Ji Liangchuan, I have loved you for so many years

Chapter 37 The Story of Ji Liangchuan (2)
My college life is over. In just four short years, I realized that my life was extremely empty. In the first three years, I had enough fun with the beauties in school. There was no other feeling until I met Shen Meng, many things changed, and more importantly, we were getting married.

I went out for dinner with a few buddies from the dormitory. When they learned that Shen Meng was my girlfriend and was going to be my wife, they insisted on asking me to bring her. We behaved very well at the dinner table. No one knew about our real relationship. When Xue Kai called me into the bathroom and yelled at me angrily, I had no choice but to tell Xue Kai that we were just playing on the spot, that we were just a political marriage, and I didn't treat her well. emotion.

It was also at that time that I suddenly discovered that lying is painful.

On the day of the wedding, the moment Shen Meng's father put her hand into mine, a man's innate sense of responsibility made me suddenly want to protect her well, no matter whether our relationship is true or not, from now on she will It's my wife, the person I spent my whole life with. I have no reason to abandon her, no reason to make her unhappy. I told her father to rest assured, but at the same time, I was warning myself to give her happiness no matter what. , whether she likes me or not, I will protect her for the rest of my life.

When I was about to kiss her lips, the man named Du Xiaohang suddenly appeared in front of me. I looked at her worried eyes, and she just stared at Du Xiaohang with a sad and reluctance on her face. The sudden surge of anger made me unable to resist kissing her in front of Du Xiaohang. She looked at me in surprise, and even I was surprised. All my actions began to be out of the control of my brain. I was starting to find it hard to understand myself.

Until our wedding night, I never thought about touching her. I wouldn't touch her because of our seemingly close relationship, but I still couldn't help teasing her, deliberately speaking ambiguously, deliberately making her Helping me get a change of underwear, her face flushed so vividly and so cutely.

Now that I have decided to give up the past, it is my only responsibility to protect her in the future, no matter how we feel about each other.

On the plane traveling to Japan, I covered her ears with both hands, she blushed immediately, shook her head desperately and said it was okay, she is like this, she likes to be brave in everything, and always shows her strong side On the outside, I don’t want others to see her weakness. In fact, at that time, I really wanted to say to her, with me by your side in the future, you don’t need to be so strong. A big tree that shelters from the wind and rain.

We ate a buffet in a store. When I took her to turn cotton candy, I realized that she was actually just a little woman who liked anything girls liked. I used to think that she was a girl with deep love, but , Looking at her innocent face now, I realized that I actually don't know her well.

That night, I had a dream. I dreamed that Meiyi suddenly told me that she would leave me forever, so that I would never see her again. I suddenly felt flustered. In the dream, it seemed that I was still chasing her. That back, I didn’t wake up until the back disappeared, the sunlight outside the window shone into the room, and when I realized that Shen Meng was not by my side, I was instantly overwhelmed by the sudden panic. I searched the whole thing, but I couldn't find her. I have never felt so flustered at a moment, even scarier than that dream. When I received a call from Mr. Sato, I slumped and sat down on the chair. Fortunately, she is fine, I can't imagine the consequences of losing her, I really can't.

When buying gifts for her family in Japan, when Shen Meng mentioned Du Xiaohang, she had that disappointed expression again. When I asked her if she liked Du Xiaohang, she didn’t answer me. I don’t know if it meant yes, but I I don't want to ask any more questions, I'm afraid to show my feelings, I only blame myself for being too proud.

After returning from Japan, Shen Meng suddenly became very considerate, like a virtuous wife, would greet me when I got off work, and would secretly learn how to make soft fried fresh milk for me to eat, the sweetness of newlyweds burst into my heart All over my body, in fact, I forgot to tell her, tell her which period of honeymoon with her was the happiest time in my life.

When the days became normal, when Meiyi's shadow gradually faded in my heart, it was ridiculous that she came back again.

On the day I went to work in the company as usual, I saw a girl with short hair standing at the door. When I went up to ask her who she was looking for, she turned her head and looked at me. For a moment, we had nothing to say.

The world suddenly became quiet, I stared at each other for a long time, my mind was blank, I couldn't even say her name, at this moment, her tears flowed down, rushing into my arms, crying hoarsely, I lost consciousness and all consciousness, instinctively stretched out my hands to hold her tightly, just like I used to hold her tightly in those days when we were together more than four years ago She, just, why the chest suddenly hurts so badly, I don't understand, I don't know, maybe I can understand the inner world of others, but for myself, I don't understand what I am thinking at all, when I wake up , Meiyi has already run away, running away from my chest is like running away from my world that day.

