my name, your last name
Chapter 23 Who Has Been Loved By Who?
Chapter 23 Who Has Been Loved By Who?
After the meal, Gan Lu cleaned up the dishes and told Gambo to go to bed and rest: "Aunt Wang said she would be here in a while, and I bought the dishes for the evening and put them in the refrigerator. Let's go first."
Gamble nodded: "Go, don't keep running to me, just come back when you have time."
When the two went downstairs, Shang Xiuwen said, "It's still early, I'll accompany you to pack your things first."
Gan Lu nodded, and the two got into the car separately, and went back to Feng Yi'an's house. Shang Xiuwen asked her, "Is there anything that needs to be moved back?"
Gan Lu looked around the room. After she moved in, Shang Xiuwen bought a lot of daily necessities one after another. It was really not an easy task to move out all of them and return the house to Feng Yi'an as it was.
"Xiuwen, let's sit down and have a good talk, shall we?"
This is the first time she asked for a conversation recently, Shang Xiuwen nodded of course, and the two of them sat down on the sofa in the living room. I spoke.Shang Xiuwen held one of her hands and said softly: "If you are still troubled by the husband and wife obligations mentioned that day, I have the patience to wait until you fully accept me physically and mentally."
Gan Lu's face blushed involuntarily, and she confirmed again from the bottom of her heart that this man understood her unspeakable thoughts.But the more this happened, the more melancholy she became: "Xiuwen, I have already agreed to move back. No matter how hypocritical I am, I probably won't be able to stay at odds with you forever. But in the short term, I'm afraid I won't be able to...have a child."
His hand tightened slightly: "This is still not a problem, we still have a long time in the future."
"Yes, it's been a long time." Gan Lu was silent for a moment, then smiled sadly, "I used to think that we could be together for the rest of our lives, and I couldn't stop being happy. But now, I'm really scared."
"Tell me what you're afraid of."
"If I am satisfied with accepting a husband who will not cheat and is willing to be responsible, then we can live together reasonably and get along very peacefully, and no one will have to make demands on anyone beyond the ability of the other party. Some couples who are full of misunderstandings are happy. But I'm afraid I can't do that now."
"It's normal for you to have demands on me. I don't think it's enough to be your husband if you only maintain physical fidelity."
Gan Lu hesitated for a moment, as if she had made up her mind, and looked directly at him: "Xiuwen, you once loved a girl, and let her still remember your love after going through an accident. This love must be very deep. Now please Ask yourself frankly, can you still give me love? The same way you loved another person before."
"Lulu, I've said it more than once, it's different."
Gan Lu smiled: "Yeah, I know, it can't be the same. When I knew you, you had already experienced everything, you were calm and mature. It's really not right for me to ask for that kind of love from a 31-year-old man now." Ridiculously reasonable."
"Lulu, I always thought you were sensible and smart, but you would get into such a dead end. Do you still care about that past?"
"I'm not eating old vinegar. No, what I care about is not the past. I have basic respect for other people's feelings, and I don't think that as a wife, I can settle my husband's old accounts endlessly." Gan Lu Said calmly, "But people are probably a little bit greedy. I don't want my man to consume all his enthusiasm in love with other women. All he gives me is tenderness and responsibility."
"Lulu—"
"Please listen to me, okay? I have two colleagues who are both married. One of them serves his in-laws, takes care of the children, and does housework after work. He is always happy and has no regrets; the other spends time with his husband Arguing over who should cook, who should wash the dishes, and who should wipe the floor, there is a lot of complaints. You can’t say who is lazy, you can only say that the person who does it willingly is satisfied with her life and thinks her efforts are worthwhile.” Gan A slightly bitter smile appeared on the corner of Lu's mouth, "I used to be satisfied with my life, Xiuwen. But now I'm not sure, I'm afraid I will unconsciously make comparisons you think are boring in the future, and I will not be satisfied with you The tenderness and responsibility that were given to me are becoming more and more resentful, and I want more and more things that I obviously can't get. In this state, I will not be the virtuous wife you expected."
Shang Xiuwen suddenly squeezed her hand tightly: "Why do you think that I didn't treat you like I treated He Jingyi before, but that I no longer have the passion to love you. I have passed the age of shameful innocence, and I really can't do it like I did. Such a ostentatious performance in a relationship, and Lulu, I'm sure you wouldn't like me at that time, let alone accept that kind of pursuit."
"Maybe you're right." Gan Lu lost her mind slightly, and smiled self-deprecatingly, "I've always lived a very conservative and cautious life. I would envy and appreciate others who are young and frivolous, but it's unlikely that I would get involved and go crazy. I think I am Doomed not to enjoy that feeling of being in love."
"Don't compare my feelings for you with a past, let alone deny my feelings for you. If you think I'm not enthusiastic enough, I will improve..."
"No, this is where I am most confused. Xiuwen, I believe that as long as you are willing, you have a strong convincing ability. Even a suspicious person like my father has trusted you from the beginning. We have been married for more than two years, and your performance has moved me more and more, I have to admit that you have met all my expectations for marriage. But..." She stopped suddenly, bit her lips, and paused for a while before continuing, "Thinking back on my love with you now, I find that almost every step we get close to is out of your control and choice. Thinking of how you used to weigh me, observe me, and evaluate whether I would be a suitable wife, you decided to If you want to be nicer to me and be more frank, I can't help...I feel disheartened."
"You're wrong, Lulu, if you think this way, you still think of me as a perverted control freak. I have never been arrogant enough to think that I can control you. On the contrary, from the beginning when I was with you until now, I I keep worrying about gains and losses: If I continue to be reserved, will I lose you; will the things I hide from you be accepted by you; if you doubt my sincerity and no longer trust me, will I still have a chance to redeem it? ?”
Gan Lu smiled helplessly, looking for words, but could only shake her head: "I have never doubted your seriousness and sincerity in marriage, you have always been serious about being a good husband. You said I was just trying to figure it out, and it seems that you were right I am not a suspicious person. What I suspect is that your last relationship has left too much influence on you, which directly affects the way you deal with your feelings—maybe you are not sure yourself. I have never been loved by you."
There was a moment of silence in the room, and Shang Xiuwen smiled slowly: "I said, I will accept all your doubts, but what I didn't expect is that your doubts have included everything I have done. I can only Let me tell you, I never planned to sacrifice my entire life to a past, especially the life with you, which is the happiest and most cherished part of me. Lulu, at least don’t doubt this.”
Gan Lu thought that they had indeed fallen into a vicious circle. If they continued talking, they would not be relieved, but it would only increase the pain: "I can only try not to be a suspicious wife. If you want to save it, I don't want to give up lightly." .Let's try."
She stood up and was about to pack her things, but Shang Xiuwen didn't let go of her hand. She looked back at him, only to see that he raised his head slightly and stared into her eyes: "Lulu, what I want to redeem is not a name." A successful marriage in the world, I value you."
Gan Lu lowered her eyelids, avoiding his gaze: "I hope we can all be sure of what we really value and cherish. It's getting late, you go to the meeting, and I'll drive back after finishing things."
After Shang Xiuwen left, Gan Lu went to the study to install the laptop first, then found a cardboard box to put the books in, then went to the bedroom, sat on the floor, folded all the clothes, and put them into the box. It's not a taste, and I can't help laughing at myself-the end of running away from home is as ridiculous as the beginning.
She took nothing but clothes, books and a laptop, and drove back to her home.She opened the door with the key and went in. Wu Lijun, who was sitting on the sofa reading the newspaper, was obviously taken aback, and took off her reading glasses to look at her.
"Mom, I'm back."
She greeted her as before when she came back from get off work, and Wu Lijun immediately regained her composure, nodded, looked back at the newspaper, and said flatly, "Oh, I'm back."
Gan Lu thought, having a mother-in-law who is not surprised by anything can save a lot of embarrassing explanations.She handed over the gift she bought the day before: "Mom, I wish you a happy birthday, please see if it fits you."
In the past, when she bought gifts for Wu Lijun, Wu Lijun would just glance at them, say thank you lightly, and then put them aside, but now she took them, opened them immediately, and took a closer look in her hands: "I like this color."
Gan Lu couldn't get used to it: "It's fine if you like it. Mom, Xiuwen is going to Yuanwang for a meeting now, and I won't be back until later."
Wu Lijun nodded: "I'm going to lie down for a while, you should go up and rest too, and we'll have dinner together at night."
Gan Lu agreed to come down and went upstairs with her things. The room in front of her was kept tidy. It was obvious that Sister Hu was cleaning as usual.She put the clothes in the closet, didn't feel sleepy, went to the study and turned on the computer, and continued to search for information and write a thesis.Back in the familiar environment, she didn't have any emotional ups and downs, as if everything that happened during this period had become a thing of the past.
Is it really over?
Tired of writing, she mixed a cup of milk tea for herself, held it in her hand, and walked onto the terrace to look into the distance to relieve eye fatigue.The weather is not sunny, but the breath of spring is everywhere. Within her line of sight is the park where Wu Lijun often goes for a walk. The dense trees inside are dyed with a layer of fresh green like smoke, and the blowing wind is no longer It is cold and chilly, but with a few hints of inadvertent softness.
The city got rid of the long and severe winter that was said to happen once in decades, but she didn't think she had got rid of the crisis of her marriage.
The mobile phone in the study rang, and she walked back to the room to answer it. It was Shang Xiuwen who called back: "Lulu, I'm afraid I have to go with Mr. Wang to meet Chen Hua, the chairman of Yixin, and I can't accompany my mother and have you eaten."
"Mom's birthday, can't you really leave?"
"How about this? You drive your mother to the Pearl Hotel. Mr. Chen is staying here. We made an appointment to meet and have dinner on the third floor. You and your mother go to the restaurant on the top floor. It is said that the Italian food there is very authentic. I will go up there some time. Mom can understand."
Gan Lu changed her clothes, went downstairs to knock on Wu Lijun's door, and saw that Wu Lijun had changed into the cashmere cardigan she bought, paired it with a black skirt, half-high heels, a classic trench coat, and a slightly more colorful one. She wore a shawl, her face was thinly powdered, and she put on light makeup. Her demeanor was so elegant and outstanding that she had to admire it secretly.
She told Wu Lijun the situation: "Mom, Xiuwen asked me to accompany you there first."
Wu Lijun nodded, took her bag and went out with her.
Pearl Hotel is a five-star hotel by the river. The restaurant on the top floor has an Italian-style name: Tuscany Sun Restaurant, and the executive chef is invited from Europe.Gan Lu and Wu Lijun sat down and ordered food separately. Wu Lijun ordered the waiter to open a bottle of Lambrusco1915: "This is sparkling wine, with a sweet taste, and basically won't make people drunk. People who are really good wine don't drink it. We Think about it."
Gan Lu nodded, not intending to spoil her mother-in-law's interest. The waiter brought up the wine in the ice bucket and opened it, and poured it into a goblet. The deep pink wine looked very attractive and smelled With a strong fruity aroma, she picked up the wine glass and said to Wu Lijun: "Mom, happy birthday."
Wu Lijun raised his glass, touched her lightly, and took a big sip, but she only tasted a little bit. This was the second kind of wine she had ever drank. Naturally, it was not the same as the high-grade and cheap liquor her father drank. In other words, the little wine has a sweet fragrance, and the taste is long and long, but she doesn't intend to indulge herself to drink more.
Appetizers and spaghetti came up, and the two of them ate quietly as usual at home, only hearing the occasional sound of knives and forks touching each other.
Although Shang Xiuwen was not present, one of them was surnamed Wu and the other was Gan, but this seemed to be a typical Shang family gathering, and it was not as cold as usual.Although Wu Lijun didn't ask questions, she wouldn't say much either.There was no talk, no explanation, no apology, and no understanding that all grievances and grievances would be wiped out with a smile. They just calmly accepted the reality of sitting at the same table here and now.
