Hard to find love

Chapter 2 Song Hui, I'll Take You Home

It was a spring day.

When Song Shi happily called Song Hui, she was shopping with Liu Xuxu at the open-air flea market near Cascaro Square.Liu Xuxu took a fancy to an [-]th-century brooch, the boss opened his mouth a bit like a lion, and Song Hui pulled Liu Xuxu away.Liu Xuxu tugged at the corner of her clothes, frowned and whispered in her ear, "I really like it." There was endless reluctance in her words.

Song Hui was helpless. Seeing them returning, the boss immediately had a smile on his face. After Liu Xuxu paid the money, he immediately pinned the brooch to the collar of her khaki sweater. Pen, but it's really nice.

"Song Hui, the phone has been ringing for a while, are you going to answer it or not?"

After being reminded by Liu Xuxu, Song Hui realized the weak buzzing sound, took out her mobile phone from her pocket, saw the word "Song Shi" on the screen, and couldn't help but smile on her face.

"Brother, do you miss me?" Song Hui's tone was full of excitement.

"Yes, my little sister, brother misses you."

"I miss you as well."

"Then, go home, okay?" Song Shi asked tentatively.

For a moment, Song Hui thought she was having auditory hallucinations, and she asked dully, "What did you say?"

"I said, go home."

"not good."

"Xiao An, don't be willful. Song Yan's baby is about to be born."

Song Hui's smile froze on her face, Song Yan was pregnant, but no one told her about it.She felt ironic, and replied in a cold tone: "It's her child who is going to have a baby, not mine. What should I answer?" After speaking, Song Hui quickly turned off the phone and threw it into her bag.

Liu Xuxu looked at her cautiously, fearing that Song Hui would spread fire on her.

Song Hui knew that she had a bad temper now. She used to be quite a calm person, but now she becomes restless whenever she hears the name "Song Yan".She quickened her pace and walked to the side, took a few deep breaths, trying to regain the good mood just now, Liu Xuxu followed, "What's wrong? Song Hui."

"Song Yan is going to have a baby, my brother asked me to go home."

Liu Xuxu said naturally: "Then go home."

Could that home still be the home she could go back to if she wanted to?Five years, five years since she was exiled in Madrid, what a long time!

"I won't return." Song Hui said firmly, while tears wet the corners of her eyes.The next second, she laughed at herself, since when did she become so vulnerable?
Liu Xuxu was a little flustered, and wiped away her tears with her hands. Her fingertips were icy cold, but Song Hui felt very warm.

"Song Hui, this is the first time I see you cry."

Song Hui was startled, was it the first time she cried?No, during these years in Madrid, she cried so much that she was tired.

Liu Xuxu smiled awkwardly, and said, "But, don't cry, Song Wei is still suitable for being heartless."

Heartless?Well, heartless is really the best way to describe myself back then.

The former Song Hui hated everything that was weak, she was proud and somewhat cold-blooded.I know that it is very difficult for me to go back to the beginning. The original self may not be pleasing, but I have been being myself, never compromising for anyone or anything, and have self-esteem and self-pity.And I really miss her, the one who acted recklessly and recklessly.I crazily love the me I used to be, but, Xu Xu, I can no longer be that kind of person.

Song Hui who looked like that died in Yanchuan five years ago.Song Hui, who is alive now, is just desperately smoothing out the wounds from five years ago, and lives carefully.

Obviously, she should be closer to happiness than anyone else, but fate seems to be unwilling, and wants to take away all her good things, and made a big joke on her, making her life deviate from the original track. He was cast into hell in a family selection battle.

She is the jewel in the palm of the Song family, a famous family in Yanchuan. Although she lost her mother since childhood and was brought up by the old lady Song, she has always been loved. In the Song family, her favorite is her grandmother and her cousin Song Shi.

For cousin Song Yan and uncle and aunt, although they live under the same roof, Song Hui always feels that they are not in the same world. Their world is too profound, full of calculations and conspiracies.In fact, Song Shi is not a simple character, but she just can't hate this cousin, because between her and his sister Song Yan, he has always favored herself, and Song Yan has been jealous for a long time.

Everything changed after she met that man named Tang Jichen.

