There is a girl named Xia Tong

Chapter 76

I have heard before that Ouyang often wrote letters and sent parcels to Xia Tong, but today I really saw the accumulation of emotions for so many years. After experiencing the changes of the seasons and the passage of time, the fragrance gets better with time.

Duan Ze said that she looks like this every day.

I walked over, sat opposite Xia Tong, and said softly: Tong Tong, I'm here to accompany you!
This is the second time I've called her that, really.However, she didn't hear it.

Duan Ze said: It's useless.She could no longer hear or speak.

I looked at Xia Tong in surprise, she was looking at the letter in her hand with a smile like a child.

Duan Ze said: She understands lip language, but most of the time, she can't see us.

Xia Tong said: Brother Ouyang, look, this leaf is as big as my hand.

Xia Tong said: Zichen, do you want to eat my ice cream cake?

Xia Tong said: Xu Fan, don't sleep, get up and play cards with us!

Xia Tong said: Xiao Mu, I want to wear that blue dress of yours!
Duan Ze said: She only lives in her own world and cannot get out.

Although later, Duan Ze and I stayed with her all the time.But she didn't seem to feel it, but because of this, Duan Ze and I felt lucky, which might be good for her.Living in his own world, he didn't think about Ouyang Hao's death, Lu Zichen's imprisonment, Xu Fan's car accident, or Liang Xiaomu's betrayal.

However, that day, the day when she was pushed into the operating room, tears suddenly burst out of her eyes. She looked at the sky, feeling grievance, reluctance, nostalgia, pain... Crystal tears filled her eye sockets.She said something quietly.

I haven't learned lip language, but, miraculously, I understand it.

I heard her words.

She said: I really want to see Brother Ouyang again...

Tears welled up in my eyes.

It turned out that she had been sober all along.No insanity, no hallucinations.Everything is because she is lying to herself, acting in her own one-act play.Is it to give yourself the courage to live?That's why he paralyzed himself by sprinkling salt on the wound?
Facing the cold air, but still smiling to make up beautiful memories, what kind of pain will be like a knife in my heart?
These days, are her clear and gentle eyes and happy and sweet smile fake?So hidden behind it is a scarred and bloody heart?
And I can't help but think, if at least one of her friends is by her side, Lu Zichen, Xu Fan or Liang Xiaomu, will she be able to come out, will she be able to survive?
Later I decided to take two babies, Ouyang Xulu and Ouyang Xia, to Rome, where Ouyang's parents lived.I asked Duan Ze what his plans were.He said that he would stay in this bookstore forever.

Duan Ze is really a good person, he cherishes Xia Tong so much.It's just that Xia Tong at that time was completely living in his own world and couldn't feel it anymore.

I don't know why, but Xia Tong always likes to look at the bookshelf next to the floor-to-ceiling window and smile warmly.Later, Duan Ze said that it was because every time Ouyang Hao came to the bookstore, he would stand there to read books.

I've never been to see it.Until the day I was about to leave, Duan Ze went to answer the phone, and I stood in front of the cashier waiting for him, and accidentally saw that location.For some reason, he walked over unconsciously.

There are several picture albums there, the bottom one looks a little older.Suddenly there was a strange feeling in my heart.I quickly pulled it out,
"Sunshine in the Sycamore Tree"

I casually flipped through a few pages, and a light green note flew down.

I squatted down slowly and picked it up.

The morning sun was warm, and on the note, Ouyang Hao's handwriting was still clear:
Tongtong, brother Ouyang is always by your side!

When did I start liking her?

From her snatching the game disk from me, from her asking me Xu Fan why don't you smile, from her asking me Xu Fan if you eat cake, from her jumping around on my bed and calling the slob to get up,... from A long time ago, since the first time I saw her?

She is so ordinary, yet so special.How should I describe her?Zi Chen's words are most accurate:

Kind but not weak, simple but not simple, self-willed but not savage, natural but not clichéd, cute but not artificial.

She was used to Hao's love, thinking that it was brother and sister love.

I knew early on that she was just a momentary crush on me, not love.Because she doesn't understand love, she doesn't know that the brother-sister relationship she thought was love.

But, I just can't bear to let her go, how can I be willing?

Her sweet smile, her soft little hands, her slightly trembling eyelashes when kissing her, when she is happy, she throws herself into my arms and rolls around like a small animal...

