sweet wife high above

Chapter 190 He Was Afraid
When Gu Junqi opened the door and came in, all the people in the ward had already left under the doctor's advice.

Therefore, Song Weiran was the only one lying on the bed resting at this time.

He opened his eyes when he heard the door opening, and saw Gu Junqi standing there with a plain face.

Although her face was pale, fortunately she was unscathed.

Song Weiran breathed a sigh of relief.

Gu Junqi had already washed his face, and walked over to him calmly and asked, "How do you feel now?"

Song Weiran raised his eyelids lightly: "I'm afraid I will disappoint you, I won't be able to die for a while."

Gu Junqi's nose suddenly turned sour, and he stared at Song Weiran for a while.

Thinking of his excellent ability to observe words and expressions, he immediately lowered his eyes.

Changed the subject and asked: "Why did you appear there? Song Weiran, are you following me?"

Her tone sharpened.

Song Weiran laughed with a "huh" and said sarcastically, "Following you? Gu Junqi, you are not worthy." He then said, "My own sister is there, and in order to save her, I appear there again and again." What's weird?"

Gu Junqi stared at him suspiciously.

Song Weiran's sarcastic expression remained the same, but his voice became colder: "Gu Junqi, don't think that I have feelings for you just because I saved you. The hatred between us is irreconcilable. The enemy's daughter is together. Therefore, you'd better fulfill your promise immediately and sign to leave the Song family immediately. You know that I am afraid of trouble, because if I can't get entangled in today's matter, I think it's better to forget it. If If you feel a little grateful for saving you because of me, divorce is the best reward for me."

"What if I refuse to divorce?"

"If you change your mind because I saved your life, then I don't mind giving your life back to King Yama."

He even threatened someone so calmly.

Gu Junqi sneered: "Song Weiran, you think too much. As you said, the hatred between us is irreconcilable. Even if I am stupid, I don't believe that you have any sincerity anymore. You know that when we fell together What are you thinking about?"

Song Weiran leaned against the head of the bed, her eyes raised her eyebrows silently.

Gu Junqi then said: "At that time, I was thinking, God finally opened his eyes and let this person die before me. At that time, I was hoping that you would die badly. How could I have thought that your life would be so great? It's a pity."

Song Weiran raised the corner of his mouth and couldn't help chuckling.

Then the corners of your mouth moved evilly: "It seems that you really hate me, but what I worry most about is that you are stubborn, even if you know my true intention to marry you, you still pester me endlessly, that's what gives me a headache. "

Gu Junqi said frankly: "Yes, I used to love you. I fell in love with you at first sight. In order to marry you, I really didn't look back. But after suffering so much humiliation and hurt, do you think I will love you again? Do you?" She said firmly, "Song Weiran, I don't love you anymore."

Song Weiran's eyes froze, and then he said casually: "This is the best."

Until finally Song Weiran got tired of arguing and expelled her from the ward.

After Gu Junqi came out, he walked a few steps while supporting the wall.

In the end, he slowly squatted down, leaning one shoulder against the wall weakly, tears streaming down his face, and finally couldn't help crying.

Gu Junqi didn't dare to call himself to make a sound, he bit his lips tightly, and the round blood beads fell to the ground, hitting the cold marble floor of the hospital, after the beating, there was no bones left.And her mouth was even more salty, and an urge to vomit rose directly from her stomach.

When I realized something, I felt more and more that I was on the verge of collapse.

When leaving the coffee shop, Su Rui asked her: "If you didn't hate Song Weiran at all, what would you do if he left?"

Gu Junqi couldn't answer.

Just like now she clearly hated him to the bone, but felt that her heart was about to burst, and the pain was unbearable.

Therefore, Gu Junqi thought, if she still loves him and he disappears from this world, she will not be able to live a good life.

I remember seeing a movie once upon a time, the protagonist in it said: "I know you will have to leave eventually, I keep reminding myself so that I will like you less when I wake up tomorrow, and I can relax when I leave a little."

