The growth of a sweet wife

Chapter 116

Song Zizhong is gone, this is not the first time he has made such a noise, I am used to it, I don’t mind his name being called “Xiaohe” in his dream, I also don’t mind, he keeps a picture of Xiaohe, I can bear him too Often a person smokes quietly, feeling that the former world is dead, and he is the only one left.But why can I bear him like this, but he can't let me go once?

Something happened to He Cheng. He is my ex-husband, his best friend?I'll take care of him, can't I?Yes, I didn't confess, I didn't tell him, He Cheng told me that he still loves me?How can I say this?I don't know why fate is so cruel to me. I wholeheartedly want to be a good wife and mother, a husband and a child, but why does God deprive me of the right to be a mother.

I was very scared when I was pregnant for the first time. I was just 20 years old and a sophomore in college. We didn’t know what to do, and He Cheng didn’t dare to tell his parents that the money for the abortion was borrowed by Jiali. I also want to stick to the principles like Xiaohe, either be careful or be responsible, but what can I do if I am pregnant?
I know abortion is bad, but what can I do?My parents are only petty bourgeois, living on a meager salary, and my college tuition is tight. How could I have a child to increase their burden before I started earning money? He Cheng’s parents slightly It is better than my family, but they are not much richer, not to mention they are all mature people, how can they accept their daughter-in-law's pregnancy out of wedlock?They were also very strict with He Cheng's family education, which also led to He Cheng's introverted personality. No matter how we think about it, it is impossible for us to give birth to a child.

After getting married, I was pregnant twice, but at the beginning of He Cheng's career, he didn't have any savings, not even a house, and lived with his parents-in-law. Our biggest wish is to have our own house and be able to live with Xiaohe and the others. Come over to your own simple two-person life.So we decided to save some money and buy a house first.It was removed for this reason.

I never thought that our considerations would cause me to lose my right to be a mother forever. If time could be turned back, if life could be restarted, then I would rather be a college student mother, or a single mother, and I would never have an abortion.

The doctor said that the number of abortions is one reason, and the lack of care after a small childbirth is also a reason.Although He Cheng loves me very much, he is full of ideas. What he wants from me is a virtuous housemate. He believes that the right way is for a man to lead the outside world and a woman to lead the inside. As his wife, I should save him from worries and replace him Washing and cooking, being filial to my parents-in-law, and because I was afraid of becoming a "three-turn" woman from now on, I insisted on dancing with the beauty Xiaohe. I must participate in the work. I also had a quarrel with He Cheng, but in the end he compromised. Of course, the condition is that I still need to do housework?

Although my father-in-law and mother-in-law love me, their thinking is exactly the same as that of He Cheng. My mother-in-law will also help with housework, but I am still the main one. So I get up in the morning to make breakfast, wash clothes after get off work, and clean up at home on the [-]th. It's too normal, I envy Jiali, she has a rich father, I envy Xiaohe, she has such a good man as Song Zizhong, she doesn't even want to let her wash the dishes, and they often envy me, because I have a Happy home.

Although my family is not rich, our family is still very happy. My parents love me very much. In their eyes, I am the cutest princess. Although my life is poor, my family is also very happy. Marrying He Cheng After that, they felt relieved, because He Cheng was good enough in terms of talent and family background, and he was enough for me, so I couldn't bear to complain about my dissatisfaction in front of my parents. He never neglected me, although he is not as emotional and romantic as Song Zizhong, but occasionally he said something that touched me.

My father-in-law and mother-in-law strongly demanded that we divorce, but He Cheng still firmly opposed it at first, what did you say?He would love me even without children, but he changed his mind within a few days, he said he lost, if he had to choose between his parents and his lover, he could only choose his parents?

Maybe he did nothing wrong.But I can't forgive him?Why can't you protect me until the last moment?I signed the divorce papers in a fit of anger, and I didn't dare to go home, so I could only stay in the bar and drink away my worries?

Song Zizhong, like me, can't have children?

When we found out that Song Zizhong had dead sperm, it was on the third day after Xiaohe was beaten, which is why we had to force her to have an abortion. Xiaohe has always been confused. Jiali said: "She has sex after drinking, absolutely Maybe..." Song Zizhong's love for her was as broad and long as the Yellow River and the Yangtze River, so if Song Zizhong beat her, one can imagine how much Song Zhizhong cared about her?At the same time, how sure of this fact.

Song Zizhong didn't want to face this fact, so he cried in front of the four of us: "Impossible, this must be a dream, just wake up from the dream..."

