A Collection of Old Sayings by Fourth Sister You

Chapter 60 Forbidden Court (60)
You turn a blind eye to the person who really loves you, and you dig your heart out for the person who doesn't love you. (2)
She arrived in front of the hall, stood under the eaves and slowly nodded, "I'm sorry to trouble you, but I've lost power now, and you still won't give me up."

Qin Rang said: "Sage, don't say that. Although I am a humble person, I know how to repay my kindness. In the past, the saints were prosperous like the sun, and I couldn't repay them. Now I have encountered a small ups and downs. I just took this opportunity to flatter my horse and wait for him." The sage has passed the catastrophe, and the minister can follow him to attain the Tao and ascend to the immortal."

He tried his best to relieve her, but she couldn't be happy. After thinking about the future and the future, it seemed that there was nothing left but sadness.She raised her hand and took the step shaker from her head and handed it to him, "Take some money from the pawnshop (pawn shop), and prepare a paper car and paper horse for me to send to him. Don't let him be helpless below."

Qin Rang took it with both hands, and said yes, "Don't worry, the saint, hand it over to the minister, and the minister will definitely do it properly. Let the saint enter the palace, I am afraid that Mother Chun and the others will not come back tonight, and the saint still needs to take care of himself. Bianliang The autumn days are short and the nights are windy, the sage must not catch cold."

Yun Hua nodded, he gave a long bow, turned around and went out.

When she returned to the hall, there was another hall of dead silence. Anyway, it was not the first time, and she was used to it.She sat down and looked at the boxes and cages, and suddenly lost interest.Go to bed, lie on the soft bedding, drowsy.I don't know how long I lay there, it seemed very long, the splendor and prosperity did not fall into my dream, when I opened my eyes, the sky was still a little bright, but the hall was already dark with twilight.

She got out of bed and looked for a fire pocket to light a lamp, and a small cluster lit up, only illuminating a corner of the hall.He dragged a round stool and sat down, staring at the flames in a daze, what would happen if the curtains were lit?Can grievances and hatred be dissipated in the raging fire...

It's strange that she is so young, but I don't know when she has become world-weary.

For the next three days, she lived alone in Xihe, Chunwo and the others never came back, and the officials never showed up.

She is still holding on, not knowing what fate awaits her next.But for her, there is no punishment worse than losing him.She just sat under the pear tree in the yard, facing the gate, eagerly looking forward to and listening to the movement in the aisle.But from morning to night, there was only the sound of whimpering wind whistling past the palace gate.She hoped that he could come again, and at least let her explain a few more words, but he seemed determined to neglect her, and if he didn't come, there was no news.She began to worry about the poison on his body again. The medical officer said that he would recover after sweating, and there should be no other ambushes except for the bead string.She only hoped that he would recover quickly, thinking of his crooked appearance a few days ago, and could not find the source of the illness, she suspected that he had contracted a cold.But the cure is not curable, which is really worrying.

Anyway, it doesn't matter to her, it's just that the wound hurts a little.Probably the shaking was too severe, and the blood oozes again, staining the lapel red.She had no intention of dealing with this, and it took a lot of effort to refrain from igniting the curtain that night. If she died of excessive blood loss in the end, it would be considered a legitimate way to die.

The lame Huangmen still delivered food to her, but she didn't want to move, so he moved two beds side by side, and brought the food in front of her.The palace is now afraid of being poisoned, no matter what kind of food it is, it has to be tested again and again, Huang Men took out the silver needle, and when she was about to put it in the dish, she raised her hand to stop it, "No one will poison me , there is no need to test it in the future.”

She is the key to the army, and there is no reason to die.Now whether it is the people in the forbidden area or the people in Wurong, no one wants this matter to be put on hold, so anyone's bowl may be poisoned, only hers is the safest.Of course, if it is really poisonous, it would be a good thing to die from the poison.She is not afraid of death, and the most terrible thing is to suffer innocent injustice.

She lifted up the chopsticks, but she didn't have any appetite, so she put it back, "Did you hear the news from the official outside? How is his detoxification going?"

