A Collection of Old Sayings by Fourth Sister You

Chapter 61 Forbidden Court (61)
You turn a blind eye to the person who really loves you, and you dig your heart out for the person who doesn't love you. (3)
She shook her head sadly, "It's like a flower growing on a vine. What I like is its freshness, not to take it for myself and let it experience death." She walked forward on her knees, with tears in her eyes, and stretched out her hand and said, "Official, are you still willing to reconcile with me? I treat you sincerely, God can see my heart."

He was a little moved, until now, she is still beautiful and pure in his eyes.He also hoped that he could go back to the past. When he was sitting in the court hall, he cared about someone in his heart, looking forward to leaving the court early and being with her early. She couldn't understand how happy this feeling was.But suddenly he thought of the string of incense beads, like a thunderbolt hitting him in a sunny day, and woke him up immediately.Does he still want to keep her, loving her and worrying that she will poison him on a sudden whim?
When she barely reached the hem of his robe, he took a step back, "Sui Kingdom is definitely going to attack, the 60 imperial troops are already counting troops, and it cannot be changed no matter what."

She asked desolately: "Then how should the official family deal with me?"

He paused for a while, and then said word by word: "I'm afraid the position of empress can't be seated anymore. Even if there is a nanny to take the place, you still have to sit continuously if you don't discipline yourself strictly."

She suddenly felt funny when she heard it, "After all, the officials still want to make a fuss about me, so what I said earlier that I am a real queen and gave me Jian'an City is all to coax me, isn't it?" Han Xin, Yun Guan is right, love is nothing in front of Jiangshan, he is such a powerful person, maybe he has already found out the truth of the matter, but he is not willing to give up easily just to have a handle.

"I don't want to be your queen, never again." Her tears flowed down, "The love with you before is just a dream, forget it! But I beg you to return the wet nurse to me, I have nothing left, and if you still want to take her away, there is really no need for me to live." She crawled over, grabbed his crimson robe, and choked up, "Give her back to me, and I will go to Yongxiang Be a slave or a handmaiden, and never appear in front of the officials for the rest of my life, as long as you return the wet nurse to me." She gritted her teeth and said cruelly, "If the officials decide to execute her, and you walk out of here, I will hang myself immediately, and I will never live. "

She actually threatened him with death, very good!He pulled back the corner of his robe angrily, and threw her to the ground, "To this day, you are still negotiating terms with yourself. If you are determined, I can't do anything to you? You think too highly of yourself, I am not Yun Guan, I won’t give up at such a critical moment. Do you remember the night of Qixi Festival? Originally, he had a chance to kill me, because your appearance made him temporarily change his mind..." He couldn't help raising his voice, "I and him no the same!"

He tried hard to stand firm, but every word and every word was like a knife to her ears.Yes, Yun Guan once gave up the plan because of her disturbance, so this is the key to their victory.When people's hearts change, it's really irreparable, all she can do now is die.

The wound was so painful that it seemed to be split open, the moment he shook the corner of his robe.Blood flowed out, ran down the gauze, and crawled across her chest and abdomen.She didn't want him to see it, so she barely supported herself.Don't beg him anymore, anyway, it's useless to say anything, only to accept fate.

She lowered her head and remained silent, which made him more angry, and said in a hateful voice: "A disaster is imminent, just take care of yourself and don't worry about others."

He went outside, she sat slumped, cold sweat overflowed and dripped on the carpet.Now it's just lingering, maybe it really deserves to die, just die.

She struggled to stand up, turned around to look at the curtain hanging on the floor covering, raised her hand to grab it, and with a forceful slam, the curtain fell in an extremely elegant posture and landed in her hand.She didn't care whether the wound hurt or not, and the determination of a person who wanted to die was unstoppable.She tore apart a strand with her teeth, intending to move the round stool as a foothold, but when she walked back to the crescent table, she found him gone and returned.

He hated it so much that he snatched the curtain from her hand and slammed it on the ground.

"Did I owe you in my previous life? You want to force me like this! What else can you do except keep pushing me!" He acted like crazy, stepping on the sash with all his might, exhausted all his strength, and in the end he was a little shaky.His eyes were hot, and he couldn't control his tears. He had never felt this way before. When she burst into tears, he also had the urge to make peace.He felt that it was time for him to find a place where no one was around to cry. There was too much dust in his heart, and he had to wash it off before he could continue walking.He raised his head and forced back the tears, he took a deep breath and said, "Don't die, I will ask everyone in Qingning Palace to be buried with me! I can fight everyone in the world, but I can't beat you in the end. Forget it, I will let them come back Yes, you live for me, and I won't let you die, so you can live steadily."

