Traveling through the mountains and fields to be leisurely

Chapter 267
Is love lost just like that? When she wanted to hold it firmly in her hand, it turned into a rose, stabbing herself with blood. Lan Lingxue stretched out her palm, there was no blood there, but her heart was full of blood. dripping with blood, even a river of blood,
"Zhiyuan, my hardships have not yet begun. Gossip will definitely spread. There will be many people criticizing me and criticizing me, saying that I have a purpose in saving the prince, whether it is for love or for profit. I need you to protect me from the wind and rain. Only your support is the most powerful shield for me to overcome this difficulty. These are all things I thought of immediately after I was injured, so just now, I That’s why I ask you not to be angry, I hope you can be my strong backing, so that I can face the wind and rain with strength, but what did you give me? Water has been poured on my head, is this what you call jealousy?"

Apart from a deep sigh, Lan Lingxue had nothing to express her mood at this time,
"An Zhiyuan, no, it's not jealousy, it's an insult, it's giving up. You've already given up on me, but you don't know it. One can imagine, how can you protect me with your attitude? I don't dare to ask for it." , So, when you gave up on me, I also chose to give up, I'm tired, let's give each other freedom."

Lan Lingxue, who always prides herself on knowing people well, lost confidence in herself for the first time. It turned out that she also had misjudged times. It turned out that when you are alone, don't be too confident in yourself, don't feel that you are sure of everything, There are always things that are out of your control. You will not be lucky for a lifetime. At that time, it will be your saddest and most desperate time.
"Zhiyuan, I'm very happy about the sweet days you gave me, and I'm also sad about the harm you gave me, but none of this matters anymore. I hope we can all remember the beauty between each other. After all, resentment will be very painful. Tired, what I hope is that you can be happy, and then, let’s be happy each other.”

An Zhiyuan hugged Lan Lingxue into his arms gently, afraid of touching her wounds, both on her body and in her heart. He actually forced the woman he loved so much into such a situation. In her most difficult time, She actually chose to leave, and she didn't even dare to imagine that she would get her own protection. It can be seen how failed she is as a human being, but can others be blamed for this?How much wound did I leave on her heart? Perhaps, it was deeper than the wound she received today.

"Lingxue, you also said that I am like a child who has not grown up, especially emotionally, I am like a naive child, I am learning, you can't just give up on me, maybe, this is really very difficult. Tired, but you have to be patient and wait for the child to grow up, as long as you teach me well, I will grow up."

An Zhiyuan turned Lan Lingxue around a little so that she could see him more easily, but his movements were as light as if he were treating a baby, and he was extremely cautious.

"Lingxue, I apologize for what I said just now, and I also apologize for the thought I had, but it was really just a thought, I dare to swear by my personality, I never thought that you would betray me, Whether it is your person or your heart, but you really have to allow me to have such thoughts, because I am a man, you said that you were not saved because of the prince, even if it was another man, you I will do the same, because you have a conscience. I just thought about it carefully. If I were replaced by another man today, I would have the same flash of thought. When you rushed out for another man, I would definitely It will be more or less sour, this is really a man's jealousy, no matter how hard I try, I can't change a man's jealousy, because I care about you, so I will be possessive of everything about you, but this does not It hinders my feelings for you, and I feel more distressed, and I feel distressed about the possible consequences after you rush out."

An Zhiyuan stretched out a finger, and gently traced Ling Xue's eyebrows, those picturesque eyebrows, those bright red lips, and that slender nose, so that he finally couldn't help it, and gently pasted himself on it. On the eyebrows, on the lips, on the nose, there was a gentle kiss, which made Lan Lingxue cry again,
"Don't cry, Lingxue!"

Touching the handkerchief prepared beside the pillow, An Zhiyuan gently wiped away Ling Xue's tears,
"When I was 14 years old, I fell in love with a girl. She is so different, bold and cautious, dare to think and do, the most important thing is that she is kind-hearted and fierce. Although I I was injured because of saving her, but she reprimanded me severely, and let me know for the first time that people have to do what they can, weigh their own strengths, learn to use their brains, and can't just rely on fists, because in your When your strength is obviously not as good as others, wisdom will help you make up for the rest,..."

As if thinking of the scene when they first met, An Zhiyuan chuckled lightly, that laughter was filled with sadness and helplessness, and was hidden in the night, as if it had never appeared before.

