A romance novel written only for you

Chapter 64

After Mengyang left, I went to see Shi Lei in the cemetery alone with the rose.I smiled and said to her, Shi Lei, Mengyang and I lost our child, and I am also very sad.But I know that Mengyang is more sad than me.She said that if one day I can face the past calmly and keep you in my heart, then I can go to Beijing to find her.Shi Lei, in fact, I can face the past now, but I still can't go to Beijing to find her.My ears went to another world with you, I don't want to be by her side.She should find a healthy boyfriend, and I'll stay with you.I put the rose in front of Shi Lei's cemetery, then turned and walked towards a white house not far away.When I passed there just now, I saw they were recruiting personnel to guard the tomb.I feel like this job is a good fit for me, but at the end of the day, it's just a job.It's just that most people don't want to do this job.Most likely the reason they don't want to do it is that they get scared at night and mistakenly think they're hearing some scary noises, whereas I don't have that problem because I'm deaf.I explained the reasons why I am suitable for this job, and they thought it made sense, so they kept me.

My daily job is very simple, that is, to clean the cemetery with a broom.Because the cemetery is located in the suburbs, you need to stay here at night.On the first night, I lay on a white and strange bed, and I didn't feel any terror in my heart.I think it has a lot to do with my being deaf.People have always been easily influenced by senses, such as hearing or seeing.When I was very young, our family lived in the countryside, and the rustling of corn leaves was a big part of my childhood shadow.I remember when I was in the second grade of elementary school, my two good friends Xu Yanqiu and Li Jingwei went to another village to chat with a girl named Zhang Hong.It was dark when we returned from that village.Those were two villages not too far apart, and the only country road connecting the two villages was planted with corn on both sides.We three boys walked back in the dark holding hands and singing loudly.Suddenly there was a gust of wind, and the sound of blurred corn leaves rushed, as if something was rushing towards us from the depths of the dark cornfield.We were very scared, so we let go of our hands and ran as fast as we could.Later, we couldn't run anymore, and we were all lying on the ground tired.The place where Xu Yanqiu was lying was not far from me, and he was crying on the ground.His cries made the atmosphere in the darkness even more terrifying. I crawled towards him little by little, and climbed onto him. The weight I put on him made him feel at ease, and his crying became softer. .I greeted Li Jingwei, who was lying a little far away from the two of us, and he also crawled over to press me, and I felt a lot more at ease.After a while, Li Jingwei said to me in a trembling voice, can you get up and let me lie under you for a while?The top is too dick-horrifying.On this night when I first fell asleep by the cemetery, I remembered the horror experience when I was a child, and even laughed, and fell asleep soon and sweetly because of it.

From then on I started my leisurely work.Every morning when I get up, I will pick a few wild flowers and place them in front of Shi Lei's tomb.Then I went back to the house and changed into blue work clothes to sweep the floor.Tired of sweeping, I will go back to the house to rest for a while.When the sun is shining in the afternoon, I will bring a book of jokes to Shi Lei's grave and tell her jokes.Shi Lei used to love to listen to jokes, especially in his sophomore year, when telling dirty jokes to each other was prevalent in the university.Regardless of men and women, when they meet, they will ask the other party to tell them a dirty joke, and those who can't tell it will feel very humiliated.At that time, Shi Lei called me in front of her and said, starting today, you must tell me a dirty joke every day until I don't want to listen to it.If you can't speak, then you don't eat.I said, no problem.At that time, I knew a lot of dirty jokes and told Shi Lei one every day.When Shi Lei heard this, he couldn't help laughing.Later, she felt that it was not enough, so she asked me to tell her two lectures every day, one in the morning and one in the afternoon.After a month like this, I felt that I had nothing to say.I faced the penalty of not being able to eat.Later, I asked a friend in Taiwan to buy me a collection of pornographic jokes, which contained more than 1000 jokes.Now I found that book again, I think Shi Lei should be happy in heaven, but it is possible that angels are not good at telling dirty jokes.And she might want to hear it again, so let me tell her.Every day when the sun was shining, I would stand in front of Shi Lei's grave and tell her a dirty joke with great emotion.Sometimes when someone is offering flowers to the cemetery next to Shi Lei, they stand there silently with a solemn expression on their faces, I don’t care about them and tell dirty jokes to Shi Lei like no one else, they will surprise me gaze.After I finished speaking, if they were still looking at me like that, I would smile and tell them that my girlfriend loved to listen to pornographic jokes before she was alive, so everyone laughed.There will be awkward smiles on their faces.

Every day, many people come to the cemetery to lay flowers for their relatives who have gone to heaven.Besides telling dirty jokes to Shi Lei every day, I would also sit quietly smoking a cigarette in front of her grave and talk to her about the new novel I was about to write.When I was in college, I loved writing novels.But what Shi Lei hated most at that time was my writing novels.Because as soon as I write a novel, I will forget to eat, forget to sleep, forget to wash my face, forget to go to class, and even forget Shi Lei.Shi Lei called me and asked what I was doing.I even asked her, who are you?She was very angry and refused to let me eat.But I was not hungry at all, and I kept writing.In the end she had to beg me to finish writing this and stop writing.She said she was jealous of novels.And I can only write secretly, without telling her.As soon as she saw me out of my mind, she knew I was writing a novel again, and she would be violent towards me.I turned around and ran, ran back to the dormitory and wrote the novel again.So at that time, Shi Lei almost turned pale when talking about novels.She was never interested in my novels.She doesn't like reading books either.But once she said that she wanted to understand me, so she asked me to lend her a few books, and I lent her a copy of Wang Xiaobo's "Golden Age" and a copy of Wang Shuo's self-selected works.After reading it, she returned the book to me.She said the only thing she didn't understand was me who wrote novels.And I finally had the opportunity to talk to her calmly about my novel without fear of being threatened by her violence.I said to Shi Lei, in fact, I have always wanted you to know about me who wrote novels...

It is in such a special place that my new novel begins.I would write a paragraph every day, but I would never be so forgetful again.I always get up from my chair after I finish writing a paragraph, then run out the door to Shi Lei’s grave, and say to her with a smile, Shi Lei, I just wrote a very cool plot, I’m very excited, I have to tell you, after hearing this plot, you will definitely be overwhelmed by me... Every time I say something to Shi Lei, she won't respond to me.Maybe there was an answer, but I couldn't hear it.In short, as long as I talk to her, I will feel very happy.

(End of this chapter)