my name, your last name

Chapter 22 Accept Everything You Give

Gan Lu lazily dragged herself out of the elevator, took the key to open the door, and pressed her hand to the left, but touched the wall, and then realized that she was now in Feng Yi'an's house.She has lived here for more than half a month, but she has never been used to the position of the door switch. Every time she goes back to the house where she lives with Shang Xiuwen and Wu Lijun, she presses the button first, and then presses the switch again.

She suddenly didn't want to move anymore, leaned against the door wearily, closed her eyes and thought, is she going to live in someone else's house forever, and go on stalemate with Shang Xiuwen without a fight?
The excuse she made for herself earlier was that her father was still in the hospital. Now that Gambo was about to leave the hospital and Shang Xiuwen stayed in J City to avoid seeing each other, she was relieved on the one hand, but on the other hand thought bitterly, In the long run, it may be more difficult for them to have a good conversation.

Suddenly, she smelled a faint smell of smoke in the room, opened her eyes suspiciously, adjusted to the darkness in the room, looked through the hallway, and saw a person sitting vaguely on the sofa, even a little dark red. flash.She was so frightened that she hurriedly raised her hand, and pressed the four switches on the switch panel at the same time, the crystal chandeliers, chandelier table lights, and surrounding spotlights in the living room and dining room shone brightly at the same time, and Shang Xiuwen appeared in front of her impressively.

He was leaning back on the sofa, with a half-burned cigarette between his fingers, his eyes narrowed slightly due to the sudden stimulation of the bright light, and he looked at her expressionlessly.

Gan Lu was startled, and quickly turned off the extra lights: "When did you come back?"

"Half an hour ago." He replied succinctly, stubbing out the cigarette in the ashtray, where there were already three cigarette butts, "Where did you go, why didn't you take your phone?"

After Gan Lu received the call from Nie Qian, she only put on her coat, took the keys and went downstairs without even turning off her laptop: "I didn't go far. Have you eaten yet?"

She knew that it would take about four hours to drive back from City J. When he came back at this time, he might not be able to stop at the highway service area to eat that terrible fast food. Sure enough, he shook his head.

Gan Lu took off her coat: "Let me go and make you something to eat."

Shang Xiuwen didn't make a sound, and she walked into the kitchen without waiting for his answer.Recently, she has been eating poorly. Apart from drinking the soup that Lu Huining brought over from time to time, she cooks some noodles to deal with it, and eats some fruit to supplement her vitamins.

Fortunately, there is still the black chicken soup left over from yesterday in the refrigerator. She took it out and boiled it, poured in the noodles, picked and washed some green vegetables, put them in, cooked them quickly, and put them on the dining table: "Eat it, I'll eat it." Writing papers in the study."

Gan Lu's thesis has a dry title: Some Thoughts and Opinions on the Reform of History Curriculum in High School.She restrained her mind and continued to search for information. She finally sorted out her thoughts a little bit, wrote an outline, and opened her head. Then she took a long breath, leaned back in the chair, and closed her eyes for a nap.

Suddenly, he put his hands on her shoulders and massaged her shoulders.She was taken aback, and opened her eyes. Shang Xiuwen was looking down at her, and when the two of them met their eyes, he said softly, "Relax."

She lowered her eyes and relaxed her body according to his words.They have massaged each other many times, and they clearly know the parts of each other's bodies that are most prone to tension and fatigue.His slender and strong fingers came down from the back of her neck all the way to the junction of her right shoulder and arm, which was often sore due to long-term blackboard writing, and stayed there repeatedly kneading gently, and she couldn't help but let out a low, comfortable moan .

Shang Xiuwen's fingers stopped suddenly, and then changed from kneading to caressing. Through a thin sweater, she could feel the temperature of his palm on her shoulder, and his hand slowly slid to her neck, little by little. Tracing the curve from her neck to jaw, when the thin calluses on his fingertips touched her skin, she suddenly realized that she was so sensitive to this contact, almost holding her breath waiting for his fingers to move on to other places.

She was already familiar with his touch, and this touch almost evokes all the physical memories accumulated in the married life. He used to caress her countless times with his lips and fingers, so intimate and full of passion.

Once the estrangement during this period was broken, it was as if a secret flame was ignited in her body, causing a faint pain from the burning, almost eager to get close to him, to deliver herself into his arms, and let him soothe the pain.

This thought frightened her, she stood up suddenly, and said in a hoarse voice: "I'm tired, I'm going to take a shower first."

Gan Lu rushed into the bathroom of the master bedroom, closed the door behind her back, hugged herself with both hands, and couldn't help shivering.She had an inexplicable fear that she would surrender to his temptation so easily, longing for his embrace.