I didn't know how I spent that day until Shen Meng saw me when I took out the photo inexplicably at night. I was suddenly confused. The past and reality overlapped and made me feel unbearably painful. I didn't know what to say , and didn’t know how to express that feeling, Shen Meng shed tears and said that I should love Meiyi, not her, she didn’t know how it hurt me when she said this, I don’t like to hear her say She herself is a petite and self-willed young lady, and I don't like to hear her say that she is vain, and these are not the real her.

It wasn't until she left that I realized what the inexplicable pain in my chest was when I was holding Meiyi. I sat in the room alone until dawn. I didn't even have time to ask her why Meiyi left me. Gone, but now I have no time to take care of it.

Whether I give up my self-esteem or lose my pride, I’m going to find her, the one who blamed herself for spending 600 yuan on snacks, the one who knits a scarf for me even though she doesn’t know how to knit , that she who used to run around in a foreign country in the middle of the night just to buy me amulets, I know all of this, I understand, but I am afraid, I am afraid that these are fake, and I am afraid that they are all means she used to tease me , There has never been a real relationship between us, and at this moment, I am even more scared.

When I saw her drunk at Midnight Flower, I walked over without hesitation, but just as my hand was about to reach out to her, Du Xiaohang grabbed her, and when she got up, she unexpectedly Hugging Du Xiaohang, I froze in place for an instant, watching Du Xiaohang pat her head distressedly, and took her away, I felt that I was too ridiculous, I was playing for fun, and I became serious without knowing it. I almost forgot that there is such a person as Du Xiaohang, her childhood sweetheart, she has played together since she was a child, how could I be able to intervene in their relationship, I am a man, and I can't stand being played by others after being passionate. I was the one who unknowingly turned the fake into the real, but I haven't woken up yet.

I don't know how I got home, I just stared at the scenery outside the window in a daze, and the sky became bright when I looked at it, it turned out that I lost another woman I loved deeply.

Such is fate, when one gets one, the other is lost.It's a pity that the relationship between me and Meiyi can no longer be restored, because of her, the three-year relationship between me and Meiyi disappeared without a trace in an instant.

The only good thing is that Shen Meng didn't know that I was truly in love with her, otherwise I don't know if I would be laughed to death by her. The sad thing is that I still care about my pride and self-esteem. This is indeed a fatal blow to a man. Wounds, but since she's all fake to me, I don't need to be stupid for her anymore.

For nearly a month, I didn't contact her again, and she didn't contact me either. Maybe we really became a couple in name only.

I can only work hard to numb myself. At night, I hide in the house alone and drink wine. I often look at the stars outside the window and think about her face. Thinking like this, I just sat there all night. I don’t know how many sleepless days I spent. On the night of the wedding, her heart ached to the point of numbness. The way she looked at Du Xiaohang on the day of the wedding, and the way she looked at Du Xiaohang in Japan when she bought gifts for Du Xiaohang, I knew it couldn't be as simple as just friends.

I wanted to forget her, but I found that it was such a difficult thing, as if she was a cell in your life, I blamed myself for not wanting to say it out of self-esteem when I liked it, and not wanting to say it when I wanted to say it I lost the opportunity, and I was afraid to say that I like her, and she doesn't love me, so how should I bear the pain of losing her, the pain of not getting love, I know I must not be able to bear it.

In the end, I finally couldn't bear the days when she wasn't by my side anymore, I couldn't bear the loneliness and emptiness, even if she laughed and said to me that she has been playing with me and cheating on me, I can't bear it. I am willing, at this moment, I just want to see her, otherwise, I will definitely go crazy.

I went to Midnight Flower and saw her surrounded by a group of men. How could she be so frivolous and joking with other men? I walked over like crazy and grabbed her. The moment she saw me, she seemed surprised , Even at this moment, I would rather believe that she is not playing tricks on me, but that she really loves me.

I took her to the hotel where we had sex, put her on the bed, I don't know if I'm crazy, and I don't know how to get her all but this way, until she cries When she told me that she liked me so much, I nestled into her neck and whispered to her, you must only like me.

She must not know that at that moment, I also cried.

(End of this chapter)