The Edge of Love and Pain: My Double Husband

Chapter 94 A Tumor

I went over, and Mr. Han moved and let me sit between them.

It was a bit weird to sit down because I've never sat between a couple and it felt like a kid.

Mrs. Han asked, "Why didn't you go back to the ward to rest?"

"It's so stuffy in the ward, I want to come out for a walk."

"Walk while crying?" she said, wiping my face with her hand.

I didn't speak.

She asked again: "Yinyin bullied you again?"

"No." I don't want to talk about this topic: "What do you think about this matter?"

"I have to take him to the hospital again." Mrs. Han said, "The second personality didn't have violent tendencies before, but suddenly it makes me very disturbed."

"You think the second personality did it?"

Mrs. Han sneered: "The second personality has always hated me."

"Hate you for what?"

Mrs. Han said nothing.

It seems that I asked the wrong question. After all, I am divorcing him and have no children. Although we are a family, we are not particularly close.Of course you won't tell me anything confidential.

But Mrs. Han's words made me very uncomfortable, so I continued the previous topic and asked, "So are you sure it was the second personality?"

"Ah."

I really can't accept this...

But Mr. Han said: "When I went in, I felt that his state was very strange, not like any personality."

I rekindled hope and asked Mr. Han: "Do you also think he has a third personality?"

"That's not true." Mr. Han said: "But he has this disease after all, maybe he just lost control suddenly."

"How can you be so precise when you suddenly lose control?" Mrs. Han's opinion is completely different from his: "I think it's the second personality."

"Xu Yan..." Mr. Han looked at her vigorously.

Mrs. Han glanced at him, but said nothing.

Obviously, what Mr. Han said was only because I was there, and they may have the same idea.

Mrs. Han and Fan's father must know their children best, and their judgments should not be too wrong.But Fan's father wanted to fool me and refused to tell me the truth.Mrs. Han's opinion may be her real idea, but after all, she has not gone through a doctor.

I asked Mrs. Han: "Has he been to the hospital before?"

"Been there many times."

"What did the doctor say?"

"Most hospitals refused to believe that he had a second personality, nor did they think he had serious mental problems. Some even believed that the disease of schizophrenia was fabricated."

I remembered what Xiao Tiantian said to me, and asked, "Is it because the second personality has never appeared in front of the doctor?"

"Hmm." Madam Han bowed her head in silence for a while, then turned her head and asked me, "If you look at it independently, what kind of person do you think the second personality is?"

"Very simple and cute."

"anything else?"

"Very kind and gentle."

She smiled and asked, "No negative?"

"Negative..." Well, if I had to say it, it would be: "A little timid, but he is... small after all."

Mrs. Han was silent for a while, and said: "A doctor came up with the idea of ​​schizophrenia before, but he only chatted with the second personality twice, and was killed by Yinyin not long after."

This is the information about the disease that I have always wanted to obtain, but I did not expect it to be so easy.

But at this moment, I really want to laugh at myself: I don't want Britney to replace him so much.

This thing is so ridiculous that I haven't even started to act yet.

I asked, "Which personality killed it?"

"No. 1 cell." Mrs. Han said: "After studying his condition, the doctor provided a different way of thinking from other hospitals. He felt that it could be assumed that he really suffered from split personality disorder, so the second personality must be A very cautious personality. So he asked Fansheng to give him a false identity, brought him into Fanjia, and followed Yinyin to observe him. In order to prevent the second personality from finding out about this, Fansheng didn’t even tell me. He died I talked to Fansheng before, and he said that the second personality is more cautious than he imagined, and he thinks that his previous views are not wrong, and the second personality is indeed evading inspection."

"That's right," I said. "He did tell me that!"

Mrs. Han looked over immediately: "He told you personally?"

"Yes!"

I hurriedly told her what Xiao Tiantian said, and she laughed immediately: "So that doctor's judgment is not wrong?"

"Didn't you believe him before?"

"Of course I don't believe it." She smiled bitterly: "He also said that if the second personality was an independent person, he would not like to be in contact with him, because he feels very unstable, very smart, and a bit dangerous. "

No wonder she didn't believe it.

"What he said was all his own feelings, with no basis at all."