It was as if everything that had happened had become a thing of the past—this thought resurfaced in Gan Lu's mind by accident.You're a little tangled—she can only say this to herself, of course it's over, it's over.
When the main course was served, Shang Xiuwen came over with two other men in suits. One of them she had seen before was Wang Feng, the chairman of Yuan Wang, and the other was in his thirties, tall, with a thin and thin face. A sharp and restrained face.
Wang Feng and Wu Lijun knew each other before, and he said with a smile: "Director Wu, it wasn't that Xiuwen said that he would come up to accompany you for dinner. I didn't know that today is your birthday. I'm really sorry for disturbing your family gathering."
"It's nothing, Mr. Wang, it's important for you to talk about business. Women at my age actually don't pay much attention to birthdays." Wu Lijun said politely, and then turned to another person, "This is..."
Shang Xiuwen introduced: "This is Mr. Chen, the chairman of Yixin. Mr. Chen, this is my mother, and this is my wife. Mom, Mr. Wang and Mr. Chen insist on coming up to congratulate you on your birthday in person."
"Don't dare to take it, you two are too polite."
"It should be. It's Director Wu's birthday. I'm sorry that we came here empty-handed. We can only express our gratitude with a glass of wine." Chen Hua's voice was low and thick, and he spoke Mandarin with a slight northern accent, very polite.
Wu Lijun ordered the waiter to bring three more wine glasses to pour the wine, and stood up, "Thank you, Mr. Chen and Mr. Wang, for your hospitality, and for coming here specially."
Gan Lu also got up, and lightly clinked glasses with them. Wang Feng and Chen Hua drank it down, put down their glasses and said goodbye, and Shang Xiuwen sat down: "Mom, I'm sorry, I didn't have a good meal with you today."
"Having Lulu with me is the same."
Shang Xiuwen and Gan Lu realized at the same time that Wu Lijun had always been called "Xiao Gan" in the past, and the change in this inconspicuous address made them look at each other unavoidably.
Wu Lijun didn't seem to notice their reaction at all: "Will Yixin give up the plan to acquire Xusheng?"
"It's just an exchange right now. Yixin has a huge development plan in the central region. Chen Hua has a very sharp mind. I believe he should also know that the more it is delayed, the higher his acquisition cost will be."
Wu Lijun nodded and said nothing more.Shang Xiuwen said to Gan Lu: "Lulu, I have to go down, you help me send my mother back, and drink less."
"I know." The wine in front of Gan Lu didn't touch anything at all. She had made up her mind long ago that she would not drink again unless necessary, let alone having dinner with her mother-in-law.
After Shang Xiuwen left, the mother-in-law and daughter-in-law finished their desserts, Gan Lu went to pay the bill, and went downstairs to the underground parking lot together.
Gan Lu opened the car door, and Wu Lijun sat in first.She was also about to get in the car when the phone rang and it was called by Qian Jiaxi. Her voice was hoarse and she seemed very depressed. She could only say, "Wait a minute." Then she turned and said to the mother-in-law sitting in the back seat, " Mom, I'll take a call from my friend, please sit down for a while."
Wu Lijun nodded. She drank a lot of this kind of sparkling wine, her face was slightly flushed, and she rested on the back of the chair.
Gan Lu walked away a few steps: "Jiaxi, what's wrong?"
Qian Jiaxi was silent for a long time before speaking again: "Lulu, Qin Zhan said...he plans to reconcile with Xiaopan."
Gan Lu was taken aback, she really couldn't understand such a quick and childlike separation and reunion, she simply didn't know what to say: "Jia Xi, forget it, Qin Zhan is too immature."
"He has the right to make a choice. Do you know what I hate? I thought we got along so well. I don't think it was my wishful thinking, but he said it lightly, without any nostalgia."
Gan Lu heard Qian Jiaxi's noisy voice: "Where are you now? Why don't I take my mother-in-law home first, so I can go and accompany you."
"I'm in the bar, it's okay, Lulu, a bunch of friends are together, don't come here, I just felt uncomfortable for a while, I can't help it anymore, I have to speak out." At this moment, someone over there Calling her name, she agreed, and then giggled, "I can only tell you, I'm not afraid of making jokes. I'm going to drink, we'll talk tomorrow, if I haven't forgotten about it tomorrow."
"Don't drink too much." Gan Lu could only rush to tell her. She put away her mobile phone and just turned to walk to her car, but when she saw the bright headlights coming, she squinted her eyes involuntarily. The Maserati came to a sudden stop and stopped in front of her car. The door opened, and He Jingyi, who was wearing an off-white leather jacket and jeans, stepped out.
"Good evening, Mrs. Shang." She glanced at Gan Lu with a faint smile on her face.
Gan Lu lazily replied, "Hello."
"Why are you here alone, didn't Xiuwen come back to spend the weekend with you?" Without waiting for Gan Lu to answer, He Jingyi seemed to shake her head regretfully, "It is said that Wanfeng Real Estate has just ordered Xusheng's products, the order is not big, and Qin I was always afraid of offending Yixin, and tried my best to keep a low profile, so it was impossible to achieve any great effect. However, I guess it was you who came forward to make it happen. In order to restore Xiuwen, you really tried your best."
Just as Gan Lu was about to speak, the car door opened behind her, and Wu Lijun stood up: "Lulu, help me see if the shawl is stuck on the necklace."
When He Jingyi saw Wu Lijun suddenly, she was taken aback and murmured, as if she was about to speak, but Wu Lijun didn't look at her at all, and only half turned around, motioning for Gan Lu to look at her. alright."
Wu Lijun nodded, went straight back to the car and sat down, and closed the door behind her.He Jingyi had never been ignored like this before, but she really couldn't hold up her posture in front of Wu Lijun. Her expression was changing, as if she was thinking about something.
Gan Lu said politely: "Miss He, please move the car, we are going home."
Without waiting for the other party's answer, she sat in the driver's seat, met He Jingyi's gaze, put on her seat belt first, and then quietly looked at her.He Jingyi backed away slowly, keeping her eyes on the car until she opened the car door with her backhand, sat in the car, and suddenly started the car to make way for the passage.
Gan Lu drove the car out of the underground garage and onto the boulevard. Wu Lijun's voice sounded from behind: "Lulu, she is an executive of Yixin, and her boss is here. She must be looking for her boss. It has nothing to do with Xiuwen."
Gan Lu was stunned for a moment: "I know, Mom."
"I hope you don't pay attention to her. She has never given up until she achieves her goal. Now it is clear that she wants to destroy your marriage."
Gan Lu gave an awkward "hmm". Before, Wu Lijun wouldn't talk to her like this, but now her mother-in-law seems to have subtly classified her daughter-in-law as a member of her own family, and she no longer shy away from it.
After Wu Lijun drank a little wine, she didn't behave like she usually did. She said to herself, with undisguised disgust in her voice: "Back then, she did everything she could to pester Xiuwen, and Xiuwen proposed to break up with her. , She even used tricks like pretending to commit suicide. If Xiuwen hadn't been soft-hearted, it wouldn't have caused future regret."
Gan Lu was both surprised and uncomfortable, feeling that she couldn't bear this sudden trust.She doesn't want to hear the past being stripped away like this. Those things are all parts that she didn't participate in. She is not curious, but has a faint fear. She just feels that the more facts are exposed, the less it can lead her out of the maze. On the contrary, it made her feel more confused.
"Mom, you can rest for a while, I will call you when I get home."
"In short, you don't have to pay attention to what she says in the future."
Wu Lijun finally said nothing more, and the two of them remained silent all the way.After returning home, Gan Lu asked her mother-in-law to rest early, and was about to go upstairs when Wu Lijun stopped her.
"Come to my room, Lulu."
Gan Lu had to follow her into her room.The layout here is similar to that of the upstairs, and it is also a suite where the study room is connected to the bedroom.Wu Lijun signaled her to sit down, opened the drawer, took out a photo album, opened a page and handed it to her.Gan Lu held her breath. The photo showed a family of three: Shang Xiuwen, who was only about 20 years old in the front, still had a "green" breath; Wu Lijun, who was much younger than now, was sitting on the right hand behind her, with a beautiful face and a smile on her face. Majestic; the man on the left looks to be in his 40s, with a tall and straight figure, wearing a blue T-shirt and rimless glasses, with an elegant and calm demeanor.The three of them sat under a parasol, all smiling, and seemed to be talking, not paying attention to the camera lens.
"This is Xiuwen's father." Wu Lijun said softly, pointing her finger, and then slowly stroking that face.
Gan Lu didn't know what to say, she just looked closely at Shang Xiuwen, that cheerful smile didn't have the infinite connotation when she occasionally showed her face now, but it seemed to have the breath of sunshine.
"Xiuwen may have told you about his father. He has been blaming himself and refused to forgive himself for returning home that night. But in fact, the person who should be blamed is me. At that time, I was only thinking about my political future. Indifference, even when he came back from the investigation to talk to me, I said that I had no time and had to write materials. When it was irreversible, it would be too late to regret.” Wu Lijun’s voice was hoarse, full of grief, took the photo album, and held it for a long time. watch.
"Mom, Dad definitely wants you and Xiuwen to live a good life. Don't think about the past."
"How could he not want to? Xiuwen, like me, probably never let go of this matter. I used to always hope that he would be more mature and calm, but later I saw that he was even more restrained than his father, and he took everything in his heart. I'm scared...Xiuwen is becoming more and more like his father."
Gan Lu felt the same way, and she marveled in her heart that Shang Xiuwen had a similar appearance to his mother, but carried the temperament characteristics of his father. When he was young, he was high-spirited and not obvious, but now he is very prominent.
Wu Lijun suddenly looked up at Gan Lu: "Lulu, Xiuwen loves you. After marrying you, he has changed a lot. I am very relieved to see it. It's just that he, like his father, would rather bear the pressure alone. You must try Please understand him more, tolerate him, and maintain your marriage well."
"Mom, I understand, I will try to understand Xiuwen."
Gan Lu was unwilling to go against the rare frankness of a mother who had always been taciturn and proud, but she sighed in her heart that after all, marriage depended on the efforts of both parties. If he still chose to bear everything alone, how could she clearly feel his sincerity.
Especially with such an ex-girlfriend watching over her.It's really not easy for her to ignore her like Wu Lijun said.
It was Wu Lijun who occupied He Jingyi's mind at this moment.
She was sitting with her hands on the steering wheel, and the silver-gray Bora had disappeared from her sight. Except for the occasional vehicles coming in and out, the lights in the underground garage were dim and eerily quiet.
She didn't expect to meet Wu Lijun here, and the part of her memories that had been deliberately sealed up by her suddenly flooded up uncontrollably.
Wu Lijun met her more than once before, and from the first time, it was definitely not pleasant.
Wu Lijun didn't look at her at all, her eyes were cold, and she said in a flat voice: "I don't think Xiuwen is suitable for you. However, it is impossible not to make mistakes when you are young. I will not interfere with you. I know my son. He will realize it sooner or later. at this point."
"Auntie, I know my family's conditions are not good, but..."
Wu Lijun frowned: "This has nothing to do with family conditions. I was only born in a poor teacher's family. I will try my best to speak in terms you can understand. It's up to you whether you understand it or not. Not the same, you are not the same people, sooner or later you will be separated."
At that time, she was only in her early twenties. She had outstanding looks since she was a child, and her personality has always been stubborn and arrogant. She was irritated by this assertion, but she was also intimidated by Wu Lijun's aura, and she could not refute it at all.She only secretly made up her mind that she must stay with Shang Xiuwen for a longer period of time, "I'm mad at you" - of course, she only dared to grit her teeth and say it to herself fiercely.
