The flowers are still sweet in Pinellia

Chapter 46

Slowly opening his eyes, what he felt was a void of darkness, the hollow and terrifying black tightly wrapped around him, and he wanted to break free, but there was nothing he could do.

There were faint crying sounds all around, and it continued.

Suddenly there was a loud shout, 'Cry again, cry again, cry again and you will be killed. '

He knew what situation he had encountered.

He was kidnapped.The plots that only appear in film and television dramas have actually happened to him.

He couldn't remember why he was kidnapped, he only knew that his life could be taken away at any time.

Like a bug, he can die with just a pinch.

For an unknown number of hours, he has been trapped in this darkness, silently as if he was the only one.

Consciousness was gradually blurring, and suddenly, a bright white light shone on his eyes.

Like a dying patient, he suddenly felt the light of life.

He felt that someone was holding him and running outside.

The surroundings were in chaos, with cries, screams, and even gunshots.

Suddenly, a gunshot sounded in his ear.

thump...

Someone fell to the ground, crushing heavily on his thin body.He opened his eyes, but suddenly saw red blood on his hands.

Blood, real blood, was not his.

The red blood belonged to the young man in front of him.

The man smiled at him, then closed his eyes.

Subconsciously told him that this man saved him.

He was saved, but the man died.

Suddenly, another gunshot rang out.

Suddenly, the eyes fell into darkness again, in a never-ending darkness.

He hates black, but at this moment, he has a feeling in his heart that black is the most beautiful color in the world.

Because, he started to hate red.

Slowly opening his eyes, what greeted his eyes was his mother and father, as well as the red and swollen eyes of his grandparents, uncles and aunts from crying.

He lay down for many, many days before he gradually came to his senses.

His mother told him that it was a police uncle who saved him.

He no longer remembers the scene at that time, he only remembers the blood on his hands, sticky blood, real blood.

His mother took him to the policeman's house, and he saw a beautiful aunt and a cute little girl.

A cute little girl with big beautiful eyes, flickering, just like the Barbie doll in the window.

She sweetly called him 'little brother'.

Little did she know, her father died trying to save him.

Looking at the crowds coming and going, and entering and leaving her home, she opened her big ignorant eyes and innocently asked her mother, 'What is death'.

Her mother hugged her and said to her with tears, 'Papa is gone when he dies, and he will never come back again'.

Although she didn't know what death meant, she knew she would never see her father again, so she burst into tears.

Everyone at the scene shed tears of sympathy.

At a young age, he lost his father.

What should she do?

His heart also hurt like a knife.

So he cried too, crying bitterly.

Since then, the red thread of fate has closely linked them together.

That year, he was 7 years old.She is 6 years old.

The two families established a special relationship because of this incident.

Since then, he has had a younger sister.And she also has an older brother.

Every year, he would go back to see her and bring her many fun toys and delicious candies. When he saw her smile, he also smiled happily.

He thought his doll could always be happy like this.

However, God deprived him of this right.

Originally, when he wanted to give the handicrafts he made in school to the little sister named Mu Yan, she looked at him with hatred and said, "You took my father away, and I will never give up my father." I don't want to see you anymore. '

At that moment, he suddenly heard his own heartbroken voice.

It was broken into pieces abruptly.

It turned out that the feeling of heartache is like this.

She never wanted to see him again.

Since then, the two have no positive connection.

That year, he was 10 years old and she was 9 years old.

Sometimes in his dreams, he would dream of that scene.A scene that I want to forget but can't.

'You took my daddy and I never want to see you again. '

Every time he dreams of this, he will wake up from the dream, and after that, he has no sleep all night.

The passing time washed away each other's innocence, and he gradually grew into the handsome young man described in the poem.

He could feel the gazes of the girls around him, whether they were shy or direct, they were like staring at the moon.

Time has made him gradually forget her and the feeling at that time.

Until one day he received a letter.

Staring at the name on the envelope, he realized that he had never forgotten her.

He opened the letter in a daze, and she wrote him a full sheet of paper in immature handwriting.

I'm sorry... she said.

There was still a fragrance left on the light-colored letter paper, gently touching his heart.

What will the cute doll look like?

He smiled and secretly pictured her in his heart.

Picking up the pen, he wrote back to her, and she wrote and replied to him one after another.