"That's right." Mrs. Han said with a smile: "Actually, I just told you that I just want you to understand that this is a disease, and there is only one sound. No. 1 is of course incomplete, but at least he is the closest to the real sound. "

I……

"You like No. 1 personality, but that's not Fanyin at all." Mrs. Han held my hand and said, "I hope you like No. [-] personality, although he is bad, but he is more real than No. [-] personality , the difference between him and the second personality is like the moon, he is in the sky, the second personality is in the water, the image in the water, but you have to understand that the real moon is the one in the sky, and it is also because of the sky, Only those in the water will exist. If you really feel that you don’t love the one in the sky, then you should love someone else, because if you don’t love the person ‘Fan Yin’, then you have the right to be free.”

It's a bit of a mouthful, but her meaning is easy to understand.

How can I accept it?What I saw, touched, and felt were completely two people.I also feel that her opinion is very unfair to Britney, as if it is discriminatory, which makes me a little uncomfortable.

So I asked: "Madam Han, do you dislike Xiao Yinyin because he doesn't recognize you?"

She smiled and said, "I've said the reason many times."

"But he gave me a completely different feeling." I said: "No. 1 has been beating me and bullying me, but the second personality has not. And the people who fall in love with me are all second personalities. When you say that, I think you are despising him."

She smiled slightly: "If the second personality is not a personality, but a parasitic soul on him, do you still think that is my son?"

"No." This analogy is inappropriate: "He obviously has childhood memories. Don't those things really happen?"

"I don't know how much he remembers, and I don't know if it's all true. Fansheng said that he only remembers the part of staying with him and his stepmother, and I didn't participate in that part at all." Mrs. Han said: "You said I despise He, I know that the one you use must be the one that expresses people. But I use it to express objects. To tell you the truth, in my opinion, it is my son’s mental tumor, and the tumor is also on my son. Meat, but can I see it as part of my son? I want it gone."

Mr. Han said: "Xu Yan." Obviously trying to stop her.

"I think it's better to show your position." Mrs. Han said, "You have never experienced psychotherapy, and you don't know its methods. It is not easy to escape. It requires a strong psychological quality, and the second personality can do it." Never showing up, this is equivalent to a dog facing the temptation of meat buns, but never pounces on it. From my personal standpoint, I insist that it was not Yinyin who hit me, so the possibility I recognize There are only two types. The first is that Yinyin has a third personality, and the second is the behavior of the second personality. If it is the former, Yinyin will not tell anyone at all, because it means that his illness has begun to progress further. Out of control. So I think it's the latter. And you remember, Prosperity told us that he was only ten years old, and I agree with what he said to you later, maybe his memory is only part of before the age of ten, but he is not today Split out, although none of us know when he started to appear, but he has indeed appeared for a few years, he is also growing, and his mind is gradually becoming sound. Maybe because of this, you think he is very much like a 'person' , but these two things are very sick, I would rather believe that it is just a symptom, a tumor."

I was speechless, and what she said made me feel cold all over, and I wanted to cry: "Mrs. Han, let alone whether he did it to beat you, even if he did, he didn't hurt you before this day, did he? You Don't you think your opinion is too cruel for him?"

"It's not cruel at all, it's a fact. His character is neither like me nor his father. Don't think that prosperity is like that now. The second personality is very similar to him. He just lives too boring to tease you The way Yinyin behaves now is no different from when he was young." Mrs. Han said, "I know these words will make you sad, but I know that you insist on staying with him for the sake of this personality, so I think it makes sense. This is not harmful to you. Even if he exists all his life, he is not 'Fan Yin', let alone we have been doing our best to make him disappear."

I really can't stand her words, I think it's too much and cold.I think she is very selfish, she thinks that the one who knows her is her son, from this I began to understand Xiao Tiantian's dislike for her: "So you are telling me that everything is Xiaoyinyin's fault, you are His mother, your son has a split personality, and you are not responsible at all?"

Mrs. Han didn't speak, and leaned back in the chair.

Mr. Han said: "She just hopes that you don't force yourself to stay by Yinyin's side just because of your feelings for the second personality, and leave as soon as you can."

"I understand what that means." I looked at her face and asked, "Based on your logic, the second personality is split from the body of No. 1, but he doesn't love you at all. You, this proves that he hates you. Does it mean that if he didn't split up, his feelings for you would be very complicated?"

(End of this chapter)