Who do you think of when you are alone

Chapter 4

Lan really drank too much, and was suffocated by Xiao Yi, unable to hold on, and fell limply on the dirty floor of the bathroom.

"Get up, get up!" Xiao Yi pulled her hard, her eyes were closed and she remained motionless.

"Lan!" Xiao Yi patted her cheek vigorously, "Lan, wake up!"

"Oh." Lan opened his eyes and spit out a word, but then he tilted his head and passed out quickly.It was only then that Xiao Yi realized that she had a fever, and her whole body was burning hot.

The blue was very heavy, and Xiao Yi couldn't drag it, so she had to run out to find someone to help.As soon as he got outside, Liu Chang grabbed him and said, "I saw you coming in, and I thought you were fooled."

"Lan, blue." Xiao Yi pointed to the bathroom and said incoherently, "She fainted!"

"Don't worry." Liu Chang said, "Someone faints here every day. I'll find someone to help her sleep in the lounge."

Xiao Yi leaned against the aisle helplessly, watching Liu Chang find someone to hold Lan out, Lan seemed to have passed out completely, her cheeks were flushed, and the blue eye shadow had completely faded away, leaving only some blue marks of regret .

"Going to the hospital." Xiao Yi said to Liu Chang who was standing beside her, "She has a fever."

"It's okay." Liu Chang pulled her and said, "Let's go and listen to my singing. We will end at twelve o'clock, and it's time for Lan to wake up. It won't be too late for me to send you back by then."

"No." Xiao Yi said, "I'm going back, I'll leave Lan to you, thank you."

"Listen to one song, just one!" Liu Chang stood in front of him and said beggingly, "Is it good or not?"

Liu Chang looked at Xiao Yi, and there was a sincerity in his eyes that one couldn't bear to refuse.Xiao Yi silently followed Liu Chang back to the lobby of the bar, Liu Chang arranged her to sit in a corner near the stage.The keyboard player played the prelude when he saw Liu Chang appear, Liu Chang jumped onto the stage, picked up the guitar and sat in front of the microphone, smiled, and said in an affectionate voice: "The next song is for the beautiful Xiao Yi. "

After the boos there was only the music, and then Liu sang impeccably:

I believe in a baby's eyes I don't believe in a lying heart

I believe in salty tears I don't believe in sweet tenderness
I believe in the caressing wind, I don't believe in the wandering clouds
I believe in the truth of adversity, I don't believe in the promises of life after life
If it turns into a pile of stones, my heart won't hurt anymore

Don't go at the beginning, you won't feel my affection
This is my declaration of love I'm telling the world

This is my declaration of love I'm telling the world

……

Just after Lan just uttered a cruel truth, it was an affectionate feeling that Xiao Yi couldn't and couldn't bear.In the singing of Liu Chang, she stood up and walked outside the bar.Only then did I realize that it was raining in winter outside, and the rain was still heavy, blowing the neon lights into lonely and damp colors.Xiao Yi gritted her teeth and stepped into the rain.The strange thing is that I don't feel cold, probably because my heart is already extremely cold.

When approaching the school gate, someone suddenly caught up and shouted her name: "Xiao Yi, Xiao Yi!"

It was Liu Chang, running up with an umbrella.He put the umbrella over Xiao Yi's head, and said reproachfully, "Why don't you even have the patience to finish listening to a song?"

"Don't you need to sing?" Xiao Yi took out a tissue and wiped her rain-drenched face and hair under the umbrella.

"What is more important than you?" Liu Chang said.

Xiao Yi lowered her head and smiled: "Liu Chang, you are so stupid."

"Really?" Liu Chang said, "I don't think so."

"I'm leaving." Xiao Yi turned around and left.

"My aunt, let me take you back. You'll catch a cold!" Liu Chang grabbed the umbrella with one hand and pulled Xiao Yi back under the umbrella with the other.

Xiao Yi didn't struggle anymore.

The two walked to the door of the girls' dormitory like this, Xiao Yi said goodbye to Liu Chang, only to find that his umbrella was only covering Xiao Yi from the rain, and she was already drenched to the ground.

"Wet." Xiao Yi pointed to his clothes and said.

"Hehe. It's okay." Liu Chang patted his clothes nonchalantly, "I'm going to sing soon, goodbye."

That night, Lan didn't come back.

Xiao Yi sleeps for a while and wakes up for a while, listening to the sound of Dongyu hitting the window.It seems that it has not rained for a long time, and it seems that it has not been seen for a long time. Some things reunite after a long time, which is a very strange attachment.