The lame Huangmen said: "I knew that the official's political order was mentioned in the lecture this morning. I guess it's not a big problem! The saint eats something, and for the past three days, he only eats rice dumplings. His body will not be able to hold on. As he spoke, he caught a glimpse of the congealed blood on her chest, and said hesitantly: "The saint's injury is not healed yet, so it won't work if it continues like this. I went to the Imperial Medical Bureau to ask a doctor to come and see the saint's wound. If the wound festers, it will be troublesome." fatal."

She shook her head, "It's not that serious, just change clothes."

Seeing her get up and go back to the hall, Huangmen thought to herself that she changed her clothes but covered the surface, she was still bleeding inside, what's the use of treating the symptoms but not the root cause!
Turning around in a daze, the boss was startled when he suddenly saw a figure.After seeing it clearly, he hurriedly bowed with a hoo, "greetings to the officials."

He ignored him and went into the temple with his hands behind his back.

In order to take care of her, he also lived in Xiyi for two days.This place was originally the former site of Yanyi Pavilion, where the emperor lectured and read. During the Yingzong period, it was changed to imprison Li Concubine.It is said that Concubine Li was arrogant and often clashed with Yingzong.It's also because she couldn't love her. Yingzong didn't send her to Yongxiang, so he took a step back and made the ground a prison. Concubine Li lived here for nearly ten years.

In fact, there is a big difference between people. Some people know the life of the Forbidden Court without a teacher, and some people spend their whole lives without understanding the profound meaning.Those who are able to do a job with ease may not necessarily be successful, and those who cannot enter the door may not necessarily be failures.Where is his queen?Which one it belongs to, he doesn't know.

The hall is deep and vast, the weather is cold, the sun is not warm, the light in the hall is dim, accompanied by the slightly fluttering veil, like a sad dream.

What attitude should he use to face her? He thought about it for three days, but there was no answer.As much as I cherished her before, I am so disappointed now.The emperor is also a human being, unable to withstand repeated specious betrayals.When I came to see her today, I had to say clearly what I had to say, and then I had to make a break.

Turning around the screen, I saw her changing clothes in front of the couch, she had taken off her beige, she was dressed a little thinly, and her shoulders looked very weak.She has lost weight in the past two days, and her slender neck seems to be broken by any movement.He walked over, silently, and knocked on the frame of the screen.She turned around and saw him, forgot the movement of her hands, her belt was half buttoned, with a sad expression on her face.

"Official family..." She took two steps forward, but his eyes no longer had the warmth of the past. Once there was a grudge between them, they would automatically divide the Chu River and Han border.She wanted to go up, but she was suddenly timid, and her feet stopped, as if she couldn't get close to it, she could only look at it from a distance.

He returned to the appearance she saw the day she first entered the Forbidden Court, dressed in rich clothes and with cold eyes.He said: "Put on your clothes, I'll wait for you outside."

When he went out, she was panicked. When he didn't come, she expected him to come, but now that he came, why did she feel even more sad?It was the kind of hopeless sadness. She had a hunch that things would not turn around, and his love had been exhausted by her.Although she did nothing, sometimes inaction is a sin.

She slowly put on the smock, turned around the screen, and saw him sitting quietly in the hall.She took a breath and went over, "Is the official's body all right?"

He seemed to be in good spirits, and it seemed that there was no hindrance.But he didn't answer, and said bluntly: "I interrogated the insiders of Qingning Palace one by one, and I didn't even omit the lamps and sweepers... After three days of investigation, I have no clue. Except for the few people close to you in the inner room, there are no other people. No outsiders dared to go in and out. Ah Rong was busy making sweet-scented osmanthus nectar and Longtang fruit for the past few days, and never stayed alone in Yongjin Palace. Aunt Jin and Brother Fo, you brought them from Sui Kingdom, and they were judged better than others Be careful. But they claim that they have been transferred out of the dormitory by you before, and they are supervised by the palace, so they have no chance to do anything. The only one left is your nurse, who is probably too close, and is always with you. Can’t tell why at all.”

Her heart shook violently, "I was waiting for you at the Yingyang Gate that day, and the wet nurse was with me all the time."

