Waiting for the eternity of the moment

Chapter 38: Have You Ever Loved Me (1)
(1)

During the Spring Festival, there are four red lanterns hanging on the gate of No. [-] Middle School, with the words "Happy Spring Festival" written on them, which looks very happy.

The uncle in the duty room still remembered Mu Jingyan, after all, he was a talented student who was admitted to a prestigious school back then.But in a few years, the wrinkles on Grandpa's face became deeper and his hair became more gray.

Ruo Lin couldn't help lamenting the ruthlessness of time.

Time flies by, never considering the will of man.

As time goes by, the only good thing is that memories seem so precious and beautiful.

Disappearing people and things settle down with the passage of time, filter out all unpleasantness, and the rest is sweetness.

Unknowingly, the two walked to the school corridor, they both stopped at the same time and sat in the corridor.

The top of the corridor is covered with withered and yellow vines. Ruolin still remembers that she liked to come here for morning reading when she was in high school. She likes the environment here. In spring and summer, the plants here will be quite lush, especially the vines that climb the white corridor. The green vines are tangled and twisted, like a girl's meticulous thoughts.She also likes to sit at this end of the corridor and look at Mu Jingyan who is sitting on the other side.She pretended to be reciting the book seriously, but her eyes always wandered to Mu Jingyan inadvertently.

She thought that he had never paid attention to her, and she thought that her crush in high school was a cup of bitter wine, a one-man show, an incomplete but memorable young love.Little did he know, she was also placed in his heart by him.

Although the temperature is not high, the afternoon sun shines through the gaps in the corridor, so it doesn't feel too cold.

The two sat side by side and didn't speak for a long time.

"Ruolin..." Mu Jingyan broke the silence.

"Huh?" Ruo Lin looked up at him.

There was an emotion called gentleness circulating in Mu Jingyan's eyes, which made his eyes extraordinarily bright.Ruolin didn't dare to look at such eyes, she quickly lowered her head.

"Did you really like me before?" Mu Jingyan asked.

"Yes." Ruolin replied in a low voice.

"I don't know when I started to like you, maybe it started when I thought you were special when I started school, or maybe it was a day when I was a classmate." Mu Jingyan fell into the memory, " At that time, the homework was very stressful, and every day everyone was chanting 'the test is the magic weapon of the teacher; My expectations surpass everything. I can only force myself to bury my special feelings for you in my heart. I originally wanted to reveal my heart to you after the college entrance examination, but considering that you may encounter more serious problems when you go to university Good boy, and we are studying in different cities. Even if we fall in love, we still get together less and leave more. This will make both of us endure the torment of missing. So I gave up. I said to myself, go to the university to find Let’s fall in love, maybe I will meet a better girl than you. When I was in college, it’s not that there were no girls who took the initiative to express their feelings to me, but they just didn’t like her and would compare her with you. So until I graduated from college, I I’ve never been in a relationship before.” Mu Jingyan said all this in one breath and then asked Ruolin, “Am I stupid for doing this? Should I confess my love to you after the college entrance examination?”

"I'm as stupid as you." Ruo Lin's voice was very soft, as if she was sighing, "I also formed a kind of obsession with you before, and I always felt that all the boys couldn't compare with you. That's why I was with you after graduation. Similarly, the love history is also blank.”

"We are all persistent people..." Mu Jingyan smiled.

"No, at least I'm not. After meeting Han Haoxuan, I became less persistent, and my liking for you is not as firm as before..." Ruo Lin couldn't help but think of Han Haoxuan again.The time with him was not too long, but every little bit of being with him had been baked into her life, which she could never forget.

"I regret it."

"Regret what?"

"I regret not confessing to you earlier. If I confess now, is there still time?" Mu Jingyan looked at Ruolin expectantly.

Ruolin didn't look at him, didn't speak, just sighed and shook her head slightly.

"You still love him, right?" Mu Jingyan asked.

Ruo Lin hesitated for a moment, then nodded heavily.

"Since you still love him, go tell him, don't keep it in your heart. Otherwise, like me, you will miss a fate, what a pity!" When Mu Jingyan said this, his heart was in pain.Loving someone is hard, but being with someone else is even harder.

"When two people are together, not only love can solve it, but also many other things, such as trust, such as sincerity. There are too many things between me and him. I will feel tired when I am with him."

"Are you tired of being with me?"

"Not tired." Ruolin said truthfully.

"Then stay with me, and I will make you happy." After saying that, Mu Jingyan stretched out his right arm and wrapped it around Ruolin's shoulder.

