Sister and brother love outside marriage: ups and downs and entanglement

Chapter 219 [Lei Xi] I am a casual person (1)

Many people say that I am too casual, I usually think this is a compliment, it means that I have an attitude, at least I am living for myself.It doesn't matter whether you are right or not, don't be tied down by the world, and don't be changed by the environment.

However, this was only once, before I entered the night scene.Or, before I went to Dynasty for the first time.

Grandma said that my casualness replaced my mother, and my wild and unruly nature ended up killing me.I don't think so, because I don't even know what my mother looks like, and all the impressions of my mother since I was a child stay in the group photo in the living room.My grandmother seldom cares about me, except for food and clothing, so she doesn't know what I do outside.

Before college, my grandma thought I was very well-behaved and sensible, and my academic performance was always very good, because every time I took a report card that was changed from 10 points to 100 points, I could always get away with her eyes wearing presbyopic glasses.When I was in junior high, my grandma always asked me if any of my classmates liked me and pursued me. I always smiled and acted like a baby and answered her that I would not fall in love early. Now I just want to study at ease and repay her for nurturing me.

In fact, I fell in love in the second year of junior high school, and my first love in the third year of junior high school gave me up to his elder brother.

I don’t even remember the name of my first love. I only know that his name is Fang Liu. He is a gangster in the area where I live. He dropped out of school after finishing elementary school. Collect protection fees.We also know each other because of protection fees.

On the first day of junior high school, the first day after changing to a new school, Fang Liu was waiting for us new students in the alley from the school. Everyone who passed through that alley would leave so-called road money.The classmates who walked in front of me gave it, but I didn't give it when it was my turn.One is because I have no money, and the other is that I don't want to compromise with these people.After all, in elementary school, because I was taller than many people, few boys and girls could beat me.

Fang Liu didn't hit me like he did to other students who didn't take money that day, but said with a smile, this girl has a lot of personality.

I replied to him in disdain, it has nothing to do with you.

From then on, Fang Liu not only didn't ask me for money, but even took the money collected from other students to treat me to dinner and buy me snacks and clothes.

Grandma seldom took me to go shopping, and she bought all my clothes in the small shop at the entrance of the alley.But I love beauty, and I'm not bad, so I don't refuse anything Fang Liu offers me. I make excuses for this: His money is not clean money, and it's not wasted.

Fang Liu's special care for me made me "aweed" by everyone at school. Even when someone saw me go to the bathroom, no matter how anxious I was to urinate, they would take the initiative to let me go first.I think it's a sense of superiority, and a respect even higher than that of a teacher.This feeling made me very comfortable and enjoyable, so Fang Liu asked me to be his girlfriend, and I did. When Fang Liu took me to the Internet, he took off my clothes in the attic of the Internet cafe and said he wanted to fuck me. gave.

So my first time happened in the attic of that dark Internet cafe.Downstairs sat a group of shirtless men surfing the Internet, Fang Liu even poked his head and called his brother, who is the owner of this black Internet cafe, "Throw one of your caps up."

It was bleeding, and it was stained on the somewhat blackened bed sheet on the floor in the attic, so it wasn't very noticeable.Fang Liu didn't even think to look for it, maybe he didn't think that I would be a virgin at all, or when I said I was in pain when I went downstairs, he just took a look and cursed: "Damn, my mother got a virgin Ah." Then he yelled towards the attic: "Brother, let me send you a skewer for 50 yuan, my woman needs to make up for it."

Fang Liu was not gentle, he could even be said to be a bit rude, I was in pain, but I gritted my teeth and jumped down with him, sat in front of the computer with my legs clamped, and ate skewers with him.I didn't feel wrong about it, and I didn't feel how precious the first time was. If he gave me what I wanted, I'd give him what he wanted, that's all.

Since then, Fang Liu has been even better with me, buying clothes and bags and taking me to restaurants and bars, and holding my shoulders wherever I go, making people call me sister-in-law.Of course, many students in school who had an affair with the society also began to call their sisters-in-law and sisters-in-law, and I also bought a skewer of sausages during class breaks.

In the second day of junior high school, I dyed my hair yellow, pierced my ears 6 times in a row, and tattooed lover butterflies on my chest and Fang Liu.Wearing the most fashionable clothes with holes and rivets, he would always stand with Fang Liu and the others at the alley outside the school to smoke after class and after school.I changed from a freshman passing through this alley to a person who stays here.

Fang Liu was arrested in the second semester of the second year of junior high school. The day before he was arrested, he took me to buy a suit of mature clothes, dyed his hair black and straightened it, and took me to a bar in Houhai to meet a man named Si Lord's people.