She stood in the shower room and turned the faucet of the shower to the maximum. The scorching hot water flowed down and flowed down her body. Her fingers moved, stroked by the water, and stayed on her abdomen.This was almost the first time she touched this part for a long time since she knew she was pregnant and had a miscarriage until today.

She stared down at her stomach, which was as flat as ever under her fingers.However, she clearly knew that neither her body nor her relationship with Shang Xiuwen would be the same.She never thought that the relationship between a man and a woman was a kind of relationship between the winner and the loser, and she didn't feel that there was any grievance in surrendering to Shang Xiuwen's charm, but how could she still allow herself to ignore all the problems now, Make a purely physical compromise with him.

From the lost child, to the thought of their marriage that was nearly riddled with holes, she felt a chill in her heart, and the lust aroused by his touch disappeared without a trace.

Although the water temperature has been adjusted to a high level by her, the skin is flushed red, and there is a slight pain, but it still can't stop the emptiness and coldness spreading. She hugged her body with her arms again, and turned her head to the water. , standing in a daze.

After an unknown amount of time, Shang Xiuwen suddenly opened the door and entered, pulled open the glass door of the shower room, reached out to turn off the faucet, pulled her out, took the towel and wiped her body.

"What are you doing?" she protested instinctively.

Shang Xiuwen's voice was calm, but the movements of his hands were not slow at all: "I knocked on the door twice, but you didn't respond. You have been in the bathroom for more than half an hour, and if you continue to steam, you will definitely faint."

Indeed, the steam in the shower room was so steaming that it was difficult for her to breathe, but being naked in front of him made her feel even more frightened.The man in front of him is familiar with every curve and undulation of her body, and knows every possible reaction of her under his enthusiasm. In front of him, she has no secrets at all.She just felt that she had nothing to hide under his sight, all her secrets were exposed dangerously, but she couldn't escape and cover up, she trembled uncontrollably in his hands.

"Is it cold?" He asked in a hoarse voice, took the bathrobe and wrapped her tightly, and hugged her into his arms. The bathroom was filled with heat, and sparks flickered in his dark eyes, which she was familiar with and used to drunken.

She tried her best to suppress the sourness gushing out of her nose, tilted her head back to avoid his lips, and said wearily: "According to the doctor's orders, I'm afraid I can't fulfill my husband and wife obligations now."

Shang Xiuwen's fingers clasped her tightly, and under the light, she saw his face tense instantly, and his eyes looking at her were so sharp that they seemed to pierce her, she thought he was going to be furious.However, he was silent for a moment, relaxed his hands slightly, and said without any emotion in his voice: "I drove four hours back, and I didn't just want to find a wife to vent my desire legally."

"Is that going to come back and ask Xingshi my fault? I'm sorry, I won't interfere in your company's affairs again."

She broke free from his hand, fastened the belt of her bathrobe, turned around and faced the foggy mirror, took off the shower cap, let her hair hang down, and combed her hair. It was a sane gesture without any fluctuations.

"Do you think I got angry with Yi'an because you meddled in Xu Sheng's affairs?" Shang Xiuwen's voice sounded coldly behind her.

"Not at all. I guess you don't want me to know you're in trouble, and you don't want me to help. You'd rather solve it yourself quietly. You've always been in control of everything, writing, whether it's work or Feelings, you don’t allow others to challenge your ability to control. In short, this time I was troublesome, and this kind of thing will not happen again in the future.”

"You're imagining me as an egomaniac out of control, Lulu. Yes, I don't want anything to spiral out of control, but that doesn't mean I have an OCD about control. I Your plan failed to win the development of the situation, and I can't control your feelings, which is enough to remind me to remain in awe of the uncontrollable part."

"Actually, you can, but I can't let myself get out of control again." Gan Lu thought this in her heart but didn't make a sound, smiled shyly, and continued to comb her hair mechanically.

"I'm angry with Yi'an because he doesn't know about your relationship with President Qin. You have always kept a distance from the Qin family. I don't want you to wrong yourself and beg him for my affairs."

Gan Lu stopped holding the comb, and after a while, she smiled bitterly and said, "I'm sorry, it's my petty heart. Fortunately, I'm not wronged to tell Mr. Qin about this, I need him to do it." The things he has done are limited, and the favor he gave me is not so great that I need to do my best to repay him from now on.”

Shang Xiuwen took the comb and combed her hair with gentle movements, but his voice was still a little cold: "However, I am really angry with you." The heat in the bathroom gradually dissipated, Gan Lu looked at the mirror Shang Xiuwen, his demeanor returned to his usual calm. "Yi'an foolishly tricked you, and even broadcast it live to me. I really plan to come back and ask you, do you really think of opening the market for Xusheng's products as paying back my mother for arranging medical treatment for your father? I just wait until the payment is over." Well, you owe me nothing."