When I see Ye again, maybe I really don't know what to say.

At nine o'clock in the morning, Liu Chang called. He said, "Lan was on water in the hospital. Last night I saw that she really had a bad fever, so I sent her to the hospital."

"I'll come." Xiao Yi said.

When Xiao Yi rushed to the hospital, the blue water was almost finished. She closed her eyes, as if she had fallen asleep.

Liu Chang said: "The doctor said that he can't be discharged from the hospital, and we need to observe it again."

"Go back and rest first." Xiao Yi said, "I've been tired all night."

"Alright, I'll go back to sleep and pick you up later."

Xiao Yi kept sending Liu Chang to the door of the ward, Liu Chang looked back at her and said, "Fortunately, you look much better today than last night."

"Thank you." Xiao Yi said sincerely.

"I owe it first. I'll ask you to pay it back later!" After Liu Chang finished speaking, he turned around and strode away.

Xiao Yi returned to Lan's hospital bed, her eyes were still closed.Xiao Yi gently held Lan's hand, and asked softly, "Lan, is what you said true?"

Lan's body trembled slightly.

"Tell me." Xiao Yi said, "I think I can accept it. In fact, there are many facts. If you accept it early or late, you have to accept it. Don't you think so?"

Blue eyes slowly opened.She looked at Xiao Yi, and slowly said two words: "Really."

"I don't believe it." Xiao Yi lay down on the hospital bed and burst into tears, "He has always loved me, he has always loved me, there is no way he could have another woman, you must be wrong, you are lying... "

A nurse came over and signaled her to keep quiet.

"You are even more stupid than Liu Chang." Lan struggled to sit up and said, "If I beat you, you will believe me."

Xiao Yi felt weak all over, and only felt that she was the one who was sick.She actually wanted Lan to slap her, hard.Perhaps only in this way can the suffocating pain in my heart be diverted and relieved.

But Lan didn't know that she had always believed it. From the moment Lan told the truth, she had no choice but to believe in this cruel fact.

"Xiao Yi." Lan suddenly said, "Let me see your eyes."

"What?" Xiao Yi raised her head.

"It's nothing." Lan said, "I just heard from Liu Chang that you have a pair of pure eyes like a baby."

When Xiao Yi heard Lan's words, a trace of inexplicable warmth flashed through her heart inexplicably. She remembered the lyrics that Liu Chang sang last night: I believe in the eyes of babies, but I don't believe in the heart that lies...

"That kid is fascinated by you." Lan said, "so fascinated, you suggest that you just take this opportunity to kick Ye Yikick and live the most romantic life with him. Who will say goodbye first these days?" Whoever wins."

"Hearing what you said, it seems that I can't live without a boyfriend." Xiao Yi touched Lan's forehead and said, "Get well soon, stop messing around, you can't drink to show off."

"Xiao Yi, I'm sorry." Lan looked quite embarrassed.

"what!"

"Maybe I shouldn't tell you. Some things are actually better not to know than to know. Maybe it's better for Ye to tell you personally."

"That woman..." Xiao Yi asked with difficulty, "What does she look like?"

"It's completely different from yours, wearing Ports, very beautiful, and looks very rich." Lan said, "They were in front of me, and the doctor told that woman to drink less alcohol in the early stages of pregnancy."

"Why didn't he recognize you?"

"He glanced at me with no expression on his face, I don't know if he recognized it or not."

Ye met Lan twice, but always in a hurry.Xiao Yi believes that he didn't recognize, Ye has always been so careless about people and things that she is not interested in.

"What are you going to do?" Lan asked, "Showdown with him?"

Xiao Yi didn't answer, but said: "You must be hungry, I'll go buy some food for you."

"Meat buns." Lan said, "I'm different. The sicker I am, the more I can eat. I'm really hungry."

Xiao Yi walked out of the ward, the sky was incomparably blue after being washed by rain all night, and the air was cold and dry.Someone was selling pigeons at the entrance of the hospital. They were flapping gray wings that could no longer fly in the iron cage.

Coming out of the supermarket, Xiao Yi, who was walking back with a lot of things, dialed Ye's cell phone.

"Xiao Yi." Ye's voice sounded exhausted, "I was about to call you."

"Oh." Xiao Yi said, "Is Beijing cold?"

"It's okay." Ye said, "How are you?"

"Fortunately."