Ruolin smiled, and moved his hand away: "Pay attention to your personal image in school, after all, you are still a former Fengyun senior."

"I'm serious. Ruolin, if you love him now, but you don't want to be with him, then stay with me. I will wait for you, until you forget him. No, you can't forget him." It doesn't matter if you fall. As long as I can be with you." Mu Jingyan said foolishly.

"Why bother? Amu. There are many girls who are better than me. You should broaden your horizons and don't focus on me alone." Ruo Lin stood up and rubbed her hands to warm herself up.

Mu Jingyan also stood up afterward. He grabbed Ruolin's hand and placed it in his generous and warm palm: "Isn't this cold?"

Ruolin wanted to take out her hand, but Mu Jingyan held it tighter: "Accept me, please, just look for a pair of gloves for yourself, can't you just find a heater?"

"Hehe, you are more useful than gloves and a stove. Let me go, or I will get angry."

Mu Jingyan reluctantly let go of her slightly cold hand.

"Here you are." Mu Jingyan stuffed a glass bottle filled with colorful paper cranes into Ruo Lin's hand.

"What is this?" Ruo Lin looked suspiciously at the glass bottle.

"Your birthday present, I wanted to give it to you last time on your birthday..."

"Thank you." After Ruo Lin finished speaking, she looked at the present carefully, and felt that it looked so familiar, and then remembered that she had folded a thousand paper cranes and put them into a glass bottle to give to Mu Jingyan as a birthday present in her third year of high school.However, he didn't come to the appointment that day, so her gift has not been sent out, and she is still at home now.

She couldn't help lamenting the reincarnation of the world and the twists and turns.

"However, sending a thousand paper cranes is an ancient way of giving gifts. Why did you think of giving me this?" Ruolin asked.

After Mu Jingyan told Ruolin the reason, Ruolin laughed loudly: "You really are a typical nerd! Folding a lot of paper cranes is of course for my sweetheart, you think I like that stuff for no reason when I'm full. Son."

"Then you folded it for me?" Mu Jingyan's reaction this time can be said to be very quick.

Ruolin didn't deny it.

"Can you give me the gift you prepared for me back then?" Even if she doesn't love him now, at least keep the evidence that she once loved him.

"The opportunity is never to be missed, the time will never come again. How long has passed, the gift has long since disappeared." Of course it's not that the present is not there, but that Ruo Lin doesn't plan to give him the birthday present that was prepared for him back then.What a wonderful thing it would be if the thousand paper cranes he gave her were put together with the thousand paper cranes she folded for him back then.It's as if the past and the present merge, and time goes backwards.

"Oh." It could be seen that Mu Jingyan was a little frustrated.

"I'll give you a better present for your birthday in the future." Ruolin comforted him.

"The meaning is different." He sighed softly.

"Don't do this, Amu. You can find a better girl..." Ruolin tried to persuade him to forget about herself.

"Let's talk..." Mu Jingyan hastily interrupted her.

For a moment, the two became speechless.

As ordinary friends, they talk about almost everything. However, once it comes to love, it will appear a little awkward.

The best time to confess is missed, who can blame it?
The two walked around the school again, and then Mu Jingyan sent Ruo Lin home.

"By the way, Amu, I remembered that I have to visit a friend today. Her home is nearby. You should stop at the intersection in front of you." On the way, Ruolin saw a pharmacy, so she found an excuse to let her Mu Jingyan stopped the car.

After Mu Jingyan's car drove away, Ruo Lin walked into the pharmacy.

"Miss, what do you need?" the clerk asked enthusiastically.

"Early pregnancy test paper." Although it was a bit difficult to say, Ruolin still said it.

(2)

The test result of the early pregnancy test paper was positive!
Ruolin was honored to win the lottery, but she was not happy at all.

They broke up, but they are pregnant with his child, God, you are so good at teasing people!Ruo Lin almost looked up to the sky and sighed.

She has been with Han Haoxuan for so long, every time he is very careful, every time he is very gentle, every time he takes protective measures, but only that time... That time he pressed her on the bed like crazy , invaded her despite her objections.But it was that time that made her pregnant with his child!

It is said that a child is the crystallization of love, but this child was not born of love, but because of jealousy!
Do you want to keep this child born of Han Haoxuan's jealousy?To keep this child, always remind yourself, has Han Haoxuan ever disrespected her?Staying is a pain, and she will have a more difficult life in the future.But if she didn't stay, she would be a little bit reluctant.After all, it is a developing life!In any case, the child is innocent after all.