Gan Lu suddenly felt more exhausted than before, and couldn't hold on to talking with him, "It seems that we all misunderstood each other, I didn't mean that. Let's stop guessing each other like this, okay? This is too much." tired."

Shang Xiuwen put down his hair comb, and gently stroked her face: "Okay." He leaned over and picked her up, walked into the bedroom, put her on the bed, and looked at her fixedly. Open his eyes, bury his head in the pillow, only to hear him whisper in her ear: "It's late, don't think about anything, go to sleep."

He covered her with the quilt, then turned off the light and walked out.

Of course Gan Lu can't do nothing.

She was lying on the bed alone, feeling the emptiness of the bed. After a while, the living room light coming in from under the door was also turned off, and the whole bedroom was plunged into darkness.She didn't know if it was her illusion, there seemed to be a little smell of cigarettes in the air all the time, as if he was still standing by the bed, making her unable to sleep peacefully.

Did he go to sleep in the guest room, or was he sitting alone in the dark smoking a cigarette just as she had come back—she was aware that she still missed him more than she would admit and show, but that awareness only Let her be even more in a dilemma.

The next morning, Gan Lu was woken up by the alarm on her mobile phone, she hurriedly got up to take a shower, and when she walked out of the bedroom, she saw Shang Xiuwen coming out of the guest room, obviously finished washing.

"It's still early, you should sleep a little longer."

"I'm going back to City J, and I still have a lot of work to do."

Gan Lu hurriedly went to the kitchen to make breakfast. She quickly steamed the quick-frozen buns, reheated the milk, brought out two people to eat, and went down to the underground garage together. Shang Xiuwen sent her to Baolai first: "What can I do for you?" Call. I will come back tomorrow night, probably a little later, you don't have to wait for me. I will accompany you to pick up Dad when he is discharged from the hospital on weekends."

"If you're busy, you don't have to rush back."

Shang Xiuwen said gently: "The day after tomorrow is also my mother's birthday, let's go out with her for dinner tonight."

Gan Lu was really embarrassed.She has always had a good memory. After marrying Shang Xiuwen, she more or less infected him with a habit of writing down all kinds of important dates and things to do in the notebook, usually without any omissions.But during this period of time, there were many accidents, and she was too tired to deal with it, and she hadn't read that little book for a long time.

"Excuse me, I'll go get a present. Shall I make a reservation at the restaurant?"

"I'm going to take my mother and you to eat western food, and I'll ask her where she likes later."

She nodded, put on her seat belt, reversed the car, and was about to turn the steering wheel to drive out, but seeing Shang Xiuwen still standing there looking at her, she stopped and lowered the car glass.Shang Xiuwen came over, leaned down and asked her, "What's wrong?"

"Is there anything else you want to say to me?"

"There used to be a lot." Shang Xiuwen reached into the car window and pressed her left hand on the steering wheel, "After seeing you, I suddenly realized that when I came back in a hurry, I wanted to ask even more questions than Yi An. Be silly. You must have your reasons for doing this. If I question you again, it will only make you farther and farther away from me. And you are so resistant to talking to me, I decided to accept everything you do from now on .”

Gan Lu smiled wryly: "I don't quite understand what you mean."

"No matter what I say, you will be vigilant and distrustful, so let time tell. You have the right to doubt me, hit me, torture me, as long as you like."

Gan Lu looked at him in astonishment: "Xiuwen, do you think I'm a pervert? No normal woman would expect marriage to bring her nothing but a husband who can be tortured as she pleases."

"You don't have to question yourself. You have always been too normal and reasonable. I am ready to fully trust your reason. You can treat me as a pervert. I am willing to accept everything you give me until you have no more doubts."

Shang Xiuwen smiled, under the dim light of the underground garage, that smile was very relaxed and calm, and made his thin face faintly radiant.He hadn't smiled like this in a long time.For a moment, Gan Lu almost had the illusion that it was just a normal working day in front of her. The husband occasionally got up early, sent his wife to work thoughtfully, and told some trivial things in life by the way. There was no disturbance between them.

But such ordinary happiness is so far away that it is unreal. Now they are just in the underground garage of a friend's house, and she wants to guess his intentions completely unconsciously. Thinking of this, she held the steering wheel and looked at ahead.

He raised his hand to caress her face, left with a light touch, then stood up straight, "Drive carefully, goodbye."

