I forget you in the depths of time

Chapter 190 The Long-lost Past

Song Qingyue forgot to ask the worker for a flashlight, so she ran in in a hurry, and walked along the route she walked here today, using the flashlight that came with her mobile phone, bowing her head and carefully searching the ground.

She remembered that she and Shao Ming deliberately went to see the center of gravity of the first phase of the project, standing by the small lake in the central park, looking at the shape of the building while comparing the drawings.

Logically speaking, even if it really fell, it should have fallen near here...

The necklace is a broken diamond, and it will refract a certain amount of light when it is exposed to strong light in a dark environment, but she has been searching here for so long, and basically did not see it.

Before I knew it, I walked to the side of the small lake and rummaged through the artificially planted green grass around me.

Suddenly, she was stung by the refracted light.

I took a photo with a flashlight again, and after confirming that there was a refraction reaction, I was overjoyed.

Stretching out her hand, she hissed and retracted immediately.

With the help of the flashlight, she clearly saw the cut in her hand, and she took a picture of the place where she just stretched out her hand. When she saw the piece of glass buried in the grass, Song Qingyue sighed in frustration.

Not her necklace...

She stood up, standing still in a depressed mood.

Neither here, so where would it fall?

Is she useless?Can't even keep a necklace...

"Will you blame me? I've worked hard to find it again..."

It was quiet all around, not even a light.

The wind blew and rustled the surrounding leaves.

Her hands were still bleeding, but Song Qingyue seemed unconscious.

The eyelashes trembled slightly, and in a blink of an eye, the roots of the eyelashes were moist.

"I'm so tired... why did you throw such a big burden on me, Shen Yichen, I miss you so much..."

For the company and for Shen Zhiyuan, she worked hard, not only to prove herself, but also to protect the career that Shen Yichen left behind. What's more, she used her work to numb herself so that she had no free time to think about it.

The whole person is spinning like a 24-hour high-speed spinning top, immersed in work every day, and she will be in a daze when she stops occasionally.

Her mind was empty, she didn't know what she was thinking, but she clearly realized that she didn't want to wake up and face reality, she would rather be immersed in the weaving environment than face this world without him soberly.

She once said that since meeting Shen Yichen, her world has been constructed around him, and she wanted to give up on him and find her own life.

later--

Song Qingyue found that after leaving him, her world became barren.

Who can use the enthusiasm of the second decade to build another world?
She didn't.

She was very tired, beyond exhaustion, even closing her eyes seemed like a tedious task.

Sometimes when seeing Shen Zhiyuan, Song Qingyue would be in a trance.

His son was becoming more and more like him, seeing things and thinking about others, and it was impossible for her to completely break away from this vicious circle.

She was wrong, very wrong.

It's too late to admit my mistake now...

Song Qingyue looked at the other side of the small lake in a daze in bewilderment, not noticing the people who were getting closer behind her.

Reach out and push hard.

With a "plop", Song Qingyue was pushed down into the cool and icy lake without any warning.

She doesn't know water, and the depth of this artificial lake is deep enough to drown people.

Song Qingyue struggled twice, the lake water poured into her throat and nose, choking and suffocating.

She couldn't even call out for help, she struggled to surface, and was dragged down again.

The extent of the struggle gradually became smaller, and she gave up the desire to survive, allowing herself to sink.

It's fine even if he's dead, so... can I see him?

Suicide will go to hell, maybe you can't touch him; accidental death, can you go to heaven?

Her eyelids became heavier and heavier, and she feebly closed her lower pupils. When she opened a thin slit, she vaguely saw the shadow of Shen Yichen.

He stretched out his hand strenuously to touch it, but he lost all strength and dropped his hand.

Fifteen years ago, it was Shen Yichen who saved her.

After 15 years, no one can save her, and she doesn't want to be rescued.

She voluntarily gave up the chance to survive, and when it ended like this, she was relieved.

Before she lost consciousness, she vaguely recalled those vague pasts, shrunk to the size of a circle of light, and the light and shadow passed by. Between the shuttles, she saw herself who had just turned five years old, alone in the hospital, with a disfigured face in front of her. Fei's corpse, bloody and bloody, she was terrified after just one glance.

She stayed in the hospital until midnight, when she suddenly burst into tears, crying for her father, and the adults told her that her father was dead.

She is still young, so she doesn't know what it means to die, she just knows that her father doesn't want her anymore, and she won't have a father anymore.

She hugged the teddy bear and cried until her voice was hoarse and her eyes were red and swollen.

She was later picked up from the hospital by a family who identified themselves as her relatives.