But she has hidden worries in her heart.
She and Shang Xiuwen are still too young, no matter how passionately they are in love, it is far away from everlasting.Moreover, she had to admit that part of what Wu Lijun said was something she couldn't refute. Her noisy and poor family was too different from the Shang family.Although his father and brother started doing business under Shang Xiuwen's arrangement, and the family began to be well-off, they still couldn't have the same quiet cultivation as the Shang family.
The family flattered Shang Xiuwen to such an extent that she couldn't stand it anymore. Under this atmosphere, she gradually became worried about her gains and losses, and gradually she was unable to maintain the calm and proud posture of a beautiful girl when she first met Shang Xiuwen.
When her father and brother used Wu Lijun's signboard to cause trouble outside for the first time, Wu Lijun called her and Shang Xiuwen over at the same time, but didn't look at her at all. I understand, the little indifference towards her before was really polite.
"You should break up with her," Wu Lijun said without any room for negotiation, "give her family a sum of money to compensate, or there will be a catastrophe one day."
Shang Xiuwen looked at the back of his mother who was leaving in a huff, and remained silent for a long time. He Jingyi's heart rose to her throat, her mouth was dry, and when Shang Xiuwen turned to look at her, she burst into tears. Shang Xiuwen froze for a while, She put her arms around her, and she felt relieved: "Xiuwen, I'll go back and tell my father and brother to make sure they don't do this kind of thing again, and I'll ask them to come and apologize to your mother."
"My mother won't accept an apology. This kind of thing really can't happen again, otherwise..." Shang Xiuwen stopped, but she could understand what this "otherwise" meant.
After she went home and quarreled fiercely with her family and said hurtful words to each other, her father and brother restrained themselves for a while, and then reverted to their old ways.Disputes broke out between her and Shang Xiuwen. From the initial acting like a baby to her crying and redeeming, their differences became bigger and bigger.Shang Xiuwen even went to have a long talk with her father and elder brother in person, but what he received was completely opposite.
His father and his brother said worryingly in front of her at home: "He has already talked about this. It seems that the two of you can't make it together. We have to hurry up, otherwise don't talk about making money in the future. The company can do it." It will be a problem if we can’t continue to drive.”
She was so cold that she didn't know what to say, she waved her hand fiercely, and swept all the dishes on the table to the floor, then hugged her mother and cried, her mother comforted her and said, "It would be great if you could marry him. Alas, I don’t know if you have that life. Anyway, you still have to hold on to him.”
Is this a relief, she thought?
This is her first love, what she paid was love, what Shang Xiuwen's good conditions moved was her family, and what moved her was him, she wanted to hold on to him, just for herself, she knew she couldn't find anyone else Let her love her like this, or love her like this.
After Shang Xiuwen's father knew that her brother was discussing cooperation with others under the banner of his company, he immediately cut off all economic exchanges and cooperation between the two parties. Offered a breakup.
He looked exhausted: "Jingyi, I'm tired. I don't want our relationship to become a reason for your family to give and take anything. If I only need to give, I can tolerate it, but this has already endangered my family. I can't continue. down."
Crying and threatening her have been used many times, this time she used a more drastic move.She took sleeping pills, and then sent a text message to Shang Xiuwen who refused to answer her phone.She didn't simply make a gesture, but took a fatal dose.She was indeed desperate, if Shang Xiuwen left her alone, she was ready to die.
She woke up in the hospital, opened her eyes, and the first thing she saw was Wu Lijun. This was the only time Wu Lijun looked at her directly. Her eyes were so sharp that she seemed to have seen through her, making her feel that she had nowhere to hide.
"This method is too despicable." Wu Lijun's voice was not loud, but very clear.
Shang Xiuwen, who was standing on the other side, called out, "Mom—"
Wu Lijun looked at her son coldly: "For such a girl, I'm going to blush for you." She left this sentence, turned and left.
Shang Xiuwen stayed as she wished, he was very considerate to her, but this kind of consideration was not as close as before.She clings to him more and more, but is more and more afraid that he will break up again.An untimely remark from her mother slipped up and disturbed her, and she surreptitiously stopped the pill.
However, while she was pregnant, her father and brother were involved in a complicated case and were imprisoned at the same time.
She found Shang Xiuwen in anxiety, and Shang Xiuwen looked even more devastated, and couldn't even hear her finish, so she hurried to the airport to go out to deal with business disputes, and just told her to go home and stay well, don't run around , I will contact you when I have time.
But she couldn't wait at home safely.Her mother cried all day long, sometimes thinking wildly, and sometimes urging her to go to Shang Xiuwen's parents for help: "One is your father and the other is your brother. No matter how much you hate them, you can't just watch them go to jail."
She really couldn't just sit back and watch her father and brother ignore him, so she gritted her teeth and went to Shang Xiuwen's house, but the nanny refused her, so she had to show her only card: "Go and tell Uncle Shang that I have Xiuwen's child. If you don't let me in, I will stand here and not leave."
Surprised, the nanny hurried in and out, and finally took her in.To her surprise, Shang Xiuwen's father was not there, and Wu Lijun and her brother-in-law Wu Changzhi and his wife were sitting inside.
Wu Lijun looked bored and didn't even bother to talk to her.Wu Changzhi asked her: "Does Xiuwen know that you are pregnant? I don't believe he is so foolish that he still has a child now, unless he wants to piss off his parents."
She murmured: "He doesn't know, I... haven't told him yet."
Wu Changzhi looked at her thoughtfully. He had sharp eyes that resembled his sister's. He Jingyi suddenly felt that just like that time in the hospital, her scheming was understood by the other party. This silent judgment made her blush for a while. For a while, he could only lower his eyes in embarrassment.Wu Changzhi said clearly: "Miss He, if you are really pregnant, you must abort the child."
It was as if she had been hit in the head: "Unless Shang Xiuwen tells me this."
"Xiuwen's mother was implicated in your father's and brother's case, and is currently under investigation by the organization; his father was double-regulated for half a month, and he was just released home the day before yesterday, and he may still be sued; Xiuwen is running around trying to reduce the company's losses. In this case, do you think it is possible for you to be together?"
She thought desperately, this disaster was far greater than she imagined, how could she ask the Shang family to help her father and brother, but she couldn't help but say: "I came today to beg you, save my father and brother."
"Don't make unrealistic demands, Miss He, that's impossible."
"After all, I'm pregnant with Xiuwen's child, for the sake of the child..."
Wu Lijun was obviously furious, stood up suddenly, and said coldly: "You don't have any basic sense of shame, Ms. He, don't expect me to admit you with the child in your stomach. Tell Shang Let me tell Xiuwen, the disaster was caused by him, and he should bear the responsibility. He is an adult, and it is impossible for his parents to clean up this mess for him. I just pretend that I didn't have this son. "
Wu Lijun's tough attitude made He Jingyi no luck.After having caused an unreasonable disaster to Shang's family, she didn't have the courage to tell Shang Xiuwen about the accident she deliberately gave him. She returned home in a daze, keeping silent to her mother's urgent questioning.
One day later, Wu Changzhi came to the door and told her directly: "Miss He, you go and get rid of this child, and I will leave a sum of money for you."
"I don't want money, I want..."
"There is no condition to talk about, Ms. He, it's ridiculous to talk about such things at my age, but Xiuwen is my only nephew, and I can't just watch his life be ruined by you."
Her mother had obviously been eavesdropping outside, at this moment she opened the door and came in and said, "Xiao Jing, your father and brother's lawsuit needs money."
He Jingyi has no choice.Accompanied by Wu Changzhi's wife who came here specially, she went to the hospital. The fetus was aborted in less than two months. She was surprised by the quickness and simplicity, and she didn't even feel pain.
But when she was sitting outside the operating room and saw Wu Changzhi's wife calling Wu Lijun to report the news with a very indifferent tone, she was still angry from the bottom of her heart, took out her mobile phone, called Shang Xiuwen, and said fiercely: "You are satisfied." Well, I just killed your child, it was your mother and your uncle who forced me together."
Shang Xiuwen had just come back from other places, he was taken aback and rushed to the hospital immediately, her nameless anger dissipated, only grievance remained, she fell on him and cried loudly.Wu Changzhi's wife said disgustedly: "It's too ridiculous to insist on asking for 20 more before letting go, and pretending to be a chaste and strong woman, saying that others are forcing you."
"This matter should be handled by me, how can you..."
"Xiuwen, don't think that your uncle and I are willing to do this kind of evil. Your mother and your father have already had a big fight over this. Don't you understand what time it is now? Your mother's political future is in jeopardy, and your father... ..."
"Forget it, aunt, I'm sorry, I know everything, you can go back first."
Shang Xiuwen sent her home and asked her to rest on the bed. He sat on the edge of the bed and was lost in thought. She secretly looked at his thin and tired face with no expression, and countless thoughts were spinning in her heart.
"Jingyi, I have to go back. My father has just been released from double regulations. I came back from a business trip today, and I haven't had time to see him yet."
But she clung to him tightly and kept crying.She actually understood that they were unlikely to be saved, but she thought capriciously, if she could stay a little longer, just stay a little longer.
However, her willfulness this time made a big mistake again. Shang Xiuwen's father had a heart attack that night, and when Shang Xiuwen rushed home, his father had already passed away.
The impact of that economic case is getting bigger and bigger, more and more people are involved, and there are different opinions on the inside story.He Jingyi's father was finally released on bail pending trial due to illness, but then he got into a bizarre car accident, was seriously injured and fell into a vegetative state, and never regained consciousness.She and her mother waited in the hospital day and night, seeing the money being spent like running water, so exhausted, she couldn't bear it anymore, and called Shang Xiuwen again, crying about the tragic situation at home, but Shang Xiuwen clearly refused to communicate with her. She meets.
The next day, Shang Shaokun, who came back from abroad to attend the funeral, found the hospital and handed her a big envelope: "Xiuwen can only do this for you, please think about him, and don't go to him again." .”
Shang Shaokun and her family were neighbors before their parents passed away, and they always regarded her as their younger sister. She met Shang Xiuwen and was introduced by Shang Shaokun.However, he stood in front of her with a blank expression on his face, his eyes swept away from her father on the hospital bed and her mother who was staring at the envelope containing the money, with cold hatred.
"Brother Shaokun, how is Xiuwen doing now?" She could only ask him.
"He is ending the company's operations, and he has suffered heavy losses." Shang Shaokun said briefly, "I regret introducing you to each other. My aunt is very cold, but she is absolutely right about you and your family."
Holding the thick envelope, watching Shang Shaokun walk away, her legs gave way and she sat down beside the hospital bed.
A few months later, her father died in the hospital, and her brother was sentenced. Regardless of her mother's entreaties, she left the money to her to arrange her life, and went out of town alone before graduating.
He Jingyi put her head heavily on the steering wheel.
What she always recalled repeatedly in her heart were the happy times with Shang Xiuwen, the first time he met her, he took her for a drive, he kissed her for the first time, he took her shopping in Hong Kong, taught her to eat western food, accompanied her She went abroad for vacation... Her youth was enriched because of him, and her memories were always rosy because of this love.
She has always fixed her memory here, refusing to touch the subsequent great changes.
But today, Wu Lijun suddenly appeared, breaking all her self-deception.Those painful past events flashed through her mind one by one, and her tears flowed down quietly, dripping on the red leather steering wheel cover.
After sitting for an unknown amount of time, He Jingyi put down the sun visor and looked at herself in the makeup mirror.A pair of red, swollen and bloodshot eyes were reflected in the narrow mirror, which was no longer as clear and moving as before.