From then on, they began to communicate by letter, and re-established the contact that had been separated for several years.

That year, he was 15 years old and she was 14 years old.

In the bottom of his heart, he pictured her appearance, but he still couldn't resist the shock he had when he actually saw her.

With his mother's permission, he returned to that special city by car for the first time.

He hid quietly in the room next to her mother's office, and through the window, he sneaked a look at her.

However, just this one glance made him dazed.

It turned out that she turned out to be so beautiful.Although her figure has not grown yet, he can already imagine how beautiful her future will be.

Suddenly, his heart skipped a beat.He knew that he fell in love with her.

There is no reason for love, it always comes when it should come.

As described in the poem, suddenly looking back, the man was in a dimly lit place.

In that second, love can take root.

The young man who had just begun to fall in love planted a seed called love to the girl with whom he had a special relationship. He only hoped that one day, this seed would germinate and grow, and bear sweet fruits.

That year, he was 16 years old and she was 15 years old.

However, this wish of his was finally killed in the cradle.

Because, his princess belongs to someone else.

Holding the letter in his hand, he didn't recover for a long time.

Originally, he thought that he could see her tell some interesting things after transferring to another school, but the content of the letter made him lose his mind.

A classmate asked him, You Zimo, what's wrong with you, why is your face so pale.

He just shook his head and said nothing.

He wouldn't say that he was broken in love, and that the girl he liked fell in love with someone else.

She said that she fell in love with a boy named Lin Xia.

For a year, all she asked him were questions about boys' psychology.

She asked him, does Lin Xia like her?

Intuition told him that the boy liked her.

However, he did not write it.Selfishness kept him silent on the subject.

In the end, she wrote to tell him that the boy liked her, and liked her deeply.

So, they are together.

Because she likes him too.

She said she had never liked someone so much.

He went home with her, he organized her notes, he sent her home when she was sick, tutored her in math, visited her at her house, protected her when she was criticized, and went with her The seaside gave her an unforgettable birthday.

With him, she is very happy.She liked him, deeply liked him.

He knew that because of the family relationship, she would not fall in love with someone easily, but she still fell in love with that boy hopelessly, fell in love with that boy named Lin Xia.

At the same age as Hua, regardless of everything, without hesitation, he burned his life like a moth to a flame.

Lin Xia.

Since then, he has remembered the name in his heart.

That year, he was 18 years old and she was 17 years old.

He returned to that city again, hiding in her mother's office, gazing at her quietly.

She really grew up as beautifully as he had imagined, as radiant as a delicate flower ready to drip.

It's just that beside her, there is already a boy named Lin Xia.

Looking at her smiling figure, a bitterness suddenly arose in his heart.

Pain filled his chest, and he had nowhere to go.

He could not be by her side, and could only communicate with her through letters.

Although he couldn't see her often and feel her growth, it was enough for him.

At least, she doesn't hate him anymore.

This is enough for him.

He didn't dare to ask for too much.

It's just that when she wrote that letter, it made him feel dazed again.

She said that Lin Xia's academic performance had dropped sharply, and teachers and parents forced them to separate.But she likes him and doesn't want to be separated from him.

She asked him, what should she do?
He wrote a letter, he said, it is better for you to separate.

He knows his thoughts are mean, but they are indeed his true thoughts.

Only when they broke up, maybe he would have a chance to enter her heart.

The flames of jealousy burned his heart.

But in the end, he didn't do it.

After two days of ideological struggle, he still chose to knead the already written letter into a ball, and threw it into the trash can resentfully.

Unfolding the letter paper, he only wrote one sentence, Mu Yan, respect your own heart.

He doesn't want her to be unhappy.

But, unexpectedly, they broke up in the end.

She was the one who dumped him, and had no choice but to dump the boy she still loved deeply.

She cheated on the boy because she still loves him.

She was sad and sad, and he was also sad and lost.

He wanted to be by her side to comfort her, but he didn't have the qualifications.

After they parted, she never wrote to him again.

He knew that her heart was broken.

So, he once again lost contact with her.

That year, he was 19 years old and she was 18 years old.

Fate is always so unbelievable. When he thought they would never meet again in this life, his mother's words rekindled the flame in his heart that was about to be extinguished.

His mother told him that Mu Yan did very well in the exam, and she also applied to your school, S University.

