Give you a lifetime of love

Chapter 12 Then talk to me about a relationship
Gu Tingchen's eyes are looking at me persistently, sometimes I can't understand what he is doing now?
Why do you pretend to care about me even though you are divorced...

I took my hand out of his palm, tried to calm myself and said: "It's nothing, maybe I'm born lacking in love, I just want to spend money to buy a love, anyway, it's not like I haven't done this kind of thing before .”

After a pause, I stared into his black and white eyes and said: "I once bought a marriage with you with the Shi family, but now I just bought love."

"Then talk to me about a relationship."

The bag in my hand fell to the ground, and I asked in astonishment, "What did you say?"

"I will fall in love with you, pretend to love you, spoil you, hold you in the palm of my hand, let you experience happiness, and will not disobey you, and be a qualified boyfriend until the eve of my marriage."

Waking up with one word, the dreamer.

He is someone else's groom, no matter how bad I am, even if I find a man casually on the street, I don't want this man to be him, and I gave him a chance before the divorce.

Besides, his tone now sounds like alms, pity.

I really want this love from him, I am very eager, it can be said that I would rather be smashed to pieces, but I refused, maybe because of the ridiculous self-esteem in my heart.

I left the Gu family's villa almost in a state of embarrassment. After returning to Shi's house, I hid in the room. I also pretended not to see the text message Gu Tingchen sent me.

I couldn't answer his question, "Why are you running?"

He loves Wen Ruyan in his heart, he is that woman's groom.

I would have been ecstatic if he had said that before the divorce.

But now everything is wrong and I don't need his mercy.

I don't need it, even if I die alone!
For the next week, I hid in Shi's villa and didn't go anywhere. My condition became more and more serious, and I didn't have much energy most of the time. I just lay lazily in bed all day.

I lived my life in a daze until Ji Nuan called me.

She asked me to accompany her to the countryside to meet Chen Chusheng.

She said she had no courage and was afraid he would refuse.

I promised her and made an appointment to meet later.

As a habit, I went out with delicate makeup, and when I arrived at the teahouse, I saw Ji Nuan wearing very plain clothes.

White T-shirt, blue jeans, no makeup.

It's a far cry from what she was before.

I was surprised, "It's rare to see you without makeup."

Ji Nuan said anxiously: "He has never seen me in makeup, and I heard people say that his current family conditions are very bad, I am afraid of him..."

I asked directly: "Afraid that he will feel inferior when facing you?"

She smiled hard and said, "I don't want to put pressure on him."

"You will still put pressure on him like this."

What I said was straightforward, but it was also realistic.

Seven or eight years ago, Chen Chusheng could ruthlessly avoid Ji Nuan.

What's more, she is radiant now?

Hearing that Ji Nuan was silent, she urged me to change clothes and remove makeup.

I didn't have any rebuttals, I found a simple set of clothes to change into, and Ji Nuan was still dissatisfied when she saw that, she still frowned and was dissatisfied after I patiently changed into another set of clothes.

Finally she compromised: "It's not about the clothes."

I raised my eyebrows and asked, "What's that?"

She shook her head and said sadly: "It's never a matter of clothes. Sheng'er, your beauty is innate, and the spontaneous temperament can't be covered up, just like me... It's the same when I change clothes."

Ji Nuan was afraid of putting pressure on Chen Chusheng, so she has been afraid to meet him recently.

Today I finally gained courage but started to back down again.

I encouraged her and said, "Why don't you try?"

Ji Nuan asked me expectantly, "Will he reject me?"

"No, he should have the minimum courtesy."

There is always a gap between imagination and reality. When Ji Nuan and I rushed to the town full of expectations, we were stopped by his grandma at the end. She let us in after we talked about it.

That was the first time I saw Chen Chusheng. He was wearing a worn down jacket. He was sitting in a wheelchair without legs, and he was staring blankly at a withered plum tree in the courtyard.

Chen Chusheng's face was extremely haggard, with fine scars all over his face. Seeing him like this, Ji Nuan couldn't control herself from crying silently. I could understand the trembling deep in her heart.

Ji Nuan approached slowly and called, "Chen Chusheng."

Her voice was very soft, for fear of disturbing him.

Chen Chusheng's expression seemed to be stunned for a moment, he slowly turned his head to look at Ji Nuan, his eyes were cloudy, and asked strangely: "Who are you..."

Ji Nuan paused, suddenly at a loss.

I hurriedly asked, "Do you know Ji Nuan?"

He smiled like a big boy who doesn't know the dangers of the world, showing his big white teeth and asking, "Who is Ji Nuan?"

Hearing that Ji Nuan looked at Chen Chusheng's grandmother with messy eyes, the old man sighed and said, "He does this often, so I don't know if he is stupid."

Grandma Chen Chusheng's tone contained only the helplessness worn down by the years, as if she was no stranger to Chen Chusheng's appearance.

Ji Nuan didn't say anything, but looked at Chen Chusheng fixedly.

Seems to find a glimmer of hope in his eyes.

After a long time, Ji Nuan took the lead and said, "Let's go, let's go home."

She and I turned back to Wucheng, and Ji Nuan said firmly in the car: "He's not stupid, he recognizes me, I can see the struggle in his eyes."

"then you……"

"He doesn't want to recognize me."

It seems that some decision was made. After returning to Wucheng, Ji Nuan wanted to transfer the teahouse out. I asked her solemnly, "Have you decided? Even if the family disagrees, no one looks down on him, and you want to stay by his side." ? Take care of a man who can't take care of himself for the rest of his life?"

Ji Nuan nodded, and said firmly to me: "Ji Nuan eight years ago deserved to die, and the life he is living now belongs to him. It doesn't matter if he doesn't recognize me or pretends to be stupid. In this life, I just want to By his side, as long as I can see him every day and be with him, I can endure no matter how much suffering I suffer. I even firmly believe that I will be happy in the future, I will be really happy, I am now I feel that I am happy, at least before knowing that he is still alive, I thought I would never love again in this life, and I would never feel the feeling of heartbeat again, but now... Sheng'er, as long as Chen Chusheng is here, my Ji Ji Nuan is a woman of flesh and blood."

Ji Nuan said the word happiness three times.

But to leave everything behind to follow Chen Chusheng, money is essential, because in the days to come, firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar and tea are different from music, chess, calligraphy, painting, poetry and wine.

I thought about it and reminded her: "I put a bank card next to your computer a week ago, you should know that I left it, but you never asked me for the password."

Ji Nuan pursed her lips and said, "I know the password."

Hearing this, I smiled and said, "You still understand me."

(End of this chapter)