She stared at her for a long time, but there seemed to be another pair of eyes in front of her eyes, as clear and calm as autumn water, looking at her through the front windshield of the car, without a trace of evasion or urgency—what kind of leisurely and calm attitude can a woman have? have such eyes.
She always thought that she should be the more confident and determined person, but now, she had to deeply doubt this.
Glancing at her watch, she was taken aback.She came here at the call of her boss, Chen Hua. Not only was she late, but she also had such an appearance that she had to take out her makeup bag and try her best to make up for it.
When she arrived at the administrative floor where Chen Hua lived, she ran into Shang Xiuwen and Wang Feng coming out of Chen Hua's room. She looked at the two in amazement, and quickly thought about the meaning of their meeting with Chen Hua without telling her in advance. .
Shang Xiuwen nodded to her lightly, and had already passed her by, she called him: "Xiuwen, please wait a moment, I have something to tell you."
Wang Feng patted Shang Xiuwen on the shoulder: "I'll go first."
Shang Xiuwen stood still: "Please speak."
Since they met for the first time last year, Shang Xiuwen has maintained a polite attitude towards her. There is no joy of meeting again, but there is no hatred that makes her afraid. memory.However, now that they are standing one step away, the light is shining softly, and she can clearly see that there is only a business-like indifference in his demeanor. She is so cold in her heart, but she smiles: "It's not necessarily talking in the corridor, right? Go to the executive lounge over there."
He Jingyi ordered a glass of whiskey with ice, but Shang Xiuwen just shook his head at the waiter.
"Are you here to persuade Mr. Chen to give up the acquisition plan of Xusheng?"
"We're just communicating."
"I am in charge of this project. In fact, it is more effective for you to communicate with me."
Shang Xiuwen smiled slightly: "You have brought your personal emotions into your work, I don't think we need to communicate at all."
He Jingyi clenched her teeth: "What reason do you have to question me like this?"
"I have studied Yixin's investment direction in recent years. It is indeed very broad, but it is mainly concentrated in commercial real estate and related industries. It will extend its tentacles to J City's mining, smelting and steel manufacturing. It should be a brand new attempt. You probably can’t deny that this investment plan was proposed by you.”
He Jingyi said coldly: "All investment plans of the group must be strictly reviewed, and it cannot be an individual's behavior."
"This is an industry with great potential, and it is worth investing in. However, I think you will choose Xusheng, a company with highly concentrated equity and not easy to acquire, to start with. I think it has your personal interest and grievances in it."
He Jingyi held onto the table and almost stood up. She said hoarsely, "Have you told Mr. Chen this opinion? How could you do this?"
"I won't judge his employees casually in front of the boss." Shang Xiuwen looked at his watch, a little impatience flashed between his brows, "I don't need to talk about this matter at all, Mr. Chen will make his own judgment."
She suddenly lost her mind, and her eyes fell on his watch. He was wearing an ordinary steel watch with a price of about two thousand yuan. She could not but secretly sigh, every bit of this man has become completely She was unfamiliar, and every time a similar thought flashed in her heart, she would feel confused and disturbed for a while, and could only force herself to calm down.
"You are very objective in my analysis, so please ask yourself, don't you also have personal emotions in your rejection of Yixin's acquisition plan? You have no interest in Xusheng at all, otherwise you wouldn't have been hiding behind the scenes for so many years. Let your uncle manage it. What you can’t accept now is that I represent Yixin to annex your family’s business. In fact, I don’t mean to fight against you personally. We can sit down and have a good talk. It hurt both of us.”
"Miss He, is my attitude not clear enough? It is impossible for my uncle to cooperate with Yixin, and it is impossible for me to cooperate with you."
Shang Xiuwen's voice was calm, but He Jingyi heard the meaning of determination. She suppressed her confusion and said coldly: "Anyway, it's only a matter of time before Xu Sheng is acquired. Don't think that Wanfeng started ordering Xu Sheng's products. The product means that Xusheng has got rid of the trouble, and Mr. Qin said in front of me that it was a contract signed by the purchasing manager without knowing it, and the quantity is limited, so it doesn't affect the overall situation at all."
"You go to cross-examine Mr. Qin. This is not a smart thing to do. He has already given Mr. Chen a lot of face. But we don't need to discuss this matter, Miss He."
He was about to get up, when He Jingyi suddenly pressed his hand: "Did your wife tell you that I have an shady relationship with Chen Hua? I knew that her mother married Qin Wanfeng, so she would definitely inquire about my past. actually, I……"
Shang Xiuwen withdrew his hand and said calmly: "My wife has never been in the mood to gossip. No, she never told me anything about you."
He Jingyi sneered: "In front of me, you don't have to deliberately defend her like this."
"You're guessing my behavior based on your own imagination again, it doesn't make any sense." Shang Xiuwen said seriously, "She is my wife, and I don't need to deliberately protect her at all."
"But don't misunderstand me, Xiuwen, after I left City W, I had a very difficult life..."
"No, please don't recall to me, and you don't need to tell me anything, everyone is responsible for their own lives. If there is nothing else, I will take a step first."
Shang Xiuwen got up to leave, and He Jingyi watched the slender and straight back disappear, only feeling that the pain in his heart had been magnified to the point of numbness.
She finished drinking the glass of whiskey, walked outside the big suite where Chen Hua lived, and knocked lightly on the door.Chen Hua came over to open the door for her with a glass of wine, with a slight smile on his lips: "Please sit down, Jingyi, you are too late."
"I'm sorry, Chairman." She had to bow her head and apologize.
"I have already talked with Wang Feng and Shang Xiuwen. Please re-evaluate the acquisition plan for Xusheng and submit a detailed report to me."
"Chairman, please listen to me. I met with several main leaders of the smelter in J City yesterday. They were very satisfied with the conditions I proposed and agreed to do the work of the workers' congress. I believe that the balance of the smelter's reorganization will soon be tilted." Come to Yixin. We have already controlled the supply of iron ore. As long as we win the smelter, it will be futile for Xusheng to sell it. The Municipal Economic Commission will also urge them to sit down and negotiate with us on the terms of the acquisition.”
"If I remember correctly, two months ago, you told me that there is no problem with the merger of the smelter and the acquisition of Xusheng. If it continues, the cost will become higher and higher, which will affect the investment and development of the entire central region plan."
"I promise, I will deal with this matter in the shortest possible time."
Chen Hua took a sip of wine and put down his glass: "That's good. Let's talk about local investment projects. During the meeting this morning, I was sorry to see that Xinhe only took up a very small part of this plan, but the boss Shen's next executive general manager has far more understanding of the entire project than you."
He Jingyi's heart sank.The meeting in the morning was to discuss the launch of Yixin's largest investment project in the local area. Shen Jiaxing, the chairman of Xinhe, and Nie Qian, the executive general manager, attended the meeting. Originally, they were only present to accompany the last seat, but He Jingyi rushed from J city because of the late night Come back, obviously out of shape.After she reported, she couldn't give him a satisfactory answer to the few questions Chen Hua asked.As soon as Nie Qian opened his mouth, everyone was impressed. He had a calm attitude and fluent answers. His understanding of the whole plan was obviously not limited to the small part of Xinhe Development. The meeting basically turned into a separate exchange between him and Chen Hua.
"I'm sorry." To the boss, it was impossible to explain the reason, not to mention that she couldn't come up with any explanation. She was really eager to complete the merger of Xusheng, so she ignored other projects, but Chen Hua was never a capable person. People who make people perfunctory.
Sure enough, Chen Hua said lightly: "It is the first time that you are fully responsible for the investment of the entire region. I approve of the investment plan you put forward, but it does not mean that I approve of your execution ability. Please submit the report as soon as possible, and the board of directors will judge your investment plan." work effectiveness."
He Jingyi only felt exhausted for a while. Since she was in charge of the central investment plan, she has entered a state of overloaded work. Coupled with the psychological shock brought about by the reunion with Shang Xiuwen, it has indeed greatly affected her judgment and work. efficiency.She couldn't support herself any longer and leaned against the back of the sofa.
Chen Hua looked her up, got up and took a wine glass, poured a glass of wine and put it in front of her: "If you are tired, you can ask for leave to rest for a while."
She smiled wryly: "Chairman, don't you need me to submit a report, you have already rated my ability."
"You've been working hard. However, I think you do need to adjust."
"So, I have no other choice."
"If you can win the smelter within the planned time, you still have a chance."
He Jingyi nodded: "Okay."
"You will work so hard to this extent, I admit, it has indeed exceeded my original expectations."
He Jingyi smiled sadly: "But this didn't get rid of my reputation as a vase."
"When you achieve a sufficient status, the hero doesn't ask where he came from. Jingyi, have you ever seen a reporter come to ask me about my past?"
He Jingyi shook her head: "No one has the guts."
"No," Chen Hua also shook his head, "Actually, it's because I'm calm enough to face all the questioning. Being my lover is not a scandal. If you mind, you can't blame others for minding too."
"Am I the only woman who refuses to be your lover and is willing to be your subordinate?" The atmosphere seemed to relax, He Jingyi asked suddenly.
Chen Hua nodded: "Originally, I wouldn't be willing to work with a woman I slept with. You are an exception. I gave you a chance, but it's your own hard work that made it to this point today."
This gentle comment caused He Jingyi to have mixed feelings, as if there was a choke in her throat: "If I say I'm tired from doing it, I'd like to..."
Chen Hua laughed and said, "No, Jingyi, you think I can give you many choices and opportunities at the same time, but obviously you still don't know me well enough. When I met you six years ago, you were a wandering girl, but you were like Hedgehog, prickly, defensive, fun. Now you're a career woman, hard working, a competent employee, but I seem to have said long ago that I'm not interested in having a personal relationship with my subordinates .”
He Jingyi's face was burning like fire, and she realized that she just said something irreparably stupid.
The man in front of her was something she never dared to say she was sure of. During the year she was with him, she was full of frustration, and the way he comforted her was to give her a credit card and encourage her to spend money; she said she wanted to go to school , he helped her find a good school; he bought her the car she liked without blinking an eye.
Everyone thought that he doted on her and responded to her requests.Only she understands that the love she has experienced is not like this, what he pays is only money, not sincerity.He didn't take her seriously at all, and she couldn't understand this unfathomable man, let alone control him.
Her sense of insecurity became stronger day by day, partly because of probing, partly because she wanted to start a job to gain independence instead of repeating the same mistakes, so she proposed to him that she wanted to work in his company.
He said seriously: "Please think clearly, being my employee means that you are no longer my lover. I never sleep with company employees."
She gritted her teeth and nodded in agreement.Sure enough, he moved out of the apartment he bought for her that day, asked his secretary to suspend her credit card the next day, and arranged for her to report to the company's investment department. No matter what occasion he met her in the future, there was no ambiguity at all. Treat other employees no differently.
Now she finally survived the stage where everyone doubted her ability and looked sideways at her. She has been promoted continuously in the company. Although there are still people who gossip about her and whisper about her past from time to time, no one dares to question her openly. .
She has worked so hard to achieve today's success, and when she was at her most beautiful, she didn't see any hint of his retention, so she readily let her go.He just finds her interesting, how dare she expect that he is still interested in her now.
She could only attribute what she said just now to a coincidence, or she was a little disturbed by being stimulated by Shang Xiuwen's indifference.
She laughed dryly twice, picked up the wine glass and drank it down: "I'm sorry, Chairman, after finishing Xusheng's merger, I really have to take a vacation and have a good rest."
He Jingyi put down her wine glass and resigned, took the elevator down to the underground garage, leaned on the steering wheel of the Maserati again, and said to herself: Yes, you have no other choice for a long time.
