I used to cry in the middle of the night, wanting to talk to you about life

Chapter 7
On the night of October 2004, 10, Xiaoyi had sex with me in the rented room where I lived in Shimapo Lane, Danfeng Street, Nanjing.It had been more than three months since we last saw each other.We were all crazy that day, trying to emulate who we were when we first got together.After orgasm, I put myself all over her and gasped for breath.She hugged me hard, then pushed me away and told me to lie down, and she just fell asleep on my chest.I tilted my head to see her sleeping, at the little bit of mascara in the corner of her eye that was not evenly applied, at the fourth hole in her right ear, at her still naughty little nose, at her Red cheeks, don't know what to do.I put my hand under her arm, trying to touch her breasts, but she clamped her armpit tightly to prevent me from passing, but the resistance was still ineffective, and I quickly covered her small breasts with my hands.She still didn't open her eyes, and we stayed like this for 1 minutes, and suddenly, she cried hard.

I think maybe it's my fault.At this time, I should have thought about what I should have thought about, the beautiful girl in my arms, the beautiful love between me and her, and the future.

I should have been sweating again.

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Back to December 2000, 12, the last day of the century.

The whole world is filled with a carnival atmosphere before death. No one thinks about how to welcome the new millennium, but they are singing dirges for the 20th century everywhere.From singers to literati to the owners of karaoke halls, teahouses, and gift shops in front of the door, they are all using poetic language, as if the prophecy of the ancient European fool is really going to come true.There was a phone card seller in the back street of our school. In front of his stall, he wrote a number of big blood red characters, "Farewell to the heartless 20th century sale with tears, 100 yuan IP cards are sold for 53 yuan, and 50 yuan ones are sold for 28 yuan."I don't know which TV station held a countdown ceremony in Wuyi Square, and tens of thousands of people went there, including me, the second child, Brother Bao, Xiao Ma, Zina, Xu Ning and Liu Mengmeng. At that time, they were already open boyfriend and girlfriend.

Because of the traffic control, we went on foot.After eating KFC in Hexi, it was almost 11:20 pm when we walked to the event site in Hexi. I had nothing else to do, so I squeezed into another KFC and ate for an hour.All KFC restaurants are full of people, and the place where the food is ordered has a thick rope pulled by the security guard to prevent some unconscious people from jumping in line.The seven of us grabbed a table with four seats, ate, chatted and laughed, and enjoyed the last period of simple happiness in the 11th century.At 55:400 p.m., we got out of KFC. We were [-] meters away from the activity center and it was already full of people. Even fleas dared not get into it easily.We tried to move forward, but we were too crowded to move.I only heard some show playing in the middle of the crossroads, but I couldn't see it at all.I covered my pocket with one hand and the BP machine with the other, resisting the crowds coming from all directions. When I was aggrieved, a loud voice came from the front: "Ten! Nine! Eight!..." The countdown to the end of the century began , By the time we realized it, we had already counted to seven.No time to complain, we all hurriedly roared: "Six! Five! Four! Three! Two! One! Oh!..."

The new millennium has just come, and it just opened its eyes and saw such a crowd of crowded and noisy people.What else is there besides being crowded and noisy?Yes, and stupid!Because no one taught you what to say, after the countdown, everyone suddenly found that they didn't know what to shout. "Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh!" This is the general type. "Aw..." This is because of being stepped on. "Liu Tao! Liu Tao!" This is the loss of a son or husband. "Fuck you!" God knows whether this person's chest was touched or his wallet was stolen.

What did I shout at that time?I remember that Brother Bao first yelled "The people of Liaoning send you hello", so we all followed suit.I yelled "Greetings from the people of Jiangsu" and "Greetings from the people of Hebei" for my grandma, the only one in our family who is not from Jiangsu.Later Brother Bao yelled again: "I want a woman!" We felt ashamed of him and pretended not to know him. He turned his face and looked at us contemptuously, "Are you pretending to be X? You don't want to?" My second child and I They looked at each other for a while, and shouted "I want a woman" at the top of my voice.Xiao Ma already has a woman, so he shouted: "Money!" Xu Ning hoped to give Liu Mengmeng a good impression, so he pretended to shout: "I want to study hard and improve every day!" As it turned out, only Xu Ning Ning is right.God picked those dreams that are easier to realize to satisfy human beings, but completely ignored the extravagant demands of us lunatics.When bidding farewell to the first semester of university, Xu Ning passed the sixth grade exam, while Fang Peng, Zhao Guoyong, Bao Qinglong and Ma Haibo failed a total of 17 subjects.Among them, Fang Peng failed five subjects.