She obsessively believes that he is the light and light in her life.Facing his fanatical pursuit, she has no ability to resist, just like a little girl who has never seen the world, she is delighted with his pursuit, and thanks to God for bringing her such a person who loves her.

The younger sister fell in love with the older sister's fiancé, which was a mistake, from beginning to end.

Also in that year, the man she fell in love with did something to her that she could never forgive in her life.

Because of him, she was abandoned by the Song family and sent to Madrid, a world she was completely unfamiliar with, and that man, for so many years, never said a word of apology to her.

A 20-year-old girl left the Song family with tears and came to Madrid. She lived in the gay area with her father Song Pingjia and started her most absurd and decadent life.The first night she slept at her father's house, she felt very wronged, and her tears flowed like that all night. In the morning, the sun was shining gently through the curtains. She was woken up by the sound of a big man arguing, speaking in Spanish she could not understand, accompanied by the sound of smashing things from time to time, her body trembling, she didn't have a good impression of this place, she didn't expect it to be like that noisy.Outside the door, her father's voice came, but she was angry and did not answer.He opened the door and told her not to be afraid. He said he was going out and asked her if she wanted to be with him.She just moved her body arrogantly and buried her head deeper in the quilt.The door was closed again, and the upstairs still didn't stop.

She sneered, how could she not be afraid?
She took some time to adjust to her jet lag, walking the dog with her father every evening, watching him smile and greet his neighbors and introduce her in passing.

At the beginning, Mrs. Song called her several times a day, or in the early morning or early in the morning, the old lady was always unclear about the seven-hour time difference between China and Spain. laughter.Song Hui and her can always chat for a while, Mrs. Song always hopes that she can tell more about what happened that day, so that she can feel at ease.But Song Hui made her worry, she lied to her, her father ignored her, and she left early and returned late every day. She didn't understand the language here, and she was excluded a lot in the language school.Before hanging up the phone, Song Hui could hear her grandma's choked up voice and her resentful sigh every time.

Her mother passed away after giving birth to her, and her father never hugged her. After his mother's funeral, he set foot on the pure land of Madrid, settled in this city where he fell in love with his mother, opened a jewelry store, and occasionally Will send some old postcards home.She and him seemed to be standing on two mountains, watching from the air, without any intersection.

However, the fetters of blood will never be cut off.

Her father doesn't like her, Song Hui already knew it.Even now, Song Hui still doesn't have any superfluous feelings with her father.Sometimes, when she couldn't take it anymore, she would hate him, hate him abnormally, hate him with gnashing teeth.She called this hatred an old disease, and every time she thought about it, she would blame him why he couldn't protect her well?Why let her suffer that pain?She is his daughter, why can't she act like a father?What she admired most about herself was that she covered up this deep hatred in such a calm manner that there was no trace of it.

"Xuxu, I can't go back to Yanchuan, because what is waiting for me will be cynicism. I seem to be able to see Song Yan holding her child and gloating at me, and I seem to be able to see the old man who loved my grandma since childhood." With tears in my eyes, she tried her best to arrange a safe path for me, and I can't mess everything up again."

Most importantly, she didn't want to see Tang Jichen, that man again.

It took five years for her to adapt to life in Madrid. She adapted to the nights of constant nightmares, but she couldn't get rid of her heart-wrenching hatred for Tang Jichen.

In Madrid in April, sometimes the breeze blows, and the sunshine that was just now disappears in this world, and it is replaced by a chilling coldness, just like her mood at the moment.

Song Hui tightened her coat, trying to keep herself warm.

Liu Xuxu hugged her and comforted her: "Song Hui, go back, go back and solve the problem you escaped from. You can't go on any longer. You should go out of the past and live in the sun again."

Although Song Hui never talked much about her past, Liu Xuxu could understand that it must be a painful and unforgettable memory, otherwise Song Hui would not have lived so unhappy these years.

Song Hui closed her sore eyes and rested her head on Liu Xuxu's warm neck. When tears fell, she clearly felt Liu Xuxu shivering.

For so many years, during the most difficult moments, only Liu Xuxu and Meng Dingding have been with her.