(End of this chapter)
After the meal, Gan Lu cleaned up the dishes and told Gambo to go to bed and rest: "Aunt Wang said she would be here in a while, and I bought the dishes for the evening and put them in the refrigerator. Let's go first."
Gamble nodded: "Go, don't keep running to me, just come back when you have time."
When the two went downstairs, Shang Xiuwen said, "It's still early, I'll accompany you to pack your things first."
Gan Lu nodded, and the two got into the car separately, and went back to Feng Yi'an's house. Shang Xiuwen asked her, "Is there anything that needs to be moved back?"
Gan Lu looked around the room. After she moved in, Shang Xiuwen bought a lot of daily necessities one after another. It was really not an easy task to move out all of them and return the house to Feng Yi'an as it was.
"Xiuwen, let's sit down and have a good talk, shall we?"
This is the first time she asked for a conversation recently, Shang Xiuwen nodded of course, and the two of them sat down on the sofa in the living room. I spoke.Shang Xiuwen held one of her hands and said softly: "If you are still troubled by the husband and wife obligations mentioned that day, I have the patience to wait until you fully accept me physically and mentally."
Gan Lu's face blushed involuntarily, and she confirmed again from the bottom of her heart that this man understood her unspeakable thoughts.But the more this happened, the more melancholy she became: "Xiuwen, I have already agreed to move back. No matter how hypocritical I am, I probably won't be able to stay at odds with you forever. But in the short term, I'm afraid I won't be able to...have a child."
His hand tightened slightly: "This is still not a problem, we still have a long time in the future."
"Yes, it's been a long time." Gan Lu was silent for a moment, then smiled sadly, "I used to think that we could be together for the rest of our lives, and I couldn't stop being happy. But now, I'm really scared."
"Tell me what you're afraid of."
"If I am satisfied with accepting a husband who will not cheat and is willing to be responsible, then we can live together reasonably and get along very peacefully, and no one will have to make demands on anyone beyond the ability of the other party. Some couples who are full of misunderstandings are happy. But I'm afraid I can't do that now."
"It's normal for you to have demands on me. I don't think it's enough to be your husband if you only maintain physical fidelity."
Gan Lu hesitated for a moment, as if she had made up her mind, and looked directly at him: "Xiuwen, you once loved a girl, and let her still remember your love after going through an accident. This love must be very deep. Now please Ask yourself frankly, can you still give me love? The same way you loved another person before."
"Lulu, I've said it more than once, it's different."
Gan Lu smiled: "Yeah, I know, it can't be the same. When I knew you, you had already experienced everything, you were calm and mature. It's really not right for me to ask for that kind of love from a 31-year-old man now." Ridiculously reasonable."
"Lulu, I always thought you were sensible and smart, but you would get into such a dead end. Do you still care about that past?"
"I'm not eating old vinegar. No, what I care about is not the past. I have basic respect for other people's feelings, and I don't think that as a wife, I can settle my husband's old accounts endlessly." Gan Lu Said calmly, "But people are probably a little bit greedy. I don't want my man to consume all his enthusiasm in love with other women. All he gives me is tenderness and responsibility."
"Lulu—"
"Please listen to me, okay? I have two colleagues who are both married. One of them serves his in-laws, takes care of the children, and does housework after work. He is always happy and has no regrets; the other spends time with his husband Arguing over who should cook, who should wash the dishes, and who should wipe the floor, there is a lot of complaints. You can’t say who is lazy, you can only say that the person who does it willingly is satisfied with her life and thinks her efforts are worthwhile.” Gan A slightly bitter smile appeared on the corner of Lu's mouth, "I used to be satisfied with my life, Xiuwen. But now I'm not sure, I'm afraid I will unconsciously make comparisons you think are boring in the future, and I will not be satisfied with you The tenderness and responsibility that were given to me are becoming more and more resentful, and I want more and more things that I obviously can't get. In this state, I will not be the virtuous wife you expected."
Shang Xiuwen suddenly squeezed her hand tightly: "Why do you think that I didn't treat you like I treated He Jingyi before, but that I no longer have the passion to love you. I have passed the age of shameful innocence, and I really can't do it like I did. Such a ostentatious performance in a relationship, and Lulu, I'm sure you wouldn't like me at that time, let alone accept that kind of pursuit."
"Maybe you're right." Gan Lu lost her mind slightly, and smiled self-deprecatingly, "I've always lived a very conservative and cautious life. I would envy and appreciate others who are young and frivolous, but it's unlikely that I would get involved and go crazy. I think I am Doomed not to enjoy that feeling of being in love."
"Don't compare my feelings for you with a past, let alone deny my feelings for you. If you think I'm not enthusiastic enough, I will improve..."
"No, this is where I am most confused. Xiuwen, I believe that as long as you are willing, you have a strong convincing ability. Even a suspicious person like my father has trusted you from the beginning. We have been married for more than two years, and your performance has moved me more and more, I have to admit that you have met all my expectations for marriage. But..." She stopped suddenly, bit her lips, and paused for a while before continuing, "Thinking back on my love with you now, I find that almost every step we get close to is out of your control and choice. Thinking of how you used to weigh me, observe me, and evaluate whether I would be a suitable wife, you decided to If you want to be nicer to me and be more frank, I can't help...I feel disheartened."
"You're wrong, Lulu, if you think this way, you still think of me as a perverted control freak. I have never been arrogant enough to think that I can control you. On the contrary, from the beginning when I was with you until now, I I keep worrying about gains and losses: If I continue to be reserved, will I lose you; will the things I hide from you be accepted by you; if you doubt my sincerity and no longer trust me, will I still have a chance to redeem it? ?”
Gan Lu smiled helplessly, looking for words, but could only shake her head: "I have never doubted your seriousness and sincerity in marriage, you have always been serious about being a good husband. You said I was just trying to figure it out, and it seems that you were right I am not a suspicious person. What I suspect is that your last relationship has left too much influence on you, which directly affects the way you deal with your feelings—maybe you are not sure yourself. I have never been loved by you."
There was a moment of silence in the room, and Shang Xiuwen smiled slowly: "I said, I will accept all your doubts, but what I didn't expect is that your doubts have included everything I have done. I can only Let me tell you, I never planned to sacrifice my entire life to a past, especially the life with you, which is the happiest and most cherished part of me. Lulu, at least don’t doubt this.”
Gan Lu thought that they had indeed fallen into a vicious circle. If they continued talking, they would not be relieved, but it would only increase the pain: "I can only try not to be a suspicious wife. If you want to save it, I don't want to give up lightly." .Let's try."
She stood up and was about to pack her things, but Shang Xiuwen didn't let go of her hand. She looked back at him, only to see that he raised his head slightly and stared into her eyes: "Lulu, what I want to redeem is not a name." A successful marriage in the world, I value you."
Gan Lu lowered her eyelids, avoiding his gaze: "I hope we can all be sure of what we really value and cherish. It's getting late, you go to the meeting, and I'll drive back after finishing things."
After Shang Xiuwen left, Gan Lu went to the study to install the laptop first, then found a cardboard box to put the books in, then went to the bedroom, sat on the floor, folded all the clothes, and put them into the box. It's not a taste, and I can't help laughing at myself-the end of running away from home is as ridiculous as the beginning.
She took nothing but clothes, books and a laptop, and drove back to her home.She opened the door with the key and went in. Wu Lijun, who was sitting on the sofa reading the newspaper, was obviously taken aback, and took off her reading glasses to look at her.
"Mom, I'm back."
She greeted her as before when she came back from get off work, and Wu Lijun immediately regained her composure, nodded, looked back at the newspaper, and said flatly, "Oh, I'm back."
Gan Lu thought, having a mother-in-law who is not surprised by anything can save a lot of embarrassing explanations.She handed over the gift she bought the day before: "Mom, I wish you a happy birthday, please see if it fits you."
In the past, when she bought gifts for Wu Lijun, Wu Lijun would just glance at them, say thank you lightly, and then put them aside, but now she took them, opened them immediately, and took a closer look in her hands: "I like this color."
Gan Lu couldn't get used to it: "It's fine if you like it. Mom, Xiuwen is going to Yuanwang for a meeting now, and I won't be back until later."
Wu Lijun nodded: "I'm going to lie down for a while, you should go up and rest too, and we'll have dinner together at night."
Gan Lu agreed to come down and went upstairs with her things. The room in front of her was kept tidy. It was obvious that Sister Hu was cleaning as usual.She put the clothes in the closet, didn't feel sleepy, went to the study and turned on the computer, and continued to search for information and write a thesis.Back in the familiar environment, she didn't have any emotional ups and downs, as if everything that happened during this period had become a thing of the past.
Is it really over?
Tired of writing, she mixed a cup of milk tea for herself, held it in her hand, and walked onto the terrace to look into the distance to relieve eye fatigue.The weather is not sunny, but the breath of spring is everywhere. Within her line of sight is the park where Wu Lijun often goes for a walk. The dense trees inside are dyed with a layer of fresh green like smoke, and the blowing wind is no longer It is cold and chilly, but with a few hints of inadvertent softness.
The city got rid of the long and severe winter that was said to happen once in decades, but she didn't think she had got rid of the crisis of her marriage.
The mobile phone in the study rang, and she walked back to the room to answer it. It was Shang Xiuwen who called back: "Lulu, I'm afraid I have to go with Mr. Wang to meet Chen Hua, the chairman of Yixin, and I can't accompany my mother and have you eaten."
"Mom's birthday, can't you really leave?"
"How about this? You drive your mother to the Pearl Hotel. Mr. Chen is staying here. We made an appointment to meet and have dinner on the third floor. You and your mother go to the restaurant on the top floor. It is said that the Italian food there is very authentic. I will go up there some time. Mom can understand."
Gan Lu changed her clothes, went downstairs to knock on Wu Lijun's door, and saw that Wu Lijun had changed into the cashmere cardigan she bought, paired it with a black skirt, half-high heels, a classic trench coat, and a slightly more colorful one. She wore a shawl, her face was thinly powdered, and she put on light makeup. Her demeanor was so elegant and outstanding that she had to admire it secretly.
She told Wu Lijun the situation: "Mom, Xiuwen asked me to accompany you there first."
Wu Lijun nodded, took her bag and went out with her.
Pearl Hotel is a five-star hotel by the river. The restaurant on the top floor has an Italian-style name: Tuscany Sun Restaurant, and the executive chef is invited from Europe.Gan Lu and Wu Lijun sat down and ordered food separately. Wu Lijun ordered the waiter to open a bottle of Lambrusco1915: "This is sparkling wine, with a sweet taste, and basically won't make people drunk. People who are really good wine don't drink it. We Think about it."
Gan Lu nodded, not intending to spoil her mother-in-law's interest. The waiter brought up the wine in the ice bucket and opened it, and poured it into a goblet. The deep pink wine looked very attractive and smelled With a strong fruity aroma, she picked up the wine glass and said to Wu Lijun: "Mom, happy birthday."
Wu Lijun raised his glass, touched her lightly, and took a big sip, but she only tasted a little bit. This was the second kind of wine she had ever drank. Naturally, it was not the same as the high-grade and cheap liquor her father drank. In other words, the little wine has a sweet fragrance, and the taste is long and long, but she doesn't intend to indulge herself to drink more.
Appetizers and spaghetti came up, and the two of them ate quietly as usual at home, only hearing the occasional sound of knives and forks touching each other.
Although Shang Xiuwen was not present, one of them was surnamed Wu and the other was Gan, but this seemed to be a typical Shang family gathering, and it was not as cold as usual.Although Wu Lijun didn't ask questions, she wouldn't say much either.There was no talk, no explanation, no apology, and no understanding that all grievances and grievances would be wiped out with a smile. They just calmly accepted the reality of sitting at the same table here and now.
