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Chapter 39

I took a taxi home, took out my mobile phone in the car, and found that I didn't know when it had automatically shut down because it was out of power.I had no choice but to sit in the taxi and close my eyes to rest.After a while, the car arrived at my door. After I got out of the car, I saw that my house was pitch black. When I walked to the door, I found that the door was locked. My father, my mother, and Mengyang didn't know where they had gone.I had no choice but to find a phone number and call Mengyang.But Mengyang's phone was turned off.I had no choice but to call my mother again. After the call was connected, my mother scolded me on the phone.She told me a piece of news that shocked me: Mengyang's mother suffered a heart attack in Hong Kong and went to the hospital, and her life and death are unknown.My father and mother had just sent Mengyang to the plane to Hong Kong, and they were on their way home from the airport.My mother asked me who I was with? !Mengyang cried and called me, wanting me to fly back to Hong Kong with her, but Mengyang cried even harder after the call.After she finished crying, she decided to fly back alone.And my mother called me again, but my phone was turned off.Putting down the phone, I walked out of the phone numbly, and walked blindly on the snow-covered streets.Facing the dark sky, I shouted a few times with all my strength, and then squatted on the side of the road feeling pain like a needle in my heart.I can fully imagine the pain and pain in Mengyang's heart when he knew that his mother was admitted to the hospital, and called me with tears in his eyes, wanting me to appear by her side as soon as possible, but when he heard Shi Lei's voice on the phone despair.This time, I really broke her heart, and I couldn't forgive myself.I really want to fly to Hong Kong and face the pain with Mengyang.But I don't know where to find her in Hong Kong.I call her every day, but her phone is always off.I know what my mother means to Mengyang who lived in a single family since childhood, the more I think about it, the more I feel distressed.This new year is spent slowly under such a huge sense of guilt.The excitement brought by those firecrackers and friends can't comfort me, and I can't bear my sadness in a festive reunion atmosphere.I stayed at home until the fifth day and then returned to Beijing.My mother knew that I was uncomfortable, so she didn't stop me.

Back in Beijing, Shi Jingshan's home was empty.I was lying on the bed alone, tears streaming down my face without knowing when.I never thought that I would cause such great harm to Mengyang, and after the injury, I didn't even have the chance to stand in front of her and say sorry in time, and I could only fall into a deep self-blame.This kind of self-blame inevitably spread to another person, that is Shi Lei.I suddenly felt that Shi Lei and I were really over this time, maybe we couldn't even be friends anymore, and Shi Lei didn't know all this yet.I stayed alone at Shijingshan's house and didn't want to go out.I bought a lot of instant noodles and made a bag for myself when I was hungry.I stayed the rest of the time.I stay with what Mengyang left here.Mengyang's clothes, Mengyang's books, and Mengyang's pillows.One day, I found a diary from Mengyang's book, which was written by Mengyang.Turning it over, my tears flowed out again uncontrollably.It actually recorded everything that happened between Mengyang and me, from the time she recognized me in the theater as the one who ran with her around the playground wearing a donkey head, to when we camped on the wild Great Wall. Yang gave me eleven chances to confess my love, but I didn't take it seriously, until she sneaked back to the Wild Great Wall again and said Bao Beining I love you to the DV in the dark night, until the two of us stood together On the stage of the theater, I played the role of ruffian Cai and kissed Qingwu Feiyang played by her for the first time, until we finally fell in love, until she finally gave me her first time, and every day after we lived together How did you spend it.On the last night before we went back to Northeast, Mengyang wrote these few words, she said: "Bao Beining is finally going to take me back to his house to meet his parents, I am very excited, but also a little nervous. What if his mom and dad don't like me? This is a serious question. I hope to marry Bao Beining, he is the first boy I fell in love with. He makes me feel that my life is starting to make sense I told my mother about my relationship with him, and my mother also wanted to meet him. I hope my mother likes him, and I need her blessing." After reading Mengyang's diary, I feel even more uncomfortable.But I can't do anything, the only thing I can do is to stay here and wait for Mengyang to come back and wait for her punishment.

