Love for a limited time

Chapter 83
I was thinking wildly when my body was knocked down and I was caught off guard and almost fell onto the table. I turned my head and saw that it was Chen Lin.

She looked at me with a bit of disdain: "It's really annoying to pretend to be pitiful!" Her eyes were full of disgust.

I really want to stand up and reason with her, what did I do to make her hate it so much.

However, I have too many worries. If I am alone, maybe I still have such courage. The worst result is to be isolated by my classmates. I am not afraid, but now there is him, I can't take risks!
It's fine for me to admit that I'm unlucky, I can't let him admit it with me.

I clenched my fists tightly, watching her walk past me arrogantly, trampling all my dignity to the ground.

And I, there is nothing I can do.

I'm simply a wimp!

Song Junxi came back with the meal: "What's wrong?"

I shook my head numbly, Song Junxi took a deep look at me, wanted to say something, and finally put the rice in front of me silently, I forced myself to take a bite, it tasted like nothing!

Song Junxi saw that I was stuffing the rice into my mouth mechanically, and he took the rice bowl in front of me: "Xia Xia, don't eat if you don't want to eat it, you will get sick if you eat like this! I'll take you back to the dormitory!"

I will be in a bad mood now, even if I go to the classroom, how can I be in the mood to read a book.

"No need, I'll go back by myself!" I didn't dare to look into his eyes, and ran towards the dormitory on my own.

Now I am very afraid that Song Junxi treats me well, and I feel even more reluctant to part with him for being nice to me, and it makes me unable to say those words, and I feel that my sin is unforgivable.

I also want to tell him loudly and unscrupulously that I like him, want to be with him very much, and even want to be with him for the rest of my life, but a lifetime is so long, if he is tomorrow, I am nothing, I can't catch up with him at all.

Therefore, I never dared to say those words, not because I didn't love, but from the very beginning, I knew I was not worthy!

This has always been my deepest concern. I used to be able to deceive myself and enjoy the days of his care and care. I think Xia Xia is really the happiest person, sinking into the dream he made for me. unwilling to wake up.

However, when Chen Lin broke into my dream and woke me up, I could only run away in embarrassment. Just like now, Cinderella still has at least the magic before twelve o'clock, and I, Liu Xia, have nothing. This is the reality. In real life, there is no pumpkin carriage to pick me up, and there is no glass slipper. There is only the reality that smashes your heart!
I went back to the dormitory and sat on the bed alone, crying silently.

Li Lan came back from the outside and saw that I was crying, so she hurried over: "Xia Xia, what's the matter, I saw that something was wrong with you this morning, did you have a fight with the team leader, did he bully you? I'll ask him!"

I shook my head and grabbed Li Lan: "No, it's none of his business!"

"Then what's wrong with you? Tell me quickly!" Li Lan asked with concern.

"Li Lan, I..." How should I tell her all this.

"It will make you feel better if you say it, and I can help you find a way!" Li Lan twisted a hot towel and handed it to me: "Hurry up and put it on your eyes, otherwise how can you go to class in the afternoon like this! The teacher will definitely see it." What!"

"Li Lan!" I wiped my face to calm myself down: "Chen Lin knows about Junxi and I!"

"Ah, how did she know? It's a little troublesome. Chen Lin likes Song Junxi, and anyone with a discerning eye can see it!" Li Lan frowned, feeling that the matter was very tricky.

"So, I don't know what to do, I want to break up with him!" I said in a low voice with my head down.

"You are stupid, you broke up with the team leader just because of her will!" Chen Lin immediately shook her head and disagreed with me.

"I don't care if she is satisfied or not. I don't want to make it difficult for Junxi. If Mr. Han knows this, according to his personality, he will definitely take all the responsibilities alone. I don't want to do this. Li Lan, he and I Being together will only drag him down, I want him to be well, he can have better choices!"

"Why are you so stupid? The head of the class has such a proud personality. If you break up with him, he will hate you!" Li Lan and Song Junxi were classmates from junior high school to high school, so they naturally knew each other better.

"I would rather he hate me, as long as he is good. I don't want everything about him to be affected by me. Chen Lin is right, I am not worthy of him at all. I am just the child of their nanny, Li Lan, don't say yes As a girlfriend, I’m not even worthy enough to be his friend, I think clearly, the long-term pain is worse than the short-term pain, and it’s better to break up now!” I sighed, and the tissue in my hand was twisted into a ball and squeezed hands.

"You think it over, but you... will be very sad, I know how it feels!" Li Lan tried to persuade me.