Fang Liu called him big brother, now recalling the look in his eyes that day, he was very lecherous, he always stared at my chest.But I thought so at the time. I thought he was Fang Liu's big brother, and he would also be my big brother. He was so powerful in school that he had to rely on such a big brother to back him up.

So I kept toasting him. I still remember drinking foreign wine. It was the first time I drank it. I used to go to bars with Fang Liu and drink beer.I drank a lot, and Fang Liu asked me to go back to the hotel to sleep. He said that my elder brother opened a hotel for us.I am very excited, every time Fang Liu and Fang Liu are either in the attic of the black Internet cafe, or in his small shabby house shared by 5 or 6 people, every time he wants to do something, he will let other people close the door first and go out .We yelled inside, and the people outside would follow suit. Fang Liu usually moved a few times, and would yell outside: "Scream again, tell me to castrate you!"

I had my period that day, and it was almost over, but I didn't think it would be a hindrance. Every time the period comes, it's the same as usual, drink and do what you have to do.Because no one told me that I can't do anything when I'm on my period, I just feel a little bleeding, and when I lie on the bed, put something under it and it's over.

Later I was very dizzy, I thought the person lying on the same bed with me was Fang Liu, but after waking up from the wine, I realized it was Fourth Master.Fourth Master pointed to a trace of bright red on the snow-white bed sheet, and asked me if I had a good time last night?I said I didn't feel drunk.Fourth master smiled, reassuring me, he will take care of me and my brother at the same time, and won't let him suffer in it.

I instantly understood that Fang Liu had been telling Fourth Master that I was his sister last night, and he sent me to someone else's bed before he knew something was going to happen to him.

I didn't cry and scold Fang Liu. Even at that time, I thought Fang Liu was so kind to me. I knew that I was going to go in, but I still remembered to arrange me first, so that I would not be resented by those who had bullied me at school in the future. Come and bully.

When I left, Fourth Master gave me 1 yuan, and I took home half of it to my grandmother. I didn't dare to give too much, saying that my composition was published in a magazine, and this was the manuscript fee.Grandma didn't doubt it, she smiled and praised me for my ability, and I can make money by my own ability at a young age.I didn't feel guilty, and I didn't blame myself. It's my ability to get back so much money after a night's sleep.

I have been with the fourth master for many years, from the third year of junior high school to the first year of freshman year.

The money he gave me was not too much, but it was more than six, which was enough for me to buy casual fashions from off-campus stores every month, and allowed me to smoke good cigarettes in school that others couldn't afford.In short, he and Fang Liu have a characteristic, as long as I want to give, so I still take this as a return, and I will give him what he wants.It was also at Siye's place that I learned that I can't do errands, drink cold water, drink alcohol and smoke less during menstruation.

My grades were not good, so I couldn't get into a good school. When the college entrance examination was about to take place, Fourth Master Hou gave me an application form, an application form for a model in an art school.He said that I am tall and pretty enough to be a model.So I filled it out, and under his arrangement, I went to this school smoothly.If Fourth Master knew that I would propose to leave him after I went to college, he would definitely not have helped me go to this school just to show off that his woman is a model.

Since the first semester of my freshman year, commercial performances have come to our school one after another. My qualifications are not bad, and I was quickly picked up by a brokerage company, who often arranged some commercial performances for me.I also met Zhou Yangzhou when I was often in contact with the economic company, and I felt that it came very quickly. It seemed that I was standing on the runway and he was sitting in the audience. The moment our eyes met, they hit each other.

Only then did I realize that not all men in the world are like Fang Liu, nor are all men like Fourth Master.Also starting to understand that love may not be about sex.

Zhou Yangzhou left my phone number, and we have been in touch for two months.In the past two months, I still slept with Fourth Master, but my heart was not as clean as before. When I lay under him, I would think of Zhou Yangzhou.Even for the first time afterwards, I felt guilty, thinking that I should leave Fourth Master and be a clean woman.

I proposed to leave Fourth Master, but he didn't try to persuade me too much, he just asked me if I had made up my mind?

I said yes and he said yes.

He didn't give me extra compensation, didn't ask me to pay back the money he spent on me over the years, and didn't make it difficult for me to go back to him like in the novel.It's more like the deal between us is over, I don't sell it, he doesn't buy it.

Buying and selling are words I only learned when I was in college, because there are several students in the art school, and every time the celebration banquet at the end of the commercial performance, they will clearly mark their worth.Or the brokerage company has an important dinner party, and when they take us there, they will directly quote the price.

Of course, Zhou Yangzhou is the boss of the brokerage company, and I have no price with him.

Also because of Zhou Yangzhou, I have a lot of commercial performances, more than my classmates.Many people envy me that I can meet the boss with luck, and I am also a single diamond king.In fact, I also think that luck is good, but no one knows, and more importantly, I went to repair *** when everyone clearly marked the price.

(End of this chapter)