I used to cry in the middle of the night, wanting to talk to you about life

Chapter 6
Chen Chen froze, staring at me as if looking at a stranger.She didn't cry or scold, she just walked in front of me silently, unbuttoned the blouse, held my right hand and stuffed it through the button seam of the shirt.I went up and fumbled to the edge of the bra, but found that it was fastened so tightly that there was no gap at all.I stood up, pressed her back with my left hand, and pushed my right hand in with difficulty, finally touching her pair of breasts that I had been longing for for a long time.I squeezed hard twice, and when I looked down, I saw Chen Chen's painful expression, and suddenly felt disgusted, so I pulled out my hand, hugged Chen Chen, and hugged him for a long time.

Chen Chen didn't hug me, she didn't hug me the whole day that day, and she didn't say a word.

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Chen Chen didn't see me for the next few days. It is said that she cried in the dormitory, but when someone asked her what was wrong, she didn't say anything.But even a fool should know that we had a fight.At that time, mobile phones were not yet popular, and the matter between the two of them could not be resolved privately.If you quarrel with your boyfriend, you usually say "if he calls, tell me I'm not here" in the dormitory.But she didn't listen to all the calls I made, and just hung up.If someone else picked it up, someone else would hang up on her behalf.

When Chen Chen ignored me, I suddenly felt that my life had changed.I got mixed up with my second brother, Brother Bao, and now I have Xu Ning and Ma Haibo.It makes me not alone, but there is always a sense of emptiness after all the laughing.I started to go to class, the second child and Brother Bao have been reformed by Xu Ning to be able to go to class.I still go to play football, but after playing, I don’t have the familiar bottle of mineral water.I often unconsciously look towards the girls' dormitory building when I was playing football, and I could see the balcony of Chen Chen's dormitory there.When she can't go out, she always puts down some delicious food from there with a thin rope, and then sees me posing in various poses to make her laugh.If a passer-by passes by, I will immediately return to my normal form, and this is when she always smiles the most.Chen Chen, I now find that without sex, I can still live very well, but without you, Chen Chen, I am not used to living.

Before I officially broke up with Chen Chen, Ouyang came to see me once, after I finished playing football.This Ouyang and Chen Chen are in the same class. People in their class told me that Ouyang has been pursuing Chen Chen since the beginning of military training. Although I was one step ahead of him, he never gave up.There is nothing to say between rivals in love, so I pouted when I saw him approaching, and helped Brother Bao to go to the other side. I didn't expect him to rush in front of me a few steps, which shocked me too.

"Fang Peng, if you dare to bully Chen Chen again, I will kill you." Ouyang stood less than half a meter away from me and said with his neck stuck.

Seeing that the atmosphere was not right, our people surrounded him in a hurry, and the second child stood behind Ouyang, and it seemed that he would be overthrown if there was any trouble.The brothers are really giving face, after all, they have combat experience.

"Silly X, who are you?" I ignored him, brushed his shoulder, and bumped him on purpose.There are so many people in the formation, it's a waste not to go crazy.

Ouyang didn't expect this scene, and he didn't dare to do anything to me easily, so he could only shout loudly behind him: "Fang Peng, you remember what I said, if you dare to bully Chen Chen again, I will kill you."

I turned around and smiled at him: "You can save your worries about our husband and wife's housework, okay?"

Everyone laughed and walked away, leaving only Ouyang standing there alone, probably his face should be blue.I walked in front of the team, took off my jersey like everyone else, and played short passes with my second child while walking shirtless. I also laughed loudly and tried to show off myself.I'm exaggerating, I wish everyone could look here, come, look at me, look at me, I'm Fang Peng, I'm a nice guy, I'm good everywhere, if you want to grab a girlfriend from me, there's no way Son!

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After another half month, Chen Chen still didn't want to see me.Even if I sneaked into her classroom with a shameless face, or even waited for her downstairs in the girls' dormitory, Chen Chen always had a way to make me leave in embarrassment.The roses, chocolates, and letter of apology that I entrusted someone to send over, how did they pass, and how did they return them intact.The second child gave me a cruel trick, asking me to take a taxi back and forth, go to the city and buy a McDonald's sundae, attach a pink card: "My dear, forgive me!" and send it directly to Chen Chen's dormitory .It's just a matter of saying, let's see how she returns it.As a result, that night, I received three free coupons for MC cones and my pink card from Chen Chen’s roommate.

This pissed me off.Why?As for?Even if I am wrong, give me a chance to correct it.It is said that the young couple quarreled at the head of the bed and at the end of the bed, but what about us now?It's not just the end of the bed, it's thousands of miles away from the bed, yet you refuse to even see me, what's the matter?I told my second child what I thought, and the second child said to me: "Continue to reflect. From what you said, besides the bed is the bed, your consciousness is still fixed on the pony!" The second child also said: " Which pocket did you put the coupon in?" He took out my free cone coupon, put it in his wallet, and left.I was in a daze for half an hour in the dormitory, wondering whether I should slap the pony, the dick, or myself.

