my wishful wolf

Chapter 138

Jing An seemed to be in a daze, and Dong Yan said: "Although he committed a terrible mistake, it was because of me, so I apologize to you on his behalf, and in a short while, I will go to Dali Temple and bear these charges " Dong Yan let go of Jing An's hand, then lowered his head.

Jing An's eyes flickered, and he blurted out: "No!" Dong Yan raised his eyes to look at him, Jing An stretched out his hand and shook Dong Yan's arm, and said: "Now that my mother is gone, brother, if you leave again, how can I live?" Dong Yan After hearing this, Yan's heart felt sour, Jing An said: "Brother, this matter is over...don't mention it again." Dong Yan said: "Don't you blame me... don't you blame him?" Jing An Said: "I have my own faults, and besides, I know what kind of person the eldest brother is, so how can I be blamed?"

Dong Yan remained silent, Jing An stretched out his hand to hug Dong Yan, and said: "I have nothing left, I just hope Big Brother don't have anything to do, forget everything from the past."

Dong Yan burst into tears, hitting Jing An's shoulders one by one, saying: "Jing An..." He stretched out his hand and hugged him tightly.

For the next three days, Jing'an Dongyan cheered up and dealt with Mrs. Xie's death.Because all the people involved in the incident were silenced, they didn't make it public. They only said that they died because of a fire in worshiping the Buddha.The emperor was sympathetic and gave many things to appease him.Uncle An Guo was assassinated, and Jing An was acquitted due to insufficient evidence.

Three days later, Jing An asked the emperor to resign and be transferred.The emperor and all the officials were shocked, the emperor didn't let him go, he just told Jing An to go back and think about it.

Jing An returned home, Dong Yan hurriedly asked: "Why are you doing this?" Jing An said: "Brother, I don't want to stay in the capital, you also know that I am a general, I can't stay in the capital forever Inside, I heard that bandits are rampant again in the northwest, and the local officials are ineffective. As a general, you should share your worries for the king, isn't this what you often say?"

Dong Yan said: "That's the case, but the mother's business has just been concluded, you have to stay in Beijing for a while." Jing An said: "What else to stay, am I not a good person?" Dong Yan looked at Jing An glanced at her and bowed her head without saying a word.

He is indeed good-natured, able to speak and deal with each other, but Dong Yan can't see that Jing An's eyes are full of indifference, no matter who he looks at, he is like this, no longer has the former expression.

As for why, whether it was because of his mother's death or something else, Dong Yan didn't want to ask, he couldn't ask.

Because of the fire at the former site of Baiyi Nunnery, the bodhi tree in the backyard of Baiyi Nunnery was also affected, and it was burnt beyond recognition, and all the blessing knots on it were completely burned.

With his hands behind his back, Jing An calmly looked at the burnt black and withered branches.After a while, someone behind him said, "Master Hou."

Jing An didn't look back, and said: "You asked me to come, what's the matter?" The person behind stepped forward, his face was pale, his hair was only tied into a bun, but it was Jing Yuan, looked at Jing An, and said: "This It's a pity that a tree was burned by that fire, and the hearts of so many people above have been wiped out."

Jing An said: "Even if it is hung up, it is nothing more than wishful thinking."

Jing Yuan said: "Don't Hou Ye believe this?" Jing An said: "I've heard that allusion, you don't need to tell me, well, even if it's true, now he's dead, ha... No one will come. There is no place to make a wish, wouldn’t someone cry to death?”

Jing Yuan smiled slightly, and said: "Well, I don't know...but, although the tree was burned to dryness...it doesn't mean it can't regenerate."

Jing An stepped forward, stretched out his hand to pat, the black ash from the tree shook one after another, together with a crisply burnt branch, fell to the ground and broke in two.Jing An looked at him coldly, and said: "Did you see that? It's all like this, do you still think that he can turn a dead tree into a spring? Ha."

As he spoke, he shook his head and turned around.

Seeing that he was about to leave, Jing Yuan asked, "I heard that Lord Hou recently asked for a transfer?" Jing An stopped, nodded, and said, "Exactly."

Jing Yuan said: "Before, I was rescued by Lord Hou again, I am very grateful." Jing An said: "Why be polite, you are also troubled because of me." Jing Yuan said: "Master Hou is not surprised why I was here that night Then?" Jing An thought for a while, and said: "It's so strange that good fortune tricks people?"

Jing Yuan lowered her head, sighed slightly, and said: "It is indeed good fortune to deceive people..." Jing An said: "I only now know that it is yours, it is yours after all, it is not yours... You can't get it by force." , I just regret it now, if I hadn't been so hard to push, maybe at this moment she still..."

While talking, the tears in his eyes were crumbling, and he could only hold back, but smiled and looked up at the sky.

That day, the sky was high and far away, extremely blue, but the blue was ruthless, and the height was empty, which made people feel that there was nowhere to put it.

Jing An smiled faintly, and said: "Today is the last time I will see you... let's say goodbye." Jing An walked away.Seeing him approaching the door of the Bodhisattva Hall, Jing Yuan was about to leave after a flash of his figure. After hesitating, she finally called out: "Master Hou, stay a step!"

