My girlfriend who has been running for ten years is getting married tomorrow

Chapter 31 The blizzard that night saved my life (4)
The cold wind suddenly stagnated for a moment, and I felt a chill on the tip of my nose. I reached out and touched it. It was a snowflake that was melting.I raised my head slowly, and what caught my eyes was the snowflakes falling from the sky. They were silent, calm and orderly, but they were as magnificent as thousands of troops trampling down a city.At that moment, I suddenly fell into a creepy panic, as if I was forced to the edge of an abyss by a group of villains holding sharp knives, and I couldn't find a way out anyway.

In the raging blizzard, sound and light were all extinguished, and all creatures on the Gobi Desert became deaf, dumb and blind, and life and death depended on the judgment of heaven and earth.Even if Lao Liu leads people to light a fire, the flames and smoke soaring into the sky will not be able to compete with the wind and snow. They will be weakened, hidden and swallowed, and will not be able to illuminate my way back.

The walkie-talkie kept beeping low-battery alarms, and after 10 minutes of repeated repetitions, it finally went completely silent.

For the first time in my life I found myself a coward, so afraid of death.

I am afraid that my parents will not be taken care of after I die, that my body will not be found in time, that Ling Yiyao will see an unrecognizable wreckage, and even more afraid that my corpse will be exposed to the wilderness like a dog. Nobody cried for me.

Ling Yiyao, Ling Yiyao, if I really die here, please call my name and bring my soul back to my hometown.

I found a slightly higher soil slope and set up the instrument on the top of the slope so that it could be discovered as soon as possible. Then I hid in a recess on the slope and lived as long as I could.I don't know if I can survive it, so I can only prepare for the worst, hold the pen holder horizontally with my hand that is almost unconscious from the cold, and write a suicide note on the middle page of the construction log with the twilight of the snow.

How much money I invested here, who else owes me money outside, and who I owe money to so and so, my account is still in school and I haven't got it back, that's all. "If something unexpected happens, Lao Liu will take care of the accounts on his behalf and hand them over to his parents." I finally wrote.

Originally, I wanted to say I was sorry to my parents, to go a step earlier, and to persuade Ling Yiyao not to be sad, and see you in the next life, but I finished writing those accounts crookedly, and I didn't have the energy to write anymore.

I curled up in that corner, thinking wildly in my mind, thinking about what kind of posture I should use to look decent and peaceful if I am about to lose consciousness, so as not to be in a mess.Sometimes I feel that this body does not belong to me at all, I can't feel the warmth of the body, my limbs are as unconscious as wood, and my heart is the last place where life parasitizes.

Gradually, my consciousness began to slacken, and my eyelids became heavy. Although I didn't fall asleep, I dreamed vaguely.My surroundings suddenly became warmer, the blizzard suddenly disappeared, replaced by a touch of golden setting sun, Ling Yiyao appeared not far in front of me, she was wearing a long gauze dress, beckoning to me: "Lu Qinyang ..."

I stumbled and followed her, but no matter how hard I chased, I could never get closer to her.She just walked forward like this, as if she had walked for a whole lifetime, until the last moment, when I found that the things around me suddenly became familiar, I stopped in amazement.

It was a quiet and warm old house, with lush trees planted outside the door, a small chair with peeling paint in the yard, and a pile of freshly peeled edamame shells on the foot of the chair.Dad was pruning the trees, and mother was cooking in the kitchen. A chubby little dog dozed off on the broom, and Ling Yiyao took my hand and said, "You're home."

I'm home.

I don't have to wander anymore, I don't have to leave my hometown anymore, I don't have to get lost anymore, my whole body relaxes all of a sudden, the heavy armor is scattered on the ground with a bang, my body is as light as soap bubbles, supported by the air Flying up, in the afterglow of the setting sun, it emits colorful and strange splendor.

The warm little courtyard gradually receded and turned into a small black spot. I looked up and looked around again, and the sun above my head was close at hand. It was as quiet and overbearing as a bathroom heater, and it made me sweat profusely.My body became dry and hot, like a humble little ant, which could turn into a puff of smoke at any time when it was approached by a red soldering iron.

This is a strange world...