Later, Ruolin quietly went to the hospital for an examination, and the doctor confirmed that she was pregnant for more than a month.

She did not disclose the pregnancy to anyone, including Mu Jingyan.

Ruolin sometimes wonders if staying with Mu Jingyan would be a better choice, after all, she has already broken up with Han Haoxuan, so there is no need to live in memories.Moreover, Mu Jingyan treats her very well, and she is also a high school classmate. Everyone knows everything and is easy to get along with.

If you marry him, he must be a model husband that everyone envies: a successful career, gentle and considerate, affectionate and dedicated.In this materialistic world, how many people can keep a pure love like Mu Jingyan for several years?

If it wasn't for Han Haoxuan's intervention, she should be staying and flying with Mu Jingyan by now, right?

If there is no child in her belly, maybe Ruolin will seriously consider Mu Jingyan's suggestion.

"Then stay with me, and I will make you happy." Saying such words from the mouth of a man who had been secretly in love for several years was not without emotion.

It has been said that happiness is a woman's greatest cause.

A man who is willing to promise a woman's happiness is at least serious.

Ruolin remembered that Han Haoxuan might have promised her happiness, it was her birthday, he whispered in her ear: "I will make you happy, but you must be faithful to me."

He promised, but there was a "but" in the words.Promises are most afraid of twists and turns.

This shows that what is lacking between them is trust in each other.So his promise will not be fulfilled.

Ruolin stroked her lower abdomen while thinking, and said softly: "Baby, maybe your life is bad, you shouldn't have come to this world. I don't want you to become a child without a father. My father I left us very early, I had a hard life. I don't want you to have a hard life. And with my mother's financial ability, I can't support you at all. So, I'm sorry." Tears slipped quietly from her cheeks, falling to There is a slight chill in the neck.

After returning to City D, Ruolin found that the diary she wrote in high school was missing.That book records all her secret feelings for Mu Jingyan, which is very important to her.

Wang Mengmeng's wedding banquet, Mu Jingyan's confession, returning to her alma mater, and going home during the Chinese New Year made Ruolin want to relive the old days, but the book disappeared!
She had the impression that the diary was placed in the left drawer, did she remember it wrong?

Ruolin was not reconciled, she ransacked the box and cabinet, almost turned the house upside down, and found no diary.

Ruolin suddenly remembered that Han Haoxuan came to her place not long before the Spring Festival, did he see it?And then it was taken by the guy who likes to be jealous the most?Or was it destroyed?

Ruolin didn't dare to continue thinking.She knew how strong Han Haoxuan's jealousy was, and she also knew how terrible Han Haoxuan was when he was jealous.

Originally, I didn't want to have anything to do with him, but now I had to contact him to ask about the whereabouts of the diary.

Ruolin knew that this kind of thing couldn't be explained clearly on the phone, and with Han Haoxuan's ability to open his eyes and tell lies, he definitely wouldn't admit that the disappearance of the diary was related to him from the very beginning.

So she planned to ask him out to meet.Unexpectedly, the phone was dialed, but it was transferred directly to the secretary's desk: "Hi, hello, I'm Mr. Han's secretary Zhang Qin. Mr. Han is in a meeting right now. Please leave a message if you have anything to do."

"I'm Shen Ruolin..."

"Oh, it's Ms. Shen." As soon as Ruo Lin reported her name, Zhang Qin's tone immediately softened a bit, and then hesitated, "I don't know if I should say something or not."

"You say it."

"Didn't you and Han always quarrel recently? I always feel that his expression is not right." Zhang Qin's gossip talent came into play again.

"This kind of thing is not something you should care about, right?" Ruo Lin replied coldly, "Please let him finish the meeting and call me back. Goodbye." Without waiting for Zhang Qin to say another word, Ruo Lin hung up Cut off the phone.

Ruo Lin called herself?Did you hear me right?Han Haoxuan never thought that Ruolin would find him.

He was a little overjoyed.Did she figure it out and decide to get back together with herself?

Han Haoxuan hastily dialed Ruolin's number.

"Ruolin, did you just look for me?" Han Haoxuan's voice could not conceal the surprise.

"Well. I just want to ask you when you will be free. There is something I must ask you face to face." Ruolin said flatly.In fact, when she heard his voice coming from the other end of the phone, she felt as if an electric current surged through her heart.His voice was so familiar, so she missed it.It turned out that she had never really managed to forget him, never.