Jiali and I are with Xiaohe almost every day, and it is indeed impossible for her to have such a person around her.Except that the manager of Yun's Hotel had that intention for her, but Xiaohe didn't even open his eyes to look at him?

He Cheng and I usually pick her up in the morning. She is at home every day, and she never gets enough sleep. No matter how you think about it, it’s impossible?During the days when Song Zizhong was on a business trip, Jiali and I watched Xiaohe haggard. We didn't even want to eat, and all we thought about was Song Zizhong every day. How could Xiaohe do such a thing?
It is impossible for Song Zizhong to have a child. Even if the doctor is not authoritative enough, or a miracle happens, why hasn't this happened after all these years of their cohabitation?

When helping Xiaohe clean up the room, I accidentally found some coupons, 1 for every 300?What a huge number, and there is a coupon of 2400 in Xiaohe's drawer, which means that the meal return is more than 8. The combined salary of Song Zizhong and Xiaohe is only more than 2 a month. How can she eat it? 8 meals a meal, besides, Xiao He is not the kind of extravagant and wasteful person.

Jiali went to the restaurant to check, and there was indeed someone who ate a big meal worth 8 yuan that day, and she said that a woman looked very happy and threatened, "I'll have one of the signature dishes in the store..." This kind of Xiaohe is very good at doing stupid things, but it is not easy to do. We all think that Xiaohe is very similar to Xiaohe according to the description. I heard that Xiaohe left in the middle of the meal. The time just happened to be when Jiali was on the phone with her. , and said that she went back that night, and the time when she went back could match the time when we were separated from Xiaohe.

We took Xiaohe's prenatal examination report to the hospital to inquire. The doctor said that a man accompanied her here, and even made the hospital into a turmoil. When we first sent her in, we thought it was a major traffic accident?

a man?Who is this man?According to the description, the most distinctive feature is "handsome".

"Damn it, even we kept it a secret, okay, you've got a lot of skills..." Jiali was very angry, but I just found it incredible that Xiaohe loves Song Zizhong so much, how could she get along with other men?

Looking at Xiaohe's distraught look, and Song Zizhong's look that life would be better than death, the four of us discussed a countermeasure, which was to get rid of the unformed child, but Xiaohe always disapproved of abortion. If I have an accident with Jiali, she will be extremely despised by her.

Xiaohe is gone, she ran away on the operating table, looking at her running like crazy, I feel like Jiali and I are executioners, I think we may be wrong, we should believe her.

And Xiaohe's running away from home shocked each of us.Xiaohe is just like a child who can't grow up, loves to act like a baby, loves to be noisy, loves to be impulsive, I can't even imagine how she will live alone?We all thought she had gone back to her mother's place, because I felt ashamed, so I discussed with Jiali before going to her after her anger subsided?Unexpectedly, a week later, Song Zizhong told us that she never came home at all, she went to see her mother, and said that she was promoted and busy with work so she couldn't go back to see her often?

She just disappeared in a vacuum. No matter how hard we searched, we couldn’t find her. We searched everywhere, but her cell phone didn’t work, and we couldn’t reach her through QQ, MSN, or email.

Song Zizhong was going crazy and committed suicide by cutting his wrists at home. If Du Xiao hadn't visited him, he might have died in that house, so there were two more people in the bar drinking to relieve their worries.

Song Zizhong asked me to do things that he couldn't do. He could just degenerate himself, but he even advised me not to degenerate.I was kicked out by He Cheng's parents at that time, and I didn't dare to go back to their parents' house. Jiali asked me to live in her house, but she was pregnant, so I really didn't want to go, why?Her life is so good, she must have had more abortions than me, why can she still be pregnant.

I had nowhere to go, Song Zizhong took me home.

We started to live like friends, I was just staying at his house, he was waiting, waiting for Xiaohe to come back, but he wanted Xiaohe to come back, but he was afraid of Xiaohe coming back, he said that when he remembered that night he beat Xiaohe Wo, his heart hurts like being bitten by an ant.

The first time we had a relationship, he was drunk and mistook me for Xiaohe, and I had already given up all hope, and I was just degenerate.

We all seem to be falling, we can all understand each other's feelings, the same is abandoned by the person we love the most, the same is impossible to have children, and we can never be the mother or father of a child.We don't want to either, but that's fate.With the mentality of breaking the pot, we are better, even though we don't love each other.