In this half-dead stalemate, the year 2000 is drawing to a close.This is reflected in two aspects. On the one hand, the New Year's Day party is approaching, and on the other hand, the final exam is approaching.In order to rationally allocate the little time left at the end of the term, I, my second child, Brother Bao, Xu Ning and Xiao Ma held a meeting, and the venue was chosen at the hotpot restaurant "Jiayou Zhai" on Qianjie.The meeting was very successful, we ate a large portion of beef pot and a large portion of silver carp pot, and added a lot of side dishes and rice.The result of the final discussion is to rehearse the play first and then review it.Because the exam is a lot later than the party after all, and there is still a make-up exam for the exam, and as members of the drama club, if we miss the good chance to pick up girls at the New Year's Day party, we will have to wait another year.

I finished the script a month ago. It's called "Promise". It tells the story of several boys asking girls to attend the New Year's Day party.After reading the book, everyone expressed their satisfaction. The environment is real, the language is humorous, the contradictions are sharp, and the theme is profound... What's especially good is that there are five actresses in it, which is just enough for five points for our brothers.Whoever can't speak well of such a script would be too nonsense!
For the scenes with me, I have always planned to let Chen Chen act, and I have planned to do so since I started writing this book.When we were still a typical college couple, we ate together, fetched water together, and went to self-study together.Mr. Chen Chen took a blue kettle with orange water brewed with instant powder, and sat quietly by the window.I don’t bring anything, sometimes I don’t even bring a pen. I just tear a piece of paper from the last page of her homework book, choose a pen that looks very comfortable from the soft pencil case, and lay it on my stomach. I squirmed on the desk for a while, squeezed out all my laziness, and then sat up to write.Usually the laziness will reappear soon, so I lie down for a while.Chen Chen is very serious when doing homework, and usually ignores me. If I want to get her attention, I must act like a baby, such as putting my entire upper body on her lap and pretending to sleep. A hand to touch my hair, very comfortable.There were even times when I actually fell asleep and drool up her skirt.It is conceivable that the script written in such a state incorporates many shadows of Chen Chen. I even deliberately incorporated a few words of her favorite words into the dialogue, only hoping to win her every time we play against each other. A knowing smile.

In order to rehearse the play, I called Chen Chen.Although she accepted it, she said she didn't want to act.She still didn't want to talk to me, but she appeared in my field of vision with Ouyang several times.In the front street, in the back street, in the cafeteria, and in the study room, if the distance between the two is reduced by half a meter, then Ouyang will completely replace my original position.Whenever they passed in front of me together, Chen Chen would pretend not to see me with some trepidation, while Ouyang had a very proud expression on his face.I don't know how to control this situation. Standing in the half-meter position that belongs to me, I feel sour.

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But the emotions of the second child were not affected by me in the slightest, and they were not afraid to look forward to sweet love in front of Fang Peng who was on the verge of breaking up.Because of the pretense of "play rehearsal", they all dragged the girl they liked into the crew. It turns out that no matter how beautiful and reserved a girl is, she can't resist the temptation to be an actress. I finally know why those directors are able to act. So many chicks.The second child made an appointment with Wang Jia from the Department of Finance and Literature and Art, Bao Ge made an appointment with Zhang Qian from the dance team, Xu Ning made an appointment with Liu Mengmeng from the third class of Xinguan, and Xiao Ma made an appointment with him. The dross that can't get off the court-Zina of currency four.The four girls I found were all pleasing to the eye, basically representing the highest level of freshman girls in terms of appearance, but none of them belonged to the drama club.

This incident had a very bad impact on the drama club, because there were only those few programs in the evening, and if you used people from outside the drama club, you took the position of people in the club.For this, the girls in the cast group of the drama club were very angry, so the old director Liu Ge talked to me specifically.

He said, you kid is too visible, isn't there anyone in our drama club that you can catch your eye?
I said, brother Liu, it's not my fault, the actors are all found by themselves.

He said, then you have to coordinate, because when our club recruits new recruits, we take money from them.

I said, that's fine, if you don't feel disgusting looking at it, arrange one.

He said, don't talk nonsense, are the people in our regiment so ugly?Who is that one, the one with big breasts, what's his name?

So Meng Suping, a sophomore from the drama club, joined the crew of "The Promise" instead of Chen Chen.

The first rehearsal was about 8 a.m. on a Saturday morning, and no one was late.We found an abandoned garage, introduced each other for an hour, and then read all the lines first by role. Everyone clarified their identity as the protagonist, supporting role or secondary role.Among them, Meng Suping and I have the most lines, and most of them are affectionate. God knows that I designed them for Chen Chen.I almost left all the burden of being funny to others, and let myself express my heart and soul to Meng Suping, who is wearing heavy makeup.I feel that the only burden I have is the hug with Meng Suping at the end. A hug that shows off happiness has become a contrived show between me and the big-breasted senior sister. This is simply too funny in my opinion.Of course, others will not find it funny, they are quite envious.

