Jinzhu "Sweet Pet Love" Collection

Chapter 53 Let me love you, no matter day or night (37)
Extra episode 2: His name is He Chiyuan ([-])
Looking at their photos, it was obvious that he was masturbating himself, but he couldn't control it. He always wanted to know their living conditions, and they were clearly people who had nothing to do with him.Just like his father, for ten years like a day, silently guarding this woman who has nothing to do with him, he won't get any benefits, and even feel sad because of it, but he just can't express his love.

After graduating from high school, he chose to study abroad.Without anyone's help, I chose a school by myself, paid the tuition fee, and left home without a sound.The reason for leaving home in such a hurry is that he doesn't love this family is secondary, the main reason is that he has a disease, every month he has to sneak into his father's study, and look at those photos in order for him to pass the month smoothly.He knew he was terminally ill and he needed to leave, maybe it would be better if he left.

After leaving the country, he had a hard time.When he first came out, he couldn't speak the language, and he, the young master, had to learn things like washing and cooking from scratch.He didn't want to spend his family's money to work and study abroad.The poverty and loneliness in life make him feel very tired, but he is satisfied, because he feels that at least abroad is warmer than home.

But sometimes, he still can't help but think of those photos, and the warm smiles full of sunshine.What he remembers is not that woman, but the girl who grew up happily with her company.

After three years of separation and returning home, no one knew he was back.When Butler Jin opened the door, he was quite surprised.He himself thought it was absurd, and he returned to China just to look at the photos...

The girl has grown up, has long hair in a shawl, and walks on the side of the road in a school uniform.He recognized the school uniform from the same high school as him.He knew it was not school time, otherwise the long hair in the shawl would be caught and cut short by the teacher.He was glad he knew so little about her.How silly, he laughed to himself inwardly.

Maybe it was because the relationship between him and his father was too estranged, butler Jin couldn't stand it anymore and told him some unknown truths.

His parents didn't love each other, and each had their own hearts.Mom went numb overnight because someone she loved died.Back when the two got married, they were bound by the goddamn family. The family was too tight, and the era was turbulent. If you have a little money and power, you can do anything, not to mention that both families are powerful families in the whole city.No way, the two had no choice but to get married, but they agreed that when He Rongguang inherited the family business, she would be set free.Her lover was her hope, and when that hope was gone, she almost collapsed.

After he knew the truth, he cried uncontrollably.Is it important for a son to have no mother's lover?It turned out that he was so insignificant.His heart is getting colder and colder. He hates love very much. It is devastating but terrifying.

The appearance of Zhuang Ya was very accidental yet so inevitable.Zhuang Ya is a transfer student in the class. Her liveliness and love of laughing make him feel as if he has met the person he has been looking for.Zhuang Ya caught his attention, just like his illness, every time he couldn't help but take a look, only to feel that this day is beautiful.

His voyeurism was misunderstood as crush.People in the class say that he likes Zhuang Ya.Zhuang Ya took the initiative to respond to him, saying that she was willing to try dating him.He didn't refuse, which was strange, as if he had been looking forward to it for a long time.

Zhuang Ya's enthusiasm and love for him gave him a rainbow in his gray study abroad career.Yes, that is, there is an extra rainbow, instead of turning gray and white into colors.Zhuang Ya once asked him: "A Yuan, I always feel that I am like a shadow of a person in your heart. What you love is not me, but her who is similar."

He was noncommittal, because he himself didn't know whether what Zhuang Ya said was right or not.But there is one thing he knows, he dare not love someone, it is too terrible to love someone, too terrible.

After finishing his studies, he returned to China with Zhuang Ya.Originally, his plan was to start a career on his own, and he didn't want to rely on his family, and he didn't want to enter the world of "fighting fathers".One day, Zhuang Ya told him that her family had a certain family background and was a wealthy family, and her family could not accept him.

He was unhappy and did not agree.His parents had been restrained by this damned family all their lives, scenes of tragedies flashed before his eyes, looking at Zhuang Ya who was restrained by the concept of family status, he suddenly felt very tired.