Gan Lu started the car while looking in the rearview mirror. Shang Xiuwen was still standing there, staring in her direction.His figure was straight, slowly shrinking in the rearview mirror, and then disappeared from her sight.

After she rejected him in such a hurtful way last night, she was ready for Shang Xiuwen to act indifferent and detached again, not to show her emotions easily.

However, he seems to always have the ability to surprise her. While his gesture of letting go of his arms just now surprised her, she felt at a loss at the same time.

School is always a place full of order, and various norms constrain the behavior of teachers and students at the same time.Especially for a well-known key middle school in the province, the order is almost so strong that it has a sense of ritual.The disadvantage of this is that no matter how naughty the students are, they have to maintain superficial obedience, and even the most thoughtful teachers have to restrain their personality; the advantage is that no matter how absent-minded you are, you will not deviate too far from the normal track.

After Gan Lu finished class, she returned to the office and made herself a mixed drink to protect her throat step by step. While reading a teaching and research magazine, she listened to her colleagues chatting, and sometimes added a sentence or two to show her participate.She thought, apart from other things, having a job is really important to her, at least she can not spend all her time in the dilemma of not being able to figure out her marriage, otherwise she will really be out of breath .

Several teachers in the office were talking about Li Sibi. A certain teacher had a relative in the Municipal Radio, Film and Television Bureau, and some insider gossip came over: "The TV station has replaced her program with Fang Qian as the host."

"So the rumors on the Internet are all true. Wasn't Fang Qian also suspected at the beginning?"

"Originally, the original wife didn't move much anymore, and the disturbance on the Internet was not as strong as before. The station wanted to make big things into small things, so it just suspended Li Sibi's show. But Fang Qian has just been hired, and she has very few chances to appear on the screen. She is in many There were tears on the occasion, and she looked for the leader for a while, and contacted the reporter for a while, asking to prove her innocence. If you say that girl is really scheming, she just took the opportunity to get in the position."

Everyone else was very interested. Gan Lu just received a call from Qian Jiaxi, and she laughed on the other end of the phone: "It's really an age of gossip."

Gan Lu came out, and said with a smile: "It's pity that we teachers live a monotonous life, so I have to look up to your circle to pass the time."

"Come on, don't hurt me with these words."

"Tell me the real inside story, is what my colleague said true?"

"It's very reliable. Fang Qian has started to host two shows now, and she is quite popular. As for Li Sibi, I don't worry about her. In this era, beauties always have more opportunities than ordinary people. With her personality, she won't Just buried in silence." Qian Jiaxi said lazily, "If you have time in the evening, let's have dinner together. The new restaurant recommended by "City Weekly" is not bad."

"Okay, I just plan to find you too. After dinner, accompany me to buy a gift. My mother-in-law is going to celebrate her birthday."

After getting off work in the afternoon, Gan Lu went to the hospital first, and then drove to the restaurant she had made an appointment with Qian Jiaxi. Qian Jiaxi was already waiting there, flipping through the new issue of "City Weekly".

"Have you become a loyal reader of this magazine?"

Qian Jiaxi smiled: "I confess honestly, in fact, there are so many creative ideas in making programs. Most of the time, I have to steal lessons from others. This weekly magazine is run locally, and I can learn from their planning from time to time. Besides, Luo Yin's column is really good." She closed the magazine and put it aside, "I went to the hospital that day, and my uncle seemed to be recovering well."

"He's leaving the hospital tomorrow, thank you for visiting him."

"Stop talking politely to me. You've lost a lot of weight, and now... have you recovered?"

Thinking of the little life that came and went in such a hurry, Gan Lu felt sad for a while, speechless.Qian Jiaxi also regretted it: "Forget it, don't think about it. This restaurant also has food recommendations, and the dishes are made with secret nourishing herbs, which are very special."

Gan Lu got scared when she heard the herbs, and waved her hands again and again: "Let's order some ordinary dishes. I don't want tonics, and I don't want herbs. Recently, my mother has poured me a lot of unspeakable soups. I really don't want to smell the medicine anymore. .”

"This restaurant doesn't cook medicinal food. If you smell medicinal food, how can you mess around?" Qian Jiaxi started ordering food without asking for her advice.

The two haven't seen each other for a while, but this time when they sat together, they couldn't talk about everything immediately and enthusiastically like before.Although Gan Lu was not very energetic, Qian Jiaxi also seemed to lack interest.The two drank the ginger tea provided by the shop and waited for the food to be served. Qian Jiaxi asked, "Did you really not know Shang Xiuwen's net worth before?"

This was another question that Gan Lu couldn't answer, but when an old friend asked her, she could only answer vaguely: "What kind of net worth does he have? His uncle is still Xusheng's largest shareholder."