He went again, faltering.Lu Jing wanted to step forward to help, but he waved his hand away.She watched him disappear over the palace gate, only to realize that her clothes were completely wet, as if she had gone through a big battle and was defeated until the last moment.

He wanted to go back to the couch, but he couldn't move anymore.The roof above the head rotated rapidly, and countless golden lights dazzled the eyes.When you close your eyes, you fall into the chaos again, you can't go up to the sky, you can't go down to the ground, and you are suspended in mid-air.Then the sound of cymbals and chimes sounded in the distance, she trembled, her legs went limp for a while, and she fell down and didn't know anything.

The lingering cry lingered in my ears, lingering.It was already dark when Yonghua woke up, and when she opened her eyes, Chunwo and Aunt Jin had returned, and they were standing by her bed and weeping.

She reached out and said, "Didn't you make things difficult for you? Did you hit you?"

Chunwo shook his head and said no, "The official interrogation, even disdain to use the punishment. It's just that I really can't stay in this confinement, who can afford it after repeated manipulations. Look at you, the wound has become like that. Fortunately, we came back as soon as possible. If I leave you here alone for half a day, I'm afraid no one will find out when I die."

She took life and death very lightly, and said indifferently: "I'm not in the way, but now I feel relaxed. I was guarded against this and that before, and I was simply detained. If there is anything else, it has nothing to do with me. It's just a pity You guys should have gone out early, you haven’t been able to find a chance, and now you can’t leave even if you want to.”

Aunt Jin said: "We will not go, even if we have the opportunity. The government and the saint are at odds, and it will be difficult for the saint to move forward. We must protect the saint with all our strength in front of the saint. Anyway, we have reached this point, and we are not afraid of anyone who provokes us. If it doesn't make sense, just rely on fists to solve it, and there is no need to look forward and backward."

Her complexion was very bad, and her lips were still pale. Hearing their words of loyalty, she couldn't help laughing, "It seems that we are really going to depend on each other for life."

Chunwo said: "Let's take another look, maybe things will turn around. It's just that so many things come one after another, it's overwhelming." He told Brother Fo, "Pack up the jujube and donkey-hide gelatin sent by the Medical Bureau. , made soup and gave some to the sage. A girl’s blood is very important, and it will take a while to make up for the loss.”

Brother Fo and Aunt Jin went to do it together. They built a stove outside under the eaves and cooked it by themselves.Li Hua lay on the couch and listened to the sound of scooping up water and adding charcoal, still frowning, he turned his head to Chunwo and said, "The official came today and told me that you pleaded guilty and planned to take the blame for me."

Chunwo frowned and said: "If the culprit can't be found out, I'm afraid you will make a mistake. Most of my life has passed, and I won't be wronged if I die. You are different. You are in the prime of life, how can you break it here? I know the officials There is still more love for you, and he will definitely be happy to see it. It’s really hard to tell. You can’t just shirk, and there must be someone to take responsibility, otherwise this matter will never end. I have always been by your side, and it makes sense to take care of it. In this way Isn't it great?"

She wiped her tears and said, "What's the matter, mother wants me to be guilty for the rest of my life? I don't want anything to happen to you, we all have to live."

Chunwo sighed: "Fortunately, the officials are not completely ruthless, at least he let us come back. It was originally going to make a big fuss about poison, but now I'm afraid it will be difficult."

Yun Hua closed his eyes, "Don't mention him again, I will never forget what he said to me today. I don't blame him, it's just that we are not compatible."

She closed her eyes again and fell into a deep sleep. The dream was not stable, there were disturbing people and things, one conspiracy after another.

Someone served me, and my life became a little more nourished.He has been resting in bed, and the wound is not disturbed, and heals quickly.After staying for six or seven days, scabs formed on the surface. When I looked down, it was just a knuckle-long cut. The pain really killed her in those few days.

There is no illness on the body, and he is alive and kicking.It's just that sometimes I think of him, in the same forbidden city, each is trapped, and I can't see him again, it's a little sad.When the weather was getting colder and colder, the leaves of the pear tree were withered and withered. She stood under the tree and held up her hands to catch the falling leaves.The wall in the west is so high that you can't see the outside scene. Sometimes you can hear the yellow gates passing under the wall in a row, and the footsteps are rumbling and orderly.

Now I have a lot of time to remember, and I was busy doing something, and suddenly the scene of the time we got along suddenly popped up.For example, on the terrace facing the water in the Huanshan Pavilion, she leaned on his lap and talked.For example, on the steps of the hallway at the back of Funing Palace, he sat side by side with her, kicking his legs and looking at the clouds in the distant sky... Today, these memories are full of irony.When she missed him, she didn't know what he was doing. It was so sad that she was alone.

