Love for a limited time

Chapter 84 That's it, as you wish

"You are lying, Xia Xia, if what you said is true, this is what you think in your heart, why don't you dare to look into my eyes! You look into my eyes and say that you don't like me at all, never If you have never liked me, I will believe you, otherwise, you would never want to break up, I, Song Junxi, is the one you can come and go when you call it! I will not agree!"

Song Junxi lifted my chin and forced me to look into his eyes. He stared at me motionlessly, as if he wanted to see through my thoughts. There were anger, injury, pain, and pity in his eyes!

I looked at him quietly, I rarely dare to look into his eyes and talk like this, at first because I didn’t dare, then because I was shy, every time I saw the burning love in his eyes, I would I didn't dare to look any further, for I was afraid that if I fell into it, I would never be able to get out again.

I like him with all my heart, but I dare not let myself indulge in it. I am afraid that this day will come, and I am worried every day, but, unexpectedly, it will come so soon.

Life, for me, is always so hopeless!

I didn't dare to speak, for fear that a slight expression on my face would be seen through by him, and maybe I would never find such a suitable opportunity to say these things in the future.

"You dare not say it, you are afraid, because what you said is not what you really think in your heart at all, you are lying, you still like me, right, Xia Xia, you speak!" Song Junxi, who has always been calm and composed, said a little Not calm down, I can feel the fire in his eyes, he must be very angry.

"Xia Xia, why do you torture yourself and me like this? Isn't it good for us to be together? We study together and go to college together. I know that I have wronged you now, but soon, all this will pass soon. of.

When we go to college, I will talk to my parents about our affairs. If they agree, let them hold a grand engagement ceremony for us. If they don’t agree, I will leave the Song family. I work-study and earn money for us to go to college. , Don't worry, I won't let you suffer with me, I will definitely do my best to make you happy.

Xia Xia, don't think about anything, you don't have to think about anything, just stay by my side obediently, I promise I won't disturb your school when I'm at school, I'll accompany you at school on weekends, we do test papers together, I We have already planned our future, Xia Xia, without you, how you let me fulfill those dreams by myself belongs to the two of us. "

Song Junxi hugged my shoulders and hugged me into his arms, his voice was a bit choked and doting, I knew he was also trying his best to suppress his temper, when did he talk to someone in such a humble way.

I stood there numbly, my heart was already in chaos, I seemed to tell him that I also wanted to be by his side, to fulfill such a beautiful dream together, but I couldn't.

He even wanted to leave the protection of the Song family in order to keep us together. Uncle Song and Aunt Yao are only a child like him, how could I let him be charged with unfilial piety, besides, he is Aunt Yao's fate!

Without him, Aunt Yao would really be sad to death.

My tears fell uncontrollably, and I couldn't even speak, so I could only shake my head desperately.

I pushed him, wanting to leave his arms, but his strength was too great, and my struggle was simply indifferent.

I hit his back and stomped on his feet, but he didn't seem to feel it, and he didn't let go at all.

"Song Junxi, let me go, don't do this, don't do this!" I spoke intermittently, and even I couldn't understand what I was saying.

"I won't let you go. As I said, I will never let you go in my life. I will never let you go!" Song Junxi was very stubborn.

"Song Junxi, I hate you, I hate you like this, let me go!" I beat his shoulder, but he didn't care at all.

He suddenly held my face and kissed it all at once.

I was caught off guard, salty tears flowed into our mouths, not as sweet as usual, with a bit of despair, yes, despair, from now on, this kind of kiss will never belong to me again, and this kind of sweetness will never belong to me again I was so worthless, at that moment, I was really shaken, I couldn't bear it.

But I know that my reluctance will harm the two of us, how could he spend his whole life like this because of me.

I closed my eyes, closed my teeth, and bit down hard.

There was a strong smell of blood, Song Junxi was in pain, and he let go of me, blood was overflowing from the corner of his mouth, I couldn't bear to look at it, my heart ached like a knife.

I was caught off guard, he kissed me again, I only felt a pain in my lips, he let me go: "Xia Xia, we are now bonded with lips and teeth, flesh and blood, I will never let you go!"