It was as if everything that had happened had become a thing of the past—this thought resurfaced in Gan Lu's mind by accident.You're a little tangled—she can only say this to herself, of course it's over, it's over.
When the main course was served, Shang Xiuwen came over with two other men in suits. One of them she had seen before was Wang Feng, the chairman of Yuan Wang, and the other was in his thirties, tall, with a thin and thin face. A sharp and restrained face.
Wang Feng and Wu Lijun knew each other before, and he said with a smile: "Director Wu, it wasn't that Xiuwen said that he would come up to accompany you for dinner. I didn't know that today is your birthday. I'm really sorry for disturbing your family gathering."
"It's nothing, Mr. Wang, it's important for you to talk about business. Women at my age actually don't pay much attention to birthdays." Wu Lijun said politely, and then turned to another person, "This is..."
Shang Xiuwen introduced: "This is Mr. Chen, the chairman of Yixin. Mr. Chen, this is my mother, and this is my wife. Mom, Mr. Wang and Mr. Chen insist on coming up to congratulate you on your birthday in person."
"Don't dare to take it, you two are too polite."
"It should be. It's Director Wu's birthday. I'm sorry that we came here empty-handed. We can only express our gratitude with a glass of wine." Chen Hua's voice was low and thick, and he spoke Mandarin with a slight northern accent, very polite.
Wu Lijun ordered the waiter to bring three more wine glasses to pour the wine, and stood up, "Thank you, Mr. Chen and Mr. Wang, for your hospitality, and for coming here specially."
Gan Lu also got up, and lightly clinked glasses with them. Wang Feng and Chen Hua drank it down, put down their glasses and said goodbye, and Shang Xiuwen sat down: "Mom, I'm sorry, I didn't have a good meal with you today."
"Having Lulu with me is the same."
Shang Xiuwen and Gan Lu realized at the same time that Wu Lijun had always been called "Xiao Gan" in the past, and the change in this inconspicuous address made them look at each other unavoidably.
Wu Lijun didn't seem to notice their reaction at all: "Will Yixin give up the plan to acquire Xusheng?"
"It's just an exchange right now. Yixin has a huge development plan in the central region. Chen Hua has a very sharp mind. I believe he should also know that the more it is delayed, the higher his acquisition cost will be."
Wu Lijun nodded and said nothing more.Shang Xiuwen said to Gan Lu: "Lulu, I have to go down, you help me send my mother back, and drink less."
"I know." The wine in front of Gan Lu didn't touch anything at all. She had made up her mind long ago that she would not drink again unless necessary, let alone having dinner with her mother-in-law.
After Shang Xiuwen left, the mother-in-law and daughter-in-law finished their desserts, Gan Lu went to pay the bill, and went downstairs to the underground parking lot together.
Gan Lu opened the car door, and Wu Lijun sat in first.She was also about to get in the car when the phone rang and it was called by Qian Jiaxi. Her voice was hoarse and she seemed very depressed. She could only say, "Wait a minute." Then she turned and said to the mother-in-law sitting in the back seat, " Mom, I'll take a call from my friend, please sit down for a while."
Wu Lijun nodded. She drank a lot of this kind of sparkling wine, her face was slightly flushed, and she rested on the back of the chair.
Gan Lu walked away a few steps: "Jiaxi, what's wrong?"
Qian Jiaxi was silent for a long time before speaking again: "Lulu, Qin Zhan said...he plans to reconcile with Xiaopan."
Gan Lu was taken aback, she really couldn't understand such a quick and childlike separation and reunion, she simply didn't know what to say: "Jia Xi, forget it, Qin Zhan is too immature."
"He has the right to make a choice. Do you know what I hate? I thought we got along so well. I don't think it was my wishful thinking, but he said it lightly, without any nostalgia."
Gan Lu heard Qian Jiaxi's noisy voice: "Where are you now? Why don't I take my mother-in-law home first, so I can go and accompany you."
"I'm in the bar, it's okay, Lulu, a bunch of friends are together, don't come here, I just felt uncomfortable for a while, I can't help it anymore, I have to speak out." At this moment, someone over there Calling her name, she agreed, and then giggled, "I can only tell you, I'm not afraid of making jokes. I'm going to drink, we'll talk tomorrow, if I haven't forgotten about it tomorrow."
"Don't drink too much." Gan Lu could only rush to tell her. She put away her mobile phone and just turned to walk to her car, but when she saw the bright headlights coming, she squinted her eyes involuntarily. The Maserati came to a sudden stop and stopped in front of her car. The door opened, and He Jingyi, who was wearing an off-white leather jacket and jeans, stepped out.
"Good evening, Mrs. Shang." She glanced at Gan Lu with a faint smile on her face.
Gan Lu lazily replied, "Hello."
"Why are you here alone, didn't Xiuwen come back to spend the weekend with you?" Without waiting for Gan Lu to answer, He Jingyi seemed to shake her head regretfully, "It is said that Wanfeng Real Estate has just ordered Xusheng's products, the order is not big, and Qin I was always afraid of offending Yixin, and tried my best to keep a low profile, so it was impossible to achieve any great effect. However, I guess it was you who came forward to make it happen. In order to restore Xiuwen, you really tried your best."
Just as Gan Lu was about to speak, the car door opened behind her, and Wu Lijun stood up: "Lulu, help me see if the shawl is stuck on the necklace."
When He Jingyi saw Wu Lijun suddenly, she was taken aback and murmured, as if she was about to speak, but Wu Lijun didn't look at her at all, and only half turned around, motioning for Gan Lu to look at her. alright."
Wu Lijun nodded, went straight back to the car and sat down, and closed the door behind her.He Jingyi had never been ignored like this before, but she really couldn't hold up her posture in front of Wu Lijun. Her expression was changing, as if she was thinking about something.
Gan Lu said politely: "Miss He, please move the car, we are going home."
Without waiting for the other party's answer, she sat in the driver's seat, met He Jingyi's gaze, put on her seat belt first, and then quietly looked at her.He Jingyi backed away slowly, keeping her eyes on the car until she opened the car door with her backhand, sat in the car, and suddenly started the car to make way for the passage.
Gan Lu drove the car out of the underground garage and onto the boulevard. Wu Lijun's voice sounded from behind: "Lulu, she is an executive of Yixin, and her boss is here. She must be looking for her boss. It has nothing to do with Xiuwen."
Gan Lu was stunned for a moment: "I know, Mom."
"I hope you don't pay attention to her. She has never given up until she achieves her goal. Now it is clear that she wants to destroy your marriage."
Gan Lu gave an awkward "hmm". Before, Wu Lijun wouldn't talk to her like this, but now her mother-in-law seems to have subtly classified her daughter-in-law as a member of her own family, and she no longer shy away from it.
After Wu Lijun drank a little wine, she didn't behave like she usually did. She said to herself, with undisguised disgust in her voice: "Back then, she did everything she could to pester Xiuwen, and Xiuwen proposed to break up with her. , She even used tricks like pretending to commit suicide. If Xiuwen hadn't been soft-hearted, it wouldn't have caused future regret."
Gan Lu was both surprised and uncomfortable, feeling that she couldn't bear this sudden trust.She doesn't want to hear the past being stripped away like this. Those things are all parts that she didn't participate in. She is not curious, but has a faint fear. She just feels that the more facts are exposed, the less it can lead her out of the maze. On the contrary, it made her feel more confused.
"Mom, you can rest for a while, I will call you when I get home."
"In short, you don't have to pay attention to what she says in the future."
Wu Lijun finally said nothing more, and the two of them remained silent all the way.After returning home, Gan Lu asked her mother-in-law to rest early, and was about to go upstairs when Wu Lijun stopped her.
"Come to my room, Lulu."
Gan Lu had to follow her into her room.The layout here is similar to that of the upstairs, and it is also a suite where the study room is connected to the bedroom.Wu Lijun signaled her to sit down, opened the drawer, took out a photo album, opened a page and handed it to her.Gan Lu held her breath. The photo showed a family of three: Shang Xiuwen, who was only about 20 years old in the front, still had a "green" breath; Wu Lijun, who was much younger than now, was sitting on the right hand behind her, with a beautiful face and a smile on her face. Majestic; the man on the left looks to be in his 40s, with a tall and straight figure, wearing a blue T-shirt and rimless glasses, with an elegant and calm demeanor.The three of them sat under a parasol, all smiling, and seemed to be talking, not paying attention to the camera lens.
"This is Xiuwen's father." Wu Lijun said softly, pointing her finger, and then slowly stroking that face.
Gan Lu didn't know what to say, she just looked closely at Shang Xiuwen, that cheerful smile didn't have the infinite connotation when she occasionally showed her face now, but it seemed to have the breath of sunshine.
"Xiuwen may have told you about his father. He has been blaming himself and refused to forgive himself for returning home that night. But in fact, the person who should be blamed is me. At that time, I was only thinking about my political future. Indifference, even when he came back from the investigation to talk to me, I said that I had no time and had to write materials. When it was irreversible, it would be too late to regret.” Wu Lijun’s voice was hoarse, full of grief, took the photo album, and held it for a long time. watch.
"Mom, Dad definitely wants you and Xiuwen to live a good life. Don't think about the past."
"How could he not want to? Xiuwen, like me, probably never let go of this matter. I used to always hope that he would be more mature and calm, but later I saw that he was even more restrained than his father, and he took everything in his heart. I'm scared...Xiuwen is becoming more and more like his father."
Gan Lu felt the same way, and she marveled in her heart that Shang Xiuwen had a similar appearance to his mother, but carried the temperament characteristics of his father. When he was young, he was high-spirited and not obvious, but now he is very prominent.
Wu Lijun suddenly looked up at Gan Lu: "Lulu, Xiuwen loves you. After marrying you, he has changed a lot. I am very relieved to see it. It's just that he, like his father, would rather bear the pressure alone. You must try Please understand him more, tolerate him, and maintain your marriage well."
"Mom, I understand, I will try to understand Xiuwen."
Gan Lu was unwilling to go against the rare frankness of a mother who had always been taciturn and proud, but she sighed in her heart that after all, marriage depended on the efforts of both parties. If he still chose to bear everything alone, how could she clearly feel his sincerity.
Especially with such an ex-girlfriend watching over her.It's really not easy for her to ignore her like Wu Lijun said.
It was Wu Lijun who occupied He Jingyi's mind at this moment.
She was sitting with her hands on the steering wheel, and the silver-gray Bora had disappeared from her sight. Except for the occasional vehicles coming in and out, the lights in the underground garage were dim and eerily quiet.
She didn't expect to meet Wu Lijun here, and the part of her memories that had been deliberately sealed up by her suddenly flooded up uncontrollably.
Wu Lijun met her more than once before, and from the first time, it was definitely not pleasant.
Wu Lijun didn't look at her at all, her eyes were cold, and she said in a flat voice: "I don't think Xiuwen is suitable for you. However, it is impossible not to make mistakes when you are young. I will not interfere with you. I know my son. He will realize it sooner or later. at this point."
"Auntie, I know my family's conditions are not good, but..."
Wu Lijun frowned: "This has nothing to do with family conditions. I was only born in a poor teacher's family. I will try my best to speak in terms you can understand. It's up to you whether you understand it or not. Not the same, you are not the same people, sooner or later you will be separated."
At that time, she was only in her early twenties. She had outstanding looks since she was a child, and her personality has always been stubborn and arrogant. She was irritated by this assertion, but she was also intimidated by Wu Lijun's aura, and she could not refute it at all.She only secretly made up her mind that she must stay with Shang Xiuwen for a longer period of time, "I'm mad at you" - of course, she only dared to grit her teeth and say it to herself fiercely.