Du Xiao had an affair, and Jiali had a miscarriage. At that moment, I realized that the world is fair, and so is God, because she is unfair to everyone.On the one hand, I am happy for God's bowl of water, but on the other hand, I am sad for Jiali.How could Du Xiao manage to push Jiali down the stairs?
The moment Xiaohe came back, I was happy for Song Zizhong for a second, but if they get back together, what should I do?He Cheng, he and I will never be able to, Jiali is divorced, she still has a lot of money, and I have nothing to use, Song Zizhong is the only hope I hold on to the cliff of despair.

So I told Xiaohe that Song Zizhong had azoospermia, and I cried and begged her to forgive me?I really have no choice?Since God is fair, Xiao He is the pain you should bear.Her belly hasn't bulged yet, but she can still feel his presence. She already enjoys the happiness that I will never have.

Song Zizhong didn't propose to me, but took a marriage certificate very plainly. A man cannot have children, and a woman cannot have children. What a coincidence?Together we are the best choice.

After marriage, we respect each other as guests, neither hot nor cold, most of the time we are busy with our own business, we are just afraid of being alone, we just want someone to accompany us.

I didn't think that I would really fall in love with Song Zizhong, but he made me unable to love.

When I go home, I never take the elevator, but I live on the tenth floor, but I climb the stairs every day. Sometimes I accompany him, and sometimes I take the elevator by myself, but as long as I am tired and unable to climb, he will carry me. He said this is how to exercise.

I was never allowed to do heavy work at home, especially when I was on my period. He would not let me touch the water. When I worked overtime, he would pick me up. When I was sick, he would always accompany me and serve me tea and water , I dare say no one has ever been so kind to me.

I think the reason why he treats me like this is just to make up for Xiaohe, but so what, I am very happy just like this.

Xiaohe called him twice, the first time she asked Song Zizhong to give me the phone, she said: "Qiqi, we are good friends..." I don't know why she said that, but Song Zizhong didn't call him for a long time had fun.

The second time, she called in the middle of the night and asked Du Xiao's phone number?This makes us very strange, but this time Song Zizhong has been suffering from insomnia.Our relationship became weaker and weaker. In the dream, he shouted: "Xiaohe, don't..." I really don't know what he dreamed in the dream?
Song Zizhong secretly called her once, and they haven't been in touch since then, but because of the lack of contact, Song Zizhong was even more worried about her. Before, he only smoked a few cigarettes for entertainment, but at that time He smokes all the time, doesn’t do anything after get off work, just sits on the balcony and smokes. I’m really afraid that he will smoke like this to death.I know there is only one reason for this, and that is Xiaohe.

I got his people, but I couldn't get his heart after all.

So I made a phone call with Xiaohe: "I beg you, don't contact Song Zizhong again..."

For this reason, I quarreled with Song Zizhong countless times, and he always yelled: "You don't want to take care of the matter between me and Xiaohe, and you are not allowed to take care of it..." He said it so absolutely, hum, I smirked, Xiaohe We are all married, what else will you do with her?And Xiaohe gave birth to that child, and that child was definitely not Song Zizhong's.

Song Zizhong ran away from home, which I didn't expect. Is he jealous of He Cheng?I don't think so?Maybe he was just angry that I shouldn't bring up Xiaohe's photo!I thought he should come back when his anger subsided, but I didn't expect him to go away for three months, I couldn't hold back anymore, I boldly wondered if he would go to BJ to find Xiaohe.

Xiaohe's mother went to the United States. As for the reason, Song Zizhong and I don't know the reason. We occasionally go back to visit her, and occasionally get some news about Xiaohe from her mouth. It is said that their husband and wife are very loving.

It was only when I stood in front of the house, which was a mixture of ancient and modern Chinese and foreign elements, that I realized how happy Xiaohe was and how rich her husband was. No wonder she would abandon such a good man as Song Zizhong.

"Who are you?" This is the first time I have met Xiaohe's husband, Chen Yun, who is even better than Song Zizhong in every aspect. Xiaohe, why are you always so happy.

"Xia Qi, Song Zizhong's wife, is also Xiaohe's good friend?" I said frankly, I long to see Xiaohe, because maybe only she can find Song Zizhong?

"Oh, Song Zizhong..." He paused for a moment, then said thoughtfully, "Is there anything you want from me?"

"Actually, I came to find Xiaohe..."

"Oh, she's not at home..." He replied very flatly, I thought Xiaohe had gone out to play.

"Then when will she come back, why don't you give me her phone number?"

"I don't know. The phone has been disabled long ago. Do you have anything to do with her?" He was still calm, but my heart was beating faster and faster, and I felt an ominous premonition.

"Where is she going?"

"I don't know, she went to relax..." He smiled, but I could feel a trace of desolation in his smile.