Qian Jiaxi was relieved: "I said so. The other day Qin Zhan told me that Shang Xiuwen was the chairman of Xusheng. I was shocked, but he couldn't say anything specific. I went back and searched the news. , the reports are quite brief. If your family Xiuwen is only a nominal shareholder, you have to remind him to be smart and don't blame his uncle."

Gan Lu didn't expect this incident to have such a meaning in the eyes of others. She couldn't explain it, but she couldn't explain her hindsight and ins and outs, so she had to change the topic: "You and Qin Zhan, are you together now?"

It was Qian Jiaxi's turn to hesitate, and Gan Lu couldn't help regretting it. Just as the waiter was serving the food, she quickly said, "This pork knuckle is very fragrant, and it really doesn't smell like medicine."

"Xiao Pan came back a few days ago."

Gan Lu waited for the waiter who split the trotters to walk away before looking at Qian Jiaxi. Her expression was not too different, but she was obviously troubled.

"Did they break up? I told Qin Zhan, don't provoke you until you break up completely."

Qian Jiaxi raised his eyes and sighed: "Maybe, I was the one who provoked him first."

Gan Lu didn't know what to say.Her first reaction was, of course, that Qin Zhan is so good, it's worth your trouble.But she knew clearly that Qian Jiaxi seemed careless, but in fact she had a meticulous side. No matter what the reason was for getting involved with Qin Zhan, as a friend, she probably had no right to criticize it casually.

"Let's wait until he and Xiaopan have a result, Jiaxi."

Qian Jiaxi laughed silently: "I don't need to wait. Yesterday, Qin Yanzhi accompanied Xiao Pan to find me, and asked me to negotiate in the coffee shop opposite the TV station. It's a retribution in this world. Back then, I laughed at Li Sibi. Until I was approached by someone to tell the truth.”

Gan Lu was taken aback: "How can you compare yourself to Li Sibi? She provoked a married man." But she felt that this consolation was far-fetched. The type of people, Qin Yanzhi and Xiao Pan have known each other since they were abroad, and they didn't like her friends to provoke her cousin from the beginning, so they probably wouldn't be polite, "They... didn't say anything bad, did they?"

"I've said everything that sounds good or not." Qian Jiaxi shook her head, obviously not wanting to recall the embarrassing details, "I also made my position clear to Xiao Pan. If she doesn't want to let go, I don't intend to quit either. We It's meaningless to say anything, Qin Zhan's attitude is the most important."

"Jiaxi, why are you bothering?" Gan Lu couldn't help it, "You and Qin Zhan haven't been together for long, so you're going to fight over him like this."

"They were neither married nor engaged. They were just dating. It wasn't because of my intervention that there was already a conflict, and it was very serious. Qin Zhan himself said that they were so noisy that they broke up. Even if they are married these days, they may divorce, no As for a 'death meeting' as soon as they date, who will have a tattoo on their forehead become their lifelong private property?"

"That's what I said. But Qin Zhan and Xiao Pan started dating abroad. The two returned to China together and lived together all the time. The quarrel between lovers is not enough for outsiders. If they really broke up completely, Xiao Pan has no reason This is the way to kill the carbine. Jiaxi, you have always been smart, can't you see through this?"

Qian Jiaxi was silent for a while, and then said: "Let's eat vegetables, the pig's knuckle will be cold and there will be nothing to eat."

After that, the two of them only talked about irrelevant topics in general.The dishes of this restaurant are indeed very special. The seemingly rough ingredients are cooked very delicately and have a unique flavor, which suits their taste very well. However, the meal is unprecedentedly dull.Qian Jiaxi didn't comment eloquently as usual, and Gan Lu still couldn't mobilize her appetite, and the two of them just ate casually.

In the middle of the meal, Qian Jiaxi received a call. She looked at the number, and immediately got up to answer it outside. She talked for six or seven minutes before coming in, but she couldn't hide the excitement on her face: "Lulu, I'm a little nervous. It’s a matter, you have to take a step first, and you continue to eat.”

"I'm full too, do you want me to drive you there?"

"No, it's very convenient for me to take a taxi."

"Jiaxi, can you listen to me one more word?"

Qian Jiaxi had already picked up the handbag, sat down anyway, and said with a smile: "You look so serious, it's really scary. What are you talking about?"

"Don't get yourself involved in complicated feelings, you are a good girl, why bother passively waiting for others to make choices."

"Lulu, can you always be so free and easy? If you knew in advance that Shang Xiuwen had such an outstanding ex-girlfriend as He Jingyi, would you refuse to be with him just because of this reason?"