After hearing the news, for two full months, he was immersed in an indescribable joy.

Because he, finally, can meet her again.

That day, he arrived at the station early.

In the bustling crowd, he recognized her at a glance.

She sweetly called him 'Brother Zimo'.

At that moment, his heart melted, completely melted.

It turned out that all the longing could not be worth this second meeting.

He never thought that she would say that to him.

She said, 'Sorry. '

She apologized to him for the mistakes she made when she was young.

She said, 'Can we get to know each other again? '

'Mu Yan, 19 years old, Department of Japanese, School of Foreign Languages, from City A. '

In fact, he never resented her.

Never.

At her request, he took her to the school next door.

He only understood when he saw a name on the freshman column.

It turned out that she applied to this school for him.

Lin Xia, what kind of boy is he?

He wondered in his heart, although he also conducted some investigations, but there was still no gain.After all, different schools, different grades, different majors, it is still very difficult to inquire about a person.

That year, he was 20 years old and she was 19 years old.

He did everything possible to be by her side.

Staring at that beautiful face, he secretly told himself in his heart that he should not expect anything extravagantly, as long as she is by his side is enough.

Because, there is only that person in her heart.

Lin Xia...

Her birthday was in summer, and he prepared a present for her.

It's just that he didn't expect that the gift he gave had such a meaning.

Her tears blurred his eyes, but hurt his heart.

That night, he told her his feelings, the feelings he had always hidden from her deeply.

At that moment, she looked at him like a stranger, and that kind of look hurt his heart.

Only that night, their relationship changed drastically.

He knew that maybe, because of his words, he would lose the chance to see her again.

However, he does not regret it.

At least, he has made her understand that there was a person who liked her behind her back for so many years.

From then on, he stood under the sunlight and placed his love for her in the light, instead of hiding behind her and liking her silently.

That year, he was 21 years old and she was 20 years old.

The people in the dormitory asked him, Boss, are you broken in love.

He didn't know how to answer, he had been waiting for her, maybe her answer was to refuse, because she couldn't forget the boy in her heart.

But a month later, she called him.

Holding the microphone, none of them spoke.

Suddenly, a sound of 'Zimo' came into his ears.

'Zimo', just that sound made him stunned for a long time.

Tears slipped down her cheeks unconsciously.

From then on, he stayed by her side, taking care of her and loving her as much as he could.

He told himself in his heart that he would be very good to her.

He knew that she chose him, perhaps because she was moved.

Because she is a kind girl.

Later, she smiled more and more often.

He was wondering if she was falling in love with him?

His family asked him to study abroad, but he wanted to refuse because he didn't want to leave her.

However, she said, 'Zimo, this is for your future, don't hold you back because of me. '

She said that if she didn't go to study abroad with him, then she would wait for him where she was.

So, he agreed.

She said she would wait for him, had been waiting for him.

However, the answer is unknown, and no one can predict what will happen in the next second.

Because of Lin Xia, he finally came to her.

It turned out that Lin Xia had never forgotten her, and had been waiting for her.

He knew that if he was with Lin Xia, he had no chance of winning.

However, she did not expect that she chose him in the end.

She said, 'Zimo, I will wait for you, I will always be here waiting for you. '

Suddenly, his heart was no longer joyful, but more heavy.

He found the boy named Lin Xia and asked him to take good care of her.

Even if he didn't say it, he knew that Lin Xia would treat her well.

Because, he can understand Lin Xia's mood.

A mood about waiting and watching.

He asks his roommate to return the letter she wrote him.Now that he has chosen to let go completely, he will no longer have any items that can miss her.

However, he kept a photo with her, and he put it in his wallet for no reason.

Just one photo can make him miss her again.

The plane flew across the sky.

He left without a date of return. He left the land where he was born and raised, his family, and her.

Sitting on the plane, thinking about the past with her all these years, suddenly, a tear fell from the corner of his eye.

He knew that in this life, he and her would have no chance to renew their relationship.

If there is an afterlife, he hopes to be the first to meet her.

Stand by her side, accompany her to read all the flowers and fall, and enjoy the long flow of water together.

That year, he was 23 years old and she was 22 years old.

He came to Bern, Switzerland.

Alone, came to this strange country.Without her company, I live and study alone.

Study room, library, coffee shop, riverside, church, he has been everywhere.