It is precisely because Song Weiran understands her determination, so that she can relax a little in the future.That's why it was necessary to give her some hatred, some disgust, and make her like him less and less every day.In this way, when she wakes up one day and he is no longer there, she will not be particularly sad.On the contrary, thinking of the hatred he gave, she might feel that this retribution is comforting.She might think in her heart, see, people who do a lot of evil will always be punished by heaven.Where is there any pain at all.

If so, would he be able to leave with some peace of mind?
In order to make Song Weiran feel at ease, Gu Junqi finally chose to lie.Lie that she no longer loves him...

No matter how she wants to live in the future, she only hopes that he can go away with peace of mind and die with peace of mind.

He doesn't owe her anything in this life, on the contrary, the Gu family owes him too much.

In the past, she just gritted her teeth and hated him, but she seldom thought about it. Even if it was really him who took revenge on the Gu family, it was reasonable.

Because of her revenge for killing her father, she wished she could kill him.What reason is there for him to calm down, put down the butcher knife, and become a Buddha immediately?

Even Su Rui said that Song Weiran's life in those years was miserable.Everything that seems to be beautiful today is made by him bit by bit with his hard work.

If Su Rui didn't say it, Gu Junqi wouldn't have thought that this man, who is as noble as an emperor, had to do various part-time jobs before dawn every day to make a living a few years ago, and even worked in a fast food restaurant. It rained heavily, and customers complained about the untimely delivery of food, and lost a day's wages.But no one knew that the road was slippery in the rain that day, and he fell in a hurry and broke his knee.

Those who have never suffered, will not know how cruel life can be when people fall to the bottom.

In many cases, it is not as long as you work hard to change the status quo. Various factors restrict you. You must suffer a lot, otherwise it will be difficult to turn around.

When the Song family fell apart, Song Weiran had struggled at the bottom of the valley.How did he get up in the end?

Don't look at how many calluses his hands have sharpened, but look at how many scars his heart has spread, and you can imagine how much he has suffered.

Gu Junqi didn't dare to stay here for too long, he barely stood up while leaning on the wall, and then stumbled out.

With every step I took, I couldn't help twitching violently.

Gu Junqi knew that from now on, she would go on like this without looking back.He has been out of Song Weiran's life for many years, the two have nothing to do with each other, no longer ask him whether he is good or bad.

It was snowing in the sky again, and the fine snowflakes, due to the severe cold, would not melt when they fell on the ground.The air became more and more cold, and even the exhaled breath condensed into a cloud of gray mist.

Gu Junqi's eyes were blurred, she didn't dare to stop, she just walked forward blindly.

A car in the parking lot jumped out and narrowly missed her.The driver lowered the window, poked his head out and cursed impatiently, only feeling angry.

Gu Junqi dodged and retreated to the side, regardless of whether he was abused by others, he just sobbed and shed tears.

The man glanced at it, then closed the car window silently and didn't say any more.Perhaps it was after seeing her tears streaming down her face that she felt compassion.Because this is a hospital, a gathering place of sorrow, every day there are unfortunate things happen, people leave every day, and every day people are heartbroken because of their relatives and friends.

Therefore, her tearful and panicked look must be because of something sad.

Even a passer-by is unwilling to criticize him any longer.

Gu Junqi wiped away his tears, lowered his head and walked out quickly.

By the time Su Rui finished his day's work, it was already dark outside.Except for the two steamed buns I ate in the morning, I haven't eaten anything yet.

I don't feel hungry, but work requires physical strength, so I decided to go out to find food to replenish energy.

When picking up the car, I received a call from Song Jingyan.

Su Rui thought for a while and said, "Let's chat while eating."

The meeting place was chosen at a private restaurant.

There is a white woven lamp above the head, the wattage is not large, but it is very bright, the brilliance of modern energy-saving lamps.

Su Rui leaned there a little dizzy, and he didn't pull himself together until Song Jingyan pushed the door in.

Ask him, "What would you like to eat?"

Song Jingyan said: "I have no appetite, you can eat by yourself."

Su Rui simply ordered a pasta.