"Xiao Yi..."

"Needless to say. I know it all."

"What do you know?" Ye Yi was surprised.

"Say goodbye, don't you?" Xiao Yi bit her lip, trying to make her voice normal, "Ye, I won't blame you, no matter what decision you make, I won't blame you."

Ye was silent over there.

Xiao Yi waited patiently for him to speak.

About 1 minute, about a century long, Xiao Yi finally heard Ye say: "Xiao Yi, you have to remember, I love you."

Xiao Yi, you have to remember, I love you.

This is the last sentence Ye said to Xiao Yi.

After that, he turned off the phone.

No matter how Xiao Yi dialed, it was always the cold female voice: The number you dialed is not in the service area.

Flying back to the ward, Xiao Yi put a lot of food in front of Lan's bed, and said to Lan, "I'm sorry, you stay alone for a while, I have something urgent to do, and I'll come back to accompany you when I'm done."

"Xiao Yi." Lan grabbed her and said, "Are you going to find Ye?"

Xiao Yi nodded.

"Don't be noisy." Lan said, "The more noisy you are, the more hurtful your relationship will be."

"No noise." Xiao Yi said.

"Then go." Lan waved his hand and said, "It's better to have a clear ending than anything else."

Xiao Yi hit the door of Ye's house.Someone was moving things downstairs, Xiao Yi recognized the coffee table, it was Ye's coffee table, how many times, Ye put his legs on the coffee table, Xiao Yi leaned on his lap, the two chatted for a while.

"What are you doing!" Xiao Yi grabbed a worker and asked.

"Move," said the worker.

"Where do you move to?"

"These furniture are given away." The worker said, "The landlord bought this house, and the furniture he doesn't like will be given away."

"Who bought this house?" Xiao Yi screamed.

"Ask me who am I asking!" The worker became impatient, and walked past Xiao Yi with the coffee table.Xiao Yi ran upstairs in three steps at a time, and saw a middle-aged woman directing several workers to do this and that.

"Who are you?" Seeing Xiao Yi standing there blankly with a key in her hand, she asked.

"Who are you?" Xiao Yi said, "This is Ye's house."

"I bought this house yesterday." The middle-aged woman said, "What's the matter?"

"Ye sold the house to you?" Xiao Yi said, "What about others?"

"I don't know. I bought it through an intermediary."

Xiao Yi felt dizzy and was about to collapse.This is Ye's house, he doesn't even want the house, what else would he want?What happened and why?
The middle-aged woman looked at Xiao Yi and said kindly, "You look very bad, why don't you sit down and drink a glass of water, it's just too messy inside."

"Do you still want to remove the fish from the fish tank?" A worker asked loudly.

"No more!" The middle-aged woman also raised her voice.

"Yes!" Xiao Yi's voice was even louder, "Don't throw away the little pet!"

Shouting, she rushed into the kitchen, frantically found a glass with a lid, filled it with water, and rushed out again, saying, "Give me my pet, don't throw it away."

The little golden fish was fished out, and aggrievedly swam into the small glass, but still wagging its tail happily.Xiao Yi felt sad, and tears dripped disobediently on the dusty lid of the glass, and she squatted on the ground holding the bottle.

"It's all right." Seeing this, the middle-aged woman told the worker to stop first, walked behind Xiao Yi, handed her a tissue and said, "What's your relationship with the person who used to live here, girlfriend?"

Xiao Yi took the tissue, sobbed and asked, "Why did he sell the house?"

"I just know that the original owner is anxious for cash. If it weren't for the good location here, I wouldn't have bought his things together. Look, there are not many things that can be used, and there are 2 extra money out of thin air. Thousands of dollars."

Xiao Yi looked around and suddenly saw the laptop on the desk.Hastily wiped away tears and asked the middle-aged woman, "Is this computer also sold?"

"Correct."

"Sell it to me." Xiao Yi said eagerly, "Please sell it to me."

This computer contains all of Xiao Yi's articles, Ye said, this is Xiao Yi's computer, as long as Xiao Yi wants to, she can use it anytime.Xiao Yi got up and turned on the computer, the screen saver was a photo of her and Ye, Ye hugged her tightly, and pressed her chin against Xiao Yi's long hair.

They used to be so in love with each other.

"If you want, 5000 yuan." The middle-aged woman said, "I don't use a computer anyway, so let's sell it cheap."

"You wait for me." Xiao Yi said, "I'll get the money soon."