Gan Lu didn't expect that her advice would attract such a rhetorical question, and she was speechless for a while.

"You also know that I have a very relaxed view of love. I have always advocated that if we get along, we will stay and if we don't, we will go away. We will get together and break up. I never expected that there would be a man with a blank past waiting for me in front of me, and Seriously, that kind of man must be terribly boring; if any man asks me for this, I will think he is an idiot and can step aside. It is rare that Qin Zhan and I are in harmony now, and we feel good together. I don't think it's hurtful for me to want to be with him, and I don't think about what will happen in the future. If he or I no longer feel happy together, I can completely accept a peaceful breakup without entanglement. .”

At this point, Gan Lu had no choice but to stop her hand holding the wallet: "Go ahead, I still want to drink some of this soup, I will pay the bill later."

Qian Jiaxi took a picture of her face: "Then I'm leaving, you should eat more, and see how thin you have become recently."

Gan Lu didn't eat any more, she asked the waiter to pour another cup of ginger tea and drank it, sitting alone and lost in thought.

It was the first time that she and Qian Jiaxi had such a non-speculative talk, and she felt somewhat sad.

They have become close friends since college, exchanged secrets in their hearts, discussed the most intimate topics, talked unscrupulously about the boys they knew, studied the half-knowledge of sex knowledge from the Internet, looked forward to the future life, comforted each other's frustration, shared The joy of each other, understanding each other probably more than anyone in the world.

She clearly knows that it is impossible for friends to seek common ground in everything. From the very beginning, she and Qian Jiaxi have different views on many things, but they both accept that the other party has different views. Listen to what the other person has to say.

But now, there was a vague gap between the two, and the close friend who talked about everything suddenly made it clear that she no longer needed any advice from her.She asked herself, and she didn't tell the other party all the secrets unreservedly as before, seeking comfort.

All the emotions in life actually have a fragile side. Gan Lu had to think that no matter how carefully she took care of her, cracks and grievances would always appear quietly, and nothing could remain the same forever.

After sitting for a while, she settled the bill and went to the mall alone to buy a birthday present for Wu Lijun.

Shopping for a gift for your always-difficult mother-in-law is not an easy task.Wu Lijun dresses well and is low-key, with a high vision, and almost never explicitly expresses her likes and dislikes for a specific thing.

Gan Lu walked up and down in the shopping mall, looking at the clothing counters from cosmetics, accessories, and purses, feeling that it was far more laborious than shopping for herself.She suddenly realized that she actually had the same confusion when shopping for Shang Xiuwen.

She took over her father's salary very early, took care of daily expenses, took care of his daily life, and even bought clothes for him.If she ignored him, he would wear a piece of clothing repeatedly without washing it, and would not buy new ones if his underwear or socks were worn out.After work, listening to those married colleagues talking about their husbands or family affairs, she couldn't help but smile wryly, and had to think that she had been a worrying little housewife a long time ago, rather than a willful and spoiled daughter.

After she got married, she inspected Shang Xiuwen's closet, and found that there were all kinds of clothes and even underwear in it, and there was almost nothing she needed to worry about.While she was relieved, she felt that this seemed to be very different from the family life of her married colleagues.When it came to his birthday or anniversary, she was very anxious about buying gifts for him, and she came and went only to buy moderately priced belts, ties, and razors.Every time Shang Xiuwen received a gift, he always acted very happy, and he would immediately start using it with dignity.

Looking back now, she can't help but think of the Montblanc limited edition pen that He Jingyi gave to him and then passed on to Qin Wanfeng by him, and then she smiled ironically to herself from the bottom of her heart.

She didn't know whether to blame this man for hiding his past life too deeply, or to blame herself for being too dull.

Thinking of this, she was even less interested, and finally stopped in front of a certain cashmere brand counter, and picked out a pearl gray cashmere cardigan with soft tones and a generous style.She thought, this gift is the same style as the things she bought before, and it is indeed nothing new, but it is practical enough.

Gan Lu swiped the card to pay the bill, took out the bag, and received a call from Shang Xiuwen: "Lu Lu, you don't have to wait for me, today's meeting is not over yet, I guess I won't be back until midnight."

"Xiuwen, driving tired at night is too dangerous. You can come back tomorrow morning. The discharge procedure is not complicated, and I can handle it by myself." Without waiting for him to say anything, she smiled dryly, "Of course, if you call If you decide to come back overnight to touch me, then I have no choice. But I am not easy to be moved, and I will think that you want to replace your own guilt with making me feel guilty. This kind of getting along will probably improve us. Relationships don't help."