A few days later, three people came in from the palace gate that had been quiet for a long time, the leader was wearing official uniform and holding a scroll.Yun Hua remembered meeting him before, and he was the one who issued the imperial edict after it was sealed, and he was a member of the Privy Council.

The people in the courtyard were a little flustered, and her heart was beating rapidly, but she also expected seven or eight points.

It finally came. She knew that this day would come sooner or later, but she was still a little sad when it really happened.It's not that I'm nostalgic for that name, I'm afraid that if it is deposed, even husband and wife will not dare to match each other anymore.

There is no avoiding it, you have to accept it.She folded her skirt and kowtowed down, lying on the crack of the bricks, and it was the first time that she saw the texture of the blue bricks so closely.Then came the accusation of her misdeeds and crimes from above, saying that she was "relying on her superiors, being arrogant, arrogant, embarrassing to be in the right position", and she was demoted to Concubine Jing and lived in Yaohua Palace.The Daoist name bestowed was rather long, and she didn't hear it clearly for a while, but felt the regret and humiliation pouring down on her back, and the heat came up on her back.

Chunwo and the others sobbed softly. She bowed her head and led the order. She didn't want to cry, but when she stood up, tears fell, and she didn't even know where it came from.

Now that I think about it, it's really embarrassing. It hasn't even been half a year since she was sealed as empress to being abolished.The big Yue is like this, women who have made mistakes or fell out of favor in the clan, those who enter Yongxiang as slaves are low-level imperial concubines.The concubine and above ordered to enter Taoism, and several Taoist temples were used to accommodate these people.However, Taoist temples are all named after palaces to distinguish them from the outside world, such as Dongzhen Palace, Changning Palace, and Yaohua Palace.

The Yaohua Palace is located in the northwest of Genyue Longsui Mountain, adjacent to the Jinglong River, and does not belong to the palace. It is not a bad thing to be able to walk out of this forbidden court.She sadly said to Du Chengzhi: "Thank you for the great kindness of the official family. I am going to say goodbye to the emperor. I hope your majesty will take care of you. I pray from afar, and hope that your majesty will fulfill his wish and rule the world."

They all bowed to each other and took her instructions to go.She turned to look at Chunwo, wiped her tears and asked, "I didn't catch it just now, what kind of Taoist name is that, it's so long."

Chunwo said: "The leader of Huayang calmly comprehends the true immortal teacher."

She tilted her neck and thought for a long time, "It's both the sect master and the immortal master, so it's really hard to come up with such a convoluted title for the officials." She smiled, "So I don't have to be condescending when I enter the Yaohua Palace. Next, I'm the leader!" She was talking to herself, and when she saw that they were all looking at her with tears in her eyes, she paused, then turned to look at the two rows of female Taoist priests at the door, and urged, "Go back and pack your things. We should move."

There is nothing to pack, it is nothing more than soft clothes, and there is no need to prepare clothes and cages.After entering the Yaohua Palace, she eats and dresses according to Taoism, wears gray robes and holds whisks. Those beautiful clothes and crowns are far away, and have nothing to do with her anymore.It's just that today's arrangement is somewhat selfish.Ling enters the Tao, but retains the title of concubine, neither willing to give up nor accept.They once fell in love, but in the end both will suffer. Chunwo pinched her hand and said in a low voice, "Mr. Cui, I wonder if you have any news."

She stood, looking up at the flock of pigeons flying by in the sky, the humming vibration of the wings fell on her heart, she was overwhelmed, and the tears slid down her ears and into her neck.She choked hard, and asked incoherently, "What should Taoist priests do? I don't understand anything."

Chunwo can only sigh, it is irreparable now, she lost her crown and fell from the sky, she is not as good as an ordinary person.After all, she is still young, and she has experienced so much in just a few months, which really makes her feel distressed.She went up to embrace her, "There is no benefit for you in the confinement, it is better to go out. I heard that Yaohua Palace is a quiet place, far away from common affairs, and there are no conflicts of interests. You should take a good rest, go there to cultivate your morality, and have a good relationship with your relatives." Forget everything since then, don’t think about it.”

She leaned in her arms, and no one else could hear her, so she whispered: "Mother, I'm so sad, I feel so sad..."

