A romance novel written only for you

Chapter 63

Mengyang stayed in the hospital for three days, and she shed tears every day.And I was like a child who did something wrong, silently by her side.Three days later, Mengyang was discharged from the hospital.She and I went back home.My mother yelled at me, but unfortunately I couldn't hear it.I wish I could hear it, it might make me feel better.Mengyang became taciturn.She stayed at home every day with a confused expression on her face.After another three days like this, Mengyang packed his luggage and said he was going to leave.My mom and dad stopped her, but I didn't.Before she left, she smiled at me again, gave me a hug, handed me a letter, and left without looking back.

I turned around and went back to the house, and opened the letter, which was filled with Mengyang's heartfelt words:
Bao Beining, when I write this letter to you, I feel very sad.Because I just made an important decision, that is, I want to leave you.Decisions like this have come up in the course of our relationship, and more than once, but none of them made me feel sad this time.When I came across the news that you were going back to Beijing for book signing in the newspaper a few months ago, I didn't sleep well for several nights.I struggled for a long time, and finally decided to buy a book on the spot and wait in line for you to sign it for me.This idea appeared in my heart when we first met, and I told you about it.At that time, you hadn’t written a single word in your novel, and you were just a person doing nothing for free publicity for other people’s books, but ever since you told me that you were going to write your own novel, I firmly believed that you could succeed.There is no reason for this belief, maybe just because I am in love with you.

On the playground of the National People's Congress that day, I met a very funny man. He wore a big donkey head and waved to me through the barbed wire. I couldn't help laughing when I saw him like that.But I didn't stop, I continued to run forward.When I ran over again, I saw the man with the donkey's head standing beside the track, and he was still waving to me.I laughed again, but I still didn't stop, I continued to run forward, and the man followed me and ran behind.Many people saw this scene and smiled sincerely.I didn't slow down because of him. He followed me hard and ran a full lap.At that time, I really wanted to see what the man with the donkey head looked like, but he waved to me after running around and walked away silently.I was surprised that he didn't come over to strike up a conversation with me.And there was a trace of regret in my heart, I thought I would never know who that person was.

The next afternoon, I was rehearsing with my classmates in the theater. I saw you, a stranger, sitting on the seat, lighting a cigarette, and I asked you to pinch it out.After you pinched it off, you walked to the side of the stage and asked if I was still recruiting?I said recruit, but there is an exam.You jumped onto the stage and let me cooperate with you.You said let me jog around the stage twice, I don't know what you want to do.But I feel that you should not play me, so I started jogging on the silent stage.When I ran the first lap, you just smiled and waved to me.When I ran the second lap, you smiled and waved to me again, and ran with me.After running, you pointed to your head, put one hand on your stomach, waved to me with the other, and jumped off the stage.I lowered my head and thought for a while, and suddenly thought of the scene on the sports field of the National People's Congress yesterday. You and I replicated the process on the stage, but this time you didn't wear a donkey's head.After I knew that person was you, I fell in love with you inexplicably.Bao Beining, I think our love is very romantic. I told my friends about the process of our acquaintance, and they were all envious.

Two years later, when I saw you again, you were already a writer.And I ask myself, still love you.But I can't let you succeed too easily, so I tell you, I'm getting married.I'm glad to see you depressed.I asked about your life in the past two years in detail, and it turned out that you were not with Shi Lei.In the days that followed, I was very happy.Especially when I see your frowning face, I just want to laugh.I dragged you around, you thought I was going to marry someone else, but only I knew that I would only marry you and not anyone else.You were thrilled when I told you the answer.I feel you are touched by me again.You lead me home and work on our wedding every day.I'm so excited every day, sometimes so excited that I can't sleep.When I thought that I was going to marry Bao Beining, I was very happy.The night before the wedding, you said you wanted to see me very much, but in fact, why didn't I want to see you.But your mother said, we can't meet.I have to listen to your mother, because she is my future mother-in-law.I want to have a good relationship with her, huh, huh.That night I also thought of my mother, and when I thought of her, I cried, and I said to my mother in my heart, Mom, I am getting married soon, please bless me.Your daughter is very happy, she is about to marry the one she loves.She was about to have her own home.I also thought of my father, and I said to him in my heart, Dad, you abandoned my mother. I hated you very much before, but now I don’t hate you anymore.I'm getting married soon, and I want your blessing too.Your daughter will be with the one she loves forever and never be separated.After thinking about my parents, I wiped away my tears and fell asleep contentedly.

