The Edge of Love and Pain: My Double Husband

Chapter 414 White Eyed Wolf

He probably understood what I meant, fell silent, and said after a while: "But you have to go back, without you you can't declare an heir."

I know I have to go back.

I wanted to see how he was doing, but didn't want to go back, so I hung in the middle.

He probably thought I was silent because I wanted to refuse, and advised him: "Since he said that he is your biological father, there must be a reason for him to treat you like this. You didn't know about this relationship before, and you resented him very much." It’s normal, but now that you know it, it’s necessary to try to understand it.”

I looked at him, originally wanted to say something, but felt that in his opinion, he would only think that I was extreme, and then he would persuade me with words that made me feel kidnapped.

So I asked, "When are we leaving?"

"Since you didn't sleep yesterday, take another day off." He said softly, "Leave tomorrow."

That's okay, I said, "Then I'm going to bed."

"Ah."

He let go, and I said, "I can go to bed by myself, you can do your work."

He was still sitting there, looking at me with sympathy, "I saw Nian Nian and Yin Yin."

I asked, "Is Yinyin able to climb now?"

"Yes." He laughed: "But she doesn't like to crawl, she is very obedient, and likes to sit in her place and play with toys. The housekeeper over there said that you were like this when you were a child, very obedient, neither noisy nor noisy."

I said, "She has always been very good and timid. I always think it's because she was frightened the day she was born."

The smile on his face was awkward, and he said, "I'm sorry..."

I didn't speak.

He paused for a few seconds, then thought of a new topic: "Nian Nian, she also asked..."

"I'm going to wash my face." I interrupted him, "You should be busy."

He stared into my eyes, with a displeased expression, "What do you mean?"

I didn't want to argue with him, so I didn't speak.

But he refused and said: "I can understand everything else, but you'd better not show your face to Nian Nian, she misses you very much. Besides, you did it yourself, Nian Nian just told me it, because she Trust me in your heart."

I said, "Then don't let her meet me."

He frowned, as if about to get angry.

I said, "Say sorry to her for me."

With an irritable expression on his face, he took out a cigarette.I said, "Don't smoke in my room."

He gave me a blank look, found the lighter and lit it.

The smell of cigarettes gave me a headache and I had to shut up.

He smoked me for a while, and said: "Lingling, you hate me and your father, there is nothing wrong with it, you can fight with me, beat me, I can tolerate it. But you can't bully the child, she doesn't understand anything , and will not lie."

I said, "I don't want to see her just to avoid bullying her."

"She knew you would go."

I looked at him, "You told her?"

He nodded and said, "She keeps asking you."

I couldn't help laughing.

He looked at me pervertedly, and frowned, "Why are you so nervous?"

"You know that I don't want to see her, but you don't want to lie to her, but you just come here and force me to be her mother, and you still keep saying that I am your last thing?" I thought it was funny, "She That's right, she knows that I don't want her to learn the language from you, but she still learns from you, yes, she is not lying, but she lied to me with you. Fanyin, she is your good daughter."

He laughed and asked, "Why do you even want to eat this kind of vinegar? Besides, I taught her that."

"Because I'm not balanced. I've paid more for her than you, but she only loves you." I looked into his eyes and said, "I feel that she will eventually become a white-eyed wolf in my life, just Like you and your mother."

He immediately became irritable, avoided my gaze and said, "How old is she? Is that how you describe her?"

"Yes, how old is she? She has already learned to stand in line and bully me with you. I told her so many times and told her not to worry about it, but she still told you with all her heart." I said, "She just needs mother It's just, but she never thinks about me. It's fine if she doesn't think about anyone, but she thinks about you. Let me tell you, it's not that she doesn't know that you hit me. Sister Shanshan told her, she just doesn't believe it .”

He frowned: "Why did she say such a thing?"

"Oh?" I didn't expect to be able to retaliate so soon: "You did something yourself, and you are afraid of others talking about it?"

He obviously wanted to speak, but he still glared at me and said, "She doesn't like you because you were not at home when she came back, and you didn't get along with her for too long. Besides, look at yourself, you haven't even had friends for so many years. None, all relationships are messed up, it was okay before, but now my personality is becoming more and more like a complaining woman, complaining and complaining all day, yes, everyone is sorry for you! But you have such a complaint all day long Standing in front of her with a woman's face, how do you want her to love you? How do you think she will understand you? You figure it out, you are her mother, and you think of your child so viciously, don't you feel guilty? How can you speak like that?"