Jing An stepped into the door but didn't stop, Jing Yuan said: "Master Hou!"

Jing An entered the door, finally stood still, Jing Yuan quickly walked a few steps forward, moved her hand, and took out a red heart knot from her sleeve.

Jing An was startled, but still looked at her lightly, frowning slightly.

Jing Yuan lowered her head, looked at the things in her hands, and said: "Master Hou, don't misunderstand, this is not mine."

Jing An was puzzled and looked at her.Jing Yuan said: "I picked it up here on a certain day." She turned around, pointed to the bottom of the steps of the Bodhisattva Hall, and said, "I remember that it was Mrs. Xie who went to Xiangye Temple to offer incense. It was also the day I made an appointment to meet Lord Hou."

Jing An's expression was indifferent and cold, but after hearing this, his eyes gradually widened.

Jing Yuan looked at the Wishful Knot, and said: "I don't know who it is, it was meant to be hung on this tree, but it didn't come true... But that's fine, if it is hung up, it will be like what Lord Hou said. , is also gone at this moment,... It can be seen that there is a good fortune in the dark."

As she spoke, she stretched out her hand and handed out the wishful knot.

Jing An's throat twitched, his eyes flickered, he hesitated a few times, and finally stretched out his hand to take the wishful knot.

Jing Yuan said: "If Master Hou leaves the capital, please take care of yourself. If there is a dead tree in the future, I will wait for Master Hou... to visit the old place again."

Jing An grasped the Wishful Knot, nodded towards Jing Yuan, turned around and walked, walked two steps, stopped again, turned back and said: "You have endured enough, I know who the person you like in your heart is, If you really can't... let go,...then just take care of him for me."

Jing Yuan originally looked at him with a smile, but after hearing Jing An's words, her shoulders trembled, then she lowered her eyes and said: "I... I'm afraid I'm not worthy... He doesn't... have me in his heart."

Jing An twitched the corner of his mouth and said: "So, you are also the dead tree that was burned by the fire, unable to return to heaven? If that's the case, well, if you say that the dead tree has a spring, then we will wait for the dead tree to have a spring. If there is a dead tree that has a spring in this world, then... ..." He looked down at the red wishful knot, looked up into the distance, but couldn't continue, smiled mockingly, and walked out the door.

After Jing An returned home, he went straight to the east courtyard. There was no sound in the courtyard. Since the day Yue'e disappeared, Xiao Ha also disappeared. At first, he thought that he would come back after running around. Unexpectedly, four days passed , but there is no trace.

After Jing An sat down, he ordered Xiao Kui to come.

After a while, Xiaokui arrived, and Jing An said: "In the past, you said that you went to Baiyi Nunnery with Lady Yao, wrote a wish, but didn't hang it up, is it true?" I wrote it, I was going to hang it up, but..."Jing An asked: "You said the lady wrote it for you?" Xiao Kui said: "Exactly."

Jing An asked again: "What about the lady's?" Xiaokui thought for a while and said, "I haven't seen it since then, now that I think about it... Ever since the lady met Lord Hou, she didn't see it in her hand, probably because she lost it." It's..."

Jing'an paused for a moment, and then said: "Then is that heart knot still by your side?" Xiao Kui wept and said: "Written by the lady herself, the servant has always kept it by her side."

Jing An watched her weeping, then turned his head away, pretending to be indifferent, and said: "Bring yours, show me." Xiaokui agreed, touched from her bosom, and pulled out the wishful knot , Pass it to Jing An.

Jing An took it in his hand, his fingers trembling slightly, and after a while, he finally opened it, and saw the words on it: May my family be healthy, safe and auspicious... a few words, neatly written, Jing An slowly let go, and I took out the note that Jing Yuan gave me from my bosom, opened it, and slowly unfolded the note, the movement was extremely slow. After unfolding, I took a closer look, and gradually the hand trembled uncontrollably, and tears welled up in my eyes , I tried my best to endure it again.

Jing An waved the person away, and that night he slept on the bed where Yue'e had slept, slept until midnight, got up, took a candle and shined it on the pillow, and finally saw a strand of hair, Jing An was careful He twisted his hair up, twisted it around, picked up the little red bag with wishful knot from the side, and stuffed it in.

Clutching the red bag to his chest, Jing An lowered his head, curled up his body like a newborn baby, his shoulders trembled slightly, and remained silent till dawn.

Jing An seemed determined, repeatedly asked to resign, even Dong Yan refused to listen to his persuasion.The emperor had no choice but to agree.Six days later, Jing'an left the capital, and with the title of "Northwest Polu General", he was ordered to go out of Beijing, looking straight to the northwest, and all the officials were quite fond of seeing him off, Dongyan also sent him all the way to Baliting , exhorted in every possible way, and bid farewell to Jing'an with tears.

A year passed in a flash, the people of Jing'an were in the northwest, they never returned to Beijing for a day, they practiced and fought fiercely all day long, nothing else happened.In the northwest, everyone knows that there is a young general who wears a colorful snow leopard.