I met Liu Xuxu because of Meng Dingding.She is a girl Meng Dingding saw in the library by chance when he followed Song Hui to Madrid. They had a scene of love at first sight in the library. After chasing him, he changed from his usual style and became infatuated. Song Hui often joked about Meng Dingding, and Liu Xuxu was his catastrophe.

Thinking about it now, catastrophe will occur in everyone's life, it's just a matter of time.

She has no right to laugh at Meng Dingding at all, because he handled his disaster very well. Although his family does not agree with Liu Xuxu, they are at least heading towards a road of happiness.And she, guarding what she thought was peaceful, made her life a mess. She felt that she had fallen into a catastrophe, and there was no day to recover.And Song Yan watched her struggle from the edge of the cliff, with an extremely mocking smile on his face.

She knew that she really couldn't be more vulnerable, she knew everything, but the most difficult thing was that she couldn't do it.

Going back means that the memories she has been trying to forget for many years have to come back to her brain.

Where do the people and things in the past go?She wasn't mentally prepared for all this.

However, Song Hui's hesitation did not last long, because after she separated from Liu Xuxu, the first person she saw when she returned home was Song Shi.

At this time, Song Shi looked like a business elite, wearing a well-made suit, his hair was carefully groomed, and he had a familiar smile on his face, but his face was much thinner and his complexion was darker than before.

The last time she saw Song Shi was two years ago. In the United States, they celebrated Jiang Chaosheng's birthday. At that time, he had just taken over the Song Group, and he still felt like a kid.Today, it shows the charm of a mature man.

These years, Song Shi must have worked very hard.

Thinking of this, Song Hui burst into tears, she ran over and hugged Song Shi, "Brother, you are so charming!"

"Xiao Hui, I'll take you home." Song Shi hugged Song Hui tightly.

His youngest sister, the girl he has loved and loved since he was a child, he can finally say "I'll take you home" to her five years after she left home.

Song Hui let go of Song Shi, took a small step back, shook her head with a very resistant expression.

"Xiao Hui, come home with me. Chaosheng and I will hold a wedding next month. From now on, Chaosheng and I will take care of you. Even if you are not welcome at the door of the Song family, Chaosheng and I will always be together." your home."

"You and Chaosheng, you..." This was so unexpected, Song Hui was a little dull.

"You heard me right, Chaosheng and I, we are going to be together. You promised a long time ago that if Chaosheng gets married, you will be her bridesmaid, have you forgotten?"

Song Wei shook her head, how could she forget?As for Jiang Chaosheng, her first psychiatrist, a good sister who treats her sincerely, brought her a kind of sisterly affection besides being touched, which is something that she and Song Yan did not have.

"Song Yan, will she let me go home too? Do uncles and aunts agree?"

"Last month, my grandma was critically ill, and she almost couldn't be rescued. It was also because of her poor health that Chaosheng and I wanted to hold a wedding quickly. Grandma said that her biggest wish before she died was that her fennel could go home. , Song Yan agreed, and my parents also agreed. So, Anise, you can finally go home."

"Is grandma in poor health?" Why doesn't she know anything?Song Hui's heart is full of guilt, she should accompany her grandma to fulfill her filial piety, but...

"She really misses you, and she doesn't know how many times she cried for you."

Song Hui took a deep breath, her heart was tangled up, "Okay, I'll go back with you."

After packing her luggage, Song Hui called Song Pingjia and told him that she was going back to Yanchuan.

And there was just an "oh" on the other end of the phone.

Song Hui was a little disappointed, "Aren't we going to see each other again?"

"No, you have to obey grandma obediently when you go home."

"it is good."

After hanging up the phone, Song Hui was unwilling to leave in a hurry, and waited at home for a long time, but she didn't see Song Pingjia back, and finally had to leave a note with some regrets, hoping that Song Pingjia would take care of her body.

Pressing the note under the desk lamp in the study, she turned her head inadvertently, and saw a somewhat unnatural expression on Song Shi's face.

"Brother, what's wrong with you?"

"Is Second Uncle treating you well?"

Song Hui nodded, "Yeah." Except that his attitude was a little cold, but anyway, when she needed a shelter the most, he gave her a safe haven.For this, Song Hui is forever grateful to Song Pingjia.

Song Shi smiled reassuringly, "That's good." He seemed to breathe a sigh of relief.

