We are all the same in the pursuit of our dreams

Chapter 14 You Are the Warmest Light in My Life (2)
Unexpectedly, you replied to me within a few days: "I like your writing very much, and I want to make your book. I want to sign all three of your books."

I once thought that my dream of being a writer would be fulfilled if I could publish a book in my lifetime, but many publishing houses refused to give me the opportunity to publish a book.But now, at this very moment, this girl named Shen Wenting on QQ said that she would publish a book for me, and she would publish three books for me at once!Happiness came too suddenly!
I was flattered and unbelievable at the same time, and asked you almost instinctively: Why did you publish a book for me?You said: "Your novels are humorous, plain and moving, and the stories are close to life. They are different from the so-called youth literature that groans and plays flower guns without illness."

I stared at the words you wrote on the screen for a long time.You can't see my expression, you may not be able to imagine my excitement and excitement at that time.It's as if a ray of sunshine suddenly appeared in the sky full of dark clouds, because of you, my whole world is brightened.

I live very close to your unit, so we made an appointment to meet at the McDonald's next to your unit.

The first time I saw you, the lyrics sung by Teresa Teng came to my mind: "There is a beautiful woman on the side of the water." You are tall, with long hair reaching your waist, and you are slim, just like a classical song from a water town in the south of the Yangtze River. woman.At that time, I secretly sighed, this is a person who lives up to his name!

Not only are you beautiful and attractive, but you also have a gentle and pleasant voice. The corners of your mouth are raised when you talk, which makes me feel that you are kind and familiar.When we met for the first time, we were like old friends who had known each other for a long time.

Later, in the process of making my book, I can feel your intentions and your own love for words.Only those who love words will have that vigorous enthusiasm that can infect me at any time.

When exchanging the cover copy, you also tried to involve me in the content introduction and slogan. You said that the author knows his work best, so I can write a version for you to read.I sent you what I wrote, and you said to me: "Your copywriting is very good, you are a natural book editor."

do you know?Maybe you just said that unintentionally at the time, but the speaker has no intention of listening to the heart, and the dream deep in my heart was ignited by your words.At that time, I thought: Since I have the talent in this area, I also like reading and writing, and I know that it is not easy for writers to publish books. Why don't I become a book editor and help authors who have the ability to publish books realize their dreams?Just like you.You are helping me realize my dream, and I hope to help others realize their dreams too.

I have published nearly a million words of works in magazines before, and I have always set my job hunting direction as a magazine editor, but because of what you said, I decided to change my job hunting direction to book editing.

Some people say that every thought is a microcosm.A single thought inspired the small universe in my body about career dreams.

Having just graduated and lacking relevant work experience, I inevitably stumbled on the way to job hunting.Whenever I was rejected by the book company, you always comforted me: "What's the hurry, it's their loss if they don't want you, you will find a platform that is more suitable for you." Not only did you give me verbal comfort, you Also helped me polish my resume.You said that if I added my experience of writing cover copy for a book to my resume, HR would give extra points to my impression.

Later, I really succeeded in applying, and it was still a well-known book company in the industry.Although the position is not a book editor, it is just a small marketing assistant.But I am still full of joy: now that I have set foot in the publishing circle, I am one step closer to my dream of being a book editor.

During the marketing planning, I learned a lot, but the dream of book editing has always been calling me affectionately, so after working for nearly a year, I left to work as a book editor in another book company.That company produced a lot of youth literature books, perhaps because the company was understaffed at the time, the boss regarded me as a "universal post", and posted wherever it was needed. In addition to editing youth literature books, he also asked me to edit history books , emotional records, workplace notes.Not only did I edit many types of books, but the boss also temporarily transferred me to the marketing department for a while when the marketing department was short of people.

I didn't mind any of that, and even looking back now, I'm grateful for the opportunity to have these experiences that helped me grow.What I can't bear is the complex interpersonal relationship in the company, which is no longer just a book-making environment, which makes me feel tired.

I will tell you the confusion I encountered at work and ask you: What should I do?Stay or find another job?
You helped me make suggestions, you said, the book company you work for used to do biographies, but now the editorial director intends to open up a youth literature product line, and asked me if I was interested.I immediately expressed my strong interest. On the one hand, I am interested in making youth literature books, and on the other hand, I also want to prove that I can do well in youth literature books.

Although opening up a new product line is risky and challenging for me, I went for the interview anyway.Everything went well during the interview, and the editorial director Lao Ge said that I could join the job at any time.

do you know?When I came back from the interview, I was very happy, not only because I had a good chat with Lao Ge, but also because——you and I are about to become colleagues!We can work together every day, eat together every day, and talk together every day!
Together we thought of brand names for the youth literature product line, Shunvfang, Crystal Palace, Butterfly Season... We thought of many names, and finally decided on the brand name "Butterfly Season".