"I'm free anytime, you see what time is convenient for you."

Ruolin looked at the time and said, "Just today, around five o'clock. Where can I meet you?"

"Let's go to 'Jiangnan Water Town'." Han Haoxuan knew that Ruolin liked Huaiyang cuisine, and they were regular customers there before.

"Okay." Short answer.

"Are you at work? I'll pick you up."

"No need, I can go there by myself." After finishing speaking, Ruolin hung up the phone.

Han Haoxuan arrived at "Jiangnan Water Village" before 04:30. He asked his secretary to book a private room in advance. He only needed to report "Mr. Han", and the welcoming lady would take him to the corresponding private room.

It's not the peak dining season, and the restaurant is quieter than usual.

Han Haoxuan unconsciously took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket, took out a cigarette, and was about to light it, when he suddenly remembered that Ruolin didn't like the smell of cigarettes, so he put the cigarette back.

"Sir, do you need some tea and drinks first?" The enthusiastic waiter came over and asked.Maybe it's a new waiter. I haven't seen Han Haoxuan before, so I can't help but linger on his handsome face for a few seconds longer.

"Thank you, I'll call you later." Han Haoxuan replied politely.

After waiting for a long time, Han Haoxuan heard footsteps coming from the corridor.The sound of footsteps from far to near became more and more familiar.

It's her!

He actually became nervous for the first time, a little restless.

He told himself to be calm, to be calm.They broke up, he wanted to save her but didn't give him a chance, why should he care about her?She might have already lived a sweet life with Mu Jingyan.

When the sound of footsteps reached the door, Han Haoxuan raised his head quickly, and the face that made him think about it day and night came into view.She was a little thinner than before, and her face looked a little tired.He should have gloated and thought, didn't you say that being with Mu Jingyan is happier than me?Why doesn't it look like that.But in fact, he didn't feel anything other than caring for her.

"You're here." Waiting for Ruolin to sit down opposite Han Haoxuan, he said.

"Hmm." She said softly, as if in a low voice.

"You've lost weight." "You've lost weight."—in unison.Not one second earlier, nor one second late.

The originally silent atmosphere suddenly became a little more active, and the two of them smiled at the same time.

Every time I came here before, Han Haoxuan ordered food, and this habit has continued.This time it was still Han Haoxuan who ordered, and what he ordered was Ruolin's favorite dishes.

When he was ordering, Ruolin opened her mouth several times, wanting to change to other dishes.But afraid that he might have doubts, he didn't say anything after all.

Her stomach is very picky about dishes now, and all greasy dishes can't enter her mouth.But is there any reason to tell him not to order these her usual favorite dishes?Could she tell him it was because she was pregnant?cannot!Because she has already decided not to have this child.What if he found out and wanted her to stay.Never let him know.

Ruolin was afraid that they would quarrel over the diary, so she planned to ask him after dinner.

"How have you been recently?" Seeing Ruo Lin eating in silence, Han Haoxuan began to ask.

"It's good." He must want to hear her say "not good", right?Of course she wouldn't let him.

"That's good. Eat more." Han Haoxuan put the fish that Ruolin usually likes to eat into her bowl, "You are so skinny, your family's Amu doesn't love you, my ex-boyfriend looks strange Distressed."

No matter how you listen to the next sentence, there is a sense of cynicism.

"I..." Ruo Lin wanted to say that she hadn't actually dated Mu Jingyan, but remembering whether she had a relationship or not had nothing to do with him, she hesitated to speak.

"Go on." Han Haoxuan said casually, "I am very happy to hear your good news. If you are happy, I will be happy too."

hypocritical!Ruo Lin slandered.

"Ouch—" Just as the fish was in the mouth, Ruolin felt sour in her mouth, and felt like vomiting again.

"What's wrong with you?" Han Haoxuan asked hurriedly.

"It's all right."

"It's fine. But you look like you're sick, you won't be pregnant so soon, right? I haven't had your wedding wine with Mu Jingyan yet!" Han Haoxuan said solemnly.

"Han Haoxuan!" Ruo Lin couldn't help it.

"What's your business?" Han Haoxuan asked slowly.

"Please don't involve other people in our affairs. In addition, I need to declare that I have no intention of getting married for the time being."

"Oh? That's a pity. Maybe I'll treat you and Mu Jingyan to my wedding wine first."

"Congratulations." Ruo Lin sneered in her heart when she didn't expect him to have a new love so soon.

(End of this chapter)