Song Hui looked at him, but didn't pay much attention.

Before returning to the Song family, Song Hui was very nervous. She had fantasized about going home countless times, but they were all different from when she actually returned to the Song family. At least in her fantasy, it was impossible for Song Yan to greet her with a smile on her face. , and held her hand as if nothing had happened, and said: "You have suffered outside these years, it's because my sister was too decisive back then, and my sister told you I'm sorry, from now on, our family, let's live a good life."

Hearing what Song Yan said, Song Hui was stunned at that moment.

She quietly and carefully looked at Song Yan's face, trying to find a loophole in her expression, but her smile didn't look fake, and her sincerity didn't seem to be fake either.Intuition told Song Hui that something was wrong, but she hadn't noticed it yet.

Years ago, Song Yan's ruthless eyes staring at her appeared in her dreams many times, and she was woken up with fright, always thinking that when we meet again, there must be a big row, but I didn't expect the atmosphere to be so peaceful.

Has Song Yan changed?She's not sure.

While in a daze, Song Shi quietly reminded: "Xiao Hui, go and see grandma, she doesn't know you're back yet, let's give her a surprise."

"En." Song Hui nodded happily.

Mrs. Song's bedroom has not changed much from what she remembers, with familiar warm colors, familiar bed curtains, familiar bookshelves...everything is familiar.This made Song Hui's eyes blurred by tears. The old man she saw was indeed much thinner from the vicissitudes of life. She was sitting at the desk with gold-rimmed presbyopic glasses and looked at the newspaper in her hand, with a calm expression.

"grandmother."

The old man was startled all of a sudden, he raised his head in a panic, his eyes glowed strangely, it was excitement, excitement, more surprise and relief.

Song Hui said in a crying voice, "Grandma, I'm home."

"Xiao Hui." The old lady Song stood up abruptly, left her seat, and walked quickly to Song Hui, her hands tightly grasping Song Hui's hand, not daring to relax at all. Such a scene was like a dream, It's so unreal.

"Xiao An, why didn't you mention to me on the phone that you were coming back?" Mrs. Song asked.

"Brother, go pick me up. Grandma, I will never leave you again." Song Hui hugged the slightly thin old man in front of her, feeling very distressed.

In her best years, her dearest person was dying and was approaching the end of life, and she had no way to stop such human nature.

"Pingtong and the others finally let our grandparents meet. My little anise has become so beautiful. Grandma is reluctant to send such a good girl to someone else's home."

"Grandma, I won't go anywhere in the future, just stay by your side."

"Okay." Mrs. Song agreed on the surface, but her heart was full of twists and turns, how could she?My old lady's days in this world are numbered.Silly girl, grandma wants to find you a good husband, let him accompany you and take care of you.

Song Hui came out of Mrs. Song's room. In the living room, Qin Rumo was sitting gracefully. After seeing Song Hui, she put down the magazine in her hand and looked at Song Hui with a scrutinizing gaze, which made Song Hui a little uncomfortable. Comfortable.

"sit down."

Song Huiyiyan sat on the sofa opposite her, hesitantly said: "Auntie, do you have something to say to me?"

"Song Hui, as a mother, you can't understand my feelings at all. How much determination and courage it takes to force yourself to accept you again. You can't make up for the damage you caused to words back then, so you have to Thank you Yanyan, she convinced me, convinced me to take you home, you can never hurt her again, you know?"

"I know." She knew that she had made some mistakes, and if she committed them, it would be a lifetime of sins. For example, she hated Song Yan so deeply now. Rather, she felt ashamed of Song Yan, and that guilt made her feel guilty. feel ashamed.After all, if it wasn't for the mistakes she made back then, Song Yan would not have lost her child.

Song Hui didn't want to continue to think deeply, got up and said to Qin Rumo: "Auntie, I'm going back to my room to rest first."

"Well, let's go."

In Song Hui's room, the servants were helping her pack her luggage.

"Go out, I'm going to rest."

The servants left respectfully, Song Hui directly ignored the curious look on their faces, they were all unfamiliar faces, all the servants in the house were changed except Aunt Zhou's family, maybe it was to cover up the scandal that year.

