Ji Liangchuan, I have loved you for so many years

Chapter 3 The only thing that is depressed is the pain (1)
Du Xiaohang dragged me to a large dance hall in the city center called "Midnight Flower". This place reminded me of the big Shanghai in the TV series, and there were posters similar to the photos of classical beauties in the 40s and [-]s.In this kind of place, beauty is like jade, the moon is like a hook, men are like wolves, and gold is like dung.

I really don't understand why such a place can still stand rampantly, all under the banner of building a harmonious society and enriching ordinary people's leisure activities. In reality, each finds his own wallet and sleeps separately.

As soon as I walked in, I saw a woman in a red Tang suit singing classical songs from the 40s and [-]s on the huge stage in front of me!The combination of classic style and modern style is in the place of Midnight Flower.

The group of big bosses in the audience holding out their hands in hundred-yuan bills shouted vigorously: "Lily! Lily!" It seemed that it was the stage name of the singer, such a juicy and pure nickname.

To the right is an extra-long bar. A few handsome Korean-style guys with delicate looks are enthusiastically chatting with the female guests about their parents, and it is obvious at a glance that it is not a business.

Du Xiaohang must be crazy to bring me here.

He dragged me to the bar and sat down, and ordered the handsome Korean guys to serve all kinds of wine.

After the wine came, he began to drink it by himself.No way, I had to drink with him.

"I said little belly, why did you bring me to such a place where prostitutes and men come?" I looked at him suspiciously and said.

"You know it too, I just asked you to come and take a look!" Du Xiaohang pulled me up and pushed me towards the stage.I saw that Lily had already toasted to the big bosses one cup after another under the stage. She was shy and showed the charm of a mature woman. She was still reserved and proud when the men were caressing her unsteadily, but she didn't refuse immediately. However, this method of refusal and welcome is fatal to a man, but Lily uses it very skillfully.I'm willing to bow down to me!
"Did you see? If you don't be a good girl honestly, you will become like that in the future, a toy held in the palm of a man, a doll placed on the bed, understand?" Du Xiaohang patted my head and said.

I looked dumbfounded at the ten-year-old Du Xiaohang who seemed to have matured suddenly. I never knew that he could see through the world of mortals now. Yes, from now on, I can't underestimate him casually.

Seeing me staring at him blankly, he thought I had come to my senses and returned to my innocence as a little girl, so he smiled lightly and pushed me back on the seat at the bar.

I drank the wine and asked gently: "Little belly, if one day I really become that kind of woman, what will you do?"

Du Xiaohang paused, looked at me with blurred eyes, and said weakly: "What else can I do? You have never loved someone, and you will never understand that feeling."

I asked in a daze: "What is love?"

Du Xiaohang looked at me contemptuously and said, "I despise others asking this question. Even an atheist like me who firmly believes in the relationship between God and his wife can't tell."

"Cut." I raised my head and drank the wine in the glass.

At this time, an angry woman came over and kept staring at the man and woman sitting next to us. The man turned his back to her and held another charming girl affectionately. The two of them laughed heartily, very sweetly.It seems that the man was caught by the real master, just like I was caught by Mr. Chen Baobao this morning.

The guests sitting on the side, including me and Du Xiaohang, were afraid to speak at the moment, and they all pretended to watch a good show, and the man also noticed the abnormality around him, and hurriedly turned his head away.It's okay if you don't look back, but if you look back, it's a slap in the face. Nowadays, people like to use this set to solve relationship problems these days.

The man covered his slightly red face and looked at the woman in front of him in shock.

"Hey! Who are you! Why do you hit someone!" The charming girl obviously didn't understand what happened, and she was still asking for death.

"Hmph, who am I? I'm his wife!" the woman said aggressively.

The girl was completely dumbfounded and dared not speak.

The man immediately stood up from the chair and argued: "My wife, why are you here? I have nothing to do with her! She seduced me!"

"You have nothing to do with her?" The woman snorted coldly, took out an envelope from her arms, and threw it heavily in front of the man and the girl.The photos spilled out from the opening, one after another were all pictures of naked men and women churning on the bed, you didn't even need to look to know it was the two of them.

The face of the man and the girl suddenly lost all color, and they stared at the photo in a daze with trepidation.

"Do you still want to say that you two have nothing? Huh? Don't forget that your father's company is still under my father's company, waiting to be acquired. I advise you to think carefully." The woman looked at the man contemptuously , turned around and wanted to leave.

At this time, the man regained his senses from the panic, grabbed the woman who was about to leave and shouted: "Honey, I know I was wrong, but she seduced me! I promise, I will be the same to you Heart!"

The girl turned pale in an instant, pointed at the man's nose tremblingly and said, "You! How can you say such a thing! Who said that she would divorce my wife for me when she was in bed!"

