Qing Benqingchen

Chapter 50
Huo Jingchen's car parked outside the villa for half an hour. He silently smoked a few cigarettes before getting out of the car and entering.

It is dusk, late spring in March, when the grass grows and the warblers fly. The environment here is very quiet, and there are all kinds of flowers and plants in the villa, but because no one is interested in admiring them, it adds a bit of loneliness .

Yu Nuanxin didn't eat much dinner, and her stomach felt a little uncomfortable. After the doctor came, she was told to rest, so she went back to the room early to lie down.

The sound of Huo Jingchen's footsteps going upstairs disturbed her. She thought it was the servants who didn't pay attention to her, so she grabbed the cup beside the bed and threw it out. It shattered with a clang: "It's so noisy, be quiet!"

The footsteps didn't stop, but got closer and closer. Yu Nuan sat up excitedly, furious: "You didn't hear me, did you? Everyone doesn't pay attention to me on weekdays..."

The door was pushed open suddenly, Huo Jingchen frowned slightly and looked at her angry face, and then looked at the mess on the ground, his eyes were slightly displeased.

"Jingchen?" Yu Nuanxin was surprised and delighted, jumped out of the bed with bare feet, and threw himself into his arms. Huo Jingchen looked at the shards of glass on the ground, afraid that she would step on them, so he had to step forward to stop her: "You're pregnant, be careful."

"If you're not pregnant, you don't care about me, do you?"

Yu Nuanxin hugged his waist tightly, and turned to look at him up and down: "Jingchen, are you okay? I was scared to death when I saw the news on TV. I wanted to see you, but they wouldn't let you I'll go, I can't eat or sleep well these days, I'm worried about you, Jingchen..."

Her words are indeed true, and her love for him has never been adulterated.

Huo Jingchen felt a little uncomfortable hearing this, but still gently pulled her away: "Nuan Xin, I came today because I want to talk to you."

Since he decided to start over with Qingqing, he had to make things clear between him and Nuanxin.

The blood on Yu Nuanxin's face faded little by little, her fingers holding his sleeve turned white, and the emotion on her face was also desolate and helpless.

Is it finally time for a showdown?
After all, he was still seduced by that vixen Shen Qingqing, after all he changed his mind and let her down!

There were big tears brewing in her wide-open eyes, she kept shaking her head, and retreated step by step until she reached the edge of the bed, where she fell onto the bed.

"I'm not feeling well, Jingchen, my stomach is hurting today, if you have anything to say, can you talk about it at another time..."

Standing there, he still smelled the familiar smell of tobacco, as if he had passed through the garden just now, and he was still fresh with the dew stained with the fragrance of flowers at night. Is the man in his palm going to give up on her after all?

"Heartwarming." He sighed lowly, approaching her, and his tall figure enveloped her. She was terrified in her heart. Everything she had longed for for many years was almost at her fingertips, but at this moment, she was about to be sentenced to death by him.

She didn't want to hear it, and she didn't want him to say it, as if if he didn't say it, it could be assumed that nothing would happen, and she could still lie to herself.

"I don't want to listen, Jingchen, don't say anything, I don't want to hear anything..."

"No, you have to listen to me." Huo Jingchen knelt down and firmly held her palms that blocked her ears.

She looked at him with wide teary eyes in panic: "Jingchen, are you going to give up me and the child?"

"Warm heart, child... I won't leave it alone."

His palm was extremely warm, but she was shivering from the cold. Her only hope came from his deep guilt and pity for her, but now, even these can't keep him?

"Then what about me... You're ready to lose me, you're in love with Shen Qingqing, aren't you?"

She trembled in despair, her eyes slowly fell on her wrist, and she whispered silently: "Jingchen... I am not as beautiful as her, nor as capable as her. She can pick up a brush to paint beautiful clothes, but my hand , but I can't even write simple words, so...you despise me, don't you?"

Huo Jingchen felt powerless, "We've known each other for so many years, you should know what kind of person I am, and I will compensate you for all the grievances you have suffered, but..."

He slowly lowered his eyes, the eyes were painful, but more firm. They fell on the ring on her finger. When everyone was in love, they never thought about breaking up or giving up. Same.

It's just that this devastated relationship has already become a cancer in my heart, and I have to remove it.