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After the rehearsal, everyone had lunch together at the "Weijun" fast food restaurant.Fast food restaurants are full of plastic booths for four people, the second child, Wang Jia, Xu Ning, and Liu Mengmeng sit at a table, Bao Ge, Zhang Qian, Xiao Ma, and Zina sit at a table, leaving Meng Suping and I alone sit opposite each other.We don't know each other well, and we don't even have much affection for each other, let alone talk about common topics.While I was coping with it, I was digging the tomato scrambled egg rice in the bowl, hoping to end this embarrassing lunch early.In fact, I knew from the moment I entered the door that this would be the way to sit. How come this group of people who have no conscience and value sex over friends are exactly the same as me back then!
While I was eating, I heard Xiao Ma cough deliberately, and turned my head to see that it was Ouyang who came in holding Chen Chen's hand.Chen Chen saw me and pulled out his hand, but he didn't intend to leave at all, and sat side by side with Ouyang at the northeast corner of the hotel.I forgot what expression I had at the time, anyway, Senior Sister Meng who was sitting across from me looked at my face and smiled inappropriately.Hearing the laughter, Ouyang also noticed me, just glanced contemptuously, and continued to order.Meng Suping covered her mouth with the hand holding the spoon, and giggled: "Fang Peng, what's your expression? What's wrong?" I looked up at her, and tried to squeeze a smile: "It's okay." Then I ate.

After a while, my BP machine rang. I took it out and saw two words on the screen: "Do you want to call?" I looked up and saw Ma Haibo standing beside the public phone opposite the hotel with a serious expression.I shook my head, trying to suppress my tears, finished the last mouthful of food, said hello to Meng Suping, and walked out.The brothers followed out one after another, Xu Ning put his arms around my shoulders and asked, "Are you okay?"

"It's okay." I really wanted to smile to him, but my tears were accidentally left at noon in the early winter of 2000.

On December 2000, 12, I lost the first love of my life.

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That night, as a little boy who lost his love for the first time, I drank some wine and shed some tears. The second child also stayed with me, drank some wine, and even cried with me.Five men sat on the edge of the playground and cried for a while, I scolded them: "Silly X, have you ever been in love, and you just cried?" They also scolded: "Fang Peng, you are such a big idiot!"

On the second day, everyone returned to the real or fake happiness, and gathered in the broken garage every day to rehearse the play, and then eat together and go out together.Everyone is getting acquainted with each other day by day, Xu Ning and Liu Mengmeng even show signs of dating, only Senior Sister Meng is still out of our small circle of freshmen.I still don't want to talk to her very much, I just modified those nasty lines one by one to make my heartache as small as possible, and I only used gestures to complete the hug.Half a month later, at the college's New Year's Eve party, we performed successfully.When the curtain opened, I couldn't hear the applause and laughter. I imagined that Chen Chen was crying at my figure in the audience, and tried hard to hide it from Ouyang who was beside him.In fact, who knows if she will come?She should, or Ouyang should have no interest in watching dramas.

At the end of the show, I was awakened by high decibel cheers and screams, and found that Senior Sister Meng was held tightly in my arms, her face was leaning on my shoulder, and a few locks of hair were hanging between my eyes and nose.It was exactly the same as when I hugged Chen Chen for the first time.

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Three things happened after that day: one was that Chen Chen and I had no contact since then. One year after we graduated, she married Ouyang and settled down in Changsha; one was that Meng Suping returned to her sophomore life circle, It is said that she got a lot of money in her junior year, anyway, I never saw this girl again; what's more, because of the success of this play, several of us became famous in school.

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Chen Chen and I have only been in love for a short period of two or three months, and now she is just a number in my mobile phone, until I fell in love with Ke Yiyi, until I broke up with Ke Yiyi, until I graduated, until I worked , until now.I never called the number belonging to her dormitory again, although I know that the owner of that number is not Chen Chen, I just like to remember that number, remember her at that time, and my fantasy about her at that time.

I have liked to fantasize about beautiful things since I was a child, and I didn't stop until it was too beautiful to be more beautiful.This is a habit of mine.I like to lie on the bed with my eyes closed or open, not looking at anything, not listening to any sound, just thinking.Laugh as you think about it, or wait until you're done thinking about it and don't realize you're laughing.

Xiaoyi likes to see my expression at this time the most. Every time I finish making love with her, she will lean on my chest and pretend to be asleep.She knew that I couldn't sleep at that time. I would gradually enter my own meditation state, and then I would stop talking, start breathing slowly, start blurring my eyes, start smiling, and she would giggle until I wanted to break out in sweat. wake me up.She said, you are so sexy when you are sweating.Usually she's done saying that and we're going to continue having sex.

(End of this chapter)