Ji Liangchuan, I have loved you for so many years

Chapter 36 The Story of Ji Liangchuan (1)
I always thought that I would wait until she reappeared in front of me, no matter why she left me for so many years, and no matter whether she has her true life now, I would rather believe foolishly, foolishly I sincerely hope that we will have a future until Shen Meng appears.

A person slowly loses himself under the feasting and feasting at midnight, and the past memories appear in his mind like a rewind. Whenever there are many people, his heart becomes more lonely. When he is lonely, he always thinks of her.

Looking around inadvertently, a girl was drinking like me, with a melancholy beauty on her side face. When I saw a man teasing and chatting up with her, I realized that I had already walked over and came to her Beside her, she drank too much and looked at me with a blurred look. I didn't think much, but I didn't like to see people like me continue to suffer. I pulled her out of Midnight Flower until I sent her to the hotel. I found that there was something wrong with my physical condition. I saw that strange girl lying in front of me. I almost lost control. The huge desire in my body burned me. I tried my best to restrain myself, but when I turned around to leave , but she pulled me back and looked at me with eyes that I couldn't restrain, until this moment I completely indulged myself, I pressed her on the bed, frantically tore her clothes, kissed her lips, I couldn't stop, even though I was so clear-headed, a great grief and indignation swept through my heart. At this moment, I wished that the person in front of me was her. If so, we would never be separated again, but my There is only a strange face in front of us, and there is only loneliness and desire between us.

When I woke up, I realized that I had made an irreparable mistake, but if she hadn't held me back, I wouldn't have handed over the first time to a woman I didn't know, and this woman wasn't She, looking at this strange woman lying beside me, the grief and anger in my heart became more and more intense. From this moment on, I seemed to have lost the reason to continue waiting for her, maybe I was crazy, I lost my mind, I decided Start revenge, we can't just have a one night stand, I can't let her go away.

Very successfully, she didn't intend to disappear, but was trying her best to find me. I felt that the opportunity came, and tried every means to make her pay attention to me, so that he felt that I was different from other men. I didn't Thinking of how easy it is to pursue her, I became interested when I knew she was Shen Meng, a powerful woman from S University. Maybe we are all destined, but unfortunately, I don't plan to develop into a relationship with her. What is a real love relationship, all my actions are revenge, and it is best to make her fall in love with me.

It's going well, we are together, like ordinary boyfriend and girlfriend, shopping, eating, watching movies, although I know she is also playing, but I will wait patiently until the day she falls in love with me.

We quarreled at Midnight Flower, because I guessed what was on her mind, and I suddenly became confused about Shen Meng. It’s not that I haven’t heard the rumors about her at S University. I don’t know what kind of woman she is. It was very clear, I didn't expect her to give it to me for the first time, and when I realized it, I found that she was different from what I imagined, so the reason why she became like this was nothing more than her parents' marital problems.

She was in a hurry, saying that I took away her first night, that she hated me, and I secretly laughed in my heart, if it wasn't for her lack of self-esteem and self-love, how could all this happen? Facts have proved that she is such a woman, Meiyi won't be like her who doesn't know how to cherish herself, won't go to that kind of fireworks place casually like her, and won't get drunk like mud and wait for a man to take her to a hotel.

I hate Meiyi's departure, and I hate Shen Meng who played with men like this. They are all betrayers of love.

I didn't expect that she could play the role of lover so vividly. Looking at my bleeding arm, she went to the supermarket to buy a band-aid and put it on for me. I understand that she is trying to please each other and make him fall in love with me just like me. I will betray myself, and then betrayed fiercely. In this case, I have no choice but to accompany me. I would like to see who is the final winner in this love game.

When my dad called me over and told me that he hoped to marry Shen Meng as soon as he graduated, my world suddenly collapsed into one piece. I stayed in the room alone that day, thinking about it for a long time. The matter between me and Meiyi , Although our relationship in high school was young, it was also the most sincere. At that time, I didn't understand that there would be so much pain in the world of love.

After so many years, I still can't forget her, even though all the things in front of me are secretly warning me that my fate with her has come to an end, in this life, we will not have any results.