I shook my head: "Even if it's sad, it's worth it!"

"Silly girl!" Li Lan hugged me and let me stick to her body.

"Don't tell him, I don't want him to know!" I said in a low voice, I decided, today, I will tell him no matter what.

"Song Junxi is such a smart person, he will figure it out if he thinks about it carefully, you may not be able to deceive him!"

"No matter what, I must break up with him this time! The longer you delay, the more dangerous it will be!"

"Oh!" Li Lan sighed, "If you miss him, you may not meet someone better than him again in the future!"

"Do you think I can fall in love with others in the future?" I looked at Li Lan very calmly. Now that I have figured it out, I decided to do it.

I washed my face again, combed my hair in front of the mirror, exhaled to make myself look a little more energetic, I decided to confess to Song Junxi after school in the afternoon, I missed this weekend, and it will be next week, this I won't go back to Song's house this week, lest the two of you will be embarrassed when they meet.

The first class in the afternoon is biology, and the remaining two classes are self-study. Today is Saturday, the last class is not in class, and school is almost an hour earlier than usual.

I pretended to be tidying up the drawers, and waited until the classmates were almost gone before I glanced at Song Junxi.

His complexion was not very good, he looked at me and said, "Let's go, didn't you say you were going home this week!"

"I don't want to go back. I want to study at school tomorrow. There are a lot of test papers I haven't had time to do." I really wanted to smile, but found that my face was so stiff that I couldn't move at all.

It turned out that even after preparing for a long time, it was cruel to say those words. Looking at his face, I really couldn't say it.

Moreover, Li Lan is right, he may have already guessed that I am abnormal.

As soon as I opened my mouth, he avoided the topic, obviously because he didn't want to continue. In fact, I had a chance to talk in the morning, but he interrupted me.

Song Junxi seemed to be suppressing his emotions as much as possible, "It's okay, didn't we agree to go to the movies tomorrow, it will be more convenient for you to go out at school, tomorrow I will pick you up from school, let's go together, okay!"

Song Junxi smiled a little reluctantly, came to hold my hand, I was cruel, I always have to face it, I avoided it all at once: "Not good!"

Afraid that I couldn't help it, I sniffed: "I'm not free tomorrow, and I won't be free in the future, Song Junxi, we..."

"Xia Xia!" Song Junxi interrupted me again, his eyes were a little red, and he looked at me seriously: "I know that you are under a lot of pressure for failing the exam last time, and it's all because I didn't think carefully about this problem, Xia Xia, If you don’t want to go this week, forget it, we still have time, besides, I asked, there are no good movies released recently, we will go again when we have time, when you want to go, I will not come back this weekend Home, I will study those topics with you!"

"Song Junxi, don't do this again, okay? I said, I don't have time tomorrow, but I don't have time in the future. Don't you understand me?

Let me tell you that you have seriously affected my study and normal life. I have been planning to tell you some things for a long time. I should have told you before that my biggest wish is to be admitted to a good university, and you have influenced me. Affected my study, my life, and even took away my No.1, I am very concerned, Song Junxi, let's break up, break up immediately, I don't want to waste time on you in the future! "

When I said these words, I looked out the window and didn’t dare to look into his eyes. I was afraid that once I saw his hurt eyes, I would be sad, reluctant, and couldn’t help but throw myself into his arms and cry. .

My hands folded together and pinched tightly, the nails were embedded in the flesh, it hurt, but I couldn't feel it anymore, it was numb.

"Xia Xia!" Song Junxi pulled my body: "You're lying! You don't think so at all, do you?"

I lowered my head, afraid that my tears would be seen by him: "Xia Xia, talk!"

"I'm not lying, this is what I really mean, Song Junxi, didn't you always mind that I stole your No.1 before, and you kept saying that you like me? , now that your goal has been achieved and you are satisfied, at this time I say you should be happy to break up, so stop pretending in front of me, I will never fall for your tricks again!" My heart skipped a beat Hell, just speak more harshly, and I will continue to suffer from it. I can't be indecisive and hurt him!
Sure enough, Song Junxi's expression was a little depressed, even sad: "Xia Xia, do you think of me like this? In your heart, I, Song Junxi, am such a villain who will do anything for his own purpose?" Song Junxi sneered, and then seriously He looked at me, as if trying to see through my heart.

Seeing him sad, there was a dense pain in my heart, I was almost out of breath, I bowed my head guiltily: "Yes!"

(End of this chapter)