But she has hidden worries in her heart.
She and Shang Xiuwen are still too young, no matter how passionately they are in love, it is far away from everlasting.Moreover, she had to admit that part of what Wu Lijun said was something she couldn't refute. Her noisy and poor family was too different from the Shang family.Although his father and brother started doing business under Shang Xiuwen's arrangement, and the family began to be well-off, they still couldn't have the same quiet cultivation as the Shang family.
The family flattered Shang Xiuwen to such an extent that she couldn't stand it anymore. Under this atmosphere, she gradually became worried about her gains and losses, and gradually she was unable to maintain the calm and proud posture of a beautiful girl when she first met Shang Xiuwen.
When her father and brother used Wu Lijun's signboard to cause trouble outside for the first time, Wu Lijun called her and Shang Xiuwen over at the same time, but didn't look at her at all. I understand, the little indifference towards her before was really polite.
"You should break up with her," Wu Lijun said without any room for negotiation, "give her family a sum of money to compensate, or there will be a catastrophe one day."
Shang Xiuwen looked at the back of his mother who was leaving in a huff, and remained silent for a long time. He Jingyi's heart rose to her throat, her mouth was dry, and when Shang Xiuwen turned to look at her, she burst into tears. Shang Xiuwen froze for a while, She put her arms around her, and she felt relieved: "Xiuwen, I'll go back and tell my father and brother to make sure they don't do this kind of thing again, and I'll ask them to come and apologize to your mother."
"My mother won't accept an apology. This kind of thing really can't happen again, otherwise..." Shang Xiuwen stopped, but she could understand what this "otherwise" meant.
After she went home and quarreled fiercely with her family and said hurtful words to each other, her father and brother restrained themselves for a while, and then reverted to their old ways.Disputes broke out between her and Shang Xiuwen. From the initial acting like a baby to her crying and redeeming, their differences became bigger and bigger.Shang Xiuwen even went to have a long talk with her father and elder brother in person, but what he received was completely opposite.
His father and his brother said worryingly in front of her at home: "He has already talked about this. It seems that the two of you can't make it together. We have to hurry up, otherwise don't talk about making money in the future. The company can do it." It will be a problem if we can’t continue to drive.”
She was so cold that she didn't know what to say, she waved her hand fiercely, and swept all the dishes on the table to the floor, then hugged her mother and cried, her mother comforted her and said, "It would be great if you could marry him. Alas, I don’t know if you have that life. Anyway, you still have to hold on to him.”
Is this a relief, she thought?
This is her first love, what she paid was love, what Shang Xiuwen's good conditions moved was her family, and what moved her was him, she wanted to hold on to him, just for herself, she knew she couldn't find anyone else Let her love her like this, or love her like this.
After Shang Xiuwen's father knew that her brother was discussing cooperation with others under the banner of his company, he immediately cut off all economic exchanges and cooperation between the two parties. Offered a breakup.
He looked exhausted: "Jingyi, I'm tired. I don't want our relationship to become a reason for your family to give and take anything. If I only need to give, I can tolerate it, but this has already endangered my family. I can't continue. down."
Crying and threatening her have been used many times, this time she used a more drastic move.She took sleeping pills, and then sent a text message to Shang Xiuwen who refused to answer her phone.She didn't simply make a gesture, but took a fatal dose.She was indeed desperate, if Shang Xiuwen left her alone, she was ready to die.
She woke up in the hospital, opened her eyes, and the first thing she saw was Wu Lijun. This was the only time Wu Lijun looked at her directly. Her eyes were so sharp that she seemed to have seen through her, making her feel that she had nowhere to hide.
"This method is too despicable." Wu Lijun's voice was not loud, but very clear.
Shang Xiuwen, who was standing on the other side, called out, "Mom—"
Wu Lijun looked at her son coldly: "For such a girl, I'm going to blush for you." She left this sentence, turned and left.
Shang Xiuwen stayed as she wished, he was very considerate to her, but this kind of consideration was not as close as before.She clings to him more and more, but is more and more afraid that he will break up again.An untimely remark from her mother slipped up and disturbed her, and she surreptitiously stopped the pill.
However, while she was pregnant, her father and brother were involved in a complicated case and were imprisoned at the same time.
She found Shang Xiuwen in anxiety, and Shang Xiuwen looked even more devastated, and couldn't even hear her finish, so she hurried to the airport to go out to deal with business disputes, and just told her to go home and stay well, don't run around , I will contact you when I have time.
But she couldn't wait at home safely.Her mother cried all day long, sometimes thinking wildly, and sometimes urging her to go to Shang Xiuwen's parents for help: "One is your father and the other is your brother. No matter how much you hate them, you can't just watch them go to jail."
She really couldn't just sit back and watch her father and brother ignore him, so she gritted her teeth and went to Shang Xiuwen's house, but the nanny refused her, so she had to show her only card: "Go and tell Uncle Shang that I have Xiuwen's child. If you don't let me in, I will stand here and not leave."
Surprised, the nanny hurried in and out, and finally took her in.To her surprise, Shang Xiuwen's father was not there, and Wu Lijun and her brother-in-law Wu Changzhi and his wife were sitting inside.
Wu Lijun looked bored and didn't even bother to talk to her.Wu Changzhi asked her: "Does Xiuwen know that you are pregnant? I don't believe he is so foolish that he still has a child now, unless he wants to piss off his parents."
She murmured: "He doesn't know, I... haven't told him yet."
Wu Changzhi looked at her thoughtfully. He had sharp eyes that resembled his sister's. He Jingyi suddenly felt that just like that time in the hospital, her scheming was understood by the other party. This silent judgment made her blush for a while. For a while, he could only lower his eyes in embarrassment.Wu Changzhi said clearly: "Miss He, if you are really pregnant, you must abort the child."
It was as if she had been hit in the head: "Unless Shang Xiuwen tells me this."
"Xiuwen's mother was implicated in your father's and brother's case, and is currently under investigation by the organization; his father was double-regulated for half a month, and he was just released home the day before yesterday, and he may still be sued; Xiuwen is running around trying to reduce the company's losses. In this case, do you think it is possible for you to be together?"
She thought desperately, this disaster was far greater than she imagined, how could she ask the Shang family to help her father and brother, but she couldn't help but say: "I came today to beg you, save my father and brother."
"Don't make unrealistic demands, Miss He, that's impossible."
"After all, I'm pregnant with Xiuwen's child, for the sake of the child..."
Wu Lijun was obviously furious, stood up suddenly, and said coldly: "You don't have any basic sense of shame, Ms. He, don't expect me to admit you with the child in your stomach. Tell Shang Let me tell Xiuwen, the disaster was caused by him, and he should bear the responsibility. He is an adult, and it is impossible for his parents to clean up this mess for him. I just pretend that I didn't have this son. "
Wu Lijun's tough attitude made He Jingyi no luck.After having caused an unreasonable disaster to Shang's family, she didn't have the courage to tell Shang Xiuwen about the accident she deliberately gave him. She returned home in a daze, keeping silent to her mother's urgent questioning.
One day later, Wu Changzhi came to the door and told her directly: "Miss He, you go and get rid of this child, and I will leave a sum of money for you."
"I don't want money, I want..."
"There is no condition to talk about, Ms. He, it's ridiculous to talk about such things at my age, but Xiuwen is my only nephew, and I can't just watch his life be ruined by you."
Her mother had obviously been eavesdropping outside, at this moment she opened the door and came in and said, "Xiao Jing, your father and brother's lawsuit needs money."
He Jingyi has no choice.Accompanied by Wu Changzhi's wife who came here specially, she went to the hospital. The fetus was aborted in less than two months. She was surprised by the quickness and simplicity, and she didn't even feel pain.
But when she was sitting outside the operating room and saw Wu Changzhi's wife calling Wu Lijun to report the news with a very indifferent tone, she was still angry from the bottom of her heart, took out her mobile phone, called Shang Xiuwen, and said fiercely: "You are satisfied." Well, I just killed your child, it was your mother and your uncle who forced me together."
Shang Xiuwen had just come back from other places, he was taken aback and rushed to the hospital immediately, her nameless anger dissipated, only grievance remained, she fell on him and cried loudly.Wu Changzhi's wife said disgustedly: "It's too ridiculous to insist on asking for 20 more before letting go, and pretending to be a chaste and strong woman, saying that others are forcing you."
"This matter should be handled by me, how can you..."
"Xiuwen, don't think that your uncle and I are willing to do this kind of evil. Your mother and your father have already had a big fight over this. Don't you understand what time it is now? Your mother's political future is in jeopardy, and your father... ..."
"Forget it, aunt, I'm sorry, I know everything, you can go back first."
Shang Xiuwen sent her home and asked her to rest on the bed. He sat on the edge of the bed and was lost in thought. She secretly looked at his thin and tired face with no expression, and countless thoughts were spinning in her heart.
"Jingyi, I have to go back. My father has just been released from double regulations. I came back from a business trip today, and I haven't had time to see him yet."
But she clung to him tightly and kept crying.She actually understood that they were unlikely to be saved, but she thought capriciously, if she could stay a little longer, just stay a little longer.
However, her willfulness this time made a big mistake again. Shang Xiuwen's father had a heart attack that night, and when Shang Xiuwen rushed home, his father had already passed away.
The impact of that economic case is getting bigger and bigger, more and more people are involved, and there are different opinions on the inside story.He Jingyi's father was finally released on bail pending trial due to illness, but then he got into a bizarre car accident, was seriously injured and fell into a vegetative state, and never regained consciousness.She and her mother waited in the hospital day and night, seeing the money being spent like running water, so exhausted, she couldn't bear it anymore, and called Shang Xiuwen again, crying about the tragic situation at home, but Shang Xiuwen clearly refused to communicate with her. She meets.
The next day, Shang Shaokun, who came back from abroad to attend the funeral, found the hospital and handed her a big envelope: "Xiuwen can only do this for you, please think about him, and don't go to him again." .”
Shang Shaokun and her family were neighbors before their parents passed away, and they always regarded her as their younger sister. She met Shang Xiuwen and was introduced by Shang Shaokun.However, he stood in front of her with a blank expression on his face, his eyes swept away from her father on the hospital bed and her mother who was staring at the envelope containing the money, with cold hatred.
"Brother Shaokun, how is Xiuwen doing now?" She could only ask him.
"He is ending the company's operations, and he has suffered heavy losses." Shang Shaokun said briefly, "I regret introducing you to each other. My aunt is very cold, but she is absolutely right about you and your family."
Holding the thick envelope, watching Shang Shaokun walk away, her legs gave way and she sat down beside the hospital bed.
A few months later, her father died in the hospital, and her brother was sentenced. Regardless of her mother's entreaties, she left the money to her to arrange her life, and went out of town alone before graduating.
He Jingyi put her head heavily on the steering wheel.
What she always recalled repeatedly in her heart were the happy times with Shang Xiuwen, the first time he met her, he took her for a drive, he kissed her for the first time, he took her shopping in Hong Kong, taught her to eat western food, accompanied her She went abroad for vacation... Her youth was enriched because of him, and her memories were always rosy because of this love.
She has always fixed her memory here, refusing to touch the subsequent great changes.
But today, Wu Lijun suddenly appeared, breaking all her self-deception.Those painful past events flashed through her mind one by one, and her tears flowed down quietly, dripping on the red leather steering wheel cover.
After sitting for an unknown amount of time, He Jingyi put down the sun visor and looked at herself in the makeup mirror.A pair of red, swollen and bloodshot eyes were reflected in the narrow mirror, which was no longer as clear and moving as before.