But the Mao bandit dared not rebel against him, the bandits in the Northwest gradually became less rampant than before, but they hated Jing'an even more.

After half a year, the emperor summoned Jing An to return to Beijing to report on his duties.Jing An took Xiao Bao through Ziyun, then made a detour and went to Tianshui Town.

It was already night, one person and one leopard came to the old house, Xiao Bao let out a low growl, Jing An stretched out his hand to pat it on the head, to comfort Xiao Bao.Jing An stretched out his hand to push the door and entered, looked carefully at every house, he was alone and slept in Yue'e's previous house overnight.

The next morning, someone came from outside, Jing An went out to see, but it was Su Qing, both of them were surprised when they met.

Su Qing was stunned for a while, only then did he recognize that the person in front of him with dark complexion and haggard face was the former Xie Xiaohou, startled, and hastily saluted.

Seeing that Su Qing's face hadn't changed much, Jing An said: "How have you always been?" and sat down.

Su Qing said: "That's all. How is Lord Hou?" Jing An looked at him and said, "You are a doctor. You are the most powerful. Do you think I am good?"

Su Qing saw that he didn't look well, so she knew something must be wrong. Hearing him ask this, she felt sad, and instead asked: "Master...what happened?" Is something wrong?"

Su Qing asked: "But... what happened to her?" Jing An lowered his eyes, smiled lightly and said, "I told you to read a joke... I often think back, what you said at the beginning was very interesting. The reasoning was actually right by you, as expected I was incompetent, unable to protect her, and instead harmed her, now... you should laugh out loud."

Su Qing felt pain in his heart, frowned and took a step back, and said: "What happened to Yue Niang?" Jing An said: "Yes." Su Qing was silent for a while, and finally said: "Master Hou..." Jing An said: "Why don't you Did you say it? At that time you said that I spoke very freely, but now I am bored, you should say a few words."

Su Qing shook her head and said: "Master Hou..." Jing An stared at him and said: "At first she just left, you scolded me, now that she is dead, why are you so speechless? Thinking about it, you are just a cruel and heartless person. Seeing her dead and hopeless, you are not willing to stand up for her, is that true? If you are a man of integrity, you can scold me and beat me up."

Su Qing's nose was sore, she just shook her head and said nothing.Jing An said sharply: "Coward, don't you dare? This Marquis will never fight back, just hit!"

Su Qing turned around and walked out, Jing An said: "Stop!" Su Qing went out, Jing An jumped up and said, "Stop!" Su Qing staggered out, Jing An went up Before him, he grabbed him and said, "You..." Su Qing blinked, and tears fell down.

Seeing him like this, Jing An raised his head and took a breath, endured it, and finally said: "Su Qing, don't go, just talk to me for a while."

Su Qing raised her hand to wipe away her tears, glanced at Jing An, but did not insist on leaving, Jing An saw that he did not refute, so she turned around and sat still, Su Qing also came in, after a while, Su Qing said: "Master, You have an injury on your hand." Jing An glanced at it and said: "It's okay, it will be fine." Su Qing got up, held Jing An's hand, and rolled up his sleeves, unexpectedly, the more the sleeves were rolled, The more frightened he was, he saw that his hand had not healed before, but now that he rolled up his sleeves, he saw that there were scars everywhere on his arm. Su Qing was shocked, her hand stopped shaking, and said: "Master Hou , you are..."

Jing An glanced at it, and said calmly, "It's nothing... Those gangsters are very vicious, but no matter how fierce they are, can they beat Ben Hou? Don't worry, the wounds on Ben Hou's body are not for nothing. There is a wound , must have killed dozens or hundreds of people, ha, it’s worth it.”

Su Qing stepped back, leaned against the door, raised her head, and closed her eyes.

After an unknown amount of time, Su Qing heard Jing An say: "In the past, I'm sorry, but if it wasn't for me, maybe at this moment, she would be well-behaved and be with you... together."

When Su Qing opened his eyes again, the man was nowhere to be seen.

After Jing An returned to the capital, he stayed for only two days before returning to the northwest. It seemed that the beautiful and prosperous place in the capital was not as good as the loess land in the northwest where the wind roared in the sky.

During Jing An's two days in Beijing, he went to Baiyi Nunnery once, and other times, he only went to meet the former heavy smoke girl. After Jing An left Beijing, someone came to congratulate Chong Yan. The heavy smoke girl just laughed, but didn't speak. , A few close friends asked each other in private, and the heavy smoke girl revealed the truth, saying: "I don't know why, when the young master came here in the past, I didn't do anything else, just asked the slave to change into plain clothes, quietly Sitting sideways on the ground, let the slave sleep by himself when he is sleepy, and he does not lean forward, watching it all night, I don’t know why..."

Only the old red card girl Wen Ru, who married a wealthy businessman in Beijing as a concubine more than a year ago, came to the building, looked at the heavy smoke, looked at her side eyebrows, smiled, and said: "So, he actually There is also today..."

Three months later, news came from the Northwest Army that Polu General Xie Jing'an had fallen into the enemy's trap and fought alone.

(End of this chapter)