In fact, the name "Butterfly Season" was chosen by you. You said that youth literature is mainly based on romance novels. Romance novels are every girl's dream. We make romance novels to show girls colorful dreams and enjoy reality. The beauty outside of life. The word "butterfly" once had an allusion to Zhuang Zhou's dream of a butterfly, and Liu Ruoying, who you like, sang again: "In the season when we fell in love, butterflies danced in our dreams." A female reading brand that focuses on romance novels, and is committed to providing for everyone The brand that girls with dreams pass on their dreams is called Butterfly Season.

The Butterfly Season brand was born, which also means that I, the founder of the Butterfly Season brand, and you, the marketing director of the company, will start fighting side by side.

At that time, there were already several mature women's reading brands in the publishing circle. As a new book brand, it was not easy for us to stand out.It was really stressful at first. The first two books I planned were not big sellers, but the company did not lose money. When I was planning the third book, I planned to sign all the works of the author, but the boss felt that it was too much. adventure.At this time, you come forward and help me convince the boss, and list the advantages of this author compared with similar authors in the market.Under our two turns of verbal swords, the boss finally surrendered.

Facts have proved that we are very discerning, and the author's books have sold very well.

In this way, with the joint efforts of the two of us, Butterfly Season has become one of the most well-known and influential female reading brands in the industry in just one and a half years.

Thinking about it now, while we are fulfilling the dreams of authors and readers, aren’t we also fulfilling our own dreams?Realize the dream of a book publisher, realize the dream of creating dreams for others, and realize the dream of a girlhood.

We conceived Butterfly Season like a child, and we both felt more like entrepreneurs to each other, giving our all to this brand.

We are best friends and colleagues who get along well, and we broke the curse of "good friends can't be colleagues".

We are not only good partners at work and companions on the road of writing, but also confidants in life.

We share everything about each other's lives except we don't share boyfriends.

We introduced each other's good friends to each other: because of you, I met your blue-faced confidant Baiyin Gree; because of me, you met my good girlfriend Ye Xuan.

I introduced the writer Lao Mao to you, and you two became good buddies because you both like cats and writing.Please allow me to make a joke, if you were single at the time, if you didn't have a little D, maybe you might become boyfriend and girlfriend with Lao Mao, right?
I don't meet Little D many times, but you mentioned him a lot in front of me.

After you and Little D fell in love for two years, you received a marriage certificate on the Qixi Festival of a certain year.After receiving the certificate, Xiao D said to you very tiredly: "I have to call you wife from now on?" You jumped away immediately, "I'm allergic to the word 'old', just call me little wife. In any dynasty in China The wife endures the most hardships, and the younger wife is the most popular, so I am not stupid."

That night, while little D was taking a bath and changing clothes, you were busy on the phone with your mother, sister-in-law, and little niece.While you were taking a shower and changing clothes, Xiao D tidied up the bed coquettishly, but pretended to be casual and leaned against the head of the bed to watch TV.Seeing you coming out of the bathroom, he said casually, "Come on, watch TV with me for a while."

You know his little tricks very well, but you pretended not to notice and walked over, adjusted the height of his arms and adjusted them, and found the most comfortable position to lie down...

The next day, when you opened your eyes, Little D had already woken up, and said to you in a friendly manner: "Good morning, wife."

You also greeted very gently: "What happened last night?"

Little D put away his smile and got up angrily, "I'm ashamed to ask, but I fell asleep like a pig before 2 minutes! It's immoral!"

You told me about your wedding night in the bridal chamber vividly, and I laughed so hard.

Just like ordinary couples, there are small frictions between you and little D, but more of it is happiness.

Once, your little D was on a business trip, and when he arrived at the destination, he sent you a longing text message, writing nearly a hundred words in an eloquent manner.You couldn't hold back your excitement, and you replied passionately: Baby, you spelled a word wrong, right?From then on, Little D insisted on calling you without fear of wasting money.

Once, Xiao D said that you have the potential to be sold and count the money. His reason is that you are easy to trust people. The proof is: you and him only met once at a party, and then you dated alone.

You retort him: "But are you a bad person? I shouldn't trust you?"

Little D was not moved at all, "So I said your life is good."

You retorted again: "This is my judgment, do you know?"

Little D was very disdainful, "Just your eyes?"

You quarreled over it.The final result is that he was driven to the north room by you to reflect.When you finish watching an episode of a Korean drama, you think of Little D and find that he has fallen asleep on the small bed.You wake him up, and he pretends to be drunk, "Ah, can you go home now?" In fact, you already know all his little tricks, but you can always be amused by him, and the smoke of gunpowder dissipates.