He looked at her with a half-smile, "So I can't tell, you and her are both suspects, who can testify for whom!"

At first she had a fire in her heart, but his words were like cold water pouring down her head, extinguishing all hope.Her face turned pale, she moved her lips and said, "I said, I didn't poison the incense beads."

"If you don't, then there are only Miao people." He stood up, walked slowly back and forth in the light belt in front of the door, and said as he paced, "The queen is a lucky person. It is a fact that the beads are poisonous. If you don’t catch the person who poisoned you, you can’t escape the blame. Fortunately, someone is willing to take the blame for you right now, and the Miao Nei people confessed, saying that she did the poisoning and has nothing to do with the Queen.”

She was stunned, feeling a sense of distress with nowhere to declare.Did Chunwo think that doing so would save her?Even if you keep your life, you will become neither human nor ghost.Her mind was in a mess, and she was so angry that she could only barely hold back her tears, "The official is wise, knowing that she has to admit it in order to take the blame for me."

He nodded, "But I have the same heart as the Miao Nei people. I also want to excuse the queen, so someone must sacrifice on your behalf. The Miao Nei people are the most suitable candidates."

She panicked and said no loudly, "I would rather die myself than have a wet nurse instead of me. I beg the government to let the wet nurse go. No matter how you deal with me, I will never complain. I have never had a mother since I was a child." Well, it was the nanny who brought me up. I didn't want her to come with me at the beginning, but she was worried, and she had to take care of me with me, and that's why I ended up in this situation. I'm no good, and I kept telling her to worry about me, so I couldn't make it to the end I want her to die for me." She really had no choice but to kneel down and beg him, "Officer, I can't harm the nanny, I will bear all the crimes alone, and it has nothing to do with her. You Let her go back to Sui Kingdom, let her go back to reunite with her children and grandchildren. I will wait here to see what happens, if you want me to throw myself into a well or hang it from a beam, I will do it."

"If you really want to die, I won't change the topic to the eldest princess that day." Bending to help her up, he sighed sadly, "One day husband and wife, one hundred days of grace, although you and I are not a real husband and wife , After all, I have had feelings. I still want to thank you for giving me the love that may only be once in a lifetime..." He choked up slightly when he said this, but he quickly adjusted, "From now on I will always be vigilant, never Don't repeat the same mistakes. But I'm afraid I can't return it to you from the Miao Nei people. The empress should understand what it means to abandon a car to save a handsome man. Ah Rong died, and no one was responsible for the last incident. The Miao Nei people pleaded guilty, and I can barely accept it. I To be honest, I have always wanted to raise troops against Suiguo. If you want to rule the world, you have to be famous. In fact, the queen is the best excuse, but I can't bear you after all, and I can only wrong the Miao people."

She looked at him in horror. It turned out that he didn't want to associate the bead string with the eldest princess. This matter still needs to be discussed.He didn't even need Chunwo to tell the exact details, as long as someone pleaded guilty, and it wasn't her.

She felt terrified, and murmured: "I can't harm the wet nurse... You said just now that I'm the best excuse, just assume that I poisoned you, and I'm willing to die."

He looked at her condescendingly, and said in a cold voice: "There is no need to be so righteous, there is no evidence to prove that it is not you. The 36 insiders and twelve inside servants in your palace all said that there was no outsider visiting during that time, this poison fell from the sky Did it come down? In fact, I was skeptical..." He raised his hand and stroked her face, "I thought that if I treat you with sincerity, you won't let me down, but it doesn't seem to be the case. In your heart, Yun Guan is better than me. Important, the country of Sui is also more important than me, what am I to you?"

She grabbed his sleeve and cried, "Tell me, how can I prove my innocence? I really died unjustly... You said this is the only love in your life, so why not me?" You see my feelings for Yun Guan more thoroughly than I do. I know in my heart that you are different from him. He is the elder brother, who is what my heart wanted when I was young. You are my husband and I will rely on for the rest of my life. But now you don't believe me...you're tired, bored..." Her voice gradually lowered, and she said while buttoning her skirt, "Actually, I am the same. I often think that if I wasn't in the Forbidden Court Just like my dad, open a shop and live an ordinary life. Unfortunately, you can't, you are an emperor, and you are always surrounded by powerful enemies and conspiracies. Maybe you should find someone who matches you, such as Liang Lady, she can help you, but I will only cause you trouble."