When she first arrived in a strange environment, she was crying to find her father at first, but after being beaten twice, she dared not speak up.

Every day he was locked up in a dilapidated, dark shabby house without food or drink.

She wanted to go out very much, but she was afraid that she would be beaten if she spoke, so she developed a dull temper and kept her mouth shut.

I don't know how long it was closed, but one day, the only window that could connect to the outside world was knocked.

A small head popped out, looking at her through the slit of the window, "Hey, are you still alive?"

She didn't know that person, she hugged the bear, her whole body was dirty, and she looked at that person warily with her big clean eyes.

Afterwards, the little boy came every day, passing in food and water from time to time through the gap in the window.

Over time, she knew that the other party had no malice, and let go of her defenses.

In the middle of the night that day, there was a knocking sound on the window being pried.

Song Qingyue curled up at the foot of the bed in fear, staring at the window without blinking.

Suddenly, the window was pried open.

The clear and bright moonlight leaped in from the window, and the little boy who jumped into the low room and dark room under the cold moonlight saw her at first sight and said, "Come with me, your aunt said she was going to sell you." .”

She doesn't know what selling is, but when he mentions her aunt, her body trembles when she was young.

"Don't be afraid, come with me, I will protect you!"

By coincidence, she looked at the scorching gaze of the young man, which was clear and bright, without any impurities but filled with firm amber-like eyes, she believed it.

Stretching out his hand, he followed him through the window and went out.

The long-lost fresh air, the long-lost world, and... this inexplicable person who descended like a god.

He led her to run, and after running for a long distance, she could still hear her aunt's loud voice, "That little girl ran away! Go find it! I negotiated the price with Brother Wang, and I took all the money. Now people Run away, what am I going to pay for? Brother Wang will kill us!"

Her aunt's voice was like a reminder, prompting her to run forward desperately.

After running for an unknown amount of time, they collapsed from exhaustion.

She heard the other party's panting but hearty laughter, "Hahaha, I didn't expect you to be so good at running!"

She still didn't speak until she stretched out a clean hand in front of her, "My name is Jin Jingyu, I will be your brother from now on, and I will protect you."

Jin Jingyu...

He fulfilled his promise. They were adopted by an orphanage. When they first entered, they would often be teased by other children, especially her. She was too weak to be bullied. Every time, he would stand in the way Fighting with those kids in front of me.

She always kept the good things for her when she got them. This was the first warmth she felt after her father left.

She doesn't communicate with other children, but she has no reservations with Jin Jingyu. She often talks inconsequentially, and others can't understand. Only he can listen patiently and talk to herself.

She often called him, "Brother Yu."

He said that when they got rich, he would buy her a big house full of dolls and little dresses; he said that when they left here, he would build a playground by the sea and let her alone People play.

The promises he made when he was a child were all naive, but the embarrassing thing is that he remembered them all and kept them all.

Only later, she overheard the dean talking to a man who looked very serious and fierce. He said that he came to pick up their young master, and that young master... was Jin Jingyu.

He wanted to take away the young master at all costs, and ordered that no files about Jin Jingyu be left behind.

She didn't know what the young master was, but she only knew that if he was taken away, no one would accompany her.

She's actually... afraid of being alone.

The fact that Jin Jingyu was going to be taken away was a certainty. She was very disappointed, and was bored every day.

Later, that person found her and told her, "You are the one that our young master wants to take away together?"

She was taken aback, brother Yu wants to take her along?
Before she could feel joy, the man poured a basin of cold water on her head, "You don't even look at what you are, but you just want our little master to let you go. Do you think any cat or dog can get in our house?" Is it? Tell you, if you act like a demon again, I will kill you!"

"The Jin family doesn't have the kindness to accept homeless people! If you have any self-respect, you should understand that you owe our young master a lot. Do you still want our young master to stay with you in this ruined place?"

That day, she was terribly humiliated.

She also knew that her elder brother Yu was actually the child of a rich family who sneaked out, and he was very different from her.

In order to let him leave willingly, they worked hard, and finally found out about the car accident at the beginning, and disclosed the news to the Shen family, asking the Shen family to find this place.

In fact, she didn't want to leave, and she didn't agree voluntarily. She was forced to leave by the Jin family.

On the day she left, she looked through the window of the car. The former little boy, now a young boy, was chasing after the car. She could vaguely hear what he said, "Yueyue, wait for me! I will come to you !"

She doesn't want to leave at all. No one will protect her in the future, and her elder brother Yu will not be with her anymore. Song Qingyue is very scared. No matter how kind the people in the Shen family are, she dare not let go of her guard. She just wants to Go back to the orphanage.

(End of this chapter)