Give you a lifetime of love

Chapter 181 This life, the only one
The torrential rain seemed to be getting worse. I don't know if Xi Zhan heard what I said, because he was far away from me. I tried to open my voice and said, "Give me eight months to give birth to this child." , if I can still be alive at that time... I will come to you when my child and I are healthy and healthy? Will you let me be your wife then?"

I love this lonely man in front of me who never hurt me, gave me endless pampering, depended on, and trusted me with all his heart.

I don't want to miss him again in this life!
I just want to be his wife in this life!
I don't think I'll ever fall in love with someone else again!

Although he is not the only man in my life, I can be sure that he will be the last man in my life!
Xi Zhan didn't speak, it's like his character, but he made me sad, I pursed my lips and said: "Xi Zhan, I'm also very scared, I'm especially afraid that you will leave me, and I'm afraid of death! But I'm more I'm afraid I won't be able to keep this child, I'm not as strong as I imagined, I'm even cowardly, but this child is my only courage, can you understand what I mean?"

He turned around suddenly and looked at me with cold eyes.

Xi Zhan's clothes were completely soaked, and the white shirt inside seemed to have turned dark. Was he injured in prison?

"Are you hurt?" I asked worriedly.

He indifferently did not respond to me.

I suddenly realized that he didn't want to talk to me anymore.

I was suddenly discouraged, Xi Zhan turned and left, and at the moment he disappeared into the night, I seemed to see a ring on his finger, a very familiar ring!

I went to Finland some time ago with a gift.

I wanted to give him a 27th birthday present.

A wedding ring.

But he didn't see me that day. Although he explained to me that Chen Shen was inside, I was still sad.

Although he also has a reason not to see me.

After all, I was the one who severely injured him!
I have let him down!

In fact, Xi Zhan is very benevolent. He came to see me and said that he did not misunderstand me. In fact, he did not want me to have any psychological burden!
He didn't want me to feel bad about it.

But his departure was doomed.

Looking at the pouring rain outside the door, I didn't know that Xi Zhan's life in the next year would be full of dangers and besieged on all sides!
He also didn't know that he needed to reshape his power in Europe; he needed to deal with those who secretly wanted to devour him, and this process was very difficult and very dangerous!
He can't take me by his side!
You can't take the pregnant me by your side!
You can't bring me who is pregnant and in such a poor physical condition, and who is about to have the power of the Xi family!
What's more, he is used to bear all the dangers alone!
He never put danger in front of me.

At that time, he was actually quite helpless.

Xi Zhan finally left.

Our breakup was peaceful.

calmer than expected.

But the process is so hard!
I went back upstairs in a daze, lying on the bed with my eyes open, thinking about what he said just now, he was so tolerant, yet so ruthless.

I closed my eyes and said softly, "Wait for me, Xi Zhan."

All the time I've been with him I've been demanding from him, never giving him anything and pushing him to the brink!

If I give birth to a child and survive eight months later, I will definitely be by his side, even if he won't want me at that time!

I can't imagine him not wanting me.

But he doesn't want me now!
How could Xi Zhan not want me! !

……

Wucheng, the top of Wushan Mountain.

It was snowing heavily in Wucheng in January, and Xi Zhan put his hands in his pockets and looked at the continuous snow in the distance, and felt silent for a while.

And the man beside him asked him, "When are you leaving?"

Xi Zhan replied indifferently: "Later."

He was unflappable, as he always was.

Chen Shen handed him a lighted cigarette, but Xi Zhan didn't pick it up, and the latter threw it in the snow without the slightest thought.

Chen Shen stomped on the cigarette butt, and asked in a low voice: "Then you are willing to stay with that woman in Tongcheng?"

"So what if you can't bear it?"

Pausing, Xi Zhan said in a rare hoarse voice: "If she stays with me, her life will be in danger, and she will take over the Xi family next month. She needs time to grow up on her own, and she needs to learn how to manage a big family. It takes more time to conceive that child..."

Xi Zhan knew that it was dangerous for her to conceive a child, but he knew her too well!
He knew she would not give up the child.

In this case, he will not force her.

After all, he was reluctant to force her.

He finally softened his heart towards her.

Since she wanted to mess around, he would mess around with her.

But now he can't stay by her side.

He also couldn't selfishly ask her to wait for him.

Because he was not sure whether he would be able to return to Tongcheng alive in the future.

In that case, don't give her hope.

Chen Shen has known Xi Zhan for more than ten years, and he knows that the man next to him is in the same situation as himself, and he climbed up from the bottom step by step.

He can empathize with the pain he has suffered, and it is precisely because of this that they are both enemies and friends.

"That woman is so worthy of your thoughts? Divorced and had an abortion, how can she be worthy of you?"

Chen Shen deliberately said these words to pierce his heart.

Who told him to say that his woman was older last time.

Chen Shen wronged Xi Zhan. That day in the Finnish prison, Chen Shen casually asked Shi Sheng's age, and Xi Zhan just replied casually, "A few years younger than your woman."

But Chen Shen felt that he was mocking his woman.

Hearing this, Xi Zhan squinted at him, "What about you?"

"She was never married, after all."

This actually gave Chen Shen a sense of superiority.

The two men who are equally strong and have experienced the dangers of the world suddenly appear very naive, as if they have a common topic.

Xi Zhan said seriously: "You know I only care about her, as long as it's her, everything else doesn't matter."

Chen Shen knew that he himself was like this too. He didn't mention women anymore, but reminded him lightly: "Your road ahead will be difficult and dangerous, and I won't show mercy to you, and naturally I won't take advantage of others' dangers." , I promise you that I will give you a half-year repair period."

For the past six months, Chen Shen will not target him.

Xi Zhan pursed his lips and said lightly, "No need."

"Oh, you are still so arrogant."

Xi Zhan didn't say a word, his character was more taciturn than Chen Shen's, and he used to hardly talk nonsense except for work matters!
Until I met that woman that night...

She chattered and thought he was cold.

He began to learn to speak and communicate well.

Snowflakes from the sky fell on her body one after another, Xi Zhan closed her eyes and wondered why she had to visit Wushan before leaving, perhaps this was her mother's territory.

Chen Shen stared at Xi Zhan's calm expression, and suddenly asked him suspiciously, "Xi Zhan, what is love?"

Chen Shen likes Ji Nuan.

But he doesn't know what love is after all.

Not to mention why that woman always rejected him.

Obviously she once said that she likes herself.

love……

Once Shi Sheng asked Xi Zhan for love.

At that time, he said that he didn't understand love and needed her to teach him.

In fact, it's not that he doesn't understand love, it's just that he doesn't know how to express it, so when Sheng asked him, he subconsciously said he didn't understand.

what is love?
No one knows better than Xi Zhan.

"This life, the only one."

Chen Shen asked suspiciously, "Is this love?"

"Well, the only one in this life."

(End of this chapter)