sweet wife high above

Chapter 191 Not so
The wind rustled in my ears, as if secretly pouring out the sadness of the past.

Some sadness is rooted in the depths of time, knowing that it is wrong, but there is no way to repair it, and we can only let it make mistakes again and again, until we can't turn back all the way.

Gu Junqi lowered his head slightly, holding back the tears from the corners of his eyes.She tried her best to keep her body still, even if the whole world collapsed, she didn't intend to move again.

Because the internal organs are eroded by pain, the body has already been overwhelmed, and I am afraid that if I move a little, it will be shattered and invisible.

Only Wanfeng was whimpering as usual.

Song Jingyan knew that the meaning of meeting tonight was parting. Although he didn't say he held hands and looked at tears, his heart was full of reluctance and sadness.I wanted to continue talking, but my throat was tight, and I said after a while: "Actually, I had a good relationship with my elder brother when I was young, and I cling to him like a follower all day long. Although he would treat me when I was disobedient. Hit me, but never allow others to touch me. When I was young, I used to rely on having such a big brother, domineering in the circle, because I knew that no child would dare to bully me."

Later, due to his own reasons, his psychology changed, and he began to get farther and farther away from Song Weiran.However, Song Jingyan knew that no matter how rebellious he was, as the eldest brother, Song Weiran still did not abandon him.Otherwise, he would not be as harsh as he was when he was a child. In fact, there is nothing more worry-free than letting someone go.What's more, when he himself is full of worries, if he doesn't take it to his heart, how can he have the energy to take care of it.

Song Jingyan seemed to understand all of Song Weiran's anger in an instant. In the final analysis, he hated iron but not steel. His time was running out, so he wanted his younger brother to grow up quickly.And he always acted so incompetent, doing nothing all day or throwing a child's tantrum, so as to gather the attention of the whole family.Don't say that Song Weiran looks childish, even Song Jingyan himself thinks so.

Sometimes people's growth is forced, as if they have to grow up quickly at a certain point, otherwise they will not be able to cope with the changes of the environment and the flow of things in the world, and they can only be eliminated by the torrent.

Just like when the Song family collapsed many years ago, the disaster came overnight.Song Weiran was originally a carefree son, but he couldn't grow up overnight, no matter how immature his shoulders were, he still had to carry the collapsed backbone of the Song family.As for how to bear those sufferings?That is his own business, what others see is God's will.

However, when the time came to this point, it was time for Song Jingyan to grow up rapidly.

After Song Weiran, provoke the entire Song family, otherwise the Song family will be unsustainable.

Therefore, Song Weiran supported him so urgently, as if pointing a gun at his head, pulling him to practice on the battlefield.The reason is that one day when he leaves, he can stand alone.

Song Jingyan's throat was hoarse, and he couldn't speak a word anymore.Suddenly I feel that the most annoying thing in this world is a person's good intentions.The moment you react, it will bind you tightly like a great compassion curse, but as long as you are a person of conscience, no matter how hard you struggle, you will just be unable to escape.

He knew that after all these years, he would no longer be that rebellious and uninhibited prodigal who wandered the world when he had a disagreement.What he wants to do is Song Weiran's footsteps, that arduous journey where he shoulders the responsibility and is destined to no longer be able to do whatever he wants.

Song Jingyan didn't even think about whether he was up to the task, but Song Weiran had already handed over the banner of the Song family to him.Song Jingyan felt that this trust was like a shackle, which was bound to him like a curse.While asking him to shoulder the Song family, he had to give up the person in front of him as well.

He opened his mouth and said with a little difficulty: "He is a cunning and cunning old fox. I have never defeated him, and I will never have a chance in the future."

Gu Junqi became in a hurry, and now she was afraid of hearing words like "later", as if everything would become far away.

He suddenly raised his head and said, "Jing Yan, I'm going in to see Ningxia. I won't chat with you for now..."

Song Jingyan said: "Okay, you go in."

Gu Junqi returned the coat to him first, then turned and went into the building.