The next day, Gan Lu completed the discharge procedures and took Gambo home.Shang Xiuwen also came back from J City and drove over directly.Gambo was very happy, and directed Aunt Wang to go shopping: "Lulu and Xiuwen will eat here later."

Gan Lu smiled and agreed: "This weekend, you ask Aunt Wang to go back to see her grandson. I'll buy vegetables and cook." She turned her head and saw Shang Xiuwen leaning on the sofa rubbing his temples, "Xiuwen, go I'll lie on the bed for a while."

Aunt Wang cleaned the house very neatly, Gan Lu's room was kept as it was, and when the bed cover was lifted, Shang Xiuwen took off his coat and lay down on it. She closed the door behind her back, walked out with Aunt Wang, and then went directly to the vegetable market not far away. After shopping for groceries, I carried a bag full of hands, and started making lunch when I came back.

Before leaving the hospital, the doctor in charge of rounds came over and explained to Gan Lu in detail the dietary precautions for patients with liver cirrhosis: on the one hand, patients should take protein to increase the plasma protein content, prevent or reduce fatty infiltration of the liver, and promote Liver tissue recovery and regeneration; on the other hand, excessive protein content is taboo, which will burden the liver.Especially not long after the operation, I can still eat a light and low-sodium diet.

Gan Lu also checked the information on the Internet, and specially summed up a few points, printed them out, and pasted them on the refrigerator for Aunt Wang to pay attention to.

Naturally, the dishes she cooked today were all light, home-cooked dishes. She didn't make the stewed beef brisket with tomato that Gambo had always been thinking about.She had no choice but to comfort her father with a smile: "I really have to listen to what the doctor said, and I'll talk about it when you're completely cured. You should go and sit down quickly, don't stand for a long time."

Gamble was tired of staying in the hospital, and refused to go out. He insisted on standing by the side, claiming that he was helping her. She had no choice but to bring a chair and put it outside the kitchen door, let him sit down, and handed him broad beans : "I can't buy such fresh broad beans in the supermarket. You peel them out for me, and then add pickled vegetables and shredded pork to fry together. It must be delicious."

"Last time, Xiuwen said in the hospital that he liked the assorted casserole you made. You should make this for him today."

Gan Lu was a little surprised that her father, who had never been considerate, cared so much about this son-in-law, "I'll talk about it next time. Today I bought fish heads and made fish head tofu in a casserole." She cut the fish head in half and marinated it with salt. "He should also like to eat."

"Xiuwen seems very tired and preoccupied recently. You should care more about him."

Gan Lu could only say "hmm".

"Have you moved back yet?"

"I... will move today." She didn't hear Gambo's words for a while, and when she turned around, she saw her father looking at her suspiciously, and couldn't help smiling bitterly, "Hey, Dad, you have really good eyes, I won't lie to you .”

Gambo was relieved, and continued to peel the broad beans. Gan Lu chopped the ginger and put it on the fish head. She had already thrown away all the cooking wine here, so she could only use this method to remove the fishy smell.While she was busy mechanically, she pondered over the conversation just now. She wasn't just trying to perfunctory her father. In the current situation, it was obviously absurd to always live in someone else's house.Since she couldn't make up her mind to separate from Shang Xiuwen, she might have to move back.

She prepared all the dishes, first cleaned the rice and put it into the rice cooker, heated up the oil pan, fried the fish head until both sides were slightly yellow, then put it in the casserole and stewed it, and then went to get the broad beans, but she couldn't help laughing, just Seeing that Gambo did not know when he had pinched a few young leaves of the tender yellow sycamore tree, picked out the relatively large unpeeled broad beans, broke off two match heads and embedded them in front of the broad beans, and then inserted a leaf in the On the broad bean tail, a vivid little goldfish appeared.He has already placed several broad beans in front of him, and he is still working on them enthusiastically, but not many broad beans have been peeled seriously.

"Lulu, when you were young, you asked me to make this for you to play with. Sometimes it can be placed on a table."

Gan Lu shook her head with a smile, so she had to sit opposite him and began to peel the broad beans: "I can't expect you to help me with things."

Gamble didn't care about his daughter's complaints at all, and went to the window to pinch a few leaves: "If you say you were really good when you were young, you can play with these little goldfish for a long time by yourself."

"I like the butterfly specimens you made for me the most, and they are still in good condition."

"Well, at that time, the wages were low, and money was too tight, so I seldom bought you toys."

"Isn't this much better than a toy?" Afraid that he would sigh again, Gan Lu picked up a small goldfish he made and smiled, "It's a pity that the broad beans dry out after a long time, and they don't look good, otherwise I would have kept them forever. Oops, I have to check out the fish head."