She swallowed and sobbed, and Chunwo had no choice but to comfort her, "Think about the days in Jian'an before, there were no officials, no clothes and gold seals, and you lived a good life! You are not suitable for living in the confinement. This place has traps every step of the way. If you can't learn from their scheming, you will only suffer in the end. You are a good boy..." She stroked her hair and said sadly, "You have a pure character and should live that kind of leisurely life Although the official family is good, but the relationship is shallow, he can't give you a stable life, at least for now. He is going to attack the Sui Kingdom. I don't know how long this war will last, maybe three to five years, maybe ten or eight years. If you stay away from this vortex of power, you might get a blessing in disguise. Just think about the things you don't have the ability to do, and don't take it on yourself. Poor... If your father knows it, I don't know how much he will love you. "

Few queens from small families can start well and end well. Even if the emperor prefers her, she will deviate from her original intention in the end.Gongwei is a place where the means are compared with the background. Without the means, and without the power behind it, the ending is almost doomed.The empress seal began with a calculation, started with a conspiracy, and ended with a conspiracy.It's just that she is inexperienced and doesn't know the sufferings of the world. If she had the foresight, she shouldn't provoke the officials.Falling in love, there is no way, if you want to maintain, you have to compromise again and again.But what if there is no way out, gouging out the flesh and healing the sores is not a long-term solution.

"Let's go to Yaohua Palace first, and we'll talk about it after we settle down." Aunt Jin and the others came out with their bundles on their shoulders. Chunwo patted her on the back twice, put on a cloak for her, and took her hand out. go.

The nuns led the way, and she followed behind.The car stopped at the Gongchen Gate, because the journey was very long, it would take dozens of miles to go around Genyue, and you had to take a bullock cart.

She walked slowly in the aisle, and the wind gradually picked up, and it became cooler every day.The hungry men in gray robes in front all arched their shoulders and bowed their waists. It must be that the Taoist nuns are miserable and their lives are not rich!The wind crept into her big-sleeved blouse, and the coldness on her body was no match for the chills in her heart.She looked up at the sky in the distance, and the sky was also gray.I don't know how to walk the road under my feet, and where is the future direction.She always felt that among those Taoist nuns, there was a shadow of her in someone. She was only 16 years old, and it would take a long time before she would spend her whole life.

The gate of Gongchen was guarded by imperial guards, and when they were about to go out, the two squadrons crossed their hands holding the knife, "Madam Li, please wait a moment, Rong Chen will wait for inspection."

She was shocked, her face turned blue and white, white and blue again.Mrs. Li was addressing her. She was used to being respected as a saint by others, but now she was downgraded to a lady, which is really uncomfortable.

Aunt Jin squatted down without making a sound, and spread the bundle on the ground.Brother Fo said from the side: "It's all the bride's dowry, just take a quick look at it. There are also underwear here, do you want to check the utility of the two?"

Those two people really probed their brains, Zihua frowned, and said to Brother Fo: "Open it for them to see."

She doesn't care about anything now, but Chunwo can't ignore it. She pressed Foge's hand and said, "Although the lady is no longer the queen, she is still the concubine Jing of the official family. The lady in the forbidden palace is not a palace lady who has been scattered. Where can I find it?" Check the rules?"

No one will bear this situation now, whether you are humiliated or wronged, you have to bear it yourself.Yan Hua said that's all, "Let them check it quickly, and leave the palace after the inspection."

Brother Fo was full of resentment, and wanted to relieve the burden, but the two imperial guards said there was no need, "The ministers are also following orders, please be considerate, lady." He raised his hand to signal the guards under the door, and the door was opened, and he cupped his hands and said, "My lady, please stroll."

She went out with lingering steps, and wanted to look back, but she held back in the end.The Forbidden Court has nothing to miss, but there is him.After leaving, the impression of him will gradually fade. After a few years, maybe I can't even remember what he looks like, which is very good.

She sighed softly, and when she stepped out of the Gongchen door, she heard someone calling the queen behind her.

She turned around and saw that her throat seemed to be blocked by a ball of cotton, and she was a little out of breath.After a little delay, he said: "The official's name is wrong. I am not the queen, but Concubine Jing."

When everyone saw Jinshang, they all saluted, Chunwo turned back and pushed everyone away to make room for them to say goodbye.

He walked over and hadn't seen her for nearly half a month, her face became both familiar and unfamiliar.She looked at him calmly, without any resentment.He clenched his hands under his wide sleeves, opened his lips, and suddenly found that he couldn't speak a word.

It was she who spoke first, bowing her head and said: "Thank you for coming to see me off, but you shouldn't have come. I'm a deposed empress, so it's not good for people to know."

He didn't speak, with complicated expressions on his face, he said after a while: "Take good care of yourself, I will visit you when I am free."

She said no need, "My fate with the official family ends here, and there is no future. If we say goodbye today, there will be no future. Please take care of yourself, official family."