Beijing, like all cities in China, is immersed in the joy of the New Year.Every morning I was woken up by the sound of loud firecrackers.After waking up, I waited patiently all day long, but Mengyang never came back.Later, it was the fifteenth day, and I was eating instant noodles and sitting on the sofa watching the Lantern Festival Gala.Halfway through, I heard the sound of a key being put into the lock and turned behind me.I stood up and turned to stare at the door.The door opened, and I saw Zhou Yi with his luggage.He didn't expect me to come back so early, and he was very happy to see me.And I was a little disappointed, but that passed quickly.Zhou Yi said that he hadn't eaten dinner yet, and asked me to go down with him to eat some more.I had no choice but to go down with him.The two of us sat down in a nearby restaurant, and Zhou Yi wanted to drink.I said you drink it yourself, I told him that I quit drinking, and I will never drink again.He expressed a little regret, but he didn't force me.While drinking, Zhou Yi's mood also fluctuated, and he also became sad.I asked him if he was missing a squirrel.He smiled wryly and said, I don't know why, but I miss her especially tonight.I really want to tell him that the squirrel doesn't love you anymore, she loves beer and has lived with beer.I thought and thought, but still didn't say anything.Later, I helped Zhou Yi go home after drinking too much.He stood in the middle of the road and pointed to the bright moon in the sky and said with a smile, I know the squirrel is there, and one day I will take a spaceship to find her.It's so cold up there, you said this girl won't come down.I called her, but she couldn't hear me.What do you say?As he spoke, Zhou Yi began to cry.I hugged the sad Zhouyi like hugging myself.My sobriety made me envious of the sadness expressed by Zhou Yi.

Zhou Yi started to work again, and I could only see him every night.But Mengyang never came back.I buy vegetables every day, cook, and act as Zhouyi's nanny.Many days passed like this, and one day I received a call from Mengyang.she asked where i was.I said it was at Shijingshan's home.She said she would come to pick up things later, and hung up the phone after she finished speaking.Mengyang's voice on the phone was so calm that it made me feel uneasy.I sat in the room and waited for her. Half an hour later, Mengyang came.After she entered the house, she began to pack her things. I asked her if she needed me to help her, and she said no.After she finished packing, she sat on the bed, and she beckoned me to sit on the chair beside the bed.I said sorry to her calmly and she accepted my apology calmly.Then she broke up with me calmly, and I accepted her breakup calmly.Afterwards, Mengyang and I fell silent, she sat on the bed for a while, then she stood up, let out a long breath, she smiled and said to me, then I'm leaving?

I also stood up, and I suddenly asked her, how is your mother?

She laughed and said, passed away.

Hearing these three words, I couldn't control it anymore, and shed tears of guilt in front of Mengyang, and I said sorry to her again.She walked up to me and wiped my tears with her hands. I was even more sad and cried even harder.Mengyang also cried, and she hugged me.We cried for a long time, and when we stopped crying, Mengyang took her luggage and left.I wanted to send her off, but she refused.I had to be alone in the house, I was lying on the bed, I was sitting on the sofa, I was sitting on the chair, I was standing in the kitchen.At the moment when it was dark, the room became completely dark, and I finally realized that Mengyang had officially broken up with me, and she would never come back to this room again.For a long time, I was under the illusion that Mengyang and I hadn't broken up yet.Sometimes when I got up from the bed and didn't see Mengyang, I thought, she must have gone to class.Sometimes, when I didn't see Mengyang, I would automatically pick up the phone and call her, but that number could no longer be reached, and she changed her mobile phone number at some point.

I don't think I can stay like this anymore, I need to find something to do.I called my friend who runs a book company and said that I don't want to write novels for the time being, and I want to work as an editor in the company.My friend said no problem, I can go to work anytime.After putting down the phone, I went to work.The company is far away from where I live, and I have to take a car for nearly two hours to arrive at the company every day, and then take another two hours to come back after get off work.I am in a realistic busyness, which makes me gradually get rid of the pain of breaking up with Mengyang.One day, I missed Mengyang very much, so I secretly went to the National People's Congress by car alone.On the campus of Renmin University of China, I walked around. I knew that theaters and classrooms were the most likely places to meet Mengyang, but I didn't go into these two places.I wandered around the National People's Congress until dark. Although I didn't meet Mengyang, my mood improved a lot.When I think about Mengyang again, I can only go to the National People's Congress again.I go to the National People's Congress almost every week, but I have never met Mengyang.

(End of this chapter)