"Relaxing? When did she leave..."

"What's the matter?" He may have been shocked to see my expression, so he was also a little fluctuating.

"Song Zizhong ran away from home three months ago..." I was really afraid that they left together, so what should I do?

"Three months? Impossible?" He was taken aback, the date is also right! "Impossible, they won't be together..." After a while he regained his composure.

"Daddy... Daddy..." A little girl ran out from the inner hall, and flew over to protect his feet. She was wearing a pink princess dress, so tall that it almost reached his calves, "Daddy , Dad, I want Xiao He, I want Xiao He..."

"You are not allowed to call mother's name, do you hear..." He hugged her happily, and gently tapped the tip of her nose.Could this child be the child in Xiao He's belly?
"This is……"

"Kexin, Xiaohe and I's daughter? Dear Kexin, Auntie..." He said to the daughter in his arms.Xiaohe, how can you be so happy, looking at her cute and cute expression, my heart feels like it is broken, so well-behaved and smart, so beautiful, it really hurts my heart, I will never be able to...

"Hello, Auntie..." Her voice was still a little raw, but it sounded very warm.

"Don't worry, they won't. Be careful, I believe she will come back." Xiaohe, you have such a happy family, why did you run away from home.

Knowing that Song Zizhong went to XZ, I saw it from his space. He took a lot of landscape photos in Xizhang. After seeing these, my heart finally settled down. It turned out that he was on a trip.

I dropped everything just to find him.

I couldn't get in touch with him, so I could only make some calculations based on his pictures in the space. Later, he didn't send any pictures, so I could only go on foot and kept asking. I passed by some poor villages, here Seeing a doctor is a luxury.

"Oh, friend, are you looking for yourself too?" Once I was staying overnight at a peasant woman's house. She asked her. Her Chinese is not good and we still have some difficulties in communicating. She said that a man told him this, According to her piecemeal description, I believe that man is Song Zizhong.

I found Song Zizhong in the next village. He seems to be a celebrity here, and everyone knows it when he mentions it.

I was so happy that I didn't care about eating, drinking and resting, so I asked someone to take me to where they lived. They lived in a remote place, but the scenery was very good.

A small wooden house, a two-story attic, surrounded by mountains on three sides and facing water on one side.When I saw him, he was admiring a pot of flowers, and he said: "I didn't expect it to be supported..." He looked very good, even better than when he was at home, I think he should find Seeing him smiling all over his face, I was so happy from the bottom of my heart.

"Xiaohe, come and see..." He called into the room, and Xiaohe came out.They really are together, they really came out together.

"What are you looking at? I raised it, I've seen it a long time ago..." Xiaohe's tone seemed a little proud.

"You know how to grow flowers, it's just that a blind cat met a dead mouse..." The two of them looked at the pot of flowers together and said, they couldn't see me who was standing aside and petrified. "I'm going to get a small pot, share one with me, and I'll keep it too..." He got up and looked up and finally saw me...

"Qiqi..." He must be surprised how I appeared, right?

"Qiqi..." Xiaohe also called out, and I smiled.Xiaohe, how can you be so happy?There is still someone in the family who remembers and looks forward to your return, and you have such a lovely daughter?Are these not enough?Why are you so reluctant to give me the last alms... I didn't speak, I didn't cry, everything was meaningless.

"I'm sorry, Qiqi..." He caught up and said such a sentence.

"You belong to Xiaohe, I wish you all..." What else can I say?How can I compare with Xiaohe?I'm so stupid that I thought Song Zizhong would fall in love.

"I will give you everything I have, except me... I may never go back, I will stay by her side, if you meet someone good, marry her... If you don't , you sold the house, and there is still some money in your passbook, which is enough for the rest of your life..." He actually... did this?What am I in his heart?
I called Chen Yun.

"I found Song Zizhong, he is with Xiaohe..."

"Impossible, Xiaohe didn't go out of BJ at all..." An angry and excited voice came from the other end of the phone, "I have checked every line that leaves BJ by plane, train, car, and boat, and she didn't go out of BJ at all. ..."

"I saw it with my own eyes. If you don't believe me, you can go and see it..."

A week later, Song Zizhong came back.The first sentence was: "Did you tell him to go?" I neither admitted nor denied it.

"Please do me a favor, as long as you do me this favor, I swear I will try to love you, I promise you will never leave you in my life, I promise you to adopt a child..." I have always wanted to receive To use a child, but he has always been reluctant, always saying: "It's good to have no children..." I thought he had changed his mind.

But he asked me to help, but I burst into tears.

(End of this chapter)