The meddling father disclosed his identity, Zhuang Ya was very happy, hugged him and said, "That's great, now my parents will definitely agree." The next day, Zhuang Ya's parents agreed to their marriage, and let They got engaged early.He felt that the whole world was hypocritical, and he was tied to the identity of the He family, and he was nothing without the He family.

This feeling made him feel oppressed and painful, almost out of breath.

He stole a picture from his dad's book, only a single picture of the girl.She wore a ponytail, wore a high school uniform, and left the campus with a bicycle and a cart.There was only one beam of the setting sun passing through her face, that casual smile, faint but brilliant.

After the engagement, he didn't feel happy, but became more depressed.He knew it wasn't what he wanted, but he didn't know what he wanted.

Clara liked him, he knew it, and after being with Zhuang Ya, he firmly rejected Clara.His parents' attitude towards feelings not only hurt each other, but also kept his world cold and dark. Once he chooses someone, he will do his best to treat her well, hoping that he can give her happiness.

After Clara found out that he and Zhuang Ya were engaged, she tried to destroy his relationship with Zhuang Ya.After knowing the truth, Zhuang Ya forgave him.He felt that he was sorry for Zhuang Ya and treated her better.Until Zhuang Ya accidentally found the photo, she cried and scolded him loudly: "Am I this girl's substitute? I finally know who you are looking through me. Is it her? Is it her? You It's so embarrassing to like such a little girl, the old cow eats tender grass? The little girl doesn't want you, right? So you pin your feelings on me? Bastard, bastard!"

Zhuang Ya cried fiercely, but he remained silent.

When Zhuang Ya tore up the photo, he slapped her mercilessly like a madman.The world is quiet, and some things cannot be turned back.

For example, his relationship with Zhuang Ya is gone.

For example, his thoughts that have been stuffed in his heart have been revealed.

He broke off the engagement, and he finally understood his feelings for Zhuang Ya. He didn't want the tragedy of his parents to happen again.Marriage should not be a matter of money.

That's right, he obviously hated and disliked that girl's life, and he had imagined it countless times, if she had such an experience, would she still be able to laugh?But he couldn't understand better, what he wanted most was that one day she could pull him from the dark place to her world, bring him into the sunshine, and feel a little warmth.

The reason why he accepted Zhuang Ya was because he thought that Zhuang Ya could do it, but later he realized that the only thing he longed for in his heart was that girl, only her.

Zhuang Ya said that he liked that girl.He said no, he yearned for her.

When people get older, they have to think about getting married and having children.He chose to be an unmarried man.Zhuang Ya's example made him understand that he couldn't get in touch with a woman of the same type as that girl, which would make him desire her more and want the love he was afraid of even more.He walks among those women who are opposite to her type, and he knows that he will not fall in love with them, and he will not know how to accommodate them, and it is his advantage to retreat completely.

But why did God let him meet that girl?

The little girl fell to the ground, apparently startled by his car.He stood beside her, wanting to step forward but not daring to do so.He is not afraid of anything, but he is afraid of meeting her.He fled, driving away in a panic. Clara asked him what happened?He really wanted to tell Clara that he had met her, the one he had longed for.

He clearly knew that it was cold outside, but he deliberately delayed the booking time to let her suffer from the cold.This is his own little revenge, how could he let him meet her in revenge.

He didn't want to meet, not at all.

When she collapsed from the cold, his heart froze, and he was the first to rush to her.The moment he touched her, he felt warmth even though his skin was so cold.

He didn't take her to the hospital, but to the hotel.He can wait for her to wake up and talk, even if it's just a sentence, if he wants to touch her again, just one!
It turns out that a person's heart is the loneliest place in the world.It turns out that when one person's heart is filled with another person, it can be so beautiful.Want to be loved, but don't want to take the initiative to love, how can there be such a cheap thing in the world?He couldn't escape, but this time he was absolutely willing.

He wanted to have a relationship with her, he didn't know where it came from, but he knew that this girl was his whole life.

(End of this chapter)