However, I have no way to compromise my dad. Ever since I knew that Meiyi left me because he was behind my back, I have been enduring my resentment against him, disobeying him, and contradicting him. In the end, I was tired myself, because even without me Dad, Meiyi still hasn't come back. If she didn't betray me and fell in love with someone else, why did she not contact me after being separated from me for so long.

It wasn't until I heard Shen Meng say that she had been called to my house that I realized that our marriage was doomed.

She and I came out of the house and went to the supermarket. I really didn't expect her to spend so much money, but seeing her deliberately choose the most expensive things and throw them into the trolley in a trance, I felt that she didn't have me. It's as bad as I imagined. When a girl is angry, she always likes to pick things that others don't like. I've never seen her like that.

When I came out of the supermarket, I suddenly felt depressed. I didn't know whether I should compromise. If I could wait for her to resist, I would rather give up everything, but what happened?Abandoning future happiness because of a person who has hurt and betrayed me, am I an extremely stupid man, not worth it, not worth it for such a woman.

When Shen Meng said that he wanted to terminate the engagement, I finally made up my mind to let the past be the past forever, and it's time to get rid of this pain.

The days go by like this, I am used to taking care of her and helping her with everything, maybe it's just a habit, so what if it's not me?I'm already tired, I don't want to go against my dad's decision anymore, since my future partner is not Meiyi, then anyone is fine.

Until that day, when I saw her tears, I felt an inexplicable pain in my heart. It was obviously just a misunderstanding, and I was handcuffed by the police and held in the interrogation room for questioning. I didn’t know that she would cry for me. I I watched her in a daze for a long time, and before I had time to think about it, I stretched out my fingers to wipe away her tears. In my impression, she was always so rebellious, like a little puppy Tiger, stubborn, sharp, never admit defeat, but when I found her tears, I realized that I have deviated from my original self, and now I have no strength to take revenge on her, after all, she is just a Innocent girl, I have no right to pass on to others the hurt that others have caused me.

I still remember that day when it was sunny after the rain, she followed me closely, like a child who did something wrong, and suddenly she took my hand, like a baby, grabbing my fingers, it was so soft Warmth, he took her hand inexplicably, and in the cool air, under the sunshine passing through the clouds, we just walked down the road with her hand in hand.

The matter of Meiyi has been suppressed in my heart for a long time, and finally everything can start again. On the eve of the Chinese New Year, I walked into the room and saw Shen Meng looking at the photo of me and Meiyi. It was like an explosion, and the rapid anger ignited me instantly. I am not such a character, I don't like to be angry, and I don't know why such a scene makes me so angry.

I walked over and snatched the photo, she looked at me, her face gradually paled, I knew that I frightened her, but I suddenly lost my mind, said such cold words to her, hurt her, wait until I just calmed down when she ran away from the door. When I saw the scarf on the table, my heart suddenly turned cold. I have never felt so helpless and blamed myself for a moment. I understand why I'm angry, maybe it's because I don't want people to know about me and Meiyi's past, maybe I don't want her to know...

For a long time, she ignored me, didn't answer my phone calls, didn't reply to my text messages. I don't know why, but suddenly felt that my life was empty, and I got used to the feeling of her being around, and the feeling of her cheating. I am used to the feeling of her acting like a baby with me, maybe from the bottom of my heart, I have never rejected her like this, even though I know everything is just an illusion.

I wandered from one toy store to another, and there were many, many girls in the store looking at the fluffy teddy bears and smiling silly. Girls like dolls. I don’t know if she likes them too. I dare not Imagine what Shen Meng would look like holding a toy, maybe it's cute... I picked a silly-looking rabbit from the store and repeatedly told the clerk to make the most beautiful wrapping paper.When I came to Hongdou's house with that silly rabbit, I even fantasized that she would throw herself into my arms, laughing heartlessly.

However, when we reconciled, she said to me that our marriage was good for her work. After that, neither of us talked anymore. We were the quiet air that settled down. I don’t know what she was thinking What, it's like I don't even know why I feel lost.

On the day we went to take wedding photos, I regretted not telling her sincerely, you are really beautiful, maybe I am a proud person like her, I don’t like to praise others, and I don’t like to bow my head to others.

(End of this chapter)