usually pays great attention to appearance, which is exactly the opposite of me.Her food intake was as small as a canary before, and she never added meals in between.But recently she often feels hungry, and likes to eat some very strange things, but she is ashamed to speak.The last time I cleaned the dining table with my sister-in-law, I heard her say that I feel bitter in my mouth recently, and I want to suck squid for something.I have always remembered this incident. It happened that my aunt gave me two yuan that day, and I thought about taking it back to my sister-in-law, but I lost it on the road.I felt instantly depressed.

I live with my brother and sister-in-law.My brother has a weird personality and is a novelist.Seeing that he was about to turn forty, he was still not famous at all.Life at home is very tight, but my brother always excuses that he is not feeling well and lies on the bed.The most important thing is that he only knows how to move his mouth and never helps the family. Sometimes his sister-in-law has to do the physical work that men should do, which looks pitiful.And no matter what happens to my brother, he only knows how to chatter with us non-stop.Once, I really couldn't hold back, and said to my brother: "Brother, you occasionally carry a bag and go out to buy vegetables. All the men in other families do this."

As soon as the words fell, my elder brother looked at me seriously and said, "Asshole. Am I that kind of a man? Let me tell you, and Takamiko (my sister-in-law's name) listen carefully. Why do I have no money, even if my family is starving to death, I will not do this kind of lowly thing. This is my last bit of glory, you'd better not make such foolish ideas."

Such determination is admirable.It's just that when these words come out of my brother's mouth, people don't understand.Does he hate those people in the procurement department from the standpoint of the country, or does he simply not want to go out to buy things?My parents are from Tokyo.My father works in Yamagata, a government agency in Tohoku. My brother and I were born in Yamagata.After my father passed away, my mother took me and my 12-year-old brother back to Tokyo from Yamagata.After my mother passed away a few years ago, only my brother and my sister-in-law were left in the family.We also don't have a hometown like other people, so no one brings us food from our hometown.My elder brother has a weird temper, and he has no interaction with the neighbors, so the neighbors will not send us any precious things.Alas, if I could bring back the two pieces of dried squid just now, my sister-in-law would be very happy to see it.I was really ashamed, and I felt that it was a pity to lose it like this, so I hurried back to look for it.I stared wide-eyed and searched in the snow, but the snow kept falling, and the newspaper wrapped in dried squid was also white. How could it be so easy to find?I followed the road back to Kichijoji Station, but couldn't find even a stone.I opened the umbrella with a sigh and looked up at the night sky.There are firefly-like snowflakes flying in the air, which looks so beautiful.The trees on both sides of the street are covered with snow, and the branches are shaking under the weight, as if they are sighing softly.This dreamlike scene made me feel like I was in a fairy tale world, and I had long forgotten what the squid did.Suddenly I thought of a good idea, it's better to take back the beautiful snow scene in front of me, which is much better than dried squid.I have been struggling with eating, which makes people feel cheap and embarrassing.

My brother once told me that people's eyeballs can temporarily preserve what they see.If someone wants to prove this, he can stare at the light bulb for a while, close his eyes, and still have the appearance of the light bulb in his eyes.Later, my brother told me a story that happened in Denmark.Although my brother usually speaks out of tune, the story he told at that time did sound very vivid.

The story happened a long time ago in Denmark, where a doctor dissected the body of a sailor who died.When he observed the deceased's eyeballs with a microscope, he found that his retinas reflected the image of family reunion.A friend of the doctor who wrote novels immediately explained this phenomenon after learning about it.He said that the young sailor encountered a disaster, and the waves washed him to the shore. He desperately grasped the window lattice of the lighthouse, and when he was about to call for help, he saw a family of lighthouse keepers preparing dinner.He thought that if he called for help at this time, it would destroy this warm picture.At the moment when the sailor was stunned, a wave washed him into the sea.The sailor was the kindest man that ever lived.The doctor agreed with the novelist's explanation very much, and the two of them also held a funeral for the sailor.Although it is not scientifically true, I believe the story very much.On that snowy night, I suddenly remembered this story, so I wanted to take this beautiful snow scene back.When I got home, I said to my sister-in-law: "Sister-in-law, take a quick look at the snow scene in my eyes. After watching it, it will make the child in your belly look more beautiful."

My brother said seriously at the time: "Prenatal education is very important."

Later, he posted the Nomen of Sun Jiro and Yukinoko on the wall, one gorgeous and the other delicate.He also posted a photo of himself on a horse face between the two photos.

"You'd better take down that photo, I feel very uncomfortable every time I see it." The originally understanding sister-in-law couldn't bear it anymore, and finally the elder brother couldn't bear the sister-in-law's plea and took down the photo.If you really see that picture every day, the child you will be born will definitely look like a monkey.My elder brother looks like a monkey, but he always calls himself a handsome man.Sometimes we really can't help him.In fact, my sister-in-law really wants to take the child in her belly to see the most beautiful scenery in the world.If I bring this beautiful snow scene back to my sister-in-law to see, it will definitely be ten times better than bringing back dried squid.

So I gave up looking for dried squid and tried my best to absorb the beautiful snow scene on the way back.I want to imprint this pure white snow scene in my heart.

When I got home, I immediately said to my sister-in-law: "Sister-in-law, look into my eyes, there are beautiful snow scenes inside."

"What are you talking about? What happened to your eyes?" My sister-in-law stood up and put her hands on my shoulders with a smile.

"Didn't my brother say last time that the scenery I just saw will be kept in my eyes for a while?"

"Listen to his nonsense, I have long forgotten this."

"But I believe what he said last time. Just look at my eyes. I just desperately watched a lot of snow scenes. Just look at my eyes. After the child is born, he will definitely have snow-like skin."

My sister-in-law stared at me sadly.

"Hey."

My brother was in the six-storey room next door just now, heard our conversation coming out of it, and said: "Look at my eyes, the effect must be a hundred times stronger than Shunzi's (my name)."

"why?"

I can't wait to give my brother a punch.

"My sister-in-law said that as long as she sees her brother's eyes, she will feel very sad."

"I have been in Yamagata for 20 years, and my eyes have seen the snow for 20 years. We moved back to Tokyo as long as Shunko can remember. The reason why you are so amazed by the snow in Tokyo is because you have never seen it The spectacular snow scene in Yamagata. My eyes have seen a snow scene a thousand times more beautiful than this, and it must be better than Shun Zi."

I was so upset I almost cried.Fortunately, my sister-in-law came out to help me resolve the embarrassment.She smiled and said, "Father, your eyes have not only seen scenes that are a thousand times more beautiful than this one, but also things that are a thousand times uglier than this one."

"That is, the impact of negative things is much greater than that of positive things. Look at your eyes, they are yellow and dull, really disgusting."

"Bullshit."

The elder brother drooped his head and went back to the sixth room next door.

(End of this chapter)