Ji Liangchuan, I have loved you for so many years

Chapter 77 Extra Story 2: Red Bean
I still find it funny, because I never thought that my friendship with Shen Meng started from a love triangle.Originally, I thought that I would hate her for the rest of my life because of the Chen Baobao incident. Who let her snatch my boyfriend away.However, human feelings are like being bound by fate. Because of various coincidences, I became her best friend, and she also became my best friend.I don't know why, but I just like her natural and free and easy feeling.When I was with her, I didn't feel that she was really as cold and arrogant as the school rumors said. In fact, she was just an ordinary girl who needed to be loved.

It was also because of Shen Meng that I met a calamity in my life, that is Du Xiaohang. I didn't know that love would come so quickly.Shen Meng came to my house to play and called a good buddy of hers, she called him Little Belly, they were childhood sweethearts.Then I really always thought that way, until I found out that I fell in love with him, I thought Du Xiaohang was really just Shen Meng's friend.However, that day, when I heard Du Xiaohang confess his love to Shen Meng with my own ears, I realized that my love withered before it blossomed and borne fruit.It's funny to say, Shen Meng is like my other Jie, the people I like will like her in the end.But I didn't hate her. It stands to reason that I should break up with her immediately and hate her deeply, but I don't know why, but I just can't hate her.And Du Xiaohang likes her, she is not wrong, what is wrong is that I shouldn't like Du Xiaohang.

I started to care about Du Xiaohang irresistibly. Taking care of him is the most important thing for me every day.I can't concentrate on doing anything almost all day long. What I think about most every day is whether he is eating well and taking good care of himself.Until I didn't know how to hide myself and gave him all these cares that almost crossed some bottom lines, he finally understood everything.I know I should hide this relationship well, but I can't help myself.

We both tacitly understood each other's feelings, he was a little alienated from me, because he didn't want to hurt me, because he knew that he couldn't accept anyone except Shen Meng.I continued to take care of him without hesitation, not only because it was the task Shen Meng entrusted to me, but also because I wanted to impress him in a sly way.I thought that as long as I worked hard, I would definitely make him like me, but in the end I was still wrong.He is him, stubborn, stubborn, and inflexible. The girl he likes has always been so deeply in love with him, and he will not share any extra affection with me.

I can't tell what kind of sad mood it is, maybe it doesn't hurt that much, it's just that I know something that I expected a long time ago.

When I heard that Du Xiaohang fell from upstairs and was covered in blood, my first thought was that he committed suicide for Shen Meng.During the period between hearing about this incident and before knowing that he was fine, I didn't know how I spent it at all. I just felt that my world had also become a mess because of his collapse.

In the hospital, I could only quarrel with him desperately and hit him with a pillow to hide my uncontrollable tears.I know that if he sees me like this, he will be uncomfortable, and I will also be uncomfortable.Seeing that he was able to return his words lively and vigorously, my heart was finally at ease.When she saw Shen Meng arriving, seeing that Du Xiaohang was fine, she suddenly lost the strength to relax and sat on the ground paralyzed.I saw Du Xiaohang's eyes flicker, and the next second he jumped out of bed to see how she was doing. It was obvious that they had quarreled not long ago, and Shen Meng severely hurt his dignity, but at this moment, he can ignore it. As a man's self-esteem, forgetting everything to see if she is okay, what kind of affection is this.I thought the so-called love was a kind of free protection. Maybe Du Xiaohang's feelings for Shen Meng far surpassed my understanding of love. At that time, I just felt that I was actually a failure. Giving way too little.

Later, a girl named Chen Yajie came to Du Xiaohang's company.At the beginning, the girl was not very familiar with the company's business and was often scolded by the boss.At that time, Du Xiaohang was her team leader. If there was anything she didn't understand or didn't know, Du Xiaohang helped her one by one, and gave her a lot of help in work, and he only treated her like a younger sister. There are no shelves.But later I found out that Du Xiaohang's attitude towards Chen Yajie had changed, just because I learned about her family background.Her father is from the underworld, and I know that everyone will have a sense of distance from a girl from such a family background.It was also at that time, when I saw Chen Yajie's loss, that I realized one thing. It turned out that she also secretly liked Du Xiaohang.For her, he is a warm big brother, a little careless, but very enthusiastic, but she didn't know at that time that such a sunny boy also had his melancholy, just because he loved someone who didn't love him deeply. girl.