His eyes were full of sadness, he couldn't tell what kind of emotion it was, he clearly hated her, but he was still nostalgic for her.Seeing her being so decisive, my heart ached like a knife.But what to do, the vows made by each other have become a thing of the past, maybe she feels that she has been let down, or she really doesn't care, so she can be so calm.

He felt that he might have done something wrong again, and since it was over, he shouldn't procrastinate.He makes decisions elsewhere, but to her, he can be called clinging.Today, the matter of abolishing the empress was brought up in the Zichen Palace, and the two factions in the court and the Chinese quarreled fiercely.The other party said that the queen has no virtue, so she should be abolished and another noble concubine should be established.He has rules in mind, but there are many things that happened in the ban that the ministers don't know, and it's not convenient for him to go into details.He had made up his mind, and the edict was still issued, but suddenly he wanted to see her like crazy.Thinking that there is no more her in the palace, his life will be as cold and lonely as before, his heart feels like a piece has been corroded, and the chill rushes into his chest.

However, she was indifferent, even a little disgusted, and all his imaginations immediately stopped, and he said in a cold tone: "You leave the palace today, I should come to see you off, after all, it's a husband and wife."

She built a solid fortress for herself, knowing that no matter how emotional she is, she will only humiliate herself. She has already lost, and at least she can choose to retain her dignity.Then he gently hooked the corners of his lips, "Only when two people are in love can we be called a husband and wife. You and I are divorced from each other. It was not out of intention from the beginning, let alone the word husband and wife. Since I am a Taoist today, the past and the past are in the same place. For me, it’s all a burden, and please don’t miss the old love. In fact, I’m very happy that I can finally get rid of this dreary forbidden court and get rid of you. I will live a good life in the future, and you don’t need to worry about me.”

Her two words made him cold-hearted, and he said angrily: "Why do you say it so firmly, don't forget that you are still my concubine, no matter what kind of dao name you have, you will never be able to get rid of me until you die."

"That being said, you and I both understand in our hearts that since we can't go back, we might as well let go." She turned her head to look at Si Ye, and there was a large open space outside the Gongchen Gate, where the wind blew sand and rocks, and the people waiting for her ran away one after another. None of the places.She knew that she couldn't go on like this, so she said resolutely, "You are already a stranger. From now on, the two will not come and go, and each will be happy. I have to go, the officials please go back."

She didn't miss it, turned around and boarded the car, and everyone helped her in, and then closed the carved door.The wheels rolled forward, leaving him there alone.

He watched the chariot go away, his heart was burning with anger.Walking out of this imperial city, can I start another life?He even hated the sloppyness just now, why did he come, why did he give her a chance to humiliate himself.Originally, she loves so submissively and humblely, but when it comes time to turn against each other, there is only a little bit of dignity left to support her, who knows that she will also be trampled to pieces.

She was so upright and confident, without the slightest bit of shame!He hurried towards the Gongchen Gate, walking faster and faster, wishing he had never appeared here before.When he returned to Funing Palace, the Empress Dowager was waiting for him in the palace, she was quite satisfied with today's abolished empress, and asked with a smile: "Where did the official family go just now?"

He was in a bad mood and didn't answer directly, "Is the Queen Mother looking for something to do?"

What he said was official, which made the queen mother very dissatisfied.But knowing that he is having a hard time at the moment, and he doesn't care about it, An Ran said: "I didn't want to take care of the affairs of the court, but a few admonishing officials asked for an interview, saying that the country must have no descendants, and if your Majesty wants to fight against the outside world, he must first settle down inside. I thought about it again and again. , They made a lot of sense. The stabbing of Concubine Jing last time was all a one-sided story, and no one could come up with evidence. Since the queen was abolished and demoted to Yaohua Palace, let him pass this matter. Officials If you are a big event, don't be entangled by petty love and love, I have already brought the noble concubine out of Yongxiang, the official family will choose a good day to announce to the world that she can be canonized."

He glanced at the queen mother, "Canonization? What is the canonization?"

"Naturally, it is the canonized empress. The noble concubine comes from a noble family, and now it's time to raise troops, and the officials still have a place to use her." The queen mother said, "Xu Yixiaoli, buy people's hearts, and when you grow stronger, what do you want to do with it?" It's all up to you. If Suiguo puts all his strength into a fight to the death, it will take a lot of work for the officials to conquer it. With Wurong, the officials are like a tiger with wings, so why not do it?"

He turned to look at the sheepskin map on the wall, and said in a loud voice: "Urong is only a small country, and the queen mother praises them too much. How can I place my hopes on a woman with a big ax and a million soldiers! The officials are noisy, so let them A queen. What does the queen mother think of Concubine Xian?"

(End of this chapter)