After walking a few steps, Song Jingyan called her from behind: "Jun Qi..."

Gu Junqi turned his head: "Huh?"

The faint smell of tobacco hit her, she was slightly startled, and she was already in his arms.Subconsciously want to struggle.

Song Jingyan clasped the back of her head tightly and said, "Don't move, let me hug you, and I will obediently treat you as my sister-in-law from now on."

Gu Junqi was stunned by his words.

There is silence between heaven and earth, only the beating of human heart is the faint vitality.The cold air was filling, so his arms were not warm.

Gu Junqi still seemed to be standing in the cold wind, knowing that this was not her shelter from the wind.

But Song Jingyan was only thinking about when he became so enamored with this woman that he couldn't help himself.

It was only at this moment of hugging that he realized when his heartbeat had turned into a whirlpool and completely swept him in. Song Jingyan didn't know how long it would take to get out.So, how does the person in his arms know his reluctance at this moment.It would be great if the time at this moment could be frozen forever. With her in his arms, he would not let go because of any helplessness in the world. For Song Jingyan, it was better than anything else.

However, knowingly can't.No matter how greedy you are, you will be forced to let go.

Song Jingyan withdrew his hand and told her: "It's cold outside, go in quickly."

Gu Junqi told him to go back earlier, and then walked in without looking back.

Song Jingyan stood there looking at her, as if looking at a person in the old time, wandering into the tunnel of time and space, walking farther and farther.And the outline in his heart will be like a tattoo, which cannot be erased.

He wanted to stretch out his hand and shout: "Love, goodbye."

However, the body is tightly bound, and even the words are not known where to start.All he can do is stand there and stare for a long time, like a statue guarding a person for thousands of years.

There are many kinds of unswerving until death in this world, not the only one that lasts forever.

Song Jingyan raised his hand and tore off the scarf, and threw it on the hospital bench when he left.

Let it be alone, anyway, that one will never come to accompany it.

Gu Junqi walked very fast, he seemed to be running around and running away all day, and his heart was also ups and downs.In fact, I was already very tired, and all the strength in my body had been squandered.I really want to find a place, even if it's just to sit quietly.But, can't.The ear is so noisy, all the topics are unsustainable, there is no tomorrow, and she hates the end of this tragedy, too much guilt will have nowhere to put it, how will she go on the next stage?
So, there is only escape.Only by avoiding it far away can we seek temporary peace, even if it is just self-deception.

Gu Junqi was gasping for breath, his eyes were confused, his steps were illusory, and finally he almost fell down.Fortunately, someone reached out in time to give her a hand.

She raised her eyes in a daze, and met those long and narrow eyes that were slightly narrowed.Gu Junqi sighed in his heart like a dream, who said that if these eyes are closed, they will not be opened?It was obviously still so vibrant, and the curved shape was also very beautiful, exactly the same as the slightly peachy color when she first saw it.

Seeing her standing there in a daze, Song Weiran loosened his fingers and said coldly, "Don't you look at people when you walk?"

Gu Junqi said mechanically, "I'm sorry."

Her throat was lightly choked, and she suppressed it, preventing the sadness from crawling out of her eyes.He said casually, "It's too cold outside."

"It's so cold that your eyes are hard to use, or is there something wrong with your brain?" Song Weiran mocked her bitterly.

If it was in the past, Gu Junqi would definitely have his gums itch from his anger.However, looking at him now, I just feel sad.That kind of obsession has deepened, and I really want to take a look in his heart, see the scars all over there, and the helplessness he bears.

Gu Junqi seemed to be in a daze tonight, but Song Weiran showed helplessness.Stop staring at her, and remind her when you leave: "Tomorrow morning at the same time, see you soon."

He walks away.

Gu Junqi heard the slight footsteps behind him, getting farther and farther away until they disappeared without a trace.

She stood there motionless, tears finally streaming down uncontrollably.The big ones flowed down the cheeks.She sniffed hard, but to no avail.