His heart is cold and without warmth.

Even if the sun in Bern is warmer, it can't melt the ice in his heart.

One day, he met a girl, a very lively girl.

The girl said, 'My name is Su Jinyan, I come from the capital of the motherland, and I have an older brother named Su Jinnian. '

She asked him, are you an international student too?
He nodded and said 'yes'.

The girl is very excited. In a foreign country, it is very lucky to meet a compatriot with yellow skin and black hair.

If they get acquainted to a certain extent, maybe the two will make a lifelong relationship.

Many people did this, at least his sister-in-law and uncle did it this way.

However, he didn't have such an idea, because there was only that one person in his heart.

Only that girl who would sweetly call him Brother Zimo.

Su Jinyan often came to him and exchanged various interesting topics with him.She was born in a family of diplomats, so she knows all the places of interest in various countries.

Su Jinyan is a very cheerful girl.From her, he felt the sunshine, a warm feeling.

He never told others about her and his story.However, for Su Jinyan, he made an exception.

Perhaps, in a foreign country, it is very rare to find someone who is like a confidant.

He told Su Jinyan the story of himself and her, and every time he fell in love, he fell into deep thought unconsciously.

The pain in his eyes made Su Jinyan couldn't help asking, "Are you still in love with her?" '

Are you still in love with her?
He didn't answer, but told himself secretly in his heart.

Yes, he still loves her.

Because his heart was still in pain.

However, he couldn't be by her side anymore.

Because, he chose to let go.

He is no longer eligible.

Time passed before he knew it, and he had been in Switzerland for several years.

He returned to China several times on the way, but he never saw her.

From his mother, he knew that after graduation, she returned to the city where she was born and raised.

Of course, so did the boy.

They are still together.

He should bless them and pray for them from the bottom of his heart.

but……

When he learned the news of their marriage, he realized that the sky had fallen.

On that day, Bern happened to have an unprecedented heavy rain.

He walked into the rain and let the wind and rain blow like a statue, just to wash away those indelible memories.

How good would it be to forget her?
Forget those joys, forget those pains, forget those little things.

Love her, so he chose to let go.

Because, she will always love that boy in her heart, that sunny boy who only belongs to her.

Lin Xia is her happiness.

Tears, mixed with rain, fell drop by drop from the eye sockets.

He never knew that boys can also have so many tears.

Bitter and painful tears moistened the eye sockets, but all flowed back into his heart, clogging the blood vessels in his whole body.

The pain was so bad he couldn't breathe.

He knew that he was finally going to give up.

Although she once belonged to him.

However, he still had to give up.

Because, he could never give her happiness.

He didn't know how long he had been in the rain until someone rushed up and hugged him.

Through his blurry eyes, he looked at the extra hands on his waist, a pair of slender, white and tender girls' hands, through the rain curtain all over the sky.

It wasn't her, reason told him, this was not the person he was thinking of.

She said, don't go on like this, okay.

It's Su Jinyan.

She said, don't go on like this, give me a chance to stay by your side, okay?

He didn't know that this was the first time he had heard a girl's confession.

Many girls expressed their feelings to him before, but he apologized to them all.

Because, in his heart, there is only that girl who will call him Brother Zimo.

However, this time, he made an exception.He didn't respond to her, nor did he push her arms around her.

She accompanied him through the rain quietly.

Once in the rain, he had a fever again.

He dreamed that she was embracing him, and said softly, 'Zimo, don't worry me, okay. '

She's still worried about him, isn't she?

Slowly opening his eyes, what he saw was not the face of day and night thinking, but Su Jinyan with an anxious face.

Su Jinyan said, let me stay by your side, okay, I don't want to see you like this.

You have done so much for her, is there a girl who does this for you?
He shook his head and said, no.

No one has ever treated him like this.

Because he never gave those girls a chance.

So no one will do this for him.

Suddenly, Su Jinyan's tears flowed down the corners of her eyes, she said, "Give me a chance, please, let me be by your side and take care of you, please?" '

He stared at her blankly, did not refuse, just said 'yes'.

Maybe, he should really let it go.

Relatives are more reliable than lovers.

So, they are together.

Because he knew a word.

If you can't help each other, it's better to forget each other in the rivers and lakes.

He, will go down with her, hand in hand through this life.

(End of this chapter)