sadomasochism double

Chapter 52

Speaking of this, if Zhuo Yang insisted on courting, it would be worse than a beast.

Fortunately, Zhuo Yang has not reached this point yet.

After I finished speaking, he stared at me deeply for a while, then quickly exited the room.

I wrapped the sheets tightly, feeling uncomfortable all over, dragging my tired body to the bathroom to take a shower.

When I came out, I smelled a faint smell of smoke.

Zhuo Yang was standing on the balcony of the bedroom, his back was facing me, I couldn't see his appearance at this time, only saw the smoke ring slowly rising in front of him.

The night was like water, and Zhuo Yang's tall body seemed to blend into the night.

I sighed behind my back, but didn't step forward and say, "Ye Shenhan, don't torment your body."

At this moment, everything about him has nothing to do with me.

I want to leave...Leave this house that carries my countless sorrows and loneliness, but before I reach the door, Zhuo Yang said lightly.

"If you don't want me to do it again, don't move."

He won't let me go, but the lust in his eyes has faded, and I think I'm safe tonight.

It's just that I didn't sleep well that night.

One night, there were many, many nightmares that kept grabbing me.

A young An Ran held my hand and told me shyly, pointing to the boy under the apricot blossom spring rain and giggling, she said, this is her boy.

The boy raised his head high, obviously looking indifferent, but my heart skipped a beat, I felt that he was so gentle for no reason.

He is so beautiful.

Like a god, standing far away from me.

I also dreamed about my mother, she was standing far, far away in the field of rapeseed flowers, and the spring breeze was blowing, raising her black hair.

I smiled and ran towards her.

But crashed into a bloody wall.

No matter how hard I was here, I couldn't make it through. I could only watch my mother lying in a pool of blood, letting the bright red color drown her.

I also dreamed—

I am in the water.

You must not know that before that incident happened, I was a master of the school swimming team. The teacher once told me that I was an extremely talented child.

However, I failed to save An Ran, and no one believed that I really didn't do it on purpose.

The dead will be remembered forever, and I, the living, will be forever blamed.

Since then, I have been afraid of water.

Fear of everything related to water.

call--

In a daze, I felt that I was hugged into an embrace with a faint scent of tobacco.Just like those years, in the loneliest time, we always keep each other warm.

I just don't know that the body is warm, but what about the heart?
I guess it's getting farther and farther away.

"Zhuo Yang?"

I came and called out in a daze, but felt that the other party hugged me even tighter. At the same time, my forehead felt warm, and someone whispered something close to my ear.

but……

Too deep... the nightmare is too deep...

I can't remember at all.

When he woke up the next day, Zhuo Yang had already left.

Except for the cigarette butts all over the balcony, I couldn't find any trace of his existence.

When I was leaving, a rare warm sun rose in the winter of this city. I opened my eyes to the sun. At this moment, something was finally leaving my life.

But there is no regret.

I know...that's the life I've always wanted.

To the house where I lived for seven years, I waved and said, "Goodbye!"

Only, I thought it was goodbye.But after that day, I found that Zhuo Yang and I had more interactions.

As the year approached, Ding Wei told me that as soon as the case was over, I would be able to hold a celebration party this year.

I am naturally happy.

It's just that I didn't expect that from that day on, Zhuo Yang would come down to supervise and produce those small commercials.

Not only did he come over, but Li Chen also often came over.

But for Li Chen, I feel a little sorry for him.

His 30th birthday...

I gave him a chocolate cake.

Then he got allergic and swollen like a pig's head.

Looking back at the scene now, there are so many strange eyes, it turns out that they all know that Li Chen is allergic to chocolate.

I swear I didn't mean to.

It's just that when I saw Li Chen's horrible face, I still couldn't help laughing.

Li Chen rubbed his nose, a little embarrassed, "Is it funny... I thought it would be better if I got an injection..."

In fact, it's much better.It's just that there are still some red spots on the face that haven't faded.

Poor Li Chen's face, which is comparable to that of an idol artist, actually has red acne all over his face.

I laughed out loud, but remembering Li Chen's vindictive temperament, my laughter also weakened.

"Sorry sorry... I really didn't mean to..."

Strangely, Li Chen didn't yell angrily, but sat down next to me.

He asked me a serious question.

"Falling in love with Zhuo Yang, have you ever regretted it?"

I once asked myself, did I regret falling in love with a man I shouldn't love?
However, youth is like a long river, carrying our joys, sorrows and joys, the laughter of growing up, the tears we lost, and the regrets we couldn’t get... Many, many feelings flow slowly in this river...

Do I regret it?

I shook my head.

"No."

In fact, he doesn't know that it is a very happy thing that I can love, and I once loved.

This taste of happiness supported me to walk through it with a smile in the most bitter and tiring time.

Because, he is worth it.

"You look like you're about to cry." Li Chen put his hand on my forehead and leaned my head on his shoulder.

"You know? An Yue...I'm starting to like you..."

Li Chen's voice was like a whisper, gentle and lingering.That magnetic and gentle voice seemed to draw out the deepest and most painful love in my heart. I actually didn't resist and leaned on his shoulder.

"When you fall in love with someone...you will also feel this way...sour, sweet, bitter, spicy... mixed flavors..."

This is life.

"It sounds very bitter, very difficult."

"Occasionally there will be a little bit...but thinking of the little sweetness after the pain, the bitterness will be infinitely reduced...and the sweetness will be infinitely enlarged..."

Because that is love.

That day, when Li Chen left, he hesitated for a second before calling me.

"An Yue... are we friends now?"

In fact, to be honest, for a moment, I hesitated.After all, Li Chen's mind is difficult to distinguish, and it can even be said to be sinister and cunning.

I have never had a good impression of such a person, how could I befriend him so easily.

but……

At that moment, Li Chen didn't have that extraordinary appearance. He was full of acne and grinned at me.

That was the best day I saw him, with a sweet and sunny smile.

So much so that I forgot that he is not a good person himself.

"Yes...we are friends."

If he really considers me a friend.

I think we will also become very good friends.

in case……

If there is such a day.

After getting my response, Li Chen left with a smile on his face.

I also turned around with a smile, but what I saw was Zhuo Yang with a bad face.

"How did you come?"

Zhuo Yang leaned against the narrow aisle, his long legs blocking my way.

I glared at him, but he suddenly laughed.

"What's the matter? Haven't suffered enough? Want to be friends with Li Chen?"

"It's a good thing to have one more friend. There's nothing wrong with it." I said lightly, while trying to step over Zhuo Yang and leave.

But Zhuo Yang grabbed my arm at the right time, and his voice was cold, "Have you forgotten...how he approached you last time...how did he bully you?"

Thanks to Zhuo Yang, my good impression of Li Chen disappeared at this moment.

but……

Fortunately, Li Chen is not a very important person, and I can't afford to think about his affairs and waste my energy.

It's just, when did Zhuo Yang treat me so kindly... It seems that he always wants to save me from fire and water.

"I thought I made it very clear last night."

Sure enough, after speaking, Zhuo Yang let go of my hand, and at the same time retracted his legs to let me go.

"You are too self-indulgent... This is my company... Is this the commercial I want too?"

"Really?" I smiled faintly, and sure enough the president and everything else are just looking for trouble when they are idle.

"If possible... I'll go back to work first..."

(End of this chapter)