Sister and brother love outside marriage: ups and downs and entanglement

Chapter 220 [Lei Xi] I am a casual person (2)

A man like Zhou Yangzhou who hangs around models all day long, if I don't do this, he will probably treat me as the same as those women who list prices.So when I found out I was in love with him and wanted to be with him forever, I went and I managed to convince him.

I asked him where does he love me?He said that my freedom and ease infected him, and he admired my inherent disdainful attitude.In fact, I don't know what this free and easy attitude is.Anyway, we fell in love, and I gave him almost everything I could except the membrane was fake.Yes, because I love him.

Everyone laughed at me for being a whore and wanting to set up a memorial archway, obviously for Zhou Yangzhou's status and money, but they still want to say that this is true love.Only Ding Qian believed me, this girl from a small city outside, she said that I already had a sense of superiority related to childbirth, and I did not want to be with others and would not give up to be with others.She believes that I love Zhou Yangzhou, and also believes that I am not for any money, so I am kind to Ding Qiante, and always want to draw her in for any good things.

After being in love for two years, I really never asked Zhou Yangzhou for anything other than commercial performances, because the benefits brought to me by commercial performances alone were much more than what Fourth Master gave me.In the next semester of my junior year, everyone was busy signing with a brokerage company. Zhou Yangzhou told me not to worry, he would marry me as soon as he returned from a trip abroad, and we would go live abroad after marriage.

I said, are you asking me to wait for you?

He said yes.

I said yes.

Waiting is what I do best.

When I was young, I waited for my parents, when I was with Fang Liu, I waited for those classmates who were robbed, when I was with Fourth Master, I waited for her to pick me up after school to go to the hotel, and I waited for him to give me a little money after I pulled my pants.

So I waited for half a year, hoping that I could put on a wedding dress for him. When I had to step out of school, Zhou Yangzhou came back to get married, but the bride was not me.

Gossip from schoolmates let me know the truth. Zhou Yangzhou’s family arranged a girlfriend for him before he went abroad, but he was still studying abroad.And when his family found out about us, they tried their best to let him go abroad to marry his girlfriend and return to China for the wedding.

Ding Qian said that this is a very clichéd story, Cinderella fell in love with Prince Charming, the family objected to not let us get married, and watched him marry another woman.

Those who once taunted me applauded and congratulated Ming Chao and said sarcastically, shouldn’t true love be married?In the end, I was dumped by others, and played by others!In fact, I don't know what it means to be played by others. I just feel very sad and feel that I didn't make it to the end. It's a pity, I'm disappointed, I'm confused, and I even feel very down.

At least when I'm with fourth master, I won't think about the future forever. As the saying goes, there is no hope, so I will never be disappointed.And Zhou Yangzhou gave me great hope, because I never asked him if he would marry me. He told me that he would marry me when he came back from abroad.

The hope that was excavated deeply was shattered by his own hands. I can't stay in school anymore. This is the study that the fourth master asked me to go to, and Zhou Yangzhou gave me the opportunity to perform commercially to support my studies. .Fourth master was lost by me, and Chen Yangzhou got married, so it doesn't make any sense to learn about it.

So I dropped out of school and never looked back.

Not long after, my grandma came to the school to look for me, and learned about my dropout, and also learned about Zhou Yangzhou and me from my classmates.In fact, she had already been hit before she came. Fang Liu went to our house to find me when he was released from prison. He told grandma that he was my boyfriend. Grandma didn’t believe that I would have a boyfriend with dyed yellow hair and tattoos all over his body, because She didn't believe that I would fall in love at all.

To be precise, Fang Liu did it on purpose. When he sent me to Fourth Master, he wanted to have someone to rely on in prison and after he was released from prison.It's just that after coming out to find fourth master, the woman who appeared next to fourth master was changed to another vocational high school student.Only then did he know that I left fourth master.

After that, I was no longer the good granddaughter in front of her eyes, and she was so angry that she fell ill in bed.

She said, Lei Xi, your unruly nature is really inherited from your mother.

I still didn't take it seriously, I said grandma, I want to live my own life.

Grandma left with tears in her eyes. She was disappointed, thinking that she was the only one waiting in her life, and she didn't go in her own way.She thought that the pride lost in my mother had been found in me, but she never thought that such pride was just a lie woven by me.

At that time, I was very annoyed that my grandma was disappointed in me, because Zhou Yangzhou's only hope turned into disappointment, so when my grandma left, I just felt that she was sick and old, and it was time to leave.I have the capital to support myself, and I no longer need the home my grandmother gave me.Without her, without anyone, I, Lexi, would still be doing well.

Naturally, there was no way for me to survive in the modeling industry. I fell in love with clubbing with my little savings.In the bar, a charming look in my eyes can make a man fall for me. If you invite me to drink, please invite me to have a midnight snack. When I invite me to sleep, I will refuse.