He raised his head and waited for Song Jingyan to ask questions.

Song Jingyan thought about how he got here on this day, and was in shock from the beginning to the end, unable to recover.Song Weiran is the backbone of the Song family, supporting the entire Song family as if the sun never sets in the fierce competition.And although he has always disobeyed him, he never questioned his ability.

Now someone told him that such Song Weiran was knocked down by a serious illness.I just find it incredible, more like a cold joke.

However, Song Jingyan knew that Su Rui would not joke with him about this kind of thing.No matter how unbelievable he is, he still has to believe this fact.

"Does Gu Junqi know the truth?"

Suri said: "I didn't know before today that your brother's life is at stake except me. But Aunt Jane and your sister both know that he has a blood clot in his brain."

How could they not know that Song Weiran was injured because of Song Jiajia.Su Rui thought that it must be because of this that the two women of the Song family gave way to him all these years. To put it bluntly, they felt guilty.

Song Jingyan pondered: "Is there really no way to heal it? Aren't you highly skilled in medicine, can't you do surgery?"

Su Rui lost his appetite completely.

"The risk of the operation is very high, but the success rate is very slim. Not long ago, I went through a similar medical record, and it ended in failure. Even if the operation is successful, I can't guarantee that there will be any side effects." He said Shaking his head, he seemed extremely depressed: "I don't know what to do until now."

Song Jingyan frowned.

His current emotions are very complicated, and he is even a little restless.After a moment of silence, he stood up and said, "Eat, I have something else to do, so let's go first."

When he got to the door, Su Rui called him: "Jing Yan, no matter what opinion you have about Song Weiran these years, you should understand his intentions for you."

Song Jingyan was slightly taken aback.

Without making a sound, he opened the door and walked out.

He lit a cigarette against the wind, and the curling smoke hit his face, making his eyes uncomfortable.

Song Jingyan firmly denied that this was an impulse to cry. It must be because the temperature difference between indoors and outdoors is too large, coupled with the smell of fireworks, the eyes feel uncomfortable.

Stuff out the cigarette in your hand when you get into the car.

I wanted to make a call to Gu Junqi, but suddenly found that I had lost the courage.The phone turned a few times in the palm of my hand, and finally put it back.

Now he can no longer go his own way as before, and Song Jingyan still understands the reason why victory is unwarranted.

Even if Su Rui didn't tell him anything, he could figure out many things.Song Weiran has never been a person who compromises, no reason is enough for him to be with a woman against his will.Otherwise, when the Song family was in decline, he could have easily become the son-in-law of one of the noble families. With the support of the other party, it would definitely be much easier for the Song family to make a comeback.

However, Song Weiran didn't, he would rather endure inhuman hardships than force himself.

Therefore, when he heard the news of his marriage, even if he didn't see Gu Junqi.He is still sure that this is a remarkable woman, at least she has some advantages, otherwise how could he accept Song Weiran's bones?
Just before the inexplicable change in the marriage of the two people, Song Jingyan still firmly believed in Song Weiran's protection of Gu Junqi.Now that everything has been confirmed, Song Weiran's feelings towards Gu Junqi are definitely not false.On the contrary, how much sincerity he used is immeasurable.

At this moment, Song Jingyan just felt that "taking advantage of others' danger" was really despicable, and he, Song Jingyan, would not be reduced to such a villain.

However, everything was so bad that he had no chance to attack, even if it was a fair competition.Because Song Weiran's great love is there, no matter what he does, it is against morality.

Song Jingyan hoped that Song Weiran was just cruel, but in reality there was nothing wrong with him.In this way, he can simply regard him as a strong opponent, even if he really loses in this competition, there is nothing unwilling.Unlike now, he didn't even have a chance to make a move, so he was destined to let go.

Such a reluctance.

Finally the phone was pulled out.

Gu Junqi is still in the hospital, and she cannot leave until Ningxia is out of danger.

Fortunately, Xia Beibei was with her at this moment, so she wouldn't feel so helpless.

Song Jingyan said, "I'll go find you."