When he woke up the next day, little D said: "What a nice person I am, I have never been angry with you." You didn't appreciate it, "It can only be said that I am a good person and never quarrel with others."

You really seldom have trouble with people, at least, you and I have never quarreled.

You said, because you don't have such memories, all they leave you is happiness.

You also said that you hope that you don't care about giving, and you will be much happier if you only care about the gains.

This fully shows that you are a kind-hearted person, you have a pair of eyes that are good at discovering beauty, and you are good at filtering unhappiness and depositing happiness.

It is said that there is a Buddha in the heart, and what you see is the Buddha.The world in your heart is beautiful and tender, and the world you see is beautiful and tender.

At that time, several of our friends regarded you as a close sister, because you would listen attentively to our unhappiness and help us share our worries.

After you get married, a single woman around you asks you to introduce a boyfriend, and you ask her what she needs.She said, people are nice, at least they have a house and a car.

You originally wanted to sincerely help others to secure fiber and pull coal, but this "having a house and a car" stumped you.

When you married Little D, he had no house or car.

You said: "If I have to marry a house, it must not be a garden or a courtyard. It should be a person's heart, a house that exists only to love you."

You said: "I can't say that people who want to marry a big house are wrong. After all, in the eyes of Chinese people, a house means home and stability. But if you only want to marry a big house, I will definitely not agree. The most important thing in marriage is not material things, but feelings. Without strong feelings, no matter how big a house is, it can’t withstand the wind and rain. Living in a house built by others is certainly considered comfortable, but it is definitely not as happy as building it yourself .”

I deeply agree with your point of view, because I also have the same idea. Later, I wrote a book called "The Marriage Room", which also expressed similar ideas.

Later, you and Xiao D worked together to pay the down payment to buy a house. While you were burdened with the mortgage, you also tried your best to lend me 4 yuan to help me buy a house.

I remember seeing a sentence like this before: If you want to lose a friend, please borrow money from him.The implication is that friendship is not so strong when tested by money.

In that sense, our relationship is impenetrable.

When I put forward the plan to buy a house, you not only offered to lend me money, but also helped me find ways to borrow money from those around me.

It can be said that without your generous help at that time, BOB and I would not have our own wedding room so soon.

Our relationship is so pure and beautiful, even when we took a group photo, you said: "If you analyze it according to the laws of husband and wife, we must be sisters soon." You are right, although we are not sisters, we are better than sisters. sisters.

I thought we could walk together for a lifetime, but I didn't expect you to accompany me for only one journey.

At the beginning of 2008, you wrote an article on your blog called "Daze is a Blessing", in which you wrote: "Since the New Year, I have never taken a vacation when others are at work, and I have never taken a walk when others are on vacation. Not walking through blocks aimlessly, watching a movie in its entirety, or even finishing a favorite book. I'm always running out of time, and sleep or not is a decision I struggle with every day. The work can never come to an end, and the writing can never end... Every day, I am surrounded by unfamiliar and familiar numbers and faces, and I feel that I am not me.

"In the near future, and it may be for a long time, my biggest wish will be-to stay in a daze for a while. If I can also watch a movie alone like an old cat, or just stay like a spark and pass the day time, then I will suspect that I am stepping into heaven."

At that time, it was not long before the Butterfly Season was founded.You not only work hard, but also write hard, especially after buying a house and becoming a house slave.In addition, you are not good at rejecting others. In addition to writing manuscripts for your friends' magazines, you also received a manuscript from a publishing house on the analysis of "The Book of Songs".Your physical condition was not very good since you were a child, and you were overloading your body in those two years.

Maybe it's because you are under too much pressure in all aspects, and you don't tell others when you are always suffering, and always keep a smiling expression. In the spring of 2009, you suddenly fell ill, suffering from a strange disease that no hospital could explain the cause of, and then you were suspected of suffering from depression, and then you left me forever in a decisive way, leaving people who love you.

I am extremely reluctant to mention this episode. Every time I mention it, it is like taking a knife to pierce my heart, and the pain is bloody.

When I heard the news of your departure, I couldn't believe it. My mind fell into an unprecedented blank moment, my heart seemed to fall into an abyss, and tears burst out of my eyes.

Whenever I think about you not being around, you can no longer smile at me, no longer encourage me, I feel as if the end of the world is coming.

Your departure, for me, is not only the loss of a friend, a work partner, but also a relative, a confidant who understands me.

The night before your farewell ceremony, I couldn't sleep the whole night.Before that I had hypnotized myself, numbed myself, told myself over and over that you hadn't really left.

However, when the parting finally came, when the eternal farewell finally began, I had to bow to the cruel reality.

It's a bit chilly in Beijing in the early morning, I held a bouquet of white daisies to see you.

(End of this chapter)