Is this how she gets along with Hao at home?Hao can have it, why can't I?
I can only sink deeper and deeper.

It was clear early in the morning that she had called Hao Ouyang brother thousands of times, but she had never called him brother.Because, in fact, in her heart, she didn't treat him as an older brother.

That day in the hospital, she asked me: Do you think Ouyang Hao and I are siblings?

At that time, I knew that she had left me.

But I don't want to let go, I want her to be happy, but I can't let go of her hand.

So, I said "yes".

At that moment, something disappeared from her.

The word "brother and sister" is more powerful than all others.

Ouyang Hao, you bastard!
Such an important thing was hidden from me, and she didn't tell me.At this moment, are you still thinking about me, Tongtong?

Hao, how can I compare to your love for Tongtong?How can I bear your brotherly love for me?

Hao, was destroyed.Seeing him as drunk as mud all day long, my heart aches unceasingly.

I would give anything to get you back to the way you were before.

Hao, you brother, I can't give up!

When Shen Man said that, I knew that person was actually Xiao Mu.

sky!It turned out to be her, she would do such a thing.

Tongtong, you cherish Xiao Mu so much, you were so lonely, you had no friends, Xiao Mu is your only sister, how can I let you know that it is this sister who hurt you the most?

So, I answer yes.

And what I didn't expect was, Tongtong, you didn't believe my "yes", because you believed me.

Tongtong, do you know that with your trust, everything I do is worthwhile.

You are such a kind person, you think Xiao Mu hates and hurts herself because of her love for Hao.You think that you have taken everything that should belong to Xiao Mu, so you have to return it to Xiao Mu.

Just like what you asked me: If there is no me, you will only treat Xiao Mu well, right?

Just like you said to yourself when you left, Xiao Mu, I will return everything to you.

Tongtong, on the train, I asked you why you followed me.You said to me: Xu Fan, I know that you admitted those things to protect me.How can I let you wander around alone?

Tongtong!How can I not love you?
In the past two years of traveling north and south, I have lived peacefully and contentedly.

I know that when Tongtong was leaving with me, Zichen and Hao didn't stop her, he just said, take good care of her.At that moment, I knew they believed me, they understood me, and they understood why I left.

Sometimes I can't help sighing that it is a lifetime of happiness to have good brothers like them.

I gradually got used to burying that feeling in my heart, and calmly treated Tongtong like a younger sister.Tongtong follows me every day, being my assistant, watching her carry a travel bag and follow me up mountains and wading, it is inevitable that I feel a little distressed in my heart.But she is always cheerful and happy.Moreover, she can always find the beauty around her, she said: Xu Fan, Xu Fan, look there, Xu Fan, Xu Fan, that...

It's just that, occasionally, she would suddenly look at the sky in the direction of the city in a daze or be lost in thought for a moment.

I know, she misses Hao.

Everywhere she went, she sent a letter to Hao, but she didn't write anything.

I keep in touch with them by email from time to time to see how they are doing.But Tongtong and I never talk about these things.Because Tongtong always changed the subject at the beginning, and then I stopped mentioning it on my own initiative.

However, Tongtong was in a daze for longer and longer.

I said: Tongtong, you go back!

Tongtong just lowered his eyes and said in a low voice: Brother Ouyang is doing well!Why should I bother him?
I froze for a moment and said: Hao, he is not doing well, not at all.

Tongtong raised her eyes and stared at me blankly.

I touched her face and said: Go back! ... I'll be back soon too.

I know we are inseparable.So, when Hao celebrates his birthday, go back and give him a surprise!I have known them for 25 years!
I don't know why this time when I came to a small town less than an hour's drive away from my home, I had a strange feeling in my heart, as if I had lost something.

When he received a call from Zichen in the evening, Zichen actually cried. He said, Fan, come back quickly and see Hao!

I realized that something big happened, but what happened, I didn't have time to ask more, I just knew that I had to go back as soon as possible.

Ouyang Hao, he once told me that if we change the test papers, your father will not beat you. He once knocked on my door early in the morning and said that if I bought the latest game disk for you, he once told me in the middle of the night He dragged Zichen to my house together and said that if your parents are not at home, we will accompany you. In case we meet bad guys, we will fight together. He once told me that we will always be good buddies. He once said to me that when we grow up, we will be three We race cars and play games together every day. He once told me that when we get old, we will move to the same yard to play chess, raise birds and play Tai Chi...

(End of this chapter)