Later, many things happened.In the emotional world of Shen Meng and Ji Liangchuan, because of their separation and reunion, Du Xiaohang faced gain, loss, gain, and loss again and again, which was too cruel for him.Several times, really several times, I wanted to cry and shout: "Shen Meng, how can you treat him like this? He is also a human being. He has loved you for so many years, more than ten years. You return to him, He grinned and nodded happily like a fool, he didn't care about anything. He didn't care who you loved, who you married, for what reason, he just wanted to be with you happily, no matter why. So simple Beautiful love, how many times can a woman get it in her life? However, after you were with him, you left him cruelly. Do you know how he got through? He is like a walking dead, and life is worse every day Soaking in the bar to death, calling your name over and over again. Such a strong shout, after all, failed to call you back, and call him back into his life. "

I know that Shen Meng is not wrong, she is sincere with him, and she is loyal to her love when she leaves.In this complex emotional world, no one is wrong, everyone only wants to love the person they love, but it is because we are all wrong that we have caused so much harm, because love is the most selfish thing in the world, It's something you can never control.

Du Xiaohang began to become very strange, sometimes he would be in a daze, and sometimes he would break the cup beside him, torturing himself like a devil.When he was awake, he once hugged me and murmured to me: "Hongdou, am I crazy? I just... why did I have that urge just now... Do you know? Shen Meng left me , she went to find Ji Liangchuan...why did I want to kill that man...why? Hongdou, am I crazy?"

I held back my tears and hugged him tightly, gave him warmth, and stroked his head: "Don't think about it...everything will pass..."

Later, he really became crazy, like an irrational lion, he did the biggest mistake.He actually told Ji Liangchuan's father about Shen Meng's pregnancy, knowing that the Ji family would not let Shen Meng give birth to this child, he still did it.When he learned that Shen Meng had a miscarriage, he cried and pulled his hair out one by one. He beat his head desperately and said to himself in front of me: "I must be crazy... How could you treat her like this... That's her child... What's wrong with me... Hongdou, tell me, am I sick?"

My heart has already become riddled with holes because of his loss. How can a person covered with wounds comfort another person covered with wounds?Who will tell me?
In the dark night, we can only hug each other, like two animals licking each other's wounds.

However, I never thought that Du Xiaohang would be so out of control that he would harm Ji Liangchuan, and the most difficult thing for me to accept was that he actually chose to marry Chen Yajie, and he didn't choose me in the end.I didn't ask anything, because my heart had already been hurt thoroughly and simply, and I no longer had the extra mood to care about others.After attending Shen Meng's wedding, I told her that I'm going abroad to visit my parents. They have been traveling abroad all year round, and they almost forgot about me as a daughter, so I had to go to see them. , forget everything that happened here.

Du Xiaohang and Shen Meng will never see each other again in this life, probably with Du Xiaohang too, but I couldn't help but call him one last time in the waiting room.I told him, I'm going to go abroad for a while, and I don't know when I'll come back, so take care of yourself in the future, happy newlyweds.

He wanted to hang up the phone immediately, but Du Xiaohang suddenly said: "Hongdou, I like you, but I love Shen Meng, so I don't want to hurt you. As far as I am concerned, as long as I am not with Shen Meng, then It doesn't matter who I'm with, but I like you who care about me, so that person will never be you. You know? I feel like a devil now, I don't care about other people's feelings, for I selfishly want to possess what I want, even at the expense of other people's lives. Maybe the me you like is already dead and does not exist, and the current me is no longer worthy of you, so let's not be together, okay? ?”

I don't know why I suddenly cried, I bit my lower lip and cried secretly, nodding my head on the other end of the phone, I understand, I understand his feelings.

I said to him: "Du Xiaohang, I don't regret falling in love with you, goodbye."

Du Xiaohang gave a soft "hmm", but at the end of the phone call, at the end of the story, Du Xiaohang said something that made my heart hurt. I think that person hurts more than me: "It turns out that the saddest thing is not that I didn't get Shen in the end." Meng, but I can no longer be her little belly."

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