I didn't answer.

Because he was right.

All right.

After he finished speaking, he pinched his cigarette, remained silent for a while, looked at me and said, "Sorry, my words are a bit heavy, but I think your thoughts are too extreme now, and you shouldn't miss it like this."

I said, "Let's go over there now."

He grabbed my hand and said, "Don't read about divorce when you said before, I thought you just thought she had my last name and could follow me. I didn't expect you to have this kind of mentality. I didn't deny your love for her. When she grows up, I will definitely tell her, and she will understand you. It’s just that it’s your fault for thinking about her so viciously. I hope you will reflect on it, and we will leave when you figure it out. Nian Nian is actually Very sensitive, maybe because you asked her not to tell me, so she has been very disturbed, afraid that you will be angry with her. If you show face to her, she will definitely be sad. "

I said, "You are truly righteous."

He could hear me being sarcastic, stood up and said, "I don't want to quarrel with you anymore, you're already unreasonable. Think about it slowly and call me when you're ready."

I said, "No matter how long I think about it, I don't want to see her."

He frowned, "Are you insisting on fighting?"

"I don't want to see her." I repeated, "I can't fake my feelings, yes, you are right and very good, but Fanyin, don't forget that you are not me. Don't force me to meet her when I'm already crazy."

He asked: "You plan to never see her? Don't want her?"

"I don't know," I said, "but I don't want to see her right now."

He got a little angry, bent down and pinched my shoulder, and asked, "What's the matter with you? You can just make trouble with me, isn't this too much for the child?"

"Is it because you promised her that I would definitely let me see her, so you keep pushing me?" I asked, "I can't evaluate my state, and then express that I don't want to meet her to make each other unhappy?"

He frowned, extremely dissatisfied.

That's right, he did a good job of never blaming the children for his problems, because it was enough for him to blame me, and it was enough for him to have a sandbag.

I said: "I don't want to hear you kidnap me with those words. Yes, you are successful, you have many friends, and your relatives love you. I am unsuccessful, I am so failed, and I have nothing. This is what you think about it. The reason to love you, but you seem to have forgotten that the reason why she loves you is because I have been helping you lie to her and beautify you in her heart, even if the wound is on my head, I am also desperately trying to help you You said good things, not just me, everyone is helping you to do this. But Fanyin, you didn’t treat me like that. I don’t expect your so-called love to have anything other than sexual desire, but You don't even have the basic morals to be a father. You haven't defended me in front of her, and all the words that hurt me from her mouth represent your attitude. "

He immediately said, "I didn't teach her to say that."

"Then this child is not mine anymore." I said, "You started scolding me at such a young age, do you want to beat me when you grow up? What's wrong with me saying she's a white-eyed wolf?"

He must have felt that he had been tricked. He gave me a displeased look and said nothing.

It can be judged from this that he still doesn't understand what I mean, but I don't expect him to understand.If he can understand me, if he is willing to understand me, he will know my love, my tenderness, my fear, and how can he hurt me again and again?
He didn't speak, and I said, "I can tell you that no matter how long I think about it, I don't want to see her. If you want to procrastinate, procrastinate, as I have already said, I don't care about the heir at all, and I don't want to know at all .I don’t even want to know if he is my biological father. You can delay, I don’t care.”

Naturally, he could see my firmness, he was silent for a while, and said, "Then you should rest for at least one day."

"No," I said, "I feel fine."

He looked at me for a long time, nodded and said, "Then let's go now."

There was nothing to fix, Fanyin helped me into the wheelchair and pushed me to the dressing table.For so many years, I have long been used to putting on makeup when I go out, so I picked up a bottle of foundation, but looked at myself in the mirror, and looked carefully, my face still had the last bit of swelling, and my eye sockets still had the last bit of bruising.So I put it down and said, "I don't want to wear makeup today."

In the mirror, he stood behind me, frowning with a puzzled expression on his face.

I said: "I don't like makeup in the first place. You forced me to do it at the beginning, saying that this is your rule. If I want to be your wife, I have to do it like this. Then I don't want to do it now, so I have to gradually get rid of this habit. "

"I didn't say a word, you just talk so much." He sneered, as if he looked down on me very much, while holding my hair, he said, "It's fine if I don't change it, do you want me to turn your head around for you?"

That's right, I was really too wordy.

I pressed his hand and said, "No, as soon as you grab my hair, I feel like you're going to slap me."

(End of this chapter)