"Okay. I'll be here until four o'clock in the afternoon." The middle-aged woman looked at her with infinite sympathy and said.

Xiao Yi took Xiao Pet and walked out, the sun at noon in winter made her feel dizzy and drowsy.She sits on the stone steps in front of the building and calls S's cell phone. She has known S's number for a long time, but she seldom calls it.

"Huh?" S said, "Is it Xiao Yi?"

"S, S." Xiao Yi panted, "Please lend me 5000 yuan!"

"what happened?"

"Please lend me 5000 yuan." Xiao Yi said eagerly with a trembling voice, "5000 yuan, right away. S please!"

"Okay, Xiao Yi, okay." S said, "Don't worry, just talk slowly if you have anything to do, give me your bank card number, and I'll go and transfer it to your card right away."

"Thank you." Xiao Yi breathed out, "I will definitely pay you back soon."

"Are you okay?" S asked with concern, "Is 5000 yuan enough? If not, I'll lend you more."

"No more." Xiao Yi knows that S is not rich, he often scolds the boss, and often complains that his income for a month is not as good as someone else's manuscript fee.But apart from S, Xiao Yi doesn't know who else she can turn to.

She hung up the phone, entered the bank card numbers into the mobile phone one by one, and then sent it to S in a short message, and appended a sentence: "Thank you for your kindness, I will pay you back as soon as possible."

S quickly replied: "Look at you, you are serious. We are all friends. If you have something to say, just talk."

When it was almost dusk, Xiao Yi returned to school with Xiao Chong in her hand and Ye Chongzhong's laptop on her shoulder.As soon as I arrived at the school gate, I saw Lan and Liu Chang. They ran to Xiao Yi, and Lan said anxiously, "Where have you been? The phone can't get through!"

"The phone is out of battery." Xiao Yi said.

"What is this?" Lan pointed to the big bag on her shoulder and said, "It's almost crushing you!"

"Give it to me!" Liu Chang took the laptop off her body and said, "Is it a computer, bought it for writing?"

"Give it to me." Xiao Yi said, "Give it to me."

"It's so heavy, let me carry it for you." Liu Chang refused to let go.

Xiao Yi reached out to grab it, only to hear a "boom", the glass bottle in her hand was not clenched tightly, and fell to the ground and shattered into pieces. Xiao Pet flew out and lay on the ground struggling desperately.

"Xiao Chong!" Xiao Yi squatted down, looked at Xiao Chong on the ground helplessly, and shouted hoarsely at Liu Chang, "Go away, go away!"

Liu Chang froze for a moment and ran away.

"Why are you crazy, it's just a fish." Lan helped Xiao Yi up and said, "Okay, let's go back to the dormitory and talk about it."

Xiao Yi pushes Lan away.Looking at the little pet that was gradually blurring in front of her eyes, the whole world turned into ruins.

I don't know how long it took before I heard the footsteps of someone running over, and then I heard Liu Chang's voice: "It's all right, it will be all right soon."

Xiao Yi raised her head and found that Liu Chang had found a bowl full of water from somewhere, picked up Xiao Chong from the ground and put it into the bowl, after a short while, Xiao Chong was happy again Swim in the water.

"I said it's going to be all right. Some goldfish have a lot of life." Liu Chang smiled like a child, stepped forward, brought the bowl to Xiao Yi and said, "Look, it's still alive."

Xiao Yi took the bowl carefully.

"Save it in time, and make up for it." Liu Chang said, "Auntie, if you don't laugh anymore, I will really cry."

"He disappeared." Xiao Yi looked at Xiao Chong and whispered, "He disappeared and will never come back."

"How can a good person disappear?" Lan didn't believe it.

"If it disappears, it will disappear." Liu Chang put Ye's laptop on his shoulder again, and said cheerfully, "Then I really wish for it."

"You have a conscience! Don't take advantage of others!" Lan slapped Liu Chang heavily on the back.

Liu Chang laughed loudly: "Let it be! If you don't go to the old, don't you come to the new, this world is like this!"

The school radio station suddenly sang loudly, it was Chen Huilin's "Three Seconds", and the radio station's volume was turned up too loudly, making people's ears hurt from the noise.Xiao Yi was held by Lan and followed behind Liu Chang, thinking sadly, how could Ye leave in less than three seconds.

Or is everything really like the lyrics that Liu Chang sang: Is it turning into a pile of stones, and my heart will no longer hurt?Don't start, so you can't feel my affection?
(End of this chapter)