She mentioned the imperial concubine, which made him even more sad, and he asked: "Is your injury better?"

How could it be better!Normally, she would probably complain to him coquettishly, but now she can't.She could only endure it, nodded and said that it was much better, "It doesn't hurt much anymore." As she said, she shed tears.

He looked at her sympathetically, and said for a long time: "You shouldn't do this, even if I don't frame her, I will find a way to let you get out of Xiyi, return to Qingning Palace and continue to be your queen. Now that you are suffering, Why bother!"

She was taken aback, humiliated and humiliated, her face turned red immediately, "How did the officials know..."

"Depending on the location of your wound." He said, "You are as tall as a noble concubine. If she stabs you with the scissors high, that position will be too awkward. The sharp weapon will expand from top to bottom, so it won't be a wound." A flat incision. You are a woman, you have never been on the battlefield, and you have never seen a murder case, so it is inevitable to make such a mistake."

She staggered back, feeling almost ashamed to see him again.It turned out that he knew that his little actions were foolish and ridiculous in his eyes. What kind of mood did he have when he looked at her performance?She didn't dare to think about it, she felt ashamed to death when she thought about it.

Instead, he smirked, "But if you do this, at least there is a little benefit. The imperial concubine will never be a queen in this life. No matter how hard her mother country puts in, she will have no chance. I'm just surprised that you have such courage, really Make me look at you with admiration. I remember the day before you asked me never to doubt you, but before the twelve hours, you broke it with your own hands." When he talked about the sad part, it was difficult to stand upright, so he could only smile slightly. She leaned her chest and leaned her back against the corner of the cabinet and said, "I can't say I'm not disappointed in you. I've always treated you like a child. No matter how unreasonable you make trouble, I'm willing to pamper you. I even think that when we have a daughter, I want Treat your mother and daughter as equals. But...everything must be based on the premise of not playing tricks. What do you think about telling me why we husband and wife can't discuss? Why did you do such a self-harming thing without telling me? Fortunately, if you are lucky, if you get stabbed in the lung, even if you don't die, you will still have the hidden wound for the rest of your life, is it worth it?"

She had a lot to say, but she didn't know where to start.She wanted to confess to him at that time, and she felt very guilty for hiding from him.But as he said before, he always wanted to attack Sui country, and her purpose was just to win a chance for Sui.No matter what feelings she had for Queen Mother Guo and Gao Feicun, Jian'an was the place where she grew up, one country annexed another country, and how many people would die after attacking the city is hard to estimate.She didn't want those familiar faces to die under random arrows, and told him, would he just give up his dream and wait for other countries to grow stronger, and then Bianliang would suffer the fate of massacring the city?He is an emperor, not a businessman in the market. If one deal fails, another one will be made.His decision is related to the fate of the country. She doesn't think she can withstand the rise and fall of a dynasty, and no one else can.

The nurse said that everyone has obsessions in their hearts, and their obsessions cannot be reconciled. He can tolerate her in many things. When it comes to the fate of the country, it may not be so simple.She still remembered what the Queen Mother Guo said on the eve of the wedding, that Sui Kingdom is also eager to try, and the era of three-legged confrontation will not exist for long.It's just that she was content with the status quo and tried to delay the war, but her efforts were in vain. In terms of tactics, she was too immature to be vulnerable.

She slumped down, covered her face and cried, "I just don't want you to attack Sui country. There is a dispute between my husband's family and my mother's family. It's really hard for me to be caught in the middle."

He didn't quite understand, "So what? If you marry me, you will be a member of my Yin family. I will rule the world, and you will be the real queen. If you become king in a small country and you don't know when it will be destroyed, are you willing to be so precarious?" ? You once said that you miss Jian'an, so I'll take down Jian'an City and give it to you, isn't it good?"

(End of this chapter)