Give you a lifetime of love

Chapter 11 His Tenderness
I want to fall in love, I want to taste what it feels like to be loved, even if it is pretending, I am happy.

Because I have so little time left.

I don't have time to think about the things that make me sad.

I squinted my eyes and said with a smile, "It has nothing to do with you."

I was about to drive away, but Gu Tingchen suddenly opened the car door and jumped into the car. The action was extremely dangerous. I stopped the car and scolded him furiously: "Crazy, you will get hurt like this!"

Gu Tingchen's brows were fearless, I looked at him with cold eyes, and when I was about to drive him out of the car, he said firmly, "You still love me?"

It is a question and an affirmation.

He will be someone else's groom in three months, but now he is saying such words firmly.

Did he really think he could do whatever he wanted?
After all, it was the opportunity I gave him to fully expose her soft side to him.

If you want to blame, blame yourself for being too determined in love.

I was so sure that no one would believe me when I said I didn't love him anymore.

"Yeah, I love you, are you disgusted?"

I smiled frankly, and what I said was angry but also true.

Gu Tingchen squinted his eyes and told me to drive, "Drive back to Shi's villa."

"What about you?" I asked.

He said lightly, "I'm with you."

I thought about it, and said, "Forget it, I don't want to take you to Shi's house."

"Then look back at the villa."

……

I drove to the Gu family's villa, Gu Tingchen got out of the car and pulled my wrist into the villa. The inside was cleaned up, the sofas were all covered with white cloth, and there was no breath of life.

Gu Tingchen let go of me and removed the white cloths, I went to sit on the sofa, he went into the kitchen and poured me a cup of hot water and handed it to me.

I held it in my hand, feeling a little helpless.

What exactly is he trying to do?

It was afternoon, and the sunlight outside the window slowly came in, shining warmly on my body, but Gu Tingchen didn't say anything, and was busy cleaning up the villa all the time.

Neither of us disturbed the other, and soon in the evening, when Gu Tingchen came down from the stairs, he had already changed into a light-colored sweater, light-colored pants, and quite messy and wet black hair.

He came and sat across from me, I stared at him calmly, he looked at me gently, and asked patiently: "What do you want to eat tonight?"

Gu Tingchen's brows are clear and sharp, always cold and clear, so gentle like now is almost something I couldn't imagine before.

I shook my head and said, "I'm not hungry."

He frowned, and said in a low voice: "How can I not eat at night?"

I was startled, and subconsciously said, "You don't have to pretend to care about me."

Gu Tingchen was taken aback, and asked shyly, "Did I treat you badly before?"

After three years of marriage, Gu Tingchen couldn't say that he was bad to me, because he didn't even have the qualifications to be bad.

He used cold violence against me for three whole years.

Every time after finishing the work, I leave the villa without saying a word, and except for that time, I basically don’t see other people, except for that year when he forcibly killed my child...

It was a lie to say that I didn't hate him back then, but it was also true that he was cute.

It took me a few years to digest this matter, and now I can’t say I’m forgiven but I can’t say I hate it either. I’m relieved. Many things will be relieved with the end of my life, even if it will always be like a thorn in my soft heart. Occasionally, I will be turned out by myself for a careful aftertaste.

I sighed, smiled and said, "No."

Suddenly the doorbell rang, and Gu Tingchen got up to open the door.

When he came in, I saw that he had ordered some ingredients online.

I asked him curiously, "Do you want to cook?"

"Well, you like eating carp, right?"

I froze, nodded and said, "Well, I like it."

It's not me who likes to eat carp, but Wen Ruyan.

Wen Ruyan met me before leaving Wucheng, she stared at me pitifully and asked, "Do you know why Gu Tingchen likes to eat carp? Because I like it, he will try to make himself like everything I like, Shi Sheng, you You will find out in the future that he is a man with deep affection and loyalty. Once you are liked by him, it is the happiest thing in the world, but if you are not liked by him, then you are the saddest woman in the world, because the one you love Men have the most ruthless hearts."

At that time, I said stiffly: "Who said I like him?"

Wen Ruyan asked in astonishment: "Then why did you marry him?"

I couldn't see her complacent, so she lied and said: "At our level, we pay more attention to the right family. The Gu family is suitable for me, and I am also completely suitable for the Gu family, that's all."

Although I don't like Wen Ruyan's complacency, every time I cook a dinner before Gu Tingchen arrives at the villa, there is a carp soup in the dinner. Speaking of which, I used to always want to please him.

I didn't expect to be misunderstood by him that I like to eat carp.

But these are not important, it doesn't matter what you like to eat.

Gu Tingchen went into the kitchen to cook, I went upstairs to find the room I used to change into a thin sweater, then went downstairs to pour a cup of hot water and took two painkillers.

It was boring to stay in the living room, I stood at the door of the kitchen and looked at Gu Tingchen quietly.

The lavender light in the kitchen fell on him very softly.

Because he is too tall, he bends slightly to cut vegetables on the chopping board, and his slender fingers hold the handle of the knife very tightly. Just looking at me, he loses his mind, and when he reacts, the emotions in his heart fluctuate. , after all, I have never seen him at home like this.

Just one movement by Gu Tingchen made me panic, and I felt wronged for some reason.

I have loved him for nine years and secretly loved him for six years, but he never gave me any response. Do I really want to spend the rest of my days alone like this?
But the unwillingness in my heart is so strong.

……

Gu Tingchen made two dishes and one soup.

I took a piece of fish and put it in my mouth, chewing carefully, he looked at me expectantly, I smiled lightly and said, "It's delicious."

"Fish is frozen, not as good as fresh."

I shook my head, "That's good enough."

What does it have to do with the fresh texture of the dish?

As long as he does it, I'm ecstatic.

I ate very slowly, Gu Tingchen quickly ate two bowls of rice, and put down his chopsticks without urging me.

After I finished eating, he got up to clean up the dishes.

When Gu Tingchen came out of the kitchen, I said goodbye to him. He was silent for a while, looked at me with deep eyes, and asked in a low voice: "Are you in such a hurry to leave?"

I smiled and asked him back, "Do I need to stay?"

"This used to be your home."

I once lived in Gu's villa for three years, and it would be a lie to say that I don't miss it.

I twitched the corner of my mouth and said, "I used to think so too."

I turned around to leave when someone grabbed my wrist tightly.

I looked back at him in confusion, and asked, "What... do you mean?"

"You still haven't answered why I want to fall in love?"

(End of this chapter)