We are all the same in the pursuit of our dreams

Chapter 16 You Are the Warmest Light in My Life (4)
One day I asked Xinbao: "How about I be Xinyu's mother?" Xinyu is a classmate of Xinbao Kindergarten.

Xin Bao replied without hesitation: "Not good."

I thought to myself, could it arouse her jealousy?So he asked her, "Why?"

Unexpectedly, she replied solemnly: "Xinbao came out of mother's stomach, and Xiaoyu came out of father's stomach."

I was speechless.Usually, her heartfelt words are picked up by her father, so she probably took it for granted.

One day Xinbao called her aunt, "Auntie, are you busy?"

My aunt said, "Not busy."

Xin Bao said: "I'm quite busy. I have to take a bath later, drink milk after the bath, and then smelt after drinking the milk, then brush my teeth, wash my face, and tell stories..."

Uh, you're busy enough.

One day I was looking for a book in the bedroom and couldn't find it anywhere, so I couldn't help but ask, "Where did "Baby" go?"

As a result, Xin Bao overheard her, poked her head out of her room, and said with a smile, "This way!" After speaking, she added, "Baby is over here."

I thought to myself, what I was looking for was the book called "Baby", this baby is not that baby!

But she praised herself calmly: "Xin Bao is amazing!"

It is said that a daughter is my mother’s little padded jacket. When I first got married, I had a dream—I hoped to have a daughter in the future. I would comb her curly hair, wear a pink dress, and dress her up like a princess.Every night we take a shower together, read picture books together after the shower, and then fall asleep.On weekends, we go for outings in the countryside, or travel to neighboring cities.

Later, I got my wish and got Xinbao.

On a snowy night, even though there is heating in the room, sitting in front of the computer and working still feels like my legs are cold.As long as Xinbao is picked up and placed on his lap, his whole body will be warmed up, even his cold feet will be warmed up.It was also at this time that I finally realized what a mother's little padded jacket is.

Not only is she warm, but as she grows up, she becomes more and more considerate.

After getting married, BOB stopped giving me presents on Valentine's Day. The reason is that Valentine's Day is for lovers. He is already a legitimate wife and should celebrate "Wife's Day".Even though Wife's Day doesn't exist at all.This year's Valentine's Day, BOB will still act as if this day does not exist.

When I took a shower with Xinbao on Valentine’s Day night, I said to her: “Today is Valentine’s Day, and Valentine’s Day is a holiday that the prince celebrates for the princess. The hyacinth that Tata’s father gave to Tata’s mother in advance is about to bloom; Dad gave Dongdong’s mom a bottle of perfume; Bangbang’s dad gave Bangbang’s mom a ring. But Xinbao’s dad didn’t give me any gifts, he only had a computer in his eyes.”

After hearing this, Xinbao immediately said, "Mom, let me give you a present."

My heart melted instantly.

"What did you give me?" I asked her.

She replied: "I will draw you a picture with me, father and mother on it. I will pick a flower for you from outside, I will build you a cake with building blocks, and I will pretend to be a prince and give you a crown."

Hearing her blinking her big eyes and saying these things to me very seriously, tears welled up in my eyes.

Unexpectedly, the touch of Valentine's Day does not come from his lover BOB, but from "little rival" Xin Bao.

If a daughter is a man's lover in his previous life, then she is my little love rival.

In 2014, when the company just started, I devoted more time to work. Working overtime on weekdays and traveling on weekends are commonplace, so I spent relatively less time with Xinbao.

BOB spends more time with her than I do, and gradually establishes her father's position in her heart.Sometimes she would clamor for her father to sleep with her.Sometimes she insisted on her father hugging her because "mother's stomach hurts when hugging her".She would often ask BOB: "Dad, are you happy?" She had to answer "Happy" before giving up, and then said with a smile on her face, "Dad, I am only happy when you are happy."

Whenever this time, I will feel envious.Why does she care so much about Dad and not about my feelings?

At the same time, I will reflect on myself: I spend more time with her after work.After all, a child grows only once, and I don't want to miss her growth.

I adjusted the pace of work and slowed down the pace of life.Although sometimes I still have to travel on weekends, although I still write at my desk at night, and communicate with the author day and night, I still spend as much time as possible with her.

Every morning, I would send her to the kindergarten and listen to her say on the back of the bicycle seat: "Come on, Mom! Ride faster, Dad can ride faster than you." I said "Safety first" to her, but I couldn't help myself Pedal faster than before.When I arrived at the gate of the kindergarten, I carried her down, and then she walked inside with her schoolbag on her back.Sometimes she would look back at me, her eyes meeting mine in the air.Watching her small figure disappear through the door, I felt a slight sense of loss in my heart.

Every night after dinner and a short rest, I would take her to the bathroom to take a shower.After the shower I would wrap her in a big towel and she would let me bend over to dry the beads of water off my back.Then we put on our pajamas and went to her room. She chose a picture book story. I told her the complicated ones, and we read the simple ones together.Most of the time, one storybook is not enough for her, and she usually needs to tell two or three stories before she gives up.After she fell asleep, I got up and went to write in front of the computer.

