The growth of a sweet wife

Chapter 115

Open my diary, how many nights of non-stop writing, the inspiration in my mind is so violent, I really worry that my hands are not fast enough.Now the thick book is full of my strokes and strokes, and it is full of my longing for Kexin and love for Chen Yun.

That's enough.I sent this day to the newspaper office, I hope my words can be turned into lead typefaces, and I also hope that Chen Yun can read it one day. I don’t want to get back together with you, I just want to share the happiness of missing you with you.

I rented a single room in a community near my home. On the top floor, I can see the scene in the yard with a telescope.My Kexin can walk alone now. The flowers in the yard are blooming brilliantly, and the butterflies are dancing. My Kexin is walking back and forth among the flowers with a big laugh. Could it be that she is playing hide-and-seek with grandma?
Chen Yun seldom goes home. I don't know if it's because he is too busy with business, or because of other things. He rarely doesn't go home like this?Could it be?Well, it’s okay, I broke his heart, how can I still imagine that he will always be the same to me?He must have owed me in his previous life, otherwise why would he have to work so hard in this life.

The bits and pieces between me and him flooded into my mind, vividly in my mind, as if it was yesterday.I remember when we first met, he was still a bit naughty and childish, but now I can't find half of it. He has matured and grown up, but I am still the same.

I used to think that love is being together every day, holding my hand, hugging me, letting me feel his body temperature, whether eating or sleeping, he is always by my side, this is the happiness I want, now I I think silently enjoying longing, enjoying loneliness and loneliness, watching him from a distance is no less than that kind of mutual affection.

That's perfect.

That night, I listened to Sanskrit singing all night, not for enlightenment, but just to find a trace of your breath.

In that month, I turned all the prayer wheels, not for extension, just to touch your fingerprints.

That year, I kowtowed and embraced the dust, not to go to the Buddha, but just to be close to your warmth.

In that life, I rummaged through hundreds of thousands of mountains, not to cultivate the next life, but to keep you safe and happy.

That day, that month, that year, that lifetime

At that moment, I raised the wind horse, not to beg for blessings, but to wait for your arrival;
On that day, I closed my eyes in the incense mist of the scripture hall, and suddenly heard your mantra of chanting scriptures;

In that month, I turned all the prayer wheels, not for atonement, but just to touch your fingertips;

That year, I bowed my head and crawled on the mountain road, not to see you, but to hug your warmth;

In that life, I turned mountains and rivers and pagodas, not for the purpose of cultivating the next life, but just to meet you on the way.

First, it is best not to meet each other, so that you don't fall in love.The second best is not knowing each other, so can not Acacia.

The third is best not to be with you, so you don't owe each other.Fourth, it is best not to cherish each other, so that you can not remember each other.

Fifth, it is best not to fall in love with each other, so as not to abandon each other.Sixth best not relative, so can not meet.

The seventh is best not to be wrong, so that you can not be negative.The eighth is best not to promise each other, so that there will be no continuity.

Ninth best not dependent, so can not Xiang Wei.Tenth best not to meet, so can not meet.

But we have met each other but know each other, how is it better to meet each other than not to see each other.Ande and the king are separated from each other, so as not to teach life and death to be lovesick.

What a poignant poem?
Let's not see each other in the next life. If we don't see each other, we must not know each other. If we don't know each other, how can we miss each other?
If there is no love?If there is no love?So what is the meaning of my existence?
Let's meet again!You can meet each other, you can not be in love, you can’t know, you can’t allow it, you can’t be with you, you can’t love, you can’t rely on it, you can’t miss it.

Don't meet each other, don't know each other, don't accompany each other, don't cherish each other, don't love each other, don't face each other, don't promise each other, don't depend on each other, don't meet each other.Must see, must think.

As long as I see you, as long as I know you, as long as I love you, as long as I miss you.

Watching your life like this is another kind of happiness for me.

(End of this chapter)