The Edge of Love and Pain: My Double Husband

Chapter 403 I Don't Love You Anymore

He was silent for a long time, and said: "Lingling, if what you said was replaced by Niannian, I would definitely fulfill it. But she can't."

"What's wrong with her?" I asked, "If you think her qualifications are not good enough to find a good boyfriend, then find someone with lower qualifications. If no one wants to marry her, then live on your own. what is the problem?"

"That's the problem," he said. "She's not independent at all. She's not the kind of kid who can control her own life."

I asked, "So she should be bullied?"

He said: "As I said, whether to marry Lin Zhunyi is a matter for later, but she has to give birth to a child. I have no hope for her future marriage. She is lucky if she marries well, and it is inevitable if she marries poorly. And don't forget, she will definitely not be able to achieve any career. I am afraid that she will have nothing in her later years, and when she wants to have children to protect herself, she will not even be able to have children. "

"Do you think she must be a good marriage?" I asked, "It's too early for you to assert that she must be lonely!"

"Lingling, what you said is correct, but it is a utopia. In that utopia, the stars do have the rights you think, I don't deny it. But please see the reality first." His tone at the moment Quite calm: "The reality is that her mind is not strong enough to take on her life, and it is difficult for her to take the road of getting married. Nian Nian has a strong personality and a smart mind, and can control her own life. I know, but she is the person your father wants to cultivate. But the stars are neither. She has beauty and a weak personality. Look at the things she did, how stupid and stupid. She has a murder case on her body, I It is even more impossible to let her marry an ordinary person. Because it is her father, I can't let her abort this child, because it might be the only barrier for her when she gets old. Or do you think Niannian and Yinyin can do it for her? She bears her failed life?"

I couldn't speak for a while, and felt that he was lying, but I couldn't refute it, so I could only ask: "Are you alluding to me?"

"Yes." He answered simply.

"But I also want a divorce." I said, "I don't need anyone to help me bear my failed life. You disagree."

"Yes," he laughed, "you don't even have the ability to divorce me, so why are you making such big talk? Since you want a divorce, why do you still sympathize with my daughter? Are you so determined that you don't even want your own daughter? Is it? Lingling, I think the most wrong thing about your father is that he didn’t teach you to adapt to local conditions. You always reason with me, but baby, I don’t even talk about the law. What reason? The law of the forest is in my heart The human rights law is the rule in your heart, you either follow me, or you take up your weapon to fight with me. You are the benevolence of a woman, you can't see the reality clearly, and you like to dream. But... I am Like that about you."

His tone was always light, with a smile, as if he was saying something that made him happy.

But I suddenly remembered that old man Fan had said the same thing a long time ago.He said that if it was another woman, he would have taken the opportunity to kill Fanyin. At that time, I thought he was praising me, that I was human after all, I was kind, I loved him, and I was different from others. of.

But I didn’t realize until today that those words are all false, a high hat, the more happy I wear it, the more paralyzed I will be, and the more clean my skin will be.

So I can't refute his words, I think he is right, and feel sorry for myself at the same time.

After a while, he opened his mouth again: "Are you angry?"

"No." I said, "I think you're right."

"Your tone doesn't mean that."

"Because I really..." I felt that I couldn't explain it to him, but the pain was real, and I had a desire to overthrow all reason: "I originally wanted to quarrel with you to the end, and I must get a divorce. But Xingxing begged me again, I think I have no chance...Even if I leave, I will not be able to be happy in this life. But she is different, she is so small. I can't say no to you..."

His tone became gentle all of a sudden, and he said, "How could that happen? Don't think so sadly."

"I can't tell you." I didn't want to listen to him at all: "But I think you are wrong. Really, you are wrong. You are just like my father, and many reasons are just to cover up that you don't love stars. You don't want to think about it. She thinks she is stupid and she deserves to be bullied..."

"I didn't want to hide it." He said, "I really don't love her. I hate her personality the most, even if I adopt, I wouldn't choose such a child."

"Say it as if we'd like to get involved with someone like you."

He laughed, "Su Lingyu, I don't want to irritate you with words."

"What's the stimulus?" I asked, "If you don't want to care about her, you can use everything as a reason. You just want to use her to stabilize Lin Zhunyi, lest people say that you bully Lin Zhunyi. Which of your words are not whitewashing?"

He didn't speak.