Every weekday, I would choose one day to pick her up from the kindergarten, holding her little hand along the way, and the sunset cast shadows of us, one big and one small, on the ground.Sometimes I would bring her a box of yogurt, and she would drink the yogurt squatting in front of the pink flowers outside the kindergarten, her round face flushed by the setting sun.Looking at this picture, I just think of "the years are quiet and the world is stable".

Every weekend, except for business trips and bad weather, BOB and I will take her to the park to get in touch with nature.On windy days, we would take our kites with us, and as long as our kites flew into the blue sky, she would applaud and cheer from the sidelines: "Our fish are so easy to detect (look)! Our fish are so easy to detect (look)!  … "I was stunned for a moment, and then I understood: Yes, our kite is just a big fish!Look at her posture, she looks like a cheerleader.

I have always been known as a workaholic, rarely tidy up the house, and have never been ingenious, but I tried to decorate her children's room.Just because of the words my friend Tata’s mother said: “Children should have their own room from the age of three, so that children have a sense of belonging and don’t wander around at home.” Usually when it comes to packaging design for books, I am clear and logical, but I was at a loss as to how to furnish Xinbao's children's room.

I wanted to ask Tata's mother for help, but felt that it was more meaningful to decorate Xinbao's children's room by myself, so I bit the bullet and went into battle.According to Xinbao's preference for pink and Kitty cats, I set the children's room as a "Kitty cat themed room".Because of the busy work, I can only be busy at every turn.It took three months from purchasing the materials to finishing the layout.

Xin Bao was happy to participate in the decoration process, and now she no longer calls her room "grandma's room", but "my princess room".Seeing her like it so much gives me a sense of accomplishment.As Tata's mother said: Love is the best design, just arrange it according to the children's preferences.

The more time I spent with Xinbao, the more peaceful I became.She slowed down the pace of my life, allowing me to stop the hasty pace and feel the beauty of the subtleties of life.

She likes to chat with small animals. When she sees a bird on a tree, she will say, "Little bird, come down and play with Xinbao."

When she saw a puppy strolling by the side of the road, she would say, "Puppy, come and play." Then when she was leaving, she would say, "Puppy, goodbye."

She would stop when she saw the kitten, and said happily: "Kitten!" But the kitten didn't appreciate it, and slipped into a school near the community.Xin Bao chased after him and talked to the kitten through the fence: "Little cat, are you going to kindergarten?"

In addition to the little classmates in the kindergarten, these small animals seem to be her friends.

Aren't these the subtle beauty in life?Small animals wandering around the neighborhood, the setting sun slanting in the evening, flowers blooming on the branches in spring, green shades in summer, colorful fallen leaves in autumn, and snowflakes falling in winter, these beauties have always existed, but I was always busy on the road before. , ignoring these good things.

Being with Xinbao is like returning to childhood and growing up again, using the pure heart of a child to feel the joy brought by plants, trees, flowers and birds.

It should be said that she allowed me to find myself and my original face of abandoning my work identity.

Sometimes, seeing such a little person jumping from one room to another at home, BOB and I can’t help feeling: “We were just the two of us when we moved into this house. My child, it feels amazing!"

From conceiving life to accompanying her to grow gradually, how amazing the whole process is!
Xin Bao, how lucky you are to come to us. Although after you came, the time that belongs to me and the time that belongs to me and your father have decreased, but the joy and happiness have increased accordingly.

I once sang this sentence to you: "My world has one more you from now on. Sometimes it is sunny and sometimes rainy, and when it is cloudy, I will tell you that I love you more than the beauty of the rainbow."

You said it sounds good, let me sing it a few more times.After I sang it three times, I said to you: "Xinbao, my world has one more you from now on."

But you said to me: "Mom, you are my whole world."

In an instant, warmth welled up in my heart.

I am both touched and sad by this.Because I know that you will grow up gradually, and one day, you will have a brand new world, that world is colorful, and I am just a part of your world.

Sometimes, I wish you would grow up faster so we could go shopping together.Sometimes, I hope you can grow up a little slower, so that I can spend more time with you.

No one can stop the pace of time, baby, but you must know that no matter how far the road of time is, mother is watching you at the source of all those loves.

There, there are your childish words in childhood, smiling and crying, and the touch of gentle hands and feet... There is a place called "home".

The most beautiful scenery is inner peace
There is a kind of girl who is very comfortable when you get along with her, there is no pressure, and you don’t need to hide your true self. In the hot summer, she is the refreshing cool breeze, and in the cold winter, she is the warm and bright sun.In my opinion, Xiaoxi is such a girl.

I met Xiaoxi because of a novel called "Meeting You the Most Beautiful".

At that time, I was in the bottleneck period of my career, and my mood was relatively low.One day when I was chatting with a friend and talked about the difficulty of finding good authors and good articles, she said to me: "Gu Xijue's "The Most Beautiful Met You" is well written, you can read it."