So she slowly raised her hand to cover her lower abdomen, and said in her heart: "Mom doesn't want to be sad, but there is no way."

Because his father was leaving, maybe from the very beginning, she couldn't give him a complete family.One day, when the child finally knows that there is such a role as a father in a family, what will she say when she opens her mouth to ask her for it?
Gu Junqi thought, at that time, she would tell her child: "You have the best dad in the world, so good that even God likes him, so he was called to heaven."

She turned around in a panic, and there was no one at the other end of the corridor, only the faint light shining on the smooth ground, showing an almost faint reflection.

Gu Junqi's tears flowed even harder, and he was eager to find him.

"Jun Qi, what are you doing there?"

Xia Beibei came out of the bathroom and saw her, and walked towards her directly.

Seeing the tears on Gu Junqi's face, he was startled: "What's wrong?"

Gu Junqi raised his hand and wiped it carelessly and said, "It's okay."

"Why are you crying?"

Gu Junqi shook his head, and only said, "Let's go and see Ningxia." Before he could take a step, he suddenly fell to the ground, feeling his legs were as limp as cotton.

Xia Beibei panicked and dragged her up, helping her to sit on a chair in the corridor.

"Is there any discomfort? I'll go to the doctor."

Gu Junqi held her back: "No need for Beibei, I'm fine. I just feel too tired today."

Xia Beibei remembered that she had been tossing around all day, and she didn't even eat well.He must have been exhausted, so he said, "Didn't Song Jingyan help arrange the rest in the ward before, you go to sleep for a while, if Ningxia wakes up, I will call you."

Gu Junqi also wanted to calm down.

"Okay, then I'll go to sleep for a while."

Xia Beibei helped her to go to the ward.

After Gu Junqi lay down, she went out.

The room was quiet, and all the experiences of the day passed through my mind like a revolving lantern, and I couldn't stop thinking about it.He rushed out unconsciously, and when he realized that he might go crazy if he continued to think about it, a long time had passed.

Therefore, Gu Junqi's head was about to explode.

At this moment, when the door opened, Xia Beibei walked in and said, "Junqi, Ningxia is awake."

Gu Junqi immediately got up and glanced at the time, it was more than two o'clock in the middle of the night.This shows that Ningxia has passed the dangerous period.

Ning Xia was lying on the bed, still receiving fluids.

Seeing Gu Junqi and Xia Beibei walk in, it feels like a lifetime away.

"Am I still alive?"

Xia Beibei said: "Of course you are alive, otherwise how would you see me. The doctor said that as long as you wake up, you will be fine and you can live a long life."

Ning Xia asked her, "Is this what the doctor said, or the fortune teller?"

Xia Beibei let out a "puchi" and wept with joy.

Ning Xia looked at Gu Junqi and asked her, "Are you okay?"

Gu Junqi approached and said, "I'm fine."

Ning Xia breathed a sigh of relief: "It's fine." Then he said: "When I saw you fall, I was scared to death."

If it wasn't for Song Weiran as a backup, Gu Junqi was not sure if he would be injured.However, although the body is intact, the heart has been greatly traumatized.Gu Junqi knew that it would be difficult to heal in this lifetime.

"Look at me standing here well, how can something happen. You should take care of your injuries, and you don't need to worry about other things."

Ning Xia just woke up. The doctor confirmed that her life would not be in danger after examination, so she was transferred to the general ward.

Gu Junqi and Xia Beibei didn't dare to disturb her for too long, they came out after telling her to take a good rest.

Xia Beibei looked at the time and couldn't help yawning: "I finally feel relieved, I can sleep for a while before dawn."

However, this "tomorrow" Gu Junqi suddenly didn't look forward to it at all.

When Xia Beibei fell asleep, she sat by the window and waited for dawn.Watching the darkest period before dawn pass by a little bit, the sky turns pale, and then the sun slowly climbs out from the horizon.