"Stop talking nonsense, you are dreaming! Wife, let's go, I don't know this woman!" The man immediately put his arms around his wife and turned to leave.

"You! Stop for me! Didn't you say you would love me for the rest of your life! How can you deceive me, how can you betray me!"

The girl's eyes were full of tears of anger, sadness and despair, and she just chased after her. The backs of the three disappeared in the thick light and shadow, and the noise buried everything, whether it was the man's explanation, the woman's mocking, or the girl's pleading.

Love always reveals its ugliest side inadvertently in front of me. However, it is this inadvertence that makes me believe in the hypocrisy and darkness of love even more.

The betrayal of a man to a woman because of lust, the absurdity of a woman using money to tie her love, and the stupidity of a girl who believes in sweet words, all of these are too ridiculous.And those unsightly photos on the desktop slowly eroded my heart like a plague, reminding me of that rainy night a year ago, the rainy night that made people shiver and panic, from that day on, All my happiness is gone, and all my longings are also gone. From then on, I walk alone in the streets and alleys of the city, looking at the hypocritical smiling faces of men and women, the innocence in my heart has already deteriorated.

Originally, I was also an ordinary girl who was loved by everyone and was held in the palm of everyone's hand and cared for carefully. I also had friends, but now, except for Du Xiaohang who is still by my side without hesitation, there is no one else. In this small world, he is the only person who can be relied on.

I started drinking crazily, but Du Xiaohang didn't stop me, but drank even more crazily, one after another.My consciousness gradually blurred, but I felt a lukewarm gaze staring at me all the time, but at this moment, I couldn't control anything, I just drank one cup after another until my stomach started to hurt violently.

An hour later, Du Xiaohang and I were both a little delirious from drinking, and we started laughing and talking the simplest nonsense.

"Tell me! Why am I so unlucky? How can I say that I am also a young man who is in the wind? Tell me who I have provoked. I am at the same table as you in junior high school, and in the same class as you in high school. When I get to college, I have to be with you." You are at the same school, huh? I am wronged, Comrade Shen Meng! The worst thing is, I fell in love with you cheaply, not gradually, but cheaply! What should I do! Who can save me? !"

Du Xiaohang raised his head abruptly, and drank another cup.

"You deserve it! You want to die!" I glanced at him disdainfully and continued to drink.

"I don't want to die! Tell me, how romantic I was, did I tell you, my dream of a decadent singer?"

"I've said it! Don't say it, I'm so annoying, I've said it thousands of times!" I made a gesture to cover his mouth, but Du Xiaohang moved my hand and continued to shout: "No! I'm afraid you forgot I’ll say it again! Let me tell you, my biggest dream is to release a solo album, let’s take the route of a decadent singer, really! Comrade Shen Meng, I’ve already thought about the name of my second album..."

Du Xiaohang has already started to speak incoherently: "The name of my second album is just... that... yes! How about "Why the hell don't you love me"? Is it handsome? Is it decadent!?"

I slapped him on the back of the head and said, "Get out! The name of your album will definitely be banned!"

"Being banned should be called this! I figured it out. When I was being interviewed, I was surrounded by a group of beautiful girls on the show. I was very calm and chatted happily in a suit and underwear. The wall was wiped out, Shen Meng! Brother, Cow!?"

"Hahaha, suit and underwear, if you match it like this, you will be banned!" I patted him on the back and laughed, and asked, "Then your second album is called this, and the first album is called What?"

Du Xiaohang blinked: "I haven't figured it out yet! I'll tell you when I think it over!"

"Ha ha!"

Du Xiaohang and I have completely forgotten ourselves and laughed wildly.At this time, Lily's soft voice came leisurely: "The small town has many stories, full of joy and joy. If you come to the small town..."

"What time is it, you still sing this song, you really think of yourself as the white rose of Shanghai!" I said angrily, and walked to the stage with two steps and three steps.The men around were still cheering for Lily crazily. When they saw me, they stopped shouting and looked at me with different eyes. Only at this time can I feel that I am not alone, and that there are still people who can see me and know my identity. exist.

I laughed out loud and walked onto the stage. The DJ was dumbfounded, the band members were dumbfounded, and Lily was also dumbfounded, not daring to sing anymore.I ignored anyone, grabbed the microphone from Lily's hand, and sang on my own.Only belong to my music, only belong to my world.

After the song was over, the audience suddenly became quiet. Under the blurred lights, everything was so quiet.At this time, I felt that the gaze that had been following me became hot, but in the vast crowd, in the dark world, I couldn't find that person, I didn't know who he was, but this feeling was unprecedentedly clear.

I wobbled off the stage, the lunatic Du Xiaohang, who was really drunk, took the lead in booing: "I love you!"