When he drove the car over, Gu Junqi was waiting for him outside the outpatient building.

Song Jingyan came over and said, "It's so cold outside, why don't you wait inside."

Gu Junqi said: "It's too stuffy inside, I just came out to get some air."

In the end, the two of them didn't go in and sat on the bench outside.

The sudden drop in temperature makes people feel uncomfortable.

Song Jingyan took off his coat and put it on her shoulders, thinking sadly that this would be the last time he cared about her with the feelings of a man towards a woman.After tonight, when they return to their respective positions, he will still respect her as his sister-in-law.

As soon as such thoughts settled down, a huge desolation surged up in my heart.It's not that Song Jingyan has never talked to a girlfriend before, but even the one with the deepest affection, when they broke up, they were not as mixed as they are now.

That kind of reluctance once dominated his thoughts, and he suddenly wanted to give up the shackles of morality, and then he sank willfully.However, the remaining rationality told him that he couldn't.

These years, while rejecting the Song family, he could not deny the "favor" of the Song family to him. This feeling of love and hatred has now been passed on to Song Weiran.Song Jingyan also felt that such complicated emotions were originally born from Song Weiran's body.

He has always been afraid of Song Weiran's ridicule and sarcasm, because he has regarded Song Weiran as an idol since he was a child, and every man has a heroic dream since childhood, Song Jingyan thinks that if he wants to be a hero, he must be open and aboveboard.So, first of all, he didn't want Song Weiran to look down on him, otherwise it would only mean that he was not upright enough, so he couldn't produce the effect of heroes sucking heroes.

Gu Junqi turned his head sideways: "Why don't you speak?"

Song Jingyan raised his chin slightly: "It's nothing serious, I just want to chat with you suddenly."

"What do you want to talk about?"

"Just talk about our Song family, and talk about my elder brother."

Gu Junqi gave a faint "Oh".

Song Jingyan took a deep breath and said, "I remember you once said that Song Weiran must not love you, because he never wanted to have a child with you. Now that I think about it a little bit, maybe he doesn't dare." He looked He glanced at Gu Junqi, and then said: "You must know what happened to the Song family a few years ago. After the accident in the hospital, my dad was sentenced as the main person in charge, and the Song family's hospital closed down because of this. The cause of the accident The reason is that the person in charge of purchasing medicines took bribes and introduced fake vaccines, which caused a huge disaster. More than a dozen children died after being rescued. The families of the victims turned the hospital upside down, and even burned paper to pay homage to the dead inside the hospital. At that time, my dad had been arrested, and my brother was in charge of the overall situation. In addition to the chaos caused by the sick family members, he also witnessed the deaths of those children I just heard that the scene was very tragic, many children were in deep pain, and the hospital at night was full of children crying in pain, heart-piercing. However, after rescue, some children still left forever. As for how much they endured before death Pain, no one dares to imagine. I just remember that when I came to the hospital with my mother early the next morning, I saw my brother sitting in the empty corridor on the top floor, crying silently, and he was shaking while sitting there. .To this day, I don’t know whether he was scared or sad because he never dared to bring up such old things.”

So, Song Jingyan thought, maybe deep down in Song Weiran's heart, he didn't deserve to have a child.Or maybe he has seen the pain and helplessness of those children, and he also knows the fragility of life. When the painful memories were buried in the years, he didn't want to be awakened again.

Gu Junqi sucked his nose tightly, not daring to happen, and unable to make any proper expression.I'm afraid that the taut face will completely collapse with a slight movement, and tears will flow out of the embankment.And her sadness will burst forth in this night.

Such a loud weeping sound would definitely make the whole hospital restless.

Gu Junqi remembered that after seeing a sad picture of a child's death in Zhongchuang, she and Song Weiran walked upstairs one after the other.At that time, Song Weiran's hands were cold and trembling, and the powerlessness of being a doctor overflowed from his body.She regretted it, why didn't she give him a warm hug at that time, and told him that in reincarnation, those children must be happy and healthy.

(End of this chapter)