I shook my head and took a step back: "Song Junxi, you are crazy, I don't like you, I hate you, I don't want to be with you, let's break up, I beg you, you didn't say you like me, then I ask you For the sake of liking me, let me go, let me go!"

I squatted on the ground and cried bitterly.

Song Junxi approached me step by step, every step seemed to step on my heart, so clear, so painful, I felt that my heart was already bleeding like a river.

He hugged me: "Xia Xia, what happened, what are you doing!"

He can always easily hit the softest part of my heart. I really can't bear his tenderness. I'm afraid that I will surrender in front of him, so I can't help but hide in his arms and hide in his arms. If I can't get out of the safe haven he built for me, I can't spend my whole life under his protection like this. He has done so much for me, and I should do one for him!

"Song Junxi, I've had enough. I've had enough of living in fear every day. I'm afraid that my classmates will find out, my teachers will find out, and my parents will find out. I don't want to go on like this anymore. Besides, I don't like you at all. It was you who forced me. I have never liked you. Think about it carefully. From the beginning to now, have I said that I like you? It’s just that you are being passionate. The most important thing is that I am just afraid of rebellion. If you don't like me, my life will be even more difficult, and it will only affect my parents, Song Junxi, I have never liked you, I hate you! I hate you very much!" I pushed him away, facing him with all my strength. he growled.

Song Junxi's eyes were full of regret, but he still refused to believe it. He sneered slightly: "Do you think I'm so easy to deceive? Why, you used to be afraid of hurting your parents' work, but now you're not afraid? I know , you have a reason for this, you can explain it clearly to me now, I will act as if nothing happened, okay, let's reconcile, this time I did not do well, it made you worry and feel insecure, in the future No more, trust me!"

I didn't expect Song Junxi to be so stubborn, so I simply told him: "Of course I won't be afraid, don't you know? Uncle Song has already settled the household registration for us, even if you quit my parents and they are looking for a new job It's easy, and I wish it was so, our family will never have to live in your house again, and I don't want to see you again, Song Junxi, you can't threaten me, so I will break up with you at this time, Most importantly, I really mind that you use this method to win back my No.1!"

Every word and every sentence I said was like being stabbed in my heart one by one. There was no blood, and I couldn't even find the location of the pain.

I felt like I was about to vomit blood.

How could I hurt him so much, Xia Xia, you will get retribution sooner or later for hurting someone who treats you so well!
However, if he can be good, the person I love the most in this life, Liu Xia, can have a better future. No matter how hard you try, you can't grow into a towering tree.

So, all of this is worth it. The world cannot live without sunshine, but there is a lot of me like Liu Xia.

I rubbed my chest and said more cruel words: "Song Junxi, I have hated you since the first time I saw you, don't be so sentimental!"

Song Junxi's body trembled slightly, and against the background of the blood stains on the corners of his lips, his face turned paler, like the pale light at dawn, and he looked extremely weak.

I turned my face away and couldn't bear to look any more.

"Liu Xia, what you said are all your sincere words?" The wind blew in from the door, and his hair was a little messy, and he looked even more haggard. He really lost a lot of weight during this period, yes , he was busy taking the No.1 exam, gaining the trust of the teacher, being busy doing a good job in the class and being a role model for his classmates, and busy planning our future. I really caused him too much trouble.

I was surprisingly calm, looked at him, and answered quietly: "Yes, that's what I've always thought!"

Song Junxi stood there silently, without a trace of expression, as time passed by, his expression did not change at all, and he did not even blink his eyes.

However, that look, just looking at it, made my heart ache.

I said such cruel words, he must be very sad, Song Junxi, I'm sorry, I don't want to be like this, I'm sorry!
"Okay, very good!" Song Junxi said suddenly, with a sarcastic smile on the corner of his lips, and looked out the window, his whole body was cold and lonely: "I'm as you wish!" He didn't even want to look at me again, He must be very disappointed in me!
When Song Junxi said these five words, my whole body seemed to be taken out, and I was stunned there, lost my soul, yes, my heart was broken, I lost my heart, how can I live, when I realized it, he had already left the classroom the door.

I wanted to stop him loudly and tell him that those words were not my intention, but my throat was so tight that I couldn't make a sound, I couldn't bear it!

I slumped on the ground, crying loudly, I couldn't bear it, I really couldn't bear it!

(End of this chapter)