Human disqualification

Chapter 13 Cherry
I will lift up my eyes to the mountains...

——"Psalms" "Psalms" has 105 volumes and is a book in the Old Testament of the "Bible".

I would say that fathers are more important than sons. "Everything is for the children..." No matter how you look at it, parents are still more vulnerable than their children.Even if you consider it from the perspective of Taoism.Anyway, that's how it is in my house.When I get old, I have to rely on my children to take care of me—even if I don’t have this kind of thought in my heart, I still have to follow the children’s face.Taking myself as an example, when my eldest daughter was four years old and my second daughter was one year old, my parents had a feeling of being servants to their children.

On summer nights, the family huddled together in a three-seat room for dinner, and the dining table was very lively. My father kept wiping his sweat with a towel, muttering in a low voice while wiping: "Xiang japonica moves his index finger, and sweats profusely when he is full. , You must be aware of vulgar things.' This is a sentence in "Liu Duoliu". But Ruya's father couldn't help crying when he saw the noisy scene of these children."

The mother has many things to do, first breastfeed the one-year-old daughter, and at the same time serve the father and the eldest son and eldest daughter for dinner, pick up the food eaten by the children, and blow their noses for them. People can't help but sigh, she It seems to have three heads and six arms.

"My son's father, your nose seems to be the most prone to sweat, and you always wipe your nose."

The father replied with a wry smile: "What about you? Where do you sweat most? Is it the inner thigh?"

"Oh, you still call yourself Ruya's father, is this what Ruya looks like?"

"What I'm talking to you about now is medical matters, and it's not about being refined or unrefined."

"Me, between the two tits, the Valley of Tears." The mother said with a serious expression.

valley of tears.

Father remained silent and continued eating.

Maybe because there are too many troubles, I have to pretend to be happy, and I always like to joke when I am at home.I do the same on the outside, no matter how much pain my body or mind is suffering, I always try my best to create a happy and relaxed atmosphere.After seeing off the guests, I was so exhausted and in a trance that I was preoccupied with money, morality, and suicide.No, in addition to dealing with people, I also do it when I write novels.Once the mood hits rock bottom, I try to write light-hearted stories.I did this to make readers happy, but people gave me contemptuous looks, saying that the writer Dazai has become more and more frivolous recently, and always writes some funny plots to fool readers.

Is it a bad thing to think of others in everything?Is it a good thing to keep a straight face all day long?

I just can't stand those frustrating and unpleasant things, even if I need to live cautiously at home, I will keep calming down the atmosphere.Please forgive me if I violate the wishes of some readers and critics.There are new tatami mats in my house, the table is very clean, and the husband and wife treat each other as guests. Not only has there never been a husband beating his wife, but he has never even said such rude words as "get out" or "I'm not here anymore". .The father loves the child no less than the mother, and the relationship between the child and the parents is also very close, and the family lives happily together.

Of course these are superficial phenomena.The mother opened her chest to see the valley of tears, and the father's night sweats became more and more serious. The husband and wife knew their respective difficulties and guarded each other carefully.Sometimes my father made a joke, and my mother laughed it off.

But when my father heard my mother talk about the Valley of Tears, he remained silent and did not respond.Originally, I wanted to say a joke, but I couldn't think of the right words for a while.As a result, the less you speak, the more unpleasant you feel. Even the father who is proficient in this way keeps his face sullen and silent.

"It's better to hire a helper. According to the current situation, it's impossible not to hire a helper."

After a while of silence, in order not to upset the mother, the father suggested carefully.

There are three children in the family.My father doesn't care about anything, let alone housework, he doesn't even make his own bedding.I have never been in charge of rationing or registering for household registration, so I just know to tell some jokes foolishly.He seems to be just a guest who stays overnight. He only knows how to solicit and receive guests every day. He once said to go to the studio with a lunch box, but he didn't come back for a week.He always clamors to work, but he only writes two or three pages every day, and spends the rest of his time drinking, and falls asleep when he drinks too much.And it seems that he has made some female friends.

The eldest daughter is seven years old, and the younger daughter was born this spring. Although she feels no different from ordinary people, she always catches a cold.The son is already four years old. He is very thin and can't speak. He can only make babbling sounds.He didn't respond when others talked to him.He can't walk, but he can crawl, and he can't learn to defecate.He eats a lot, but he doesn't get fat no matter how much he eats, he is not tall, and his hair is very thin.

Father and mother try not to talk about their son.This idiot or mute who can't speak a word.This is so tragic, it's really unbearable.The two have formed a tacit agreement on this matter.Sometimes the father has an urge to jump into the river with the child to die together.

father kills mute second son

One day at noon, He Mou (53 years old) of a certain number in a certain town in a certain district killed his second son (current year) with an ax in his six-seater house, and then stabbed his own throat with scissors. He was sent to a nearby hospital for emergency treatment and is now in critical condition.It is reported that the second daughter (now 22 years old) in the man's family recently adopted a child. He doted on her daughter and the son adopted by the daughter, and then disliked the second son in the family as a stupid dumb, so he made such crazy actions.