Gu Junqi knows that when the sun rises, it heralds the arrival of a new day, and it also heralds the end of her and Song Weiran.

The man she was so obsessed with once, she squandered a lot of good luck to get married with him, but now she will be separated forever.

As for the next life, the next life... Gu Junqi doesn't have such daydreams at all, knowing that it is impossible.If people miss this life, they will never see each other again in eternity.When I think of these, I suddenly feel heartbroken.Only then did I realize that all the previous hatred was so overwhelming that it would be futile to look back.To be broken by one light blow of love.

It turns out that love in this world is enough to dissolve hatred, if it can't be offset, it can only mean that there is not enough love.

It was dawn, Xia Beibei got up from the bed, saw Gu Junqi sitting in front of the window in a daze, and couldn't help asking: "Did you get up early?"

Gu Junqi didn't sleep at all, stood up and said: "You can take breakfast to Ningxia, I have something to do in the morning, I have to go out."

Xia Beibei said, "Okay."

Gu Junqi drove home, afraid that Sun Qing would be worried, so he didn't tell Sun Qing what happened yesterday morning, only that Ning Xia was accidentally injured and she was accompanying her in the hospital.

As soon as she came in, Sun Qing saw her thick dark circles and asked, "Have you not slept all night?"

Gu Junqi rubbed his eyes and said: "Sleep a little." Then he sighed: "It's scary to get older. If you sleep less, you will become panda eyes."

"I know it's nonsense, you are old, so your mother is going to die in peace?"

Gu Junqi said dissatisfiedly: "Mom, don't talk nonsense."

Sun Qing laughed, and then asked her: "How is Ningxia? I made breakfast and planned to take it there. I didn't expect you to come back so early."

"Ningxia's life is not in danger. It will be fine after a period of recuperation in the hospital. Beibei has already bought her breakfast, so you don't need to send it there. I have some errands to do in the morning and come back at noon to bring her food."

Sun Qing said, "That's fine."

Gu Junqi went back to the bedroom after washing up, and carefully put on his makeup in front of the mirror.Just like the day when she made up her mind to seduce Song Weiran, she only managed to dress herself up as a butterfly in front of the mirror. She used 21 procedures to decorate herself until she was satisfied and couldn't pick out any flaws before she took her bag and left. go out.

Today's Gu Junqi is equally grand, but his state of mind is quite different from that time.At that time, I only had one idea, which was to charm all living beings, and tried my best to turn myself into a goblin to confuse Song Weiran's eyes.All I can do now is to hope to give Song Weiran a glimpse of the visual effect when the last shot flashes past.I hope that in his lifetime, when he thinks of her again, he will always look as beautiful as a flower.It also made her a worthwhile trip in his life.

Therefore, it was full of tragedy along the way.During the distance from home to the coffee shop, Gu Junqi figured out everything, and at the same time was tired of this familiar city.So, in the end, she will leave here without hesitation.

The moment he opened the door and came in, Song Weiran was still shocked.But, then again, when he married Gu Junqi, it was because this woman completely liked him, from the inside out.Therefore, whenever he looked at her, he was impeccable.

At that time, he was thinking that if he wanted to grow old with this woman, even if his hair was gray and his teeth were gone, he would not dislike her.

However, it was obvious that he couldn't wait for that day, and couldn't see her turning into an old lady.

He lowered his head and took a sip of coffee, comforting himself bitterly, saying that it's actually nothing like this.They bloomed in each other's best years, and he will never forget her until his death, and when Gu Junqi thinks of her, he should look so well-dressed.Song Weiran thought, there is nothing wrong with this.

The eyes of the two people in the air quietly overlapped.

The lawyer has already taken out the divorce agreement, and if there is anything that needs to be explained in detail, I still have to tell her.

Gu Junqi listened patiently.

He glanced at Song Weiran from time to time, holding a cup and looking out the window lazily.The faint light shone on his face, making the man's facial features look like knife carvings, and he was as handsome as a statue.