"I was reprimanded by her. I was still unconvinced at the time, but practice later proved that what she said was correct. At a young age, she led the whole family from poverty to wealth. Of course, it was not by fists, but by her At that time, as a bystander, I watched her go from having nothing at home to owning fields, land, and shops. Moreover, as long as she handled it, no matter whether it was fields, houses, or shops, it never appeared. Any worrisome follow-up, such as being coveted by others, such as being maliciously suppressed, etc., I was still surprised, how could she be so lucky, and then, by chance, I saw what she did Note, it is an industrial plan, starting from the location of the store to be purchased, to the projects it needs to operate, the manpower it needs, to any difficulties it may encounter in the future, she has a whole set of solutions, Some problems, in my opinion, are impossible to encounter at all, but she has already prepared for them, and her thoughtfulness has reached a level that surprised me."

An Zhiyuan looked at Ling Xue's eyes, with a light that made Lan Lingxue's heart palpitate,
"At that time, I was thinking, what kind of woman should this be? She must be unparalleled in the world when she walks a step and looks at a hundred steps. Since then, I can't leave her eyes, but I dare not expose too much. After all, at that time, she was only an 11-year-old girl, and I once despised myself severely because of my obscene thoughts. Such a young child, am I not mentally normal? "

Looking at Ling Xue who had grown up in front of him, those exquisite eyebrows and eyes made An Zhiyuan feel a little dazed,
"But the more I got in touch with her, the more I felt that I couldn't let go of her. She attracted my attention so firmly until my father sent someone to find me and let me go to the border. At that time, I even wanted to reject my father, even It is to reject my own identity, just to stay in that warm but not very luxurious home, because I am very reluctant to leave her, and I am also worried that my departure will be a farewell. If we don’t see each other again, I’m going to be in so much pain.”

Looking at the pain in An Zhiyuan's eyes, Lan Lingxue knew that what he said was true. No matter what, An Zhiyuan had never lied to her, not once, which made Lan Lingxue suddenly feel that she was too impulsive And reckless, would a man who had never lied to himself really not take himself seriously?Or, was he really just using it the wrong way?

"But I suppressed my reluctance, and I told myself, I'm going to the border, I'm going to hone myself, I'm going to make myself better, I hope that when I appear in front of her again, she will be the first You can see me at a glance, see my excellence, see my difference, just like I see her, even if she is hidden among thousands of people, I think I will recognize it at the first sight She came, because I only have her in my eyes, and there is no one else."

"Zhiyuan, I'm sorry!"

Lan Lingxue stretched out her hand and hugged An Zhiyuan tightly. At this moment, Lan Lingxue finally had regrets that she had never had before. Yes, she said it herself, emotionally, he is just a child who has not grown up. My child, why don't you allow him to make mistakes? Moreover, I am not a child emotionally. Thinking about my last life, I only knew about work. I haven't had a serious love history since I was 27 or eight. Time and space, I have only been attracted to An Zhiyuan, now what qualifications do I have to reprimand An Zhiyuan for not knowing love,
"Don't say sorry, it's me who should say sorry."

An Zhiyuan took Lan Lingxue's hand off his body gently, fearing that she might stretch the wound,
"Lingxue, I never knew that I would make you feel so insecure. The affection I gave you was not enough to make up for my youth and childishness. That only shows that my contribution is still too little."

An Zhiyuan caressed Lan Lingxue's left shoulder with his hands, wanting to feel the pain of the wound, but he also knew that he couldn't feel it. Is this kind of feeling just like each other wanting to understand each other's mood, wanting to feel the pain of the wound? It is impossible to have a deeper understanding of each other, after all, I am not you, so——

"Lingxue, it's not that I love you not deeply enough, nor that I use the wrong method, but that I love you in my own way. Everyone has different ways of giving love. My love may be naive, but it's not humble. It is the most sincere, without any pretentiousness, and without any concealment. I hope to reveal my whole heart in front of you, so that you can clearly see every trace, every fold, and every trace of it. Scar, I hope that when you see it, you can pity it, cherish it, and love it, Lingxue, can you accept it? Just like three or four years ago, when I left Banhe Village, I gave you a scar. The wooden hairpin, at that time, it was all I had, I gave you all I had, and then I just asked, can you wait for me when I come back?"

Lan Lingxue caressed An Zhiyuan's cheek, nodded with tears in her eyes,
"I am willing, Zhiyuan, I am willing!"

We are all affectionate people, and we all want to give our best feelings to each other, but we forget to open ourselves to each other. When we open our hearts to each other, we realize how naive we are. It turns out that Emotionally, we are all toddlers.

(End of this chapter)