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Chapter 40

Later, I felt that this could not go on like this, I needed a new life, so I rationally resigned from my job as an editor, and decided to leave Beijing and return to Guangzhou.In Guangzhou, I worked for an avant-garde car magazine called "Parkour", and I was still an editor.I shared a house with a colleague of the company in the family building of the Public Security Bureau about 15 minutes away from the company.Go to work at nine in the morning and leave at five in the evening.When I'm at work, I work hard.After get off work, my colleagues and I went to play football in a nearby football field.I couldn't sleep at night, so I went out to drink porridge at three o'clock in the morning. When I saw the food stall full of people, I felt very warm.My colleague has a girlfriend who works in Shenzhen. Every weekend, my colleague will go to Shenzhen by car.And I stayed at home, wasting time by watching TV and cleaning.Occasionally, I would come to the edge of the Pearl River to enjoy the breeze and smoke a local cigarette in Guangzhou.In the bottom of my heart, I sometimes think of Mengyang, but it is not so painful anymore.My heart is like still water, and I can no longer arouse any interest in feelings.One day I suddenly received a call from Shi Lei. She excitedly said that she was shooting a location in the Sahara Desert, which was beautiful.I vaguely remembered that I had told Shi Lei that I would take her to the Sahara.But that's all in the past.Whether it's me and Shi Lei, or me and Mengyang.She asked me how I was doing in Beijing.I said that I have started a new life in Guangzhou.She said she was free to come and see me.I told her clearly that I never wanted to see her again, and that I hoped to forget each other in Jianghu, as Zhuangzi said.Shi Lei asked me why.I said because I don't love you anymore.Putting down the phone, I felt an unprecedented relief.From then on, Shi Lei never called me again for a long time.I was alone in Guangzhou, I almost cut off all contact with my former friends, and slowly I really started a new life.

Spring is over and summer is here.Summer is over, and it's autumn again.One day at noon, I was eating in the company's meeting room when I suddenly received a call from an unfamiliar number. I answered it and it was Shi Lei.She calmly said that she was robbed as soon as she left the Guangzhou Railway Station, and now she is penniless, waiting for me to pick her up.After I put down the phone, I had to ask for leave and went downstairs to take a taxi to the train station.I am not very surprised by Shi Lei's sudden arrival.Shi Lei is a girl, I won't be surprised by what she does.I knew she would come sooner or later.The entanglement between me and her cannot be completely resolved by telephone.Under the huge clock at the Guangzhou Railway Station, I saw Shi Lei, she was no different from the Shi Lei who drank too much with me in the bone restaurant half a year ago, she was still so beautiful.I led her back to the rental house.She said she wanted to take a bath, so I turned on the water for her.After taking a bath, she said it was hot, so I turned on the air conditioner for her.She said she was hungry, so I took her to eat.Shi Lei didn't complain too much about being robbed, and she also saw my indifference to her mechanical obedience.She happily told me that the filming has been finished and has entered the post-production stage. After it is completed, she plans to let her friends take it to Japan and France to participate in the exhibition. One day, Shi Lei said mysteriously that she would tell me a secret, which surprised me.And I am no longer interested in the secrets or surprises she said.Making movies is just her ideal, but I just like watching movies, and I don't care about who made the movie.I asked her why she came to Guangzhou.She said to come and see me.I said I don't want to see you.She smiled and said but I want to see you.I know that since Shi Lei is here, if she doesn't want to leave, no matter what words I use to stimulate her, she won't leave.I had to pretend she didn't exist.The change when she came was that I gave her the bed and I lived on the sofa.I should go to work.As for Shi Lei, she stayed at home and watched TV every day. I gave her a little money, and she would eat something by herself at noon when she was hungry. When I came back at night, she would go out to eat with me.A colleague asked me who she was, and I said it was my sister.Shi Lei smiled and said, I am his own sister.

Shi Lei and I are secretly comparing our endurance, whoever can't bear it first will lose.All signs indicated that Shi Lei was very happy, as soon as I got off work, she would smile at me.She also told me that she learned Cantonese from TV every day and lived a fulfilling life.I don't know when she's going to go and all I can do is keep ignoring her.One night, she woke me naked on the sofa and asked me to go back to the room with her to sleep. If I didn't go, she would pull my arm.I finally got angry, and I yelled at her, Shi Lei, what the hell are you trying to do!I'm not your college boyfriend Bao Beining anymore!We have graduated from college!You dumped me!It's not that I dumped you!My new girlfriend also broke up because of your relationship!Her mother is dead!I wasn't there for her when she needed me the most!I'm drinking with you!I don't love you anymore!I beg you!Can you let me go!Shi Lei stood in front of me, she was obviously frightened.It was the first time I'd gotten mad at her in the six years I'd known her.She was scared to cry by me.She cried and said, Bao Beining, I'm sorry.I said, you don't have to say sorry to me, I beg you don't ruin my life anymore, I'm really tired, I'm not a crazy person, I can't play with you anymore, and I can't play anymore up.I was sitting on the sofa, and Shi Lei was crying in front of me.The darkness in the living room slowly fades with the waking hours.Shi Lei cried endlessly. Seeing her sad appearance, I had no choice but to comfort her and say sorry to her. I shouted a little loudly, which scared her.I persuaded her to go back to the house, let her lie on the bed, and covered her with a quilt.She is still crying.I had to sit on the edge of the bed and smoke while listening to her cry.In my impression, Shi Lei cried very few times, she is not a girl who loves to cry.Among the limited number of times she cried, she had never cried for such a long time.If the degree of sadness is calculated by the length of crying, she should be very sad this time.She was almost crying.I had to lie down next to her and let her cry in my arms.She was crying so hard that she couldn't speak out tremblingly until she said sorry many times.I have to say that I don't blame her, it's just that I'm really tired and can no longer play the game of love with her.I hope to be a very good friend with her.Friends are rice, and they will never be annoying for a lifetime.Shi Lei accepted my opinion while crying, she said that she would not bother me anymore and would be pure friends with me.I was relieved to hear her say that.She gradually stopped crying, and then I fell asleep with my arms around her.

After dawn, I woke up from the bed and found that Shi Lei had already put on his clothes and sat down beside the bed at some point.She told me she was leaving.I said, I'll see you off.She said thank you.She was very polite to me suddenly, as if she was a different person, and I was a little uncomfortable.After I got up, I called back to the company to ask for a day off. I led her to buy a ticket, and sat with her in the waiting room of the train station waiting for the train. Shi Lei sat next to me quietly like a lady. A kind of tranquility that has never appeared in her body.I told her that I would treat her to dinner when I got home during the Chinese New Year.She said quietly, yes.If it was before, she would be very happy when she heard me say that.And now, she won't.I saw her quietly walking towards the ticket gate with the crowd, she turned her head quietly, and waved to me quietly.I suddenly felt a little self-blame in my heart, it was not what I wanted to see Shi Lei become so quiet.I put my hand to my ear and made a phone call to her from a distance. She nodded at me quietly and disappeared into the crowd.

(End of this chapter)