A few years have passed, and the wind and frost have not left a trace on his face, so it is said that women age quickly, which is true.This kind of Song Weiran is only more stable and noble than in the past, and her features are still the same as she used to be fascinated by.

Gu Junqi has been distracted, but he didn't listen to a word of what the lawyer said.However, it doesn't matter anymore.

Therefore, when the lawyer asked her if there was anything else she didn't understand, she could explain it otherwise.

Gu Junqi picked up the pen in hand and said: "There is nothing unclear, you can sign now."

The tip of the pen slid a few times, and the fate that had been cultivated for several lifetimes ended like this.It's so easy, it has to make people feel that they still don't practice enough, otherwise they will surely grow old forever.

However, they had only been with each other for a few short years, and the former eachother had already collapsed.

As if a natural disaster struck, the lovers were forced to separate.No matter how much you want to hold the opponent's hand, you can't.

Gu Junqi resisted the urge to cry, raised his head, and said with relief: "As you wish, I, Gu Junqi, will have nothing to do with your Song family in the future."

Song Weiran put down the cup in his hand, expressing his satisfaction: "It's great that you are enlightened like this, and you can move your things away together when you have time someday."

Gu Junqi said, "I know."

Song Weiran stood up and took a step ahead with the lawyer.

They walked out of the cafe, and the door closed silently behind them.

Gu Junqi's eyes were hot, he took a breath, and found that tears had overflowed the corners of his mouth at some point, full of bitter taste.

She turned her head and saw that it was snowing in the sky, and large flakes of snowflakes were falling down.

Gu Junqi ran out like crazy, pushed open the heavy door, and saw Song Weiran and his lawyer walking towards the parking lot, but she stood there choked up and didn't even have the courage to catch up.After seeing Song Weiran's tall and straight figure covered by the heavy snow, even her vision was blurred a little bit.

She wanted to shout and scream, but she couldn't.

When he walked to the parking lot, his body was already covered with snowflakes.

The cold wind blowing in from the entrance felt extra biting.

The lawyer hits the car door.

Song Weiran was silent all the way, and said: "You go first."

The lawyer said sensiblely, "Okay, I'll go first, Mr. Song."

Song Weiran leaned on the car door and lit a cigarette, letting the snowflakes melt away bit by bit.

After only a moment, his eye sockets were slightly red.

It is said that when it snows, two people walk hand in hand, and they can go all the way to Baitou.And they, as they walked, they scattered.

It was a joke made by God, but God's will cannot be violated, and it always seems impossible to escape.

So far, Song Weiran has endured countless hardships.However, there was never a moment that made his heart ache like this one.

He felt hot and hot in his chest, and there was nothing he could do to get rid of it.He could only take a deep breath, trying to relieve the burning feeling.

I don't know how long I stood there, my body was already cold.He just opened the door and sat in.

The car drove through the city's river, Song Weiran looked out the window, suddenly feeling bored.If every day in the future has to be spent like this, death is worse than coming earlier.

Or an eraser can be used to erase all the memories of happiness in his mind, so that those images of Gu Junqi will disappear.

And he wasn't even breathing hard.

The phone rang, and Suri asked him where he was.

"Why are you running around like a patient? I heard from Zhongchuang's medical staff that you are not in the ward."

Song Weiran said: "I divorced Gu Junqi."

Su Rui was silent for a moment, this moment has finally come.

Xu Yu: "Let's talk about it when we meet."

When Song Weiran wandered in, Su Rui saw his decadence at a glance.Since then, the man's soul has been taken out, and his every day will be more like a walking dead.

That's why she always disapproved of Song Weiran's divorce with Gu Junqi.If a person has no support at all, he is left to fall.

However, Song Weiran insisted, no one could do anything about it.

Suri said: "Given your current situation, you'd better drink water."

Song Weiran pushed aside: "I want to drink tonight."

"court death."

"If I don't look for it, it will come to me."

Suri was speechless.