This feeling is good, and the indulgence stops abruptly at the last step, giving me a pleasure beyond the body.

Yes, men are not used to love, but to play with.Because at this time I began to understand the meaning of playing.

There are many opportunities in the bars in Houhai, not just Siye.

I got to know a lot of dancers in the bar, and the dance foundation from the art school is enough here.So I became one of the dancers, and I took Ding Qian with me to perform in the bar at night, and during the day the company would accept some low-end commercial performances, similar to small real estate openings, similar to shopping mall activities.

I really enjoy the feeling of dancing on stage, in fact, I really enjoy the state of being in the spotlight.It's just that dancing is not destined to be a career that will accompany me throughout my life. I was injured, very seriously.The stage of the bar collapsed, and both Ding Qian and I fell off the stage and hurt our feet.You can still walk on the road, but you can't dance.

Fang Liu came to see me, hoping that I would go to Shenzhen with him.I asked him what to do?He said to sit on the stage.

I started to trouble Fang Liu, if he really could bear to share me with others, as long as it could make him idle and have money to spend, I was not the point.

When I left BJ, I jumped off the train to Shenzhen and ran. When I found Ding Qian, she said that I had to leave immediately, and BJ couldn't stay anymore.Ding Qian didn't ask me why, she just said she was with me.So we bought the fastest flight, which happened to be the flight to City A.

I didn't understand from the beginning to the end, why did Ding Qian follow me so much?She could keep modeling and maybe even stay with BJ's too.Later she said that many people in the school looked down on her for being from a small place, but I was the only one who was very kind to her, sharing everything with her, and always pulling her with her when there were commercial performances.

I think it's a vicious cycle, I'm isolated, she believes me, I'm nice to her, and we're all isolated.

Before I went to Dynasty, I really felt that my life could be controlled by my temperament, I could do whatever I wanted, quit my studies if I wanted to, and came to City A if I wanted to leave BJ.It was only after I got here that I realized that there would be restrictions. There are a lot of normative requirements when going on stage and drinking with guests.

I don't like being demanded, so I learned to use meth with the group of singers on stage.

The new drug, which is scary to say, allows me to regain the feeling of being the only dancer.In my illusion, everyone bows down to me, the whole world belongs to me, and even Zhou Yangzhou will kneel in front of me and beg me to forgive him.But when I wake up the feeling goes away, so I let myself indulge again.

During the more than a year in the dynasty, I had very few sober days, and most of the time I was in a state of ecstasy. After a long time, I couldn't remember what I did and said during those days.But I remember that Ding Qian was always by my side, and I also remember that she met another good friend there, Ni Juan.

I know that Ni Juan is a very powerful woman. The three of us entered Dynasty together, and she became the manager of the model group. She dominated Dynasty and even City A, and successfully captured the heart of the general manager.But I am still nothing, as usual, go to work every day to accompany drinks and get tips, and open a room to skate and sleep with people after get off work.

It wasn't until Zhang Nan's appearance that my muddled life ended.

On the afternoon when I first met Zhang Nan, I just got off the bed of the stage host and the singer. The three of us played all night, and my hands and feet were weak.Before the roll call at work, I took the opportunity to go to the backstage to take a few sips of ice to replenish some energy, which temporarily relieved my fatigue.

In the top VIP room, Zhang Nan was wearing a tracksuit, blushing and nodding at me.

Drinking, singing, opening a room to sleep, I provide one-stop service.

There is a rule in the Dynasty that models cannot be released, and I have always scoffed at such rules.The pleasing guest wanted to sleep with me, so I left a phone call and asked him to go first, and then go after changing clothes.This is not called publishing, this is my private life.So Zhang Nan said he wanted me to go with him, but I still asked him to wait for me in the same way.

The reason I went was because I thought this boy was quite funny, like those kids with good grades in our high school.I haven't had much contact with a classmate with good grades, so I want to sleep with him.

When I woke up the next morning, there were many people in the room, all of whom were in the private room the night before.Zhang Nan put his arms around me naked, pointed to the dirt in the trash can under the bed, and proved to others that he slept with me last night.

Others laughed and said that they would be fellow travelers from now on.

I don't understand their dumb language, but I understand that they are betting, maybe they are betting that Zhang Nan doesn't have the courage to sleep with a woman.It turned out that my guess was correct. These were Zhang Nan’s classmates from the university. They joked that Zhang Nan was going to work soon and hadn’t slept with a woman yet.Unconvinced, Zhang Nan followed them to Dynasty, and slept with me angrily.

It's not terrible to be angry, what's terrible is that Zhang Nan is in deep trouble.

In the night market, here I am.

I came to book a private room on time every night, sometimes with others, sometimes by myself, I accompanied him to drink, sang, taught him to play games, and treated him completely as a guest, but he never regarded me as a model.

(End of this chapter)