Love for a limited time

Chapter 82 What would I do without him

Tears wet the pillow, and I couldn't let myself cry out, I was afraid that Li Lan would hear it.

In the lonely night, I complained about my identity for the first time.

Really, it's embarrassing, our family is attached to the Song family, how can we let him bear these?
I almost made a decision in my heart, I want to break up with Song Junxi.

This seems like the best ending.

I close my eyes and force myself to sleep, tomorrow, tomorrow is really important!
The next day I appeared listlessly in the classroom. Song Junxi was afraid that people would hear what he said, so he wrote on a piece of paper: Why are my eyes swollen!

May not have a good rest!

I don't want him to know that I struggled all night last night just to talk about breaking up with him.

Today happens to be Saturday. (Senior year make-up class) I think the timing is pretty good, at least everyone can have a buffer of one day to adjust themselves.

Because I was hiding things in my heart, I was in a low mood all morning, and I couldn't concentrate on listening to the lecture. I had no idea what the teacher was talking about.

Finally, after school, Song Junxi asked Li Lan and the others to leave first. When there were only the two of us left in the classroom, Song Junxi asked, "What's wrong with you? You're restless!" His tone was cautious, as if he was afraid of scaring It seems to me.

Seeing him like this made me feel even more uncomfortable, but I didn't know how to answer him, so I simply kept silent.

"Are you still worried about what happened last night?" Song Junxi felt that nothing happened recently to make me so sad.

"What happened last night is all right. Last night, two students in Class [-] did not go back to the dormitory to read in the library. They were finally discovered by the teacher. We were lucky enough to escape. I was planning to call you last night , but you don’t have to think about it anymore, we’ll just change places next time!”

I shook my head desperately and didn't speak, I just couldn't say the word break up.

Song Junxi is very polite and courteous to everyone, but when has he ever treated anyone so cautiously?

No, never, this is how I say it, how to make him sad!
Thinking about it, my tears dripped down again, I quickly reached out to wipe it off, but he still saw it.

"Xia Xia, what's wrong with you, tell me, can I solve it?"

"I'm fine, I'm really fine, can you stop being so nice to me, Song Junxi, don't be nice to me any more!" I was so choked up that I could barely speak, and tears were streaming down my face.

"Okay, don't cry. Why are you crying more and more fiercely? Am I good to you? You are my girlfriend, and I will be my wife in the future. If I am not good to you, who am I good to?" Song Junxi was a little confused, and then He wiped my tears and comforted me softly.

In a panic, he knocked over the water glass on the table, and the water spilled all over the table.

"Sit still, I'll come!" Song Junxi first put away the book, wiped the table with a rag, and then pressed a paper towel on the book to absorb the water from the book.

I watched him flustered like this because of comforting me, and I felt even more guilty.

"Song Junxi, I'm sorry, do I always give you trouble!"

"It's because I haven't handled these things well, Xia Xia, give me some time, and when I have saved enough money, we will make it public, okay, so you don't have to be so frightened anymore, Xia Xia, give me some more time! "

I shook my head: "That's not the case, don't talk anymore, the more you talk, the sadder I feel!"

Why is it so difficult for us to be together?
"Okay, I won't talk about it. Tomorrow is Sunday. I'll take you to the movies, okay? We haven't gone to the movies for a long time. I know that you have been under a lot of pressure from studying recently. Don't worry, anyway, we will go to the movies in the future." In the same university, in fact, I think the provincial university is also good, with our current grades more than sufficient, and, since we don’t have to be too far away from home, it will be easier for us to find a job in the future, do you think it’s good?” Song Junxi talked about our future, The eyes were full of longing, which made me swallow the words that came to my mouth several times.

If I said it out, it would be to extinguish his hope. He is so proud, he must be sad!

Where do I have the right to say goodbye to him, what did I pay compared to him from the beginning to the end?
"Song Junxi, I don't even..."

"Let's eat first, you must be hungry, right!" Song Junxi got up from his seat and interrupted me.

"I'm not hungry!"

"Three meals a day are always required. If it's too late, there will be no food in the school cafeteria. Today is Saturday, so there are few dishes. Let's go!" Song Junxi pulled me up from my seat.

"Junxi, actually I want to..."

"Eat first, be obedient!" Song Junxi looked at me with pleading eyes, he is so smart, maybe he has already guessed something!
Such eyes, how can I say it?

I lowered my head and followed Song Junxi to the cafeteria. When I came out, I met Li Zhibin and they came out after eating: "Brother, why are you here so late, I thought you took Xia Xia to eat?"

"No, something was delayed!" Song Junxi's face remained unchanged, and he didn't want to be too many.

"Xia Xia, what's wrong with you? Are you crying? Tell me who bullied you!" Li Zhibin ran up to me and asked carelessly while holding my shoulder.

"No one, I accidentally squinted my eyes!" I lowered my head, not daring to look at them!
"Really?" Li Zhibin was dubious, and Li Lan frowned, obviously not convinced.

"Okay, let's go in first, let's talk about it later!" Song Junxi took my hand and entered the cafeteria.

I quickly let go, and took a step away from him, for fear of being seen.

Because the first and second grades were on vacation, the cafeteria was less crowded and there were many vacant seats, so I found a place far from the entrance and sat down.

Song Junxi leaned over and asked me, "What do you want to eat?"

I really didn't have much appetite: "You can buy whatever you want!" I handed him the meal card, but he didn't pick it up and left with the plate.

He was also a little absent-minded when he was walking, as if he stepped on something under his feet and almost slipped and fell.

I couldn't bear to look at it anymore, turned my face away, but I couldn't control my tears. I didn't like to cry before. Even when the grandma who brought me up passed away, I was so sad that I couldn't bear her, but apart from Grandma didn't cry much the day she was buried.

But I don’t know why, but in front of Song Junxi, I became so tearful. I’m not like the previous Xia Xia at all. I’ve changed, I’ve become fragile, I’ve become vulnerable, you see, it’s only so short I've been spoiled by him for a long time, and I can't help but get used to people's temper.

What would I do without him?

(End of this chapter)