Song Weiran twitched the corner of his lower lip: "What are you doing so seriously? Regarding the fact that I'm about to die, haven't you accepted it after all the mental preparation for so long?"

Su Rui was furious: "Do you think this kind of thing will be painless and accept it calmly after a long time?" He straightened up with a serious face: "I tell you Song Weiran, It will never be possible. Even if you do all the cruel things, break Gu Junqi's heart, and make her not love you like before, but when she hears the news of your death, she will still feel sad."

Song Weiran glanced at him quietly with dark eyes and said: "Even if she still feels sad, but because of the lack of love, she will no longer feel heart-piercing. If she meets the right person again, she will soon Throwing myself into the next relationship and forgetting about me forever. It's better than cutting it out and cutting her out of her life while her relationship is alive. If it seems to you that I let If she leaves with all that hatred for me, just to reduce her pain, then you are wrong."

Su Rui looked at him puzzled.

Song Weiran squinted his eyes slightly when he spoke: "I just want to end the hatred here, when will the grievance be repaid, but if Gu Junqi doesn't leave, when I die, the hatred between the Song and Gu families will shine brightly, compared to losing My pain, the resentment of the Song family and the world are the real suffering. If we break up here, who will have the leisure to provoke."

When this period of hatred is no longer mentioned, it will be considered as a real offset.Otherwise, even if he lets go, the rest of the Song family may not be able to let go. After all, the Song family has suffered a lot because of this, and it is reasonable to not be able to let go.

Therefore, since she is unable to protect her anymore, it is better to keep her away from the place of right and wrong.He has already given her what should be given, and staying in the Song family is by no means the best choice.

Su Rui was so shocked that he couldn't speak for a moment. He had always known Song Weiran's affection for Gu Junqi. She turned him into a fool and did many unbelievable things at one time.

But he didn't expect that Song Weiran's pushing Gu Junqi away had a deeper meaning.I believe that this page is not only for Song Weiran, but even Gu Junqi himself wants to turn over it thoroughly.The mistakes of the year may have been unintentional.Some people have already paid for it, so who wants to mention it?

The final result of grievances is that they should be buried, otherwise they will be entangled in resentment, which will not only make the living feel uneasy, but even the dead can't keep their eyes open.

Just because of this, Su Rui has to say that Song Weiran is a wise man.He and Gu Junqi seem to have a deep relationship, and now the best way is to end it, no matter whether it is love or hate, the result of the end is to untie yourself, and never make things difficult for others, and let yourself go.In this way, life has the possibility of endless happiness.

Now even Su Rui feels that it is indeed the best choice for Gu Junqi to leave the Song family.

Only when everything is over can we start over.

Otherwise, the rest of your life will be an endless cycle of misery.

Su Rui thought for a while, but didn't tell Gu Junqi that he had told the truth.Since Gu Junqi is still willing to divorce Song Weiran after learning the truth, it means that she does not intend to expose him, and wants the plot to continue as Song Weiran imagined.Only in this way can Song Weiran feel relieved and leave without regret.

However, the result of doing so is to leave the Song family, which is also what Song Weiran wants.

In the final analysis, they are enduring pain and helping each other.It is enough to love someone in your own unique way.

After sitting for a while, Su Rui said, "You've been out for a long time, go back to the hospital quickly. Otherwise, they'll go crazy after you, and you're the one who's in trouble."

Song Weiran took a sip of water and said, "It's time to go back."

Su Rui followed him out and saw him driving alone, so he said, "Let's ask the driver to drive when you come out in the future. It can also show your identity."

"Are you worried that something will happen to me at any time?" Song Weiran shook his head: "It seems that my condition is really very bad. I don't know if I can see the sun tomorrow."

With that said, he had already opened the door and got into the car.

Su Rui really wanted to say: "Don't talk nonsense." However, the words were hard to come by.Song Weiran was right, his condition was indeed very bad.Su Rui was thinking last night that no matter what, he must arrange surgery as soon as possible, otherwise he really doesn't know what will happen.

(End of this chapter)