Call him cruel or selfish, but after five years, he finally decided to live according to his heart.

"I'm sorry Nuanxin, I think, I can't marry you."

His voice was so soft, as if it was love.It was like a human whisper, but the words that came out were so cruel, so cruel that she couldn't even shed tears.

She sat there in a daze, like a stone statue, her eyes were empty and dazed.

The sky had completely darkened, and the dense twilight was like a beast's mouth wide open, swallowing her cruelly bit by bit.

She saw the last ray of light disappearing from behind him, and then the last ray of light before the night fell suddenly disappeared. The whole room was dark, thick and spreading black, like her mood at the moment.

In the distance, she heard half a whispered conversation somewhere, and the rich fragrance of flowers coming in through the open window blended with the familiar breath on his body.

His palm was still warm and thick, making people feel at ease, but at this moment, she felt that the warmth was irony.

The first time she saw him at the age of 17, that handsome but gloomy boy broke into her heart and she couldn't let go.

She is such a proud girl, many boys held her in their palms, but she didn't want to take a second look, but he was always alone, who made her heart flutter.

She gave up her reserve and pride, and secretly followed in his footsteps.

She collected all his rumors and hobbies, silently read his favorite books, watched his favorite movies, and shed tears because he liked other girls.

After getting acquainted with each other gradually, she can always find the topics he likes to talk with him enthusiastically, and his eyes on her gradually become brighter and brighter.

She was delighted in her heart, but pretended not to know anything. When other students made noises, she didn't explain much, and only said that he was just a friend when he was sullen.

His rumored girlfriend gradually couldn't stand it, and quarreled with him several times, and after each quarrel, she apologized in person with red eyes, and her apology, in exchange for more intense quarrels between the two of them.

In the end, the girl who could have been his real girlfriend took a break from school to study abroad, and then she became his girlfriend as a matter of course.

Everything about her revolves around him, he likes football, politics.She was terribly bored with politics and economy, but she patiently forced herself to understand. Gradually, he liked staying with her more and more, and finally made him fall in love with her and give up his heart.

During those four years of love, she was an incomparably happy girl in the eyes of outsiders, but only she knew how much she envied those ordinary girls.

They can act like a baby, they can drag their boyfriends to go shopping, eat food stalls and watch love movies together in their spare time, but she has given up all her free time and all her hobbies. He sacrificed.

Until five years ago, the only favorite she kept—painting, could no longer continue. She was still losing all the important things in her life because of him little by little.

She stayed with him for four years, and gave him the most beautiful time. She waited for him for five years, waiting for a woman's flowering period to almost wither, but he said, sorry, I can't marry you. .

She couldn't cry, she suddenly wanted to laugh, and she really laughed, she leaned back and forth when she laughed, tears splashed, she gradually started to cry when she laughed, she looked at him, but his face was so strange , so unclear, it turned out that she did not understand him from the beginning to the end.

She thought that she could catch him forever by giving everything and turning the world's center of gravity around him, but now it seemed that all her sacrifices were just jokes, and he didn't care at all.

He looked at her, and there was pity and pity in his eyes, but he no longer had the burning passion of his youth: "Nuan Xin, don't be like this."

If not, then what?Let her calmly and rationally agree to break up with him, and congratulate him and Shen Qingqing for finally getting married?
She can't.

For nearly ten years, he has long been an inseparable part of her. He is her life-saving straw, her everything, and her only way out. If she lets go of his hand, she will only die.

"Almost ten years, Jing Chen."

She took her hand out of his palm and looked at his calm face with red and swollen eyes.

In ten years, she has changed from a young, beautiful, proud and reserved girl to a woman full of resentment and frown, but he is more calm and restrained than the handsome and childish when he was young. unfair.

A man who is almost 30 years old is still a treasure that people are looking for, but a woman who is almost 30 years old can't match the freshness of a young girl.

"I have loved you for ten years and waited for you for ten years, just because you can't marry me now?"

Her voice was choked and hoarse at the end, she looked down at him, his eyes were slightly lowered, his long eyelashes blocked all his emotions, so far away.

"Is it because of Shen Qingqing? She is younger and prettier than me, so you were seduced by her? "

"But Jingchen, have you forgotten that only I know you best, and only I can accompany you to do whatever you like without any trouble!"

(End of this chapter)