The next day we held hands and came to church.Just before the pastor was about to witness our marriage, your cell phone rang suddenly.You picked up the phone with a smile, but after you picked it up, your face became ugly and your body trembled slightly.I don't know what happened.After hanging up the phone, you tremblingly held my shoulder and said, you have something to do and you have to leave, we will get married another day.Before I could react, you ran out of the church without looking back.I was left alone with an awkward wedding.I cried, cried very sadly.I don't know of anything more important than our marriage.Later I found out that Shi Lei had passed away.This incident hit you hard, and you couldn't hear anything because of the sudden sadness.I suddenly feel that you love her very much, that is a love that I don't know how deep.I don't have time to be jealous, your haggard appearance makes me feel bad.You said let me go.But Bao Beining, why would I leave you?No matter how angry you are with me, I will never leave you.I know, you don't want to drag me down.But you don't know that there is no burden if you love someone.No matter what you become, I will never leave you because I love you.I know that for a long time, maybe you will be very sad, I want to be with you all the time, until one day, you can finally let go of Shi Lei and accept the past calmly, then we will live an ideal life.I firmly believed in that day, especially after I found out I was pregnant.Just the thought of being a mom when I'm pregnant with someone I love makes me so emotional.

But every day you still walk into that room, I feel a little jealous, but more curious.I don't know what happened between you and Shi Lei, so that you can't hear anything after she passed away.So one day, when you were not at home, I sneaked into that room.I sat alone in the dark and watched that movie, and after watching it, I cried, crying like a mess.I think Shi Lei loves you more than I do.She fell in love with you without ever seeing you in person.Her craziness and romance make me sigh.She smiles on the screen and makes a gesture of "love you for 1 years" to you. I am deeply moved by her. I can completely feel the deep love contained in that gesture. I unconsciously write down made that gesture.

After I was pregnant, you walked with me every day.That's the happiest time of my day.I think that time is completely belong to the two of us.Just like when you walk into that room, it belongs to you and Shi Lei completely.Every day we walk, we will see the sunset.But none of them were as beautiful as I saw that day.In such a situation, I really want to say to you, I love you.But I immediately thought, you can't hear me.So I stopped, turned around and walked back for a while. On the road not far from you, against the light of the setting sun, I made the gesture of "love you for 1 years" to you. In my heart, I didn't think too much.But you suddenly rushed over and asked if I had entered that room.I suddenly realized that I was wrong.Your appearance at that time was very scary, which made me feel that the only person you really loved was Shi Lei, and you didn't love me.Otherwise, why did you grab my shoulder so hard? It hurts, but it hurts my heart even more.I ran back crying and I felt like I couldn't stop.I ran very hard, and I didn't expect that I would suddenly fall down, let alone that my child would be lost because of the fall.

Bao Beining, do you know?I've always wanted to have a child of yours.Especially after I broke up with you that winter.For two full years, I felt very lonely.At that time, I thought, how nice it would be if I had one of your children.Then I can transfer all my love for you to my child.Seeing a child is like seeing you.And he won't break my heart like you did.He just brings me warmth.But my child is gone, and I can't face the fact.I thought about it for a long time, and I don't think I can stay here any longer.As long as I stay here, I'll be in the pain of losing my child.Just like as long as you walk into that room, you will never forget Shi Lei.For my unauthorized entry into that room, I really want to say to your face, I'm sorry.But when my child was gone, you said sorry to me so many times, I realized how weak three words sorry are, and it will not bring real comfort to people.Then I won't tell you.Bao Beining, when I am about to leave you, I still love you very much.But I have to leave you.I'm going back to Beijing.I might change my job, I might change my phone, but I'll live in our new house forever.If one day, you can really face the past calmly and keep Shi Lei in your heart, instead of having to go into that room every day to relieve your longing for her, then come to Beijing to find me.I'm waiting for you.

always love you Mengyang

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