I don't know how long it took, but I vaguely heard the sound of the engine, someone shouting loudly, and countless rustling footsteps.That warm and erratic dream suddenly shattered, and I suddenly returned to the icy and snowy Gobi Desert. The cold wind and snow flakes hit me like a pause and resumed.Then, someone rushed down from the mound behind me, squatted beside me and slapped my face while calling my name.I felt like I was being submerged in water. All the voices were muffled, and the lights were particularly dazzling. I couldn't see who they were, and I didn't know whether I was rescued or dying.

It turned out that I was still here, and a wave of depression came to my heart.

They lifted me up and lifted me up, and my whole body was like a piece of waste floating into space, and all my consciousness floated weightlessly.They carried me around for a long time, stuffed me into an air-conditioned car, covered me with a thick quilt, had my limbs kneaded, and kept calling me to stay awake: "Gong Lu, Gong Lu , Lu Gong..."

Suddenly, I heard a familiar voice: "Lu Qinyang, Lu Qinyang..."

I sat up all of a sudden, tried my best to push away those workers, looked around with wide eyes, and found that there was no sign of Ling Yiyao at all, my eyes suddenly went dark, and I fell down again.

The hospital is too far from here, and after I was brought back to the camp, I was relieved after being roasted by the fire for a while. They let me lie on the bed and rest, and the old cook who cooked the meals was specially asked to serve me.I slept until the next afternoon and woke up. I opened the curtains to see a red sun as dim as salted duck egg yolk, and the sharp cold wind made the single-layer glass of the prefabricated house whine.

"The snow has stopped," I said.

"Stop," the old cook's voice was so calm that he could see through life and death, "I thought you would sleep forever."

I drank a bowl of hot soup, asked the old cook to plug in my phone, let him go out first, and I called Ling Yiyao.As soon as the phone was connected, she asked sharply, "What were you doing yesterday? Why did you hang up after only one call?"

"I almost lost my life yesterday, and I even wrote my suicide note."

Ling Yiyao didn't seem to believe my words. She said, "Are you going to work or to fight? Why is your life in danger? If it's really that dangerous, then come back!"

Faced with such a question, I don't know how to respond. I have already invested all my savings in this gamble, how could I raise my hands and surrender because of an accident.I am here to bear the rain, snow and wind and frost, just to let her live comfortably in this life. I only hope that she will not have to feel the hardships of life in this life, even if she will not be able to understand my fanaticism at this time.

"Today my mother said something and I cried for a while," she said.

I asked, "Did she scold you?"

She said: "No. I said that I want to regret the marriage and don't want to stay at home. She said, 'The tree wants to be quiet but the wind doesn't stop, and the child wants to raise but the relatives don't wait'. Be filial."

I was stunned for a while, and suddenly realized that "we can't be close", no matter how much I love her, it's hard for me to surpass her parents.Is this the end of my desperate work, wishing I could sit in the middle of the market with a knife and sell my meat?I suppressed the soreness in my left chest and asked, "What do you want?"

Ling Yiyao was silent for a moment, then whispered: "I will try my best to bear it."

Do your best, just do your best.

Ha ha.

She has been able to stay with me until now, and she is already doing her best. I have no right to ask her to stick with me forever. Love is not obtained by kidnapping.I sent out the old man who was cooking, and assured her that I would be on my way soon, that we could live happily ever after, and that everyone would be ashamed of their current obstruction.

I felt that my eloquence was surprisingly good at that time, better than ever before, and I described a bright future to her in an excited state, not at all like a person who came back from the gate of hell.But Ling Yiyao just listened quietly, so silent that I wondered if she was still on the other end of the phone, so I had to say "Hello" "Hello" "Hello" stupidly.

She just sighed slightly and said, "But, I'm already very tired."

At that moment, I felt that my sky suddenly collapsed, and the spiritual pillar that I thought would never be shaken was crumbling, and the girl on the other end of the phone who made me dream suddenly became extremely strange.I can believe that the sun rises in the west, the river flows backwards, and the snow falls in June, but I can't believe that Ling Yiyao will waver in his determination and plan to leave me one day.

I suddenly realized that my timidity towards death in the snow looked so ridiculous, Lu Qinyang, Lu Qinyang, you endured desperately, endured, hoped and waited, and finally saved the life of this humble dog. This is the reality that welcomes you What does it look like?There is no joy in life, no pain in death, if I had known this before, why not just obey the arrangement of fate and end this life in the burial place that God has chosen for you?Why don't you just die?Why don't you just die?You die, okay?
"Please hold on for a few more days, I'll go back as soon as possible." I begged.

She was silent for a long time, and finally said "um".

(End of this chapter)