Breaking up with a wife is not easy for an ex-husband

Chapter 134

Qin Shi stood quietly in front of the tombstone, looking at the yellowed photo on the tombstone, in his heart, he couldn't tell what it was like.

After living in this world for 18 years, he actually met his biological mother for the first time.

And, still photos.

Feeling a little stuffy and painful in her heart, she stretched out her hand to cover it, then turned her head and said to Gu Xingnian, "Can you let me be alone for a while?"

Gu Xingnian frowned, as if he wanted to say no, but the last thing he said was one word: "Okay."

After he finished speaking, he turned around and walked away, stopped after walking a few steps, and said to Qin Shi, "I'm right under the tree over there, call me if you need anything."

Qin Shi nodded, but his eyes didn't fall on him, he just focused on the tombstone.

Gu Xingnian secretly sighed in his heart, clenched his hands on both sides, and walked away step by step.

What he really wanted to say was: If you need a shoulder, call me anytime.

But ah...

Now the relationship between the two, how can I say these words.

When I think of it myself, I feel ridiculous.

Qin Shi waited for him to walk away before squatting down, reached out to touch the yellowed photo, and slightly curled the corners of his mouth.In fact, she looks very similar to her biological mother, except that she is younger.

If she was still there, he would definitely not live like this.

Qin Shi moved his lips, wanting to say something.But the throat seemed to be blocked by something, and it was so completely blocked that no sound could be made at all.

She just felt that her eye sockets were sore, and then tears fell down accidentally.

It was so big that it just landed on her knee.

Why are you crying?

Don't you know what you should know and what you shouldn't know?

Moreover, he also saw what his biological mother looked like!
You should be happy, you should be happy.

But in Qin Shi's heart, he couldn't be happy no matter what.

"Mom..." She finally called out, facing the picture of this woman she had never met, and she would never see in the future.

The tears flowed more fiercely, she simply stretched out her hands to hug herself, and circled herself tightly.

"Mom, I'm so sad..."

Why did you leave me when I was just born?why i don't have a dadWhy is my life going so hard?
In Qin Shi's heart, there were so many whys, but no one could answer her.

"How are you doing in heaven? Have you ever thought about me? You must be looking at me every day, right? Then... You must be very disappointed in me when you see how I am now?"

The surrounding area was very quiet, except for the occasional wind blowing and brushing Qin Shi's long hair, there was nothing else.

She knew that Gu Xingnian was looking at her, but she couldn't help it, she just wanted to cry out all the things that were suppressed in her heart, and cry happily.

"I know I shouldn't fall in love with him, and I don't want to, but, but..."

But by the time I found out, it was too late.

I really always thought that I didn't love him.

But it turned out that those hates all came from the love deep in my heart.

"Mom, can you take me away? I've had a hard time here, and I don't want to continue like this. I'm alone...I'm so tired..."

In the past few days, I have always been in a trance, and I always feel like something bad is about to happen.

Qin Shi was already afraid of his current life.

It's like meeting Aunt Liu on the street that day, and knowing everything about eight years ago and my own life experience.

It was getting darker and darker, and it looked like it was about to rain heavily.The wind in the cemetery was getting stronger and stronger, blowing Qin Shi's long black hair into mess.

She squatted there, hugging herself tightly, but she couldn't feel any warmth except the warmth of tears sliding down her cheeks.

Under the tree in the distance, Gu Xingnian has been looking at this side.

He knew that Qin Shi was crying, and he could guess it from the way her shoulders shrugged.

He has been waiting for Qin Shi to call him over, even if he doesn't want his shoulder, at least let him be by his side.

However, no.

She would rather squat there alone and cry until she couldn't make a sound, and she didn't want to look back at herself.

Just like these eight years, in fact, every time she was sad and helpless, she was behind her, but she... never noticed it.

Gu Xingnian's heart was full of disappointment, he finally couldn't help but stepped forward and walked towards Qin Shi.

And at this time, raindrops fell.

The heavy rain came too suddenly, and in just a few seconds, it was already a downpour.

Gu Xingnian walked over and pulled Qin Shi up, "It's raining, let's go back first."

"I don't want to go back." Qin Shi's voice was very soft, and the rain was so heavy that Gu Xingnian could hardly hear it clearly.

"You leave me here alone, I don't want to go back," she said.

"You already know this place. You can come anytime you want in the future. Go back today. It's raining so hard."

"Go back? Where am I going back?" Qin Shi suddenly laughed, with that desolate smile, as if he had lost confidence in this world.

Gu Xingnian's heart tightened violently, as if he had been stabbed by something sharp, the pain made him almost speechless.

After a long time, he finally uttered two words: "Go home."

"Go home? Haha..."

Qin Shi stood in the heavy rain and laughed wildly.

The rain poured down from the head, so fierce that people almost couldn't keep their eyes open.

When talking, I accidentally swallowed rainwater.

Qin Shi stared at Gu Xingnian, his eyes were red, "Which home should I go to? Do I have a home? I don't even know who I am! The person who gave birth to me can't say a word, can't tell I, who is my father, can't give me anything I want!"

"what do you want?"

"I want love! I want warmth! I want everything that others can get without asking for it! Why don't I? Why do I have to live so hard and so tired? Why..."

In the past 18 years, I have not done anything harmful to nature.

When small animals are injured, they will be treated, and people who meet beggars on the road will also give them change.

I went to a nursing home to see empty nesters and donated money to impoverished mountainous areas.

Looking back, I am not a heinous person!

But why is God so cruel to me?Why can't...be a little bit nicer to yourself?
Just a little bit is enough.

On the opposite side, she cried out the desire deep in her heart without any scruples, and Gu Xingnian felt at a loss for the first time.

Because his love was not what Qin Shi wanted.

(End of this chapter)