All the men in the audience locked their eyes on me, seeing their half-smile expressions, I felt panic and helpless, even with Du Xiaohang by my side, I couldn't fill the emptiness.

"Good singing! One more song!"

The superficial hustle and bustle made me frantically want to escape. At this moment, a middle-aged man stood in front of me with a wretched smile. I suddenly looked up at him, and saw him saying slowly: "Miss, hello , I’m Boss Wang here, I think you can sing well, are you interested in coming here to sing every night from now on?”

seduce me?Is Miss Ben so easy to deceive?Is the word "simple" written on Miss Ben's face?A big boss who uses serious business as a cover.I looked at him coldly and said to him: "Can you support me with that little money?"

Boss Wang obviously didn't expect me to be so direct, and instead of being angry, he smiled, but I was not in the mood to play this dirty mental game with him, and walked away on my own.

As soon as I stepped off the stage, my brain got hot, I grabbed Du Xiaohang, pulled him aside, and shouted at him: "You think others don't know me, do you! You don't think it's embarrassing! I don't!"

I don't know if it's the effect of alcohol, but Du Xiaohang is also in a hurry. He has never been so angry with me when he grows up so big. His eyes turned red and he roared angrily: "I love you, doesn't it make you feel ashamed! I he Mom is cheap, so cheap! How amazing you are, Miss Shen, who loves you and spoils your father with endless money! Ah? You don’t think much of us poor students! Right! "

"Get out! I don't want to see you!" I roared, turned and left.

"Go away!"

Du Xiaohang's eyes were red, he didn't know whether it was because he drank too much, or his heart was broken, and he left the noisy Midnight Flower without looking back.I unconsciously sat back on the seat in front of the bar, weeping, drinking non-stop, until I was numb and had a stomachache!Du Xiaohang, you will never know that I don't love you, and my heart hurts more than you!
It was almost late at night, and I was completely in a state of disorientation.Lily started singing "Story of a Small Town" again after a while of panic.Under the stage, a few men came up to chat with me, but I didn’t feel it at all. When they stroked my cheeks and touched my tears with their fingertips, they seemed to be asking me why I was crying and why I was sad, but , I didn't answer, because my heart was so painful that I couldn't speak, and I even forgot to protect myself.Does anyone know, in fact, how proud a girl I am, how much I hate worldly lust and interests, I don't need men's love, men's money, I just want the love of my life, the purest, platonic!What do you know?It's all a bunch of devils who can't get away from money and carnal desires!
When a man's hot hands began to caress my thighs, a cold voice rang in my ears.I never thought that any man's voice could be so nice, magnetic and sexy.That gaze that has been following me, from him?Cold and inviolable, but with a kind of shallow gentleness, like a romantic boy.Just hearing his voice, I didn't expect that I would have such complicated feelings.

"Sir, she is my friend."

"Hehe - I have no other meaning, I think she seems unhappy, hehe, you talk, you talk..." The voices of the men with malicious intentions gradually moved away, and my remaining consciousness made it impossible for me to look back Go take a closer look at the eyebrows and eyes of the person who claims to be my friend.

At this time, a woman's voice sounded in my ears, a little familiar.

"What? You know her?"

"do not know."

"Then leave her alone, this glass of wine is offered to you by me, won't you refuse to drink it?" The woman said in a flirtatious and ambiguous tone.

"You gave it, can I not drink it?"

"Aren't you going to take me home today so I can 'warm' you?"

Can this woman be any more shameless?Who is this voice, and why is it so familiar?Open your eyes, and let me have a look at this vile woman.

"Hehe, I'm not in a hurry, why are you in a hurry?" The man chuckled and dragged me forward, letting the woman behind me pester me endlessly.

"Hey! Come back to me! Stop!"

The body was dragged away by him like this, but the empty heart seemed to be filled to the brim.Whether it's caring or sympathy, I need them all, because I'm afraid of the days of loneliness, I'm really afraid, now, even my most distressed and most important belly has been abandoned, what is left of me?
If I am a stray puppy, then the person who picks me up, please be my master, put me in a small corner, love me well, take care of me, my request is not Many, I won't bother you often, I just hope that someone can stay with me and give me the simplest care.

Thinking of this in my heart, I feel like I have really turned into a puppy, nestling quietly in the arms of the owner. The owner's chest is hot and broad, like the temperature of my father, hugging and protecting me so warmly, Don't let me get hurt a little bit.

For a long time, I have been hugged by countless men. They bought me expensive cosmetics, bags, and jewelry with money to please me. I have obtained the vanity and beauty that women need, but what about love?In fact, they don't understand, from childhood to adulthood, I was doted on by thousands of people, I grew up with a golden spoon in my mouth, I never took money seriously, I had famous brands, love, and pride.

(End of this chapter)