I once aspired to be the best Bole in the publishing industry, and once I met a good author with a good work, I would be hungry for it.On the same day, I bought "The Most Beautiful Meeting You" from Dangdang.com, but I couldn't put it down as soon as I opened the first page.The heroine Li Anning can be called the queen of cold scenes, and her cold humor made me smile from time to time.Her classmates Mao Mao, Qiangwei, and Chaoyang each have their own characteristics, which reminded me of my youth and the interesting stories between me and my roommates.

"The Most Beautiful Meeting You" not only portrays the characters well, but also describes the love so heart-poundingly.

Secret love is the most beautiful love in the world, and what is even better than secret love is that the person you have a crush on happens to be in love with you too.Xu Moting is handsome, has a decent job, and comes from a diplomatic family. He is outstanding in all aspects. The most exciting thing is: he is very dedicated to feelings. He has had a crush on Li Anning since high school and has been waiting for her for many years.

From "The Most Beautiful Meeting You", I fell in love with Xiaoxi's works, and it was out of control.She is good at describing the most beautiful feelings in the world, including love, friendship and family affection.She is an observer of life, and some small details in life that we ignore become very vivid under her pen.

Since I am fascinated by her works, it is logical to want to know her.We met on Weibo, maybe because we are both Scorpios, Xiaoxi and I have a special affinity, we have never met, but we met each other very late.

The first time I saw Xiaoxi's photos, I seemed to see Shen Jiayi in "The Girl We Chased Together in Those Years", fresh and elegant, not as ostentatiously beautiful as a rose, but blooming with her own unique fragrance like a lily.I stared at her photo for a long time. Her appearance reminded me of those beautiful heroines in her writing, and she felt like a human being.I started to encourage her to put photos in the book, I said that her temperament matched the book very well, and readers also hope to have the opportunity to communicate with the author. After seeing the author's photos, readers will feel more cordial...Let me say it In the end, Xiaoxi, who said she would not expose the photos, was persuaded by me.I personally think that it was not my eloquence that moved her, but my sincerity, not as a planner, but as a reader.

During the National Day holiday in 2013, before returning to Beijing, I took my husband and daughter from my hometown of Jiangsu to Hangzhou, just to meet Xiaoxi.

On that day, Xiaoxi wore long hair parted in the middle, a simple black T-shirt, and blue jeans with holes in the knees. It didn't seem like she was seeing a partner, but rather a girlfriend.I looked her up and down, and said with a smile, "You are a bit different from the picture!"

She smiled a little shyly, "It doesn't look as good as it looks in the photo, does it?"

I shook my head, "I mean the clothes are different. In the photo, you are wearing a small fresh dress. You are dressed more casually today."

She still smiled, "My mother still said to me today, you go to see Yajuan, who you talk about every day, just dressed like a beggar entering the city?"

"It's better to meet friends casually. I don't mind if you come here with a bed sheet on." I said as I glanced at the hole in the knee part of her jeans, and thought of Xiaoxi's mother's expression, I found it very interesting.

Although it was the first time they met Xiaoxi, there was no sense of alienation at all. Even her daughter Xinbao, who had always been a baby, seemed to see her own aunt, and kept calling "Aunt Xiaoxi, Aunt Xiaoxi".

The city of Hangzhou in early autumn has just been washed by the rain, the air is fresh and pleasant, and the nose is full of the sweet smell of sweet-scented osmanthus.Sitting in a coffee shop by the West Lake, Xiaoxi and I chatted about creation, life, life, and dreams.

Many readers said that Xu Weiyu and Gu Qingxi in "It's Full of My Love for You" are the most matching names of characters in Xiaoxi's works.Xiaoxi said that the name comes from the first two sentences of Su Dongpo's "Sixteen Pleasures in Life": "Rowing a boat on a clear stream in shallow water, talking at night through a bamboo window in the light rain." These two sentences are quite artistic and fit the theme of "Man Man". character.And the last line of this poem, "Playing the piano and listening to one's bosom friend" is very suitable to describe the relationship between me and Xiaoxi.Although we have just met and haven't known each other for a long time, we are each other's bosom friends.

Later, I accompanied Xiaoxi to many signings, and I have a deep understanding of this sentence.Xiaoxi said that as long as I am by my side every time I sign a sale, I will feel at ease.Xiaoxi is a quiet and introverted girl who likes to stay at home and is not willing to come out to sign sales. It took me a lot of effort to persuade her to come out to sign sales for the first time.Later, whenever the distribution director put forward the signing plan, although I also needed to persuade me gently, it was not as difficult as the first time.

During an event at Hunan University, a reader asked Xiaoxi: "Xiaoxi, how did the editor persuade you to come out and sign the book?"

Xiao Xi said: "I really don't like to go out. I was very shy from childhood, but when I signed the book for the first time, some readers came from far away, and later I learned that a girl missed the train when she returned home after signing the book. Waiting at the station for one night made me uncomfortable for a long time. Then I thought, I would rather go out and go to the city where you are, so that you don’t have to travel a long way.” I clearly remember Xiaoxi’s voice when she said this I was a little choked up, and the audience was moved. The host, me, and the readers in the audience were all deeply moved by Xiaoxi.

(End of this chapter)