She hurried into the kitchen, lowered the heat a little, added tofu and continued to simmer, but was startled when she came out again, and saw Shang Xiuwen sitting where she had just been, peeling broad beans and talking to Gamble at the same time , this was the first time in her memory that she saw Shang Xiuwen doing housework.On the one hand, Shang Xiuwen usually has the air of a gentleman staying away from the kitchen; on the other hand, everything in the house is basically taken care of by part-time workers, and she doesn't mind taking on the remaining limited housework.

"Why don't you get some more sleep?"

"I was woken up by the phone call," Shang Xiuwen shook his head and sighed, even on weekends, it's hard for him to have a quiet time, "Mr. Wang asked me to go to Yuanwang at three o'clock in the afternoon to hold a temporary shareholders' meeting. I hope it won't be too late. Long."

Gambo hurriedly said: "Xiuwen, just now Lulu said that she will move back today, and it happens that you are not on a business trip, so move with her. There is an elderly person at home, how can a daughter-in-law go to live in a friend's house?"

Shang Xiuwen was startled, and immediately looked at Gan Lu, Gan Lu nodded slightly imperceptibly, he stared at her closely, the smile on his lips gradually widened until his bright eyes were full of joy: "Good dad, Move back today."

This joy touched Gan Lu to some extent, she lowered her eyes, walked into the kitchen again, lost herself in the gurgling casserole, and only heard Shang Xiuwen outside say: "Dad, are you tired, why don't you lie down for a while. "

Gamble said happily, "I'm not tired. I usually like to sit here and watch Lulu cook."

Shang Xiuwen also smiled: "I also like to see her cooking," he said softly after a short pause, "I like it from the first time I saw it."

Gan Lu recalled the first time he saw her cooking. It was in the spacious and beautiful kitchen of Wu Changzhi's suburban villa. She was busy in front of the gas stove. The focus of the eyes surprised her, and it was a little awkward.That day, they had just had their first passionate kiss, but he didn't behave like an emotional man at all, and he even managed to use his indifference to dispel the little heartbeat that had just sprouted in her.

Was it that simple chorizo ​​casserole that moved him?

Gan Lu smiled wryly, she didn't think so.After eating, they hugged, kissed and talked in the glass greenhouse of the villa.However, although she was emotionally moved by the kiss in that romantic situation, she did not lose her basic and instinctive judgment—she and Shang Xiuwen obviously did not fall in love because of this.After returning from J City, their relationship was closer than before. In the eyes of others, they became a pair of lovers, but she knew that it was definitely not a passionate relationship.

I just like it.If he likes to watch her cook, she has never cooked for him again; as for her, she can only admit that she likes to see his smile, likes to get along with him easily, likes his kisses and hugs ...

Since when did this love suddenly become a true love?As soon as she recalled this, Gan Lu couldn't help but grabbed the hem of her sweater.

"What are you thinking about?"

Shang Xiuwen walked into the kitchen and handed her the broad beans that had been peeled in a large porcelain bowl. She was stunned for a moment before she came back to her senses and shook her head: "It's nothing."

She took the broad beans in a daze, went to the sink by the window to wash them, but Shang Xiuwen did not go out, came behind her, put his arms around her waist, and said softly: "Lulu, I will definitely not let you I felt like moving back was the wrong choice."

When she was busy, hugging him from behind her with his chin resting on her shoulder was also his favorite position.However, how many likes must be accumulated, and it will be converted into the determination to stay together.Gan Lu's fingers slowly stirred the green broad beans under the flow of water, feeling mixed feelings for a moment, and said softly, "I suddenly realized that, in fact, from the beginning, I had no choice."

"Why do you say that?"

She smiled wryly: "I'm just thinking wildly, there's no reason. You go out and sit with Dad for a while, and I'll cook right away."

She was cooking and listening to the sporadic chatter between her father and Shang Xiuwen outside, she couldn't help but be amazed at the degree of intimacy between them.

Shang Xiuwen has always been subtle in dealing with people, never getting too close to others, and can easily make the other party consciously keep a reasonable distance from him.However, when he and Gamble were together, he always made his father-in-law, who was somewhat socially impaired, talk to his heart's content.She could tell that Shang Xiuwen's attitude was not perfunctory, which touched her from the very beginning, and made her reflect on whether she was not sincere enough for her mother-in-law.

Now she couldn't help but think that, according to his limited memories of her, his father was smart and wise, whom he admired and missed all the time since he was a child, almost the exact opposite type of her father Gamble.She was used to everyone's pity, pity and contempt for Gamble, but he was able to show consideration and respect for her father—is this also a performance of self-control?

As soon as she thought of this, she immediately warned herself that you had already become paranoid.

(End of this chapter)