Lying on the bed, as soon as she closed her eyes, Tang Jichen's face appeared in her head. He was smiling, with a warm smile, but it made Song Hui feel panicked. She quickly buried herself in the quilt, intermingling intermittent thoughts Li gradually fell asleep.

When she woke up, a light was on in the room, Song Hui was a little dazed, her mind went blank, and it took a long time before she suddenly remembered that she had already returned home.

She lay on the bed for a while, when there was a knock on the door, she suddenly became inexplicably nervous.

"Who?"

The door was opened, and Song Shi appeared in Song Hui's sight.

Song Hui's tense nerves suddenly relaxed, "Brother."

"Let's go downstairs and eat."

"Yeah." Song Hui casually agreed, but she had no appetite.

Song Shi waited for Song Hui to freshen up, walked out of the room with her, and said to her as they walked, "Chao Sheng is also here, staying downstairs with my mother. Tonight, I will let her sleep with you."

"It's great!" Song An's face was full of joy, and she was about to go downstairs with Song Shi, and her steps became brisk.

"You really like Chaosheng."

"Yes." Without Jiang Chaosheng, there would be no Song Hui now.

There are still a few steps left, Song Shi suddenly stopped, and Song Hui almost fell down. When she was frightened, Song Hui felt strange. Following Song Shi's gaze, the person standing in the hallway downstairs was not the right person. Song Yan and Tang Jichen.

It's really a narrow road!
Song Shi held Song Hui's hand tightly, and whispered in her ear: "Xiao Hui, come on!"

Song Hui showed a bright smile, and distanced herself from Song Shi.come on?Of course she knew, but what she needed more was to remain calm as if nothing had happened.

"Song Hui, did you sleep well?" Song Yan asked with a smile.

In an instant, Tang Jichen's attention fell on Song Hui, and for a second, Song Hui met his gaze.

It seems to be the same as in the memory, handsome and handsome, the facial features are as three-dimensional and exquisite as sculptures, and there is still the capital of fascination.But if you take a closer look, there are still some differences. His temperament is too cold, giving people a look of refusal to be thousands of miles away, not easy to get close to, which is very different from the warm and sunny him many years ago.Because of her pregnancy, Song Yan's body and face became much plumper. Although she was still charming, standing with Tang Jichen was really incongruous, and it was as much an eyesore as it was an eyesore.

Thinking of many years ago, in the middle of the night, she secretly went to Song Yan's QQ space, and the album contained the wedding photos taken by her and Tang Jichen. I still remember that many people commented on the photos, praising their match, saying that they look like a husband and wife, There were too many blessings, and I was so sour that I smashed everything on the table.

Song Hui was thinking in her heart, and took Song Shi's hand without showing any traces, and came in front of Song Yan and Tang Jichen, and called Tang Jichen very politely: "Brother-in-law."

Her gaze followed Song Yan all the time, and she didn't dare to look at Tang Jichen, but from the corner of her eyes, she seemed to be able to see his slightly raised eyes and feel his burning gaze.

Song Yan asked Tang Jichen proudly: "Jichen, do you think my sister is getting more and more beautiful?"

"Yeah." He said in a low voice, with an unexploded emotion in his heart, which made him extremely uncomfortable, and he didn't care about the displeasure that appeared on Song Yan's face instantly.

The atmosphere became awkward, Song Hui felt guilty, tugged Song Shi's hand, and asked him for help.

Song Shi received the message and coughed, "Let's go eat."

Song Yan let out a "hum", and pulled Tang Jichen to walk past Song Hui proudly.

"Are you okay?" Song Shi asked thoughtfully.

"I'm fine." She said it lightly.Actually, not at all.She didn't look forward to seeing Tang Jichen as soon as she got home, and she didn't want to call Tang Jichen brother-in-law, even though he was indeed her brother-in-law legally.

Jiang Chaosheng looked at Song Hui with some worries after a meal, and would pretend to be nonchalant to peek at Tang Jichen and Song Yan. Song Shi put a piece of braised pork into Jiang Chaosheng's bowl, and only two of them could eat it. The volume heard said: "Don't worry."

Jiang Chaosheng nodded.

Tang Jichen was the first to put down the bowl and chopsticks, and said politely, "I'm full."