When I saw such news, I felt even more depressed, so I had to drink to relieve my sorrow.

If it is only due to poor development, this matter is also easy to handle.From now on, the son suddenly grows up and laughs at the mother's unnecessary worries, that would be great.The couple didn't tell anyone about this incident, pretending that nothing happened on the surface, teasing the child from time to time, but praying silently in their hearts for the child to get better soon.

The mother did her best to live a good life, and the father did not have an easy life.He was originally a cautious person, but he was forced to write a novel in front of everyone, so the output of the novel could not be guaranteed.He had to survive these pains by drinking dull wine.The reason why he drank alcohol was because he couldn't insist on his own opinion, so he drank with anxiety.Of course, people who can insist on their own opinions will not drink dull wine, so women rarely drink dull wine.

If I have a conflict with others, I will definitely be overwhelmed by the other party's firm belief and strong aura, so I can only keep silent.Later, I gradually figured it out. Many times, it wasn't my fault, but the other party's arrogance.But if the other party provokes trouble again after failing, I will be afraid.And I have always disliked polemics, and I always feel that polemics are no different from physical struggles.So no matter how angry I am in my heart, I will still smile silently on the surface. At most, I will think wildly all day, and then get angry and drink alone.

In fact, this novel describes how couples quarrel - "Valley of Tears".

This is what caused the quarrel.As mentioned earlier, the couple never even sweared, let alone physically.But even so, the two of them still lived cautiously, for fear of touching the danger that would erupt at any time.Although the two sides were silent, they seemed to be collecting evidence of each other's crimes. They hid the cards they had shaken out, and they didn't know when they would take out the trump card in their hands, forcing the other party to retreat.It is precisely because of this danger that husband and wife have to treat each other with caution.Leaving aside the wife for the time being, if the husband is the kind of carping person, he will show his feet immediately.

"Valley of Tears..."

The wife mentioned this incident inadvertently, and the husband couldn't tell how he felt.But he doesn't like arguing with others, so he chooses to remain silent.Aren't you a little sarcastic when you say that?But I suffer the same pain as you, and I also miss my children, and I value family more than anything else.In the middle of the night, as long as the child coughs, I will definitely wake up and worry for a long time.I also want to change my wife and children to a bigger house, but I really don't have the ability.I'm not a murderous demon, and I'm not big enough to see my wife and children die.It's not that I don't care about rationing, account registration and other things, it's just that I really don't have time. ——Father muttered these words in his heart, but even if he said these words, his mother would reply back, and he still didn't know what to say at that time.

"Do you want to hire a helper..."

Father muttered something in a low voice, which was to show his position.

Generally speaking, my mother is a taciturn person, but once she speaks, she is full of indifferent self-confidence. (All women do.)
"I can't find anyone willing to help."

"Look hard, and you will definitely find it. And it's not that you can't find someone willing to help, even if you find it, you won't be able to keep it."

"You mean I can't order people around?"

"Where is this word..."

Father stopped talking again.Although this is what I think in my heart, it is better to keep my mouth shut.

It would be great if I could get someone to help me.Every time the mother went out with the youngest child on her back, the father had to take care of the other two.In addition, there are no less than ten visitors every day...

"I want to go to the studio."

"Now?"

"Hmm. Gotta write something tonight."

It's not a lie, of course, it's also a bit of an idea to escape the boring atmosphere at home.

"I want to see my sister tonight..."

I know that the condition of my wife and sister is not very optimistic, but if my wife leaves, I will have to take care of the children.

"So you want to hire a helper..."

As soon as the words came out of my mouth, I stopped.Once things involve the wife's natal family, the hearts of the husband and wife can easily be messed up.

Survival is a difficult job, with shackles everywhere, and even a little movement can lead to bleeding.

I walked to the six-seat room, took out the envelope containing the manuscript fee from the desk and put it in the sleeve, then hugged the manuscript paper and dictionary with a black cloth, and walked out of the house easily.

I was so preoccupied with suicide thoughts that I wasn't in the mood for work, so I headed straight for the tavern.

"Hello, sir, welcome!"

"Look, wearing this striped kimono again today looks silly..."

"I think it's pretty good. Besides, isn't this your favorite kimono?"

"I got into an argument with my wife again today. I can't bear it anymore. I want to drink to my heart's content. I will definitely not go home today."

I would say that fathers are more important than sons because fathers are more vulnerable than sons.

Somebody brought the cherries.

I don't feed my kids expensive things, they will be happy if I give them cherries.String the cherries around your neck like a coral necklace.

But my father looked at the cherries on the plate and began to eat them.Eat one and spit out a nucleus, eat one and spit out a nucleus, eat again and spit out again.Although the expression on his face was painful, he said in his heart: "A father is more important than a child."

(End of this chapter)