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The news of failing the class soon spread to Fang Peng, who had gone back to his hometown for winter vacation. This was a big blow to Fang Peng, who was happily preparing for the Chinese New Year.What is especially unacceptable is that the failing grades have already severely hurt my fragile little heart, but this shitty school even canceled the make-up exam and directly collected a kind of money called "re-examination fee".60 yuan per credit, and five subjects, is by no means a small sum. I made a rough estimate, and it hurt my heart.

Regarding the matter of the repair fee, at first I just had a feeling of pain and intuitive aversion. This kind of thing that makes things worse does not reflect the spirit of "humanization" at all, and it does not keep pace with the times.It is said that "I often walk by the river, so I don't get my shoes wet." Not all of the more than a dozen courses in this semester can be copied. In case of bad luck, there is no chance of turning over .Of course, such a view is not rational and correct, because the examination itself should not be based on copying.However, since the establishment of the system of abolishing make-up exams and directly paying retake fees, many good students who did not cheat have also failed their subjects.So I began to rationally analyze the suspiciousness of this system: How deep is the brain of the school leaders? How can the number of failed students be directly proportional to the income of teachers teaching that subject?The most irritating thing is to give the same number of students a class, and the amount of income is also related to the number of credits. Teaching English and advanced mathematics is very cool, but this is too disrespectful to the ideological and moral cultivation teacher as a human being!There is also a physical education class, which is only one credit per semester. It is not easy for the physical education group to earn some income. Only ten of them in a class can barely eat half full. lead.

It was definitely a disaster for me to fail five subjects at once. I encountered an economic crisis before I was 20 years old.Although it is the New Year, but because adults are less and less taking the glorious traditions of their ancestors seriously, so I can't get much money for the New Year's Eve, and this kind of public income is almost equal to the pocket money for the coming year, because my father will definitely I remember how many red envelopes I received. For him, as long as I have money on me, he shouldn’t give me any other money; and if I don’t have any money on me... damn, how could this kid have no money on him? ?He should have had a lot of money!How did you spend it?

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By the end of that winter vacation, our family lost some items, including my dad's two good cigarettes and my mom's several mobile recharge cards.Their whereabouts are known only to me and the little owner of the gift recycling shop.Director Fang suspects that the cigarettes were sent to her mother's house by Director Lu. Director Lu couldn't argue with anything, and during the quarrel, he forgot how many recharge cards he had.Although my repair fee issue was resolved, a family conflict broke out.This makes me very disappointed, isn't it just that little thing.

After returning to Changsha and paying all the fees, the second semester will start.Although they are still the smallest group in the school, there is no difference between the freshmen and the sophomores and juniors.Because after a year, everyone in the family eats and drinks well, and the black skin that fell from the military training has faded away. The girls are getting better and better, the boys are ready to move, and the campus is full of spring.

When the scenery is good, there will naturally be people who spoil the scenery.There is a senior in the School of Finance who looks exactly like Deng Yaping. She has been in the leadership of the student union since she was a sophomore. A few days after the start of school, this sister wrote an open letter to all the students and launched a vigorous refusal. The Sexual Behavior Movement gathered more than a dozen girls who looked like virgins to pull up banners on the square in front of the school, handing over a marker to anyone they saw, and asking for their signature when they pulled it over.

At the same time, Qian Cheng, another sophomore senior sister, received a love letter from Wei Xing, a freshman boy.Senior Sister Qian tore it up on the spot without even looking at it, and said to Wei Xing, "I have a boyfriend." Wei Xing said, "It doesn't matter, I don't mind." Had sex with my boyfriend." Then turned and left.This conversation quickly became popular in Nanhu University and became one of the most awesome quotations of the year, because the place where they talked was in the crowded playground during the school's morning exercises.

PS: Two years later, the presidents of various municipal branches of a certain bank in the province came to our school for a meeting, and the senior sister who initiated the "rejection of premarital sex" took the initiative to toast to each president like crazy, and sang and danced during the banquet to flirt , until he drank stomach bleeding and was dragged out of school by 120.When the ambulance came into the school with its whistle blared, it was just in time for the evening self-study. Hundreds of students gathered around the entrance of the school auditorium. The flickering first aid lights made everyone's faces blue and pale at times.Xu Ning said that this senior sister just wanted to get a job in a bank.

But Senior Sister Qian had already decided on a job and went to Beijing after graduation, and she disappeared from everyone's sight before she knew it.

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The second child was the first to find something he could do in the new semester, and he decided to pursue Wang Jia.He said, "I'm in love with Wang Jia."

At the same time, Zhang Zheng, Zhou Yetao, He Wei, Shi Qianwei and others also fell in love with Wang Jia, so it is doomed that the second child will be busy this semester.As the second brother's brothers, we despise Zhang Zheng and others very much. These grandchildren know how to chase beautiful girls.Although we can't be sure that the second child has other considerations besides Wang Jia's beauty, at least the second child's love for Wang Jia is very clean, and he will never allow anyone to treat Wang Jia as the daughter of a dirty joke in front of him. The protagonist, even if the hero is him.Just after school started, the younger brothers were newlyweds, and they drank and chatted in the dormitory when they had nothing to do. Whenever they talked about Wang Jia, the second child's face turned pink, and his shy expression was very cute.