She stared at her for a long time, but there seemed to be another pair of eyes in front of her eyes, as clear and calm as autumn water, looking at her through the front windshield of the car, without a trace of evasion or urgency—what kind of leisurely and calm attitude can a woman have? have such eyes.
She always thought that she should be the more confident and determined person, but now, she had to deeply doubt this.
Glancing at her watch, she was taken aback.She came here at the call of her boss, Chen Hua. Not only was she late, but she also had such an appearance that she had to take out her makeup bag and try her best to make up for it.
When she arrived at the administrative floor where Chen Hua lived, she ran into Shang Xiuwen and Wang Feng coming out of Chen Hua's room. She looked at the two in amazement, and quickly thought about the meaning of their meeting with Chen Hua without telling her in advance. .
Shang Xiuwen nodded to her lightly, and had already passed her by, she called him: "Xiuwen, please wait a moment, I have something to tell you."
Wang Feng patted Shang Xiuwen on the shoulder: "I'll go first."
Shang Xiuwen stood still: "Please speak."
Since they met for the first time last year, Shang Xiuwen has maintained a polite attitude towards her. There is no joy of meeting again, but there is no hatred that makes her afraid. memory.However, now that they are standing one step away, the light is shining softly, and she can clearly see that there is only a business-like indifference in his demeanor. She is so cold in her heart, but she smiles: "It's not necessarily talking in the corridor, right? Go to the executive lounge over there."
He Jingyi ordered a glass of whiskey with ice, but Shang Xiuwen just shook his head at the waiter.
"Are you here to persuade Mr. Chen to give up the acquisition plan of Xusheng?"
"We're just communicating."
"I am in charge of this project. In fact, it is more effective for you to communicate with me."
Shang Xiuwen smiled slightly: "You have brought your personal emotions into your work, I don't think we need to communicate at all."
He Jingyi clenched her teeth: "What reason do you have to question me like this?"
"I have studied Yixin's investment direction in recent years. It is indeed very broad, but it is mainly concentrated in commercial real estate and related industries. It will extend its tentacles to J City's mining, smelting and steel manufacturing. It should be a brand new attempt. You probably can’t deny that this investment plan was proposed by you.”
He Jingyi said coldly: "All investment plans of the group must be strictly reviewed, and it cannot be an individual's behavior."
"This is an industry with great potential, and it is worth investing in. However, I think you will choose Xusheng, a company with highly concentrated equity and not easy to acquire, to start with. I think it has your personal interest and grievances in it."
He Jingyi held onto the table and almost stood up. She said hoarsely, "Have you told Mr. Chen this opinion? How could you do this?"
"I won't judge his employees casually in front of the boss." Shang Xiuwen looked at his watch, a little impatience flashed between his brows, "I don't need to talk about this matter at all, Mr. Chen will make his own judgment."
She suddenly lost her mind, and her eyes fell on his watch. He was wearing an ordinary steel watch with a price of about two thousand yuan. She could not but secretly sigh, every bit of this man has become completely She was unfamiliar, and every time a similar thought flashed in her heart, she would feel confused and disturbed for a while, and could only force herself to calm down.
"You are very objective in my analysis, so please ask yourself, don't you also have personal emotions in your rejection of Yixin's acquisition plan? You have no interest in Xusheng at all, otherwise you wouldn't have been hiding behind the scenes for so many years. Let your uncle manage it. What you can’t accept now is that I represent Yixin to annex your family’s business. In fact, I don’t mean to fight against you personally. We can sit down and have a good talk. It hurt both of us.”
"Miss He, is my attitude not clear enough? It is impossible for my uncle to cooperate with Yixin, and it is impossible for me to cooperate with you."
Shang Xiuwen's voice was calm, but He Jingyi heard the meaning of determination. She suppressed her confusion and said coldly: "Anyway, it's only a matter of time before Xu Sheng is acquired. Don't think that Wanfeng started ordering Xu Sheng's products. The product means that Xusheng has got rid of the trouble, and Mr. Qin said in front of me that it was a contract signed by the purchasing manager without knowing it, and the quantity is limited, so it doesn't affect the overall situation at all."
"You go to cross-examine Mr. Qin. This is not a smart thing to do. He has already given Mr. Chen a lot of face. But we don't need to discuss this matter, Miss He."
He was about to get up, when He Jingyi suddenly pressed his hand: "Did your wife tell you that I have an shady relationship with Chen Hua? I knew that her mother married Qin Wanfeng, so she would definitely inquire about my past. actually, I……"
Shang Xiuwen withdrew his hand and said calmly: "My wife has never been in the mood to gossip. No, she never told me anything about you."
He Jingyi sneered: "In front of me, you don't have to deliberately defend her like this."
"You're guessing my behavior based on your own imagination again, it doesn't make any sense." Shang Xiuwen said seriously, "She is my wife, and I don't need to deliberately protect her at all."
"But don't misunderstand me, Xiuwen, after I left City W, I had a very difficult life..."
"No, please don't recall to me, and you don't need to tell me anything, everyone is responsible for their own lives. If there is nothing else, I will take a step first."
Shang Xiuwen got up to leave, and He Jingyi watched the slender and straight back disappear, only feeling that the pain in his heart had been magnified to the point of numbness.
She finished drinking the glass of whiskey, walked outside the big suite where Chen Hua lived, and knocked lightly on the door.Chen Hua came over to open the door for her with a glass of wine, with a slight smile on his lips: "Please sit down, Jingyi, you are too late."
"I'm sorry, Chairman." She had to bow her head and apologize.
"I have already talked with Wang Feng and Shang Xiuwen. Please re-evaluate the acquisition plan for Xusheng and submit a detailed report to me."
"Chairman, please listen to me. I met with several main leaders of the smelter in J City yesterday. They were very satisfied with the conditions I proposed and agreed to do the work of the workers' congress. I believe that the balance of the smelter's reorganization will soon be tilted." Come to Yixin. We have already controlled the supply of iron ore. As long as we win the smelter, it will be futile for Xusheng to sell it. The Municipal Economic Commission will also urge them to sit down and negotiate with us on the terms of the acquisition.”
"If I remember correctly, two months ago, you told me that there is no problem with the merger of the smelter and the acquisition of Xusheng. If it continues, the cost will become higher and higher, which will affect the investment and development of the entire central region plan."
"I promise, I will deal with this matter in the shortest possible time."
Chen Hua took a sip of wine and put down his glass: "That's good. Let's talk about local investment projects. During the meeting this morning, I was sorry to see that Xinhe only took up a very small part of this plan, but the boss Shen's next executive general manager has far more understanding of the entire project than you."
He Jingyi's heart sank.The meeting in the morning was to discuss the launch of Yixin's largest investment project in the local area. Shen Jiaxing, the chairman of Xinhe, and Nie Qian, the executive general manager, attended the meeting. Originally, they were only present to accompany the last seat, but He Jingyi rushed from J city because of the late night Come back, obviously out of shape.After she reported, she couldn't give him a satisfactory answer to the few questions Chen Hua asked.As soon as Nie Qian opened his mouth, everyone was impressed. He had a calm attitude and fluent answers. His understanding of the whole plan was obviously not limited to the small part of Xinhe Development. The meeting basically turned into a separate exchange between him and Chen Hua.
"I'm sorry." To the boss, it was impossible to explain the reason, not to mention that she couldn't come up with any explanation. She was really eager to complete the merger of Xusheng, so she ignored other projects, but Chen Hua was never a capable person. People who make people perfunctory.
Sure enough, Chen Hua said lightly: "It is the first time that you are fully responsible for the investment of the entire region. I approve of the investment plan you put forward, but it does not mean that I approve of your execution ability. Please submit the report as soon as possible, and the board of directors will judge your investment plan." work effectiveness."
He Jingyi only felt exhausted for a while. Since she was in charge of the central investment plan, she has entered a state of overloaded work. Coupled with the psychological shock brought about by the reunion with Shang Xiuwen, it has indeed greatly affected her judgment and work. efficiency.She couldn't support herself any longer and leaned against the back of the sofa.
Chen Hua looked her up, got up and took a wine glass, poured a glass of wine and put it in front of her: "If you are tired, you can ask for leave to rest for a while."
She smiled wryly: "Chairman, don't you need me to submit a report, you have already rated my ability."
"You've been working hard. However, I think you do need to adjust."
"So, I have no other choice."
"If you can win the smelter within the planned time, you still have a chance."
He Jingyi nodded: "Okay."
"You will work so hard to this extent, I admit, it has indeed exceeded my original expectations."
He Jingyi smiled sadly: "But this didn't get rid of my reputation as a vase."
"When you achieve a sufficient status, the hero doesn't ask where he came from. Jingyi, have you ever seen a reporter come to ask me about my past?"
He Jingyi shook her head: "No one has the guts."
"No," Chen Hua also shook his head, "Actually, it's because I'm calm enough to face all the questioning. Being my lover is not a scandal. If you mind, you can't blame others for minding too."
"Am I the only woman who refuses to be your lover and is willing to be your subordinate?" The atmosphere seemed to relax, He Jingyi asked suddenly.
Chen Hua nodded: "Originally, I wouldn't be willing to work with a woman I slept with. You are an exception. I gave you a chance, but it's your own hard work that made it to this point today."
This gentle comment caused He Jingyi to have mixed feelings, as if there was a choke in her throat: "If I say I'm tired from doing it, I'd like to..."
Chen Hua laughed and said, "No, Jingyi, you think I can give you many choices and opportunities at the same time, but obviously you still don't know me well enough. When I met you six years ago, you were a wandering girl, but you were like Hedgehog, prickly, defensive, fun. Now you're a career woman, hard working, a competent employee, but I seem to have said long ago that I'm not interested in having a personal relationship with my subordinates .”
He Jingyi's face was burning like fire, and she realized that she just said something irreparably stupid.
The man in front of her was something she never dared to say she was sure of. During the year she was with him, she was full of frustration, and the way he comforted her was to give her a credit card and encourage her to spend money; she said she wanted to go to school , he helped her find a good school; he bought her the car she liked without blinking an eye.
Everyone thought that he doted on her and responded to her requests.Only she understands that the love she has experienced is not like this, what he pays is only money, not sincerity.He didn't take her seriously at all, and she couldn't understand this unfathomable man, let alone control him.
Her sense of insecurity became stronger day by day, partly because of probing, partly because she wanted to start a job to gain independence instead of repeating the same mistakes, so she proposed to him that she wanted to work in his company.
He said seriously: "Please think clearly, being my employee means that you are no longer my lover. I never sleep with company employees."
She gritted her teeth and nodded in agreement.Sure enough, he moved out of the apartment he bought for her that day, asked his secretary to suspend her credit card the next day, and arranged for her to report to the company's investment department. No matter what occasion he met her in the future, there was no ambiguity at all. Treat other employees no differently.
Now she finally survived the stage where everyone doubted her ability and looked sideways at her. She has been promoted continuously in the company. Although there are still people who gossip about her and whisper about her past from time to time, no one dares to question her openly. .
She has worked so hard to achieve today's success, and when she was at her most beautiful, she didn't see any hint of his retention, so she readily let her go.He just finds her interesting, how dare she expect that he is still interested in her now.
She could only attribute what she said just now to a coincidence, or she was a little disturbed by being stimulated by Shang Xiuwen's indifference.
She laughed dryly twice, picked up the wine glass and drank it down: "I'm sorry, Chairman, after finishing Xusheng's merger, I really have to take a vacation and have a good rest."
He Jingyi put down her wine glass and resigned, took the elevator down to the underground garage, leaned on the steering wheel of the Maserati again, and said to herself: Yes, you have no other choice for a long time.
(End of this chapter)
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