I continued: "Don't want to speak out to irritate me? Are you irritating me less? Fanyin, it's not that I don't understand you at all after all these years. You're plausible now, it's just to prove that you are guilty, and I can't argue with you. I just say From my point of view, I am determined to get a divorce, but if you want Xingxing to have a miscarriage, I will sacrifice myself to live with you, otherwise we will continue to quarrel. Don’t you think I am a woman? Then you can go to my father Pick up the child, let's see if you can pick it up?"

It took him a long time before he asked coolly, "Are you threatening me with the child?"

"Yeah, can't I?" I asked, "Do you know why I couldn't listen to what you said yesterday? Because it sounded boring to me, and I know you're just talking because I used to love hearing that. But I don't like to listen to it anymore, I fell asleep halfway through hearing it, don't you understand? I didn't feel blood on the bed, but I didn't think it was yours at all, I thought it was mine, because you The one who bleeds between me is always me. You were injured, and I didn’t hit it, so what do I care about you? You hit me with the wound on my face, don’t you also care?”

He was silent.

I wiped my tears, feeling a little contemptuous of myself who was still crying, "I used to feel sorry for you when I saw you hurt, and I forgave everything about you right away. But yesterday I really didn't. Fanyin, I don't I don't know if it's a cold heart or something... I don't love you anymore, I hope you can understand, I don't love you anymore. I'm not making a fuss, and I'm not crazy. I didn't want to pass the stars when I called you I really feel that this child is pitiful, as pitiful as I am. I feel that the reason why she has come to this point is also my responsibility. When you are not here, I also want to sacrifice her and use her. I feel very ashamed for not saving her with the only chance. When I think of how cute she was when she was a child, I feel that all the silence and things I did before are all inhumane and useless as a mother. So I want to discuss with you, If you really don't want to leave, I can stay in this marriage, be the kind of person you want to be, and replace her."

Only then did he open his mouth: "Then tell me, why did you kill the manager of the small family?"

The tone was wrong, so I asked, "Didn't Lin Zhunyi tell you?"

"Told," he said, "but what about the evidence?"

"Are you trying to say you didn't actually do that?" I asked, "I saw the video with my own eyes!"

"Don't quarrel with me first." He was extremely calm: "Tell me the matter clearly."

Although I was angry, this matter was related to the agreement to betray the Fan family, so I said it carefully, and finally emphasized: "I was very angry at the time, but now I don't care, I hope you don't think about it..."

"Okay," he interrupted me irritably, "I didn't do anything, what do you care about?"

"Second personality did it."

"He didn't do it either! I fought with them on the first day I went, and then my wound collapsed and I almost lost my life. How can I play with women?" He asked, "Who gave you the video? blue?"

I was a little confused: "The person on the video is clearly you, where in the world can you find someone who looks exactly like you!"

"Don't you care?" He first sneered, and then ordered: "Answer the question."

"It's him."

He sneered: "What a waste of my liver."

"Fan Yin." I said, "I don't want to pursue the truth of this matter. The reason why you make me feel cold is not because..."

"I want to investigate!" He said angrily, "The little family said that my wife killed their steward for no reason, so they insisted on asking me for an explanation! For this matter, both Zhunyi and I were shot! Investigate and investigate. , I found out that you gave all the orders, all the reasons were given by you, and you have no evidence at all! You still want to kill my people!"

My ears were numb from his yelling, and it took me a while to come back to my senses: "But I saw the video with my own eyes."

"That thing must be real?" He roared: "You want me to make your version within three months, okay?"

I said, "But you were swollen when you came back!"

He sneered: "Then tell me where you brought me back? All the things were told by him, Pu Lan, everything is true, do you understand what this means? Why don't you believe those who follow me?" I believe in someone who has been with me for more than ten years?"

"Because he was kind to me and never hit me."

He seemed to be choked suddenly, and after a long time, he opened his mouth: "You just remember that I hit you."

"No." I said, "I still remember you mocking me."

"You don't even remember when I worked hard for you, when I forgave you for betraying me, and when I wrote your will," he asked disappointedly, "Only remember these?"

I said, "You finally understand."

He stopped talking.

"I don't love you anymore." I said, "Maybe I made a mistake in this matter. Whatever it is, I'm sorry to you."

He seemed to be a little panicked, his voice was trembling: "Lingling, it's obviously you..."

(End of this chapter)