This guy was pushing others to be great, but when it was his turn, he acted very slowly, changing countless drafts of the love letter.At that time, Chen Chen and I had already lost contact, and we lived the same schedule as our second child.At night, often only his and my desk lamps are on. Mine is tied to the head of the bed, so that I read novels while wrapped in a quilt;In the weather in February and March, he was sweating while writing, and he took off his coat and sweater.When he was tired of writing, he got up and turned around, walked to my desk lamp, handed him a cigarette, and looked through my book to see where he found it.When I got tired of reading, I threw cigarettes at him. He picked it up, lit it himself, and continued writing.

"First love?" I asked.He ignored me.

"What draft is it?" I asked.He laughed nonchalantly to himself.

I don't know when the second child gave the love letter to Wang Jia, whether it was the beginning, middle, or end of the semester, or he never sent the love letter at all.Because I didn't notice when what he wrote at night changed from a love letter to a diary.When I asked him, he said vaguely, and I didn't understand whether he wanted to delay or had already sent it out.I was witnessing something I didn't even know, and it made me so angry.So I asserted that this kid was rejected, but in the next few years, whenever we talked about Wang Jia, the second child was still shy, so that everyone who knew the second child in the finance school knew that he liked Wang Jia and knew Wang Jia. Everyone knows that the second child is chasing her, and when I meet familiar alumni after graduation for a long time, they will ask me if they are together.So I was confused, and the love letter turned into a mystery.

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One of Brother Bao's classmates in Changsha boasted that he had a lot of porn, and to prove it, he really brought a stack of porn back from home during the weekend.Brother Bao got one, and excitedly ran over to invite us to see it.The voice was a little louder, causing Liu Xin, Wang Tao and the surrounding boys to follow.Xiao Ma counted the number of people at the door of the dormitory, and it was almost 20, so he scolded the cheap and divided the people into two groups. We will see the few who have a good relationship with us first, and the others will wait in the other room.

To watch DVDs, you need to go to a professional place called "TV leisure room", commonly known as "disc house". In addition to TV and VCD player, there is a sofa bed in each small single room.The sofa beds in the disc house are all custom-made, and they can be stuck in the narrow compartment. It looks like a sofa for people who watch the disc to sit on it. When there is a situation, just drag it forward and it will become The bed was very convenient and functional.It costs five yuan to watch a movie in such a place, but it is welcomed by all the students.Couples welcome it because it is convenient for them to mess around, and single people welcome it because as long as you are not afraid of crowding, you only charge five yuan for how many people can sit in a room.After four years, almost every student of Nanhu University knows very well how many people can sit side by side in a place where two people have sex.

When we came to the disc room, two groups of people each chose a disc for deceiving their ears and stealing the bell, and entered the room noisily.We have me, the second child, Bao Ge, Xu Ning, Xiao Ma, Liu Xin, Wang Tao, Yan Zi and Luo Junqi in this room. It is really crowded, and we sweated before looking at anything.Xu Ning was worried that something might happen, so he sat with the door blocked. Unless the people's police sent the Flying Tigers to kick in the door, we would all have enough time to replace the disc.Brother Bao carefully took out the porn from his clothes, and pressed the power switch of the VCD player. We were all so nervous that we didn’t dare to breathe, we kept on spitting dryly, and our eyes were fixed on the blue screen on the screen. .At this moment, the pure Yanzi took out fruits and melon seeds from her schoolbag and distributed them to everyone. The sound of cracking melon seeds broke the deathly silence just now, and made everyone feel much relieved. They even fought over oranges and bananas. There was a little altercation.But as soon as the porn was released, the room immediately returned to the silence just now.On TV, a pair of American young men and women are showing us things that we talk about all day long but never understand. If the human brain is really divided, God knows whether we are admiring, learning or worshiping at that time, anyway. I fell into a peach-colored dizziness. As the plot progressed, my thoughts drifted to nowhere, and the melon seeds in my hand were soaked in sweat.What shocked me back to reality was Liu Xin's "Damn!" He slammed the half-eaten banana to the ground. At the same time, the head of the young American woman on the screen was below the waist of the young man. reciprocating motion.Everyone laughed together, and after a while, it returned to silence.

During the hour of watching porn, the room next door urged us more than 20 times.Later we gave them the disc, and within 10 minutes, a buddy was kicked out because he was drinking eight-treasure porridge while watching porn, and the time when he was kicked out was almost the same as when Liu Xin threw bananas time.

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I didn't expect that this experience of watching porn turned into a second child's nightmare.

(End of this chapter)