All eyes at the dinner table were on him, except Song Hui, who just lowered her head even lower.

"Jichen, why do you eat so little?" Song Yan gently and considerately put some vegetables into Tang Jichen's bowl, "Eat more, Song Anhui is back, your appetite should improve."

Tang Jichen gave Song Yan a hard look, with a warning in his eyes, telling her not to go too far.

Song Yan didn't care, he smiled more gently, looked at Tang Jichen, but called Song Hui's name in his mouth.

Song Hui looked up, waiting for what Song Yan would say next.

"How many boyfriends have you had in these years?" Song Yan finally turned his head, and his gaze was fixed on Song Hui.

Such a question was a bit abrupt and too private, and Song Hui didn't know how to deal with it for a while.

"Did you steal another good friend's boyfriend?" Song Yan smiled, and the aggressiveness in the question was undoubtedly revealed.Just as Song Hui was about to say "no", she heard Mrs. Song put down the bowl and chopsticks in displeasure.

"Song Yan, if you are full, go home with Ji Chen first."

"Grandma, you will scare the child in my stomach by making such a sudden noise." Song Yan said dissatisfied.

"Then talk less and eat more."

Qin Rumo said dissatisfiedly to Mrs. Song: "Mom, don't be so harsh on Yanyan. One day, it would be great if you showed half of the kindness to Song Hui to us."

"Xiao Hui doesn't treat her as well as her parents do, and doesn't she say anything?" Mrs. Song said unceremoniously, "You have this time to complain about me, an old lady, so you should live your life well. Pingtong is not going tonight Come back."

Qin Rumo shut his mouth all of a sudden, and clenched his fists secretly.

"Is Dad socializing outside?" Song Yan asked.

Qin Rumo gave an "um" and continued to eat.

Song Yan didn't know that her parents' relationship had broken down, and she didn't care too much. Her current mind was only on dealing with Song Hui, and her future life would be exciting.

"I haven't had a good time with Song Hui yet, Ji Chen, you haven't seen my sister for a long time, right?"

"I'm full." Seeing that the war was about to escalate, Song Hui had no choice but to escape temporarily, ignoring everyone's eyes, left her seat, walked outside, and then ran eagerly.

Song Shi and Jiang Chaosheng shouted behind him, Song Hui couldn't bear it any longer, tears accidentally blurred his vision.

She knew that Song Yan would not forgive her easily.

All her provocations confirmed her own guess, this is Song Yan, the Song Yan who must take revenge.

The style of the night is cool, and the moist air hits the face, which is very comfortable.On the swing stand in the corner of the garden, Song Hui looked up at the star-studded sky, her heart gradually calmed down, but her tears were still flowing.

The floor lamp in the garden gave off a faint green light, and Jiang Chaosheng stood behind the light without any movement.Song Hui was frightened and yelled, almost falling off the swing.

"Sister Chaosheng, you scared me."

Jiang Chaosheng felt sorry, "What are you thinking?"

"I was thinking, why are you with my brother?"

Of course Jiang Chaosheng knew that Song Hui had changed the subject on purpose, but she didn't mind, "It's very simple, we are suitable for each other."

"It always takes extra luck to find people who are right for each other."

"Xiao An, you have to be positive and optimistic. Really, all the sorrows are left to time, and you will be healed by time. You, there will be a bright and splendid future, and grandma will fight for everything for you , she loves you so much, we all love you."

"Thank you for appearing in my brother and my life, thank you for becoming our family. Outsiders say that the blood of the Song family is cold, but your appearance makes me feel that my brother and I are not so heartless. Because we also love people, love someone so purely."

Song Hui admitted that Jiang Chaosheng's words brought her warmth and emotion regardless of whether they were true or not, especially the phrase "We all love you", how romantic and affectionate!
That night, she never had the chance to meet Tang Jichen alone, what a blessing it was!

But Song Hui couldn't ignore the pain and loss of that scarred heart.

It's not good for Tang Jichen and her to become like this.

At the age of 19, in midsummer, when she still didn't understand love, she thought that she and Tang Jichen were destined to be a good match.

But no matter how much they love, they can't be together.

After breaking up with Tang Jichen, at such a